It was
over in an instant.
Let me
begin with an excuse. I tried to save him. My cla.s.smate was before my eyes,
descending into depravity, and I tried to enlighten him and set him back on the
right path.
But
Masato Yahara tried to kill me. I didn't understand why. I extended the helping
hand that he so desperately sought, but not only did he brush it away, he tried
to consume to sate his hunger. I had no idea that such a person could even
exist.
It was
over in an instant. I was versed in self-defence, so in an instant I reversed
the hand he was holding his knife in. Although I didn't mean for it to, the
blade struck his heart fatally.
The
scent of rusted iron, which already pervaded that abandoned factory, grew even
stronger. With a look of anguish on his face, Masato Yahara collapsed.
It was
the worst outcome imaginable.
—Why
did this happen?
—Such a
thing shouldn't happen, should it?
—What
will become of me now?
I
blocked off my sight.
I
rejected the world.
I
refused to accept reality.
White.
White.
White.
People
only hear what they want to hear. And every solution they come up with is
opportunistic.
I
simply decided to surrender myself to a world of opportunistic.
I would
simply forget all the inconvenient truths.
3, 2, 1
—— And lo, they're gone.
Now
then, why did I stab Masato Yahara to death?
It
wouldn't do for it to have simply been a coincidence. It had to have been
necessary, it had to have been just. I never made a mistake. I wasn't in the
wrong — which meant that Masato Yahara must have been. Masato Yahara's death
was necessary; killing him had been just.
It had
to be that way.
That's
right… I had called Masato Yahara a monster, hadn't I? That's right, that's
right! Just as he had tried to kill me, he was a monster who could only affirm
himself through killing others. If I hadn't killed him, innocent lives would
have been lost!
Was
there any problem with me killing a man like that? Of course not. It was an
unavoidable measure, like shooting a bear before it can eat people. Somebody
had to do it.
The
events before my eyes were moving in slow motion. In this closed world, the
concept of time was ambiguous, and all that thought could be accomplished in a
moment.
Now
then, time for the reception.
What I
accepted into my field of view was a world that was amiable to me.
I
looked down upon Masato Yahara.
"Now you can get out of here, hm… On that
point alone, we are of the same opinion."
He gazed at me with eyes full of hate.
"Your life has no value... or rather, you're
like a vermin that deserves to die."
Indeed. That was my reason for killing Masato
Yahara.
That would do fine.
But I probably realized it even then.
Such a world could be popped
more easily than a soap bubble.