Slonko could not touch him. Alexander would pass a man like Slonko on the street and not acknowledge him. That's how far the proletariat had come. A man like Slonko, a Party pig all his life, had no power over a man like Alexander, his prey for seven years.

That was so right in Alexander's world, yet obviously so wrong in Slonko's.

Alexander waited. After a few moments, he said, "Why don't you leave, comrade, and come back when you've got something more. Bring me before the generals. Or bring me my release order."

"Major, you will never be free again," said Slonko. "I have recommended that you will never be free."

"When I die I will be."

"I will not allow your death. Your mother has died. Your father has died. I want you to live the life they planned for you, the life they brought you here for. They both thought so much of you, Alexander Barrington. They both told me so. Do you think you have fulfilled their dreams?"

"I don't know about them, but I have fulfilled my own mother and father's dreams, yes. They were simple farmers. I have gone far in the Red Army. They would be proud of me."

"What about your wife's hopes, Major? Do you think you have fulfilled your wife's?"

"Comrade, I have already told you-do not speak to me about my wife."

"No? She was quite willing to talk about you. When she wasn't-ahem-otherwise-"

"Comrade!" Alexander stepped toward Slonko. "That will be the last time," he said. "There will be no more."

"I will not leave."

"You will leave. You are dismissed. Come back when you've got something."

"Oh, I'm not leaving, Major," said Slonko. "The more you want me to, the more I want to stay."

"I don't doubt it. You will leave, though." Not a flicker moved through Alexander, who stood as if he were a statue. He was barely breathing.

"Major! I'm not the one arrested. I'm not the one whose wife has been arrested. I'm not the American."

"As to the last, I'm not either."

"You are, you are, Major. Your own wife told me so when she finished sucking my cock."

Alexander's hand slammed into Slonko's throat. Slonko didn't even have time to breathe in his surprise. His head snapped back against the concrete wall, eyes bulging, mouth open. With his free hand, Alexander plunged a syringe filled with ten grains of morphine through Slonko's sternum, straight into the right chamber of his heart. He pressed his palm against the thumb plate and snapped Slonko's jaws shut. Slonko could not emit a single sound even if he wanted to.

In English, Alexander said, "I'm surprised at you. Didn't you know who you were dealing with?" Gritting his teeth, he squeezed Slonko's neck, and saw the eyes first cloud, then glaze over. He whispered, "This is for my mother...and my father...and for Tatiana."

Convulsing, Slonko was sinking to the ground. Alexander held him up with one hand on his throat, as Slonko's neck muscles stretched and relaxed, as his pupils dilated, and when Slonko stopped blinking, Alexander let go of his neck. The chief investigator dropped to the floor like a heap of stones. Alexander pulled out the empty syringe from Slonko's chest, threw it down the drainpipe, came up to the door and yelled, "Guard! Guard! Something is wrong with Comrade Slonko!"

The guard ran in, looked around the room, looked at Slonko limp on the floor and said in a confused voice, "What happened?"

"I don't know," Alexander said calmly. "I'm not a doctor. But maybe you should get one. The comrade may have had a heart attack."

The guard didn't know whether to run, to stay, to leave Alexander, to take him along. He didn't know whether to lock the door or to leave it open. The confusion was so apparent on his frightened and pale face that Alexander, smiling kindly, said, "Leave him here, and take me with you. Don't bother locking the cell. He is not going anywhere."

The guard took Alexander and they both ran up the stairs, through the school, outside, and to the commandant's building. "I don't even know who I should speak to," the guard said helplessly.

"Let's go and talk to Colonel Stepanov. He'll know what to do."

To say that Stepanov was surprised to see Alexander would have been an understatement. The guard by this time was in such a panic he was not able to speak. He mumbled something about Slonko and no noise and just doing his job, just standing right by the door, hearing nothing. Stepanov asked him several times to calm down, but the guard was unable to follow simple orders. Finally, Stepanov had to offer the boy a drink of vodka, and turned to Alexander with a perplexed face.

"Sir," said Alexander, "Comrade Slonko collapsed while he was in my cell. The guard was obviously away for a few moments"-Alexander paused-"perhaps attending to some private business. He is afraid it will seem that he was derelict in his duty. Yet, I know firsthand he is a diligent and dedicated guard. There was nothing he could have done for the comrade."

"Oh, my God, Alexander," said Stepanov, getting up and quickly getting dressed. "Are you telling me Slonko is dead?"

"Sir, I don't know. I'm not a doctor. I would recommend finding one, though. Probably soon."

They procured a medic who came to the cell, shuddered once, and without even listening for Slonko's pulse pronounced the man dead. The cell had a filthy stench it had not had before. Everyone held their breath as they filed out.

"Oh, Alexander," said Stepanov.

"Yes, sir," said Alexander, "I seem to have bad fucking luck."

No one had any idea what to do with Slonko. He had come to Alexander's cell at two in the morning. Everyone else was soundly asleep. There was nowhere to put Alexander, who offered to sleep in Stepanov's anteroom with the guard by his side. Stepanov agreed. "Thank you, sir," said Alexander, lying down on the floor and putting his head down. Stepanov glanced at the trembling guard in the corner, and then back at Alexander. "What the hell is going on, Major?" he whispered, crouching by him.

"You tell me, Colonel," said Alexander. "What did Slonko want with me? He kept telling me they've brought Tatiana back from Helsinki, that she's confessed. What was he talking about?"

"They're beside themselves," Stepanov said. "They tried to find her, but she is nowhere. People don't just disappear in the Soviet Union-"

"Actually, sir-"

"Not without a trace."

"Actually, sir-"

"Alexander, stop being impossible."

"Yes, sir."

"I'm telling you that once the Grechesky hospital told the NKGB-"

"The what?

"Oh, they haven't informed you? NKVD is gone. Now it's the NKGB. The People's Kommitet on Government Security. Same agency, different name. First name change since 1934." Stepanov shrugged. "Anyway. Once the NKGB was informed that Sayers and Metanova had not made it to the Leningrad hospital, they got very suspicious. They have a turned-over truck, they have four dead Soviet troops and a handful of Finnish ones, no first aid kit in the truck, and in fact, the Red Cross symbol had been torn out of the cabin's canvas. No one can explain it. There is no trace of either the doctor or his nurse. Yet six border stations along the way say they checked through a doctor and his nurse returning to Helsinki with a wounded Finnish pilot in a prisoner exchange. They cannot remember the nurse's name, but they swear it was American. Well, we have the wounded Finnish pilot. He is neither Finnish, nor a pilot, and wounded is a euphemism for what he is. He is your friend Dimitri and he is ripped full of holes. That's the situation on the ground. He's dead, and the doctor and the nurse have vanished into thin air. So Mitterand called the Helsinki Red Cross hospital and found a doctor who doesn't speak any Russian. It took the bumbling idiots"-Stepanov was barely whispering at this point-"it took them a whole day to find someone to talk to the doctor in English." Stepanov smiled. "I was going to suggest you."

Alexander stayed impassive.

"Anyway, they finally got someone from Volkhov to speak to the doctor in English. From what I can understand, Matthew Sayers has died."

"So that much was true." Alexander sighed. "They all have such a way of mixing their lies with just enough truth that you go mad trying to uncover what's real and what isn't."

"Yes, Sayers died in Helsinki. Blood poisoning from his wounds. As for the nurse with him, the doctor said that she had gone and he hadn't seen her for two days. He assumed she was no longer in Finland."

Alexander stared at Stepanov with sadness and relief. For a sick moment he actually felt regret that they hadn't brought Tatiana back; he thought maybe he could lay his eyes on her one last time. But finally something real bobbed to the surface. "Thank you, sir," Alexander whispered.

Stepanov patted Alexander on the back. "Sleep now. You need your strength. Are you hungry? I have some smoked sausage and some bread."

"Leave it for me, but right now I sleep."

Stepanov disappeared into his quarters and Alexander, the heaviness from his soul having lifted like morning fog, thought before he fell asleep that indeed Tania had listened to his every word and did not remain in Helsinki. She must have gone on to Stockholm. Perhaps she was in Stockholm now. He also thought that Sayers must have done right by her to the end, because had he broken and told Tatiana the truth about Alexander's "death," then Tatiana would have already been back in the Soviet Union right in the clutches of the man who-Oh, Tatiana, my- But that was all he had.

At least fucking Dimitri was dead.

Fitfully, he slept.

The Bridge over the Volga, 1936 Alexander was asked who he was at seventeen, at the Kresty prison after he was arrested. They were indifferent about it then-they knew. They asked, they went away-for days at a time-they came back, and then they said, "Are you Alexander Barrington?"

"I am, yes," said Alexander, because then he did not have another answer and he thought the truth would protect him.

And then they read him his sentence. There was no courtroom for Alexander in those days, no tribunal presided over by generals. There was an empty windowless concrete cell with bars for doors and a toilet bucket on the concrete floor and no privacy, and there was a naked bulb up high. They made him stand as they read to him from a piece of paper in sonorous voices. There were two men, and as if Alexander didn't understand the first one, the second one took the paper and read it to him again.

Alexander heard his name, loud and clear, "Alexander Barrington," and he heard the sentence, louder and clearer: "Ten years in forced labor camp in Vladivostok for anti-Soviet agitation in Moscow in 1935 and for efforts to undermine Soviet authority and the Soviet state by calling into scurrilous and spurious question the economics lessons of the Father and Teacher." He heard ten years; he thought he had misheard. It was a good thing they read it to him again. He almost said, where is my father, he will solve this, he will tell me what to do.

But he didn't say that. He knew that whatever befell him, befell his mother and father as it had befallen the seventy-eight people who had once lived at the hotel with them in Moscow, the piano group Alexander sometimes went to, the group of communists he and his father belonged to, his friend Slavan, the old Tamara.

They asked him if he understood the charges against him; did he understand the punishment meted out to him?

He didn't understand. He nodded anyway.

He was busy trying to envision the life he was meant to live. The life his father had wanted him to live. He wanted to ask his father if spending his youth fulfilling two of Stalin's Five Year Plans for the industrialization of Soviet Russia-part of the fixed capital that Alexander understood so well because he knew precisely what was not working in the socialist state-was what Harold had wanted for Alexander. But his father wasn't around to ask.

Was Alexander's destiny to mine for gold in the tundra of Siberia because the utopian state couldn't afford to pay him?

"Do you have any questions?"

"Where is my mother?" asked Alexander. "I want to say goodbye to her."

The guards laughed. "Your mother? How the fuck should we know where your mother is? You're leaving tomorrow morning. See if you can find her by then."

Laughing, they left. Standing, Alexander remained.

And the next day he was put on a train to Vladivostok. The scarred, knotted man next to him said, "We're lucky they're taking us to Vladivostok. I just came back from Perm-35. Now that is hell on earth."

"Oh, where is that?"

"Near the city of Molotov. Have you heard of it? Near the Ural Mountains on the Kama River. It's not as far as Vladivostok, but it's much worse. No one who goes there survives."

"You survived."

"Because I served only two years, and they let me out. I exceeded my production quota for five quarters in a row. They were pleased with my capitalist productivity. They thought the proletariat in me had worked hard enough for the common man."

Once Alexander placed Vladivostok on a map of the Soviet Union, he knew that, though he had no money and no home, he had to escape if he were to have any chance of living. The city was in the bowels of the world, and if there was a Hades on earth, then to him Vladivostok seemed it. To travel by cattle train through the Ural Mountains, through the west Siberian plain, through the central Siberian plateau, past all of Mongolia, and around all of China to rot in an industrial cement city on a thin strip of land on the shores of the Sea of Japan. Alexander was sure there was no return from the catacomb that was Vladivostok.

For a thousand kilometers Alexander looked out of the small porthole in the train, or out of the doors the guards sometimes left open to give the prisoners some air. He saw his chance when they were coming up to cross the River Volga. I will jump, he thought. The Volga was far down below, the wobbly rail bridge high over a precipice, maybe thirty meters high, a hundred feet by American standards. Alexander didn't know much about the Volga; was it rocky? Was it deep? Was it fast? But he saw it was wide, and he knew it emptied a thousand kilometers south in Astrakhan into the Caspian Sea. He didn't know if he would get another-better-chance. But he knew that if he managed to survive the Volga, he could make his way into one of the southern republics, Georgia, maybe, or Armenia, and then cross the border into Turkey. He wished he had his mother's American dollars. After they returned from the failed trip to Moscow he had put the book back in the library and then was arrested so quickly he never had a chance to retrieve it. But even without the money, he knew escape or death were his only choices.

He looked down and his stomach twisted. Could he survive? It struck him that he didn't want to die. He remembered William Miller in Barrington. Nice, blond, popular William Miller. Had been taking swimming lessons since he was five weeks old. He could jump and somersault and hold his breath under water, he could outswim and outjump any other kid in Barrington, including Alexander, who certainly didn't shy away from trying. And then one summer afternoon when they were eight, they were playing Tarzan in the Olympic-sized pool at William's house, jumping cannonball into the deep end, into what was supposed to be twelve feet of water. William jumped from a diving board two feet high into twelve feet of water. But what William didn't consider was large-boned Ben down the street, who, at the moment of William's ill-timed upside-down cannonball, was treading water too close to the diving board. William saw Ben just a millisecond too late and lurched to the left to avoid Ben's substantial form. William's head hit the concrete wall of the pool, snapped and popped, and from then on William Miller was wheeled around by a twenty-four-hour-a-day nurse and was fed through a tube in his stomach. Strange? Could it be any more strange than a seventeen-year-old boy, nearly six foot three and 180 pounds, throwing himself down one hundred feet into what might be eight feet of water with boulders for a bottom? Alexander couldn't recite the immutable laws of physics on that one, but something was telling him they were not in his favor. There was no time to panic and no time to think. He knew he could be jumping to his death. He knew it. His stomach knew it. His exploding heart knew it. But this death would at least be quick. He crossed himself. In Vladivostok he would be dying for the rest of his life.

He mouthed, help me God, and jumped from the train with only the prison clothes he was wearing.

A hundred feet was a long way to fall, though it took but a few seconds; the train was nearly on the other side of the river by the time he reached the water. He had jumped feet first and hoped the Volga was deep enough to withstand his fall. It was. It was also cold and very fast. The river current grabbed him and carried him half a kilometer, fighting the whole way for a gulp of air, and by the time he turned his head to the bridge, the train was just a speck in the distance. It didn't look as if it had stopped. He wasn't sure if anyone even noticed, except for the convict next to him, who had been smirking from Leningrad to the Volga, and muttering, "A strapping young lad, just wait till Vladivostok, wait to see what'll become of ya."

He didn't want to risk getting out of the water until he could no longer see the bridge. He swam with the current, maybe five kilometers, and finally became tired and crawled out. It was summer and drying off was quick. Alexander dug some potatoes out of the ground, ate them raw, took off his clothes, made himself a bed out of leaves, and a lean-to canopy out of twigs (thank God for Cub Scouts) and then slept. When he woke up, his clothes were damp and his legs sore. He didn't know how to make himself new clothes, so he built a fire, dried the clothes and turned them inside out, so the prison gray wouldn't be as clearly visible. He smeared green leaves all over himself to further disguise the color, some mud, some strawberry pulp, and when the clothes were unrecognizable as having been issued by the NKVD, he set out again, staying close to the river.

Alexander traveled downstream on the Volga on barges and fishing boats, offering his fishing services until one fisherman asked him for his domestic passport. After that, Alexander veered away, walking deeper inland, hoping to find his way to the mountains between Georgia and Turkey. He stayed away from fisherman and from farmers-he knew sooner or later someone from whom he could not get away would ask for his domestic passport. His had been taken from him, and he had been issued a prison workbook; certainly he could not have shown that. He burned it.

Traveling without accepting help had the great disadvantage of slowness. Walking would only get him thirty or less kilometers a day. Alexander had to risk hitching rides in horse carriages to get south a little faster.

It was the fifteen-year-old girl working in the fields through which he was passing who stopped him. Long enough to ask for a drink, to ask for some bread, to ask if there was any work he could do to make some spare cash. She brought him home by the hand to her open-hearted parents. She of the large warm calloused farmer's hand, she of the thick long light-brown hair, the round face, the round flesh, the perspiration around the neck and the arms, and a glistening chest on which a small gold cross lay, nearly horizontally, so healthy and young was she.

Alexander didn't get as far as Georgia. He ended up staying in Belyi Gor, a village near Krasnodar by the Black Sea, still in the republic of Russia where-because he had noticed Larissa and it was August and harvesting season-he offered his fieldhand services to the farmer's family, the Belovs. Yefim and Maritza Belov had four sons, Grisha, Valery, Sasha, Anton, and a daughter.

The Belovs had no room for him in their small farmhouse, but he stayed gladly in the barn, slept on hay, worked from sunup to sundown and at night thought about Larissa. She smiled at him with her parted mouth, pretending to be constantly out of breath. Alexander knew it was a ruse, but it worked, for he had been starved and needed feeding. His body had been too tense for too long, on the run and on guard. Larissa was the promise of relief.

But Alexander stayed away. Her brothers were not the trifling types. Working in the fields digging potatoes, carrots, onions, threshing wheat for the collective farm or kolkhoz without the help of animals had made them like oxen, and living around their adolescent, tumescent, eager sister had made them more than a little wary of migrant workers like Alexander, who took off their shirts and worked in their trousers, getting slicker and more tanned by each sun-drenched day. Alexander was seventeen, but he looked like a man and ate like a man, and worked like a man. In all ways, he had the appetites of a man and the heart of one. Larissa saw it. The brothers saw it. He stayed away. He offered to make hay bales. He offered to chop winter wood for the family. He offered to build them a new-bigger-table, hoping he would remember from the childhood days with his father what it was like to use the saw, a plane, hammer and nails. He offered all this, hoping his work would keep him out of the fields and in the barn.

Of course the more Alexander remained aloof, the more Larissa pushed forward, becoming as brazen as a fifteen-year-old girl could get living in a small farmhouse with her parents and four brothers.

It was late August in scorching Krasnodar by the Black Sea. And one afternoon when he was in the barn tying up the hay into neat stacks, he saw the light stream on the ground and when he turned around, the light stream was gone, blacked out by Larissa who stood in front of him.

In his hands he held a pitchfork, a ball of twine, and a knife. She asked him in a low voice what he was doing. Making hay bales, he was going to reply, but realized she knew and he didn't have to say a word. Under different circumstances, he would have not stopped himself. He could barely stop himself now. But the girl was trouble; he felt it.

"Larissa, this is going to end in no good," he said.

"I don't know what you mean," she said, sauntering closer. She was barefoot and was wearing what was barely a dress. "It's godlessly hot out there. I came in for a little shade in the middle of the day. You don't mind, do you?"

He turned his back to her, bending to the hay. "Your brothers will kill me."

"Why would they do that? You're working so hard. They'll applaud you." She came closer. He could smell the summer sweat on her body. She inhaled. She could smell his.

"Stop."

She took another step toward him and stopped. His back was still to her but with his peripheral vision he saw her jump on top of a wooden stable gate. "I'll just sit here and watch you," he heard her say.

He watched her for a moment, and then went back to his work. His body was nearly giving out. In one moment, he thought, in one moment, I could have such sweet relief, and it would take but a moment. No harm done. She was close enough to him that he could smell her farm fresh body, her washed hair, her breath. He closed his eyes momentarily.

"Alexander," she said huskily. "Look. I want to show you something."

Aching, reluctant, desperate, he looked. She slowly pulled up her skirt and slightly opened her legs. Her hips were just below Alexander's eye level. His gaze stopped between her bare thighs. A groan escaped him.

"Come here, Alexander."

He came. Pushing her hands away, he stood between her legs, and pulled down her dress to expose her body. Panting, perspiring, ravenous, he raised his head to her lips and then feverishly bent to her breasts, while his fingers caressed her, the softness, the warmth...she was moaning as she clutched the bar-and then laughter sounded right outside the barn, and Larissa tried to push Alexander away. He wasn't moving from her.

Larissa shoved him hard, jumping down from the beam, and the light was on the grass, and Grisha, her oldest brother, came in and said, "Larisska, there you are, I've been looking all over for you. Get out of here. Stop trying to corrupt our Alexander. Can't you see he's got real work to do? Go to Mama. She wants to know why you haven't gotten the cows from the pasture yet. The kolkhoznik will be here for the milk soon."

"I'm going," said Larissa, walking past Alexander. Grisha left first, and before Larissa disappeared she turned around and with a delicious smile on her face whispered, "Alexander, next time we won't be interrupted and my mouth will be all over you, I promise. And afterward I will call you Shura, instead of Sasha like my brother. Just you wait."