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63 If Only

Sheen felt Clark's hand moving away and that's all he can say.

He felt sorry because he has to make her answer such a question.

She found an emerald wedding ring inside the envelope, the same color with Clark's eyes.

Bea looks at Dan, "What is in the letter?"

"Well, it's like this. I told him to write what he wants Sheen to be in his life. Like, 'Will you be my girlfriend?' but I was shocked when I read what he wrote."

"What?" Bea suddenly felt like she's going to die in curiosity.

"Will you marry me?" Sheen reads out loud the letter in her hands.

She didn't turn around but with tears in her eyes due to the excitement, she unconsciously reads it aloud making Clark look at her.

He immediately felt hopeless when Sheen went silent for a long time that he felt that she might be feeling uncomfortable which is the last thing that he wants to make her feel.

Dan already told him that it's a hard question.

But he already wrote it and he just had the feeling like it's the same question with asking her to be his girlfriend since a girlfriend will turn out as a wife someday and that is what he wants Sheen to be.

"I'm sorry. Just forget about this day, let's pretend that this didn't happen. It's very unprofessional and immature. I am very sorry, let's go home."

Clark is about to go and sit on the front seat when Sheen pulled his coat.

"What?" Sheen asks.

She just froze for a while and now Clark's backing out.

"What is this? Are you just going to leave me hanging here?"

She doesn't know why she felt irritated that he's going away now.

And that he asked in a very weird manner.

"Is this how you propose?"

She doesn't know exactly what she's saying.

She's just happy and excited and scared at the same time.

Her heart won't stop the thrill that it sends through her veins that makes her smile like an idiot while her eyes are being slowly flooded by her tears.

She's happy because of a reason she can't pinpoint.

She's excited because something happened and there's more that will probably follow next.

And she's afraid.

She is afraid that it makes her lips tremble and her headache.

What if he's joking?

What if she's being played?

What if it's a prank?

What if this is just a dream?

But what if it's not and he's serious?

What if she messed up?

What if she says no?

What if she says yes?

What if she accepts and then he suddenly backs out?

What if she says no and he will hate her?

Clark looks back at her with a frown.

He can't understand what she means.

He thought she felt uncomfortable.

That he put her in a tight spot, even hugging her without permission.

Sheen looks at him, "What if I say yes?"

It is ridiculous to think that she's answering such question with a what if.

But she wants to be sure.

Is it a joke?

Clark even had a more confused look and shakes his head, "What if you say yes?" he repeats to check if he heard right.

What does she mean by that?

Is she okay with what he did?

"Yes."

She said with all the courage she has.

She's not sure what's going on.

But there's only one word she wants to answer the question on the letter and that is yes.

She suddenly felt her heart started to pound louder and fierce.

Her breath suddenly felt thin.

She held tighter to Clark's coat as her eyes start to blur.

"Come on, Boss. You're not stupid!" Bea clenches her fist as they both pa.s.s by the parking lot.

Dan's arm is wrapped around by Bea's waist, "She just said yes and he's confused, this is the stupidest proposal I've ever seen."

They both laugh and went away since it's already late and the night get colder but Clark's scream made them turn around.

"Help!" Clark screamed.

Dan and Bea ran to him.

And his face, full of terror and worry, looks at them and whispers, "Help."

Bea looks at Sheen who's in Clark's arms.

She's half awake with her hand in her head.

"She's fine. It's just a panic attack, she just needs to rest. This is so funny," Bea laughs as she fans Sheen, "Hey, do you want water?" she took her water bottle from her bag and gave it to Sheen.

Dan bends his knees and looks at Clark's panicked look, "Chill. It's not uncommon for her to feel a panic attack, Clark. And she said yes, don't worry. If you really want to be with her, you have to deal with this."

"Yeah, don't worry. She doesn't usually feel attacks but when she does, she faints. Wyn had seen her faint before," Bea pats Clark's shoulder.

"It's my fault," Clark whispers.

"Oh dude, I didn't think you would say that cliche phrase. It's not your fault. It's her adrenaline's fault, right, Sheen?" Dan looks worriedly at Sheen.

"Yeah, I was just over-thinking things, but it's not your fault, Clark," Sheen drinks the water Bea gave her.

After feeling the tightness of breath, her legs grew weak that she fell on her knees as she feels coldness run through her body and Clark immediately held her.

"What were you over-thinking?" Bea asks and wipes Sheen's cold sweat.

"If Clark's serious or not," Sheen slowly stands up with the help of Clark and Bea.

"What? You should've just asked him. You should not torture your mind with questions that you can ask," Dan brush off the dirt on Sheen's jacket.

"Well, you should answer that now, Boss," Bea puts wiggles her eyebrows at Clark.

Clark sighs as his grip on Sheen's arms tightens, "Why would I not be serious? When was the time I am not serious?"

Sheen still feel uncomfortable but she smiles, "Then you heard my answer, right?"

If only her skin's not pale from feeling faint, she might be bursting red right now.

Clark looks at her in awe as his cheeks turn cheery in color.

Dan laughs, "Were you shock with the question, Sheen? I was when I read it."

"Honestly... no, I mean. I don't know, I was not that surprised but sure I was shocked. But it didn't sound weird, maybe because I'm too old to be a girlfriend? I don't know," Sheen laughs faintly.

Clark softly let her go and took the ring from her hands and bends his right knee in front of Sheen.

Sheen's eyes grew wide as well as Dan and Bea.

But the moment Bea understood what's happening, she immediately took her phone and took a picture.

Dan smiles at the scene in front of him.

Sheen put her hand close to her chest as her cheeks turn red slowly.

Clark took a deep breath while looking at the ground.

And slowly, he looks up to his childhood friend.

The light post behind her makes her look like the angel she is.

Her smile, so soft and kind, slowly widens.

His emerald eyes s.h.i.+mmer beautifully.

Bea turns on the video and started capturing the majestic proposal of their boss.

The other staff of the company sees what is happening and silently watches from the building and on their way.

"Sierra Haley Eureka Ellaine Neomi, I, Clark Zeid White, will do everything to make you smile every day. I promise... oh G.o.d, no, I won't promise that every day of our life will be happy. I don't want to throw such heavy word and end up breaking it. But I won't do anything that will hurt you. I will cherish you. I will show you that you are loved, that you are important, that there is someone who sees you. I will be the shoulder you can lean on, the ear that will listen, the arms that will comfort, the voice that will ease your pain," Clark says in a loving voice as Sheen listens with her tears flowing in her rosy cheeks.

Bea smiles as her tears flow as well.

She's been dying to hear someone say those words to her dearest cousin.

It's what Sheen exactly needs to hear.

The exact person she needs to be with.

Dan nods as he feels proud for Clark.

"Sheen, I know I haven't shown my feelings just yet to get your heart. But I am serious with this, so please consider," Clark chuckles as he finally realizes that what he is doing is a very advanced move.

Sheen laughs as well as she wipes her tears from her cheeks.

"I will wholeheartedly accept if you back out after a while, but for now..." Clark's heart started pounding as he gulps, "Will you marry me?"

Sheen can't help but smile widely as her head nods, "Yes!"

Bea shrieks while Dan claps his hand.

Clark stands up and put the ring on Sheen's ring finger.

His eyes are watery that it almost looks like a jade stone to Sheen that s.h.i.+nes.

He's about to hug Sheen but suddenly, he felt something soft touch his lips.

Bea shrieked even more and shakes Dan vigorously.

Sheen's been imagining too much with what should have happened between her and Clark that she can't let this opportunity pa.s.s by and make her suffer even more.

The moment Clark's about to hug her, she tiptoed and held his cheeks and kisses him.

She closed her eyes to avoid seeing his expression and to just enjoy the moment.

His lips sent her flying to the moon.

Clark held her closed and kissed her back, more pa.s.sionately than what she planned.

Bea went 'aww' and takes a picture.

She saw Mr. Rogers walking from the company and he excitedly ran to him to show him the proposal video.

Clark lets Sheen go first since if none of them stops first, they probably freeze to death while kissing, not a bad death to think about.

"I love you," Sheen said and rest her head on his chest.

It's true.

She loves him.

It's not known to her before but now that she thought of it, she loves him.

That's why she wants to be part of his family.

That's why she's worried about him.

That's why he just makes her feel comfortable and happy.

She can feel his heart beating fast but it just calms her with his warmth.

Clark was attacked by the words he never heard before from anyone aside from Cj.

It feels weird that it makes him so happy, " I love you more," he replied.

The other three just watches as they feel s.h.i.+vers.

"Let's go home, the others are going home too," Dan said as he watches their office mates go away too from watching the proposal.

Tomorrow will be a trouble for Sheen and Clark.

But with Clark, it's nothing as long as Sheen won't back away.

The woman in his arms is the most important woman in his life and whoever hurts her, will probably end up in prison or wish they are dead.