It was a privilege: See MDB, Emily d.i.c.kinson Face to Face, Emily d.i.c.kinson Face to Face, p. 45. p. 45.

Adored by his family and fussed over: See "Death of a Promising Boy," Amherst Record, Amherst Record, October 17, 1883. October 17, 1883.

"He gathered Hearts": ED to SGD, [October 1884], Letters, Letters, 3:842. 3:842.

"Your Urchin": ED to SGD, [1880], Letters, Letters, 3:673. 3:673.

A yellow wide-brimmed planter's hat: See Claude M. Fuess, Amherst: The Story of a New England College Amherst: The Story of a New England College (Boston: Little, Brown, 1935), p. 135, and Vryling Buffum to MTB, Yale. (Boston: Little, Brown, 1935), p. 135, and Vryling Buffum to MTB, Yale.

Foraging through picture galleries: See YH, YH, 2:41. 2:41.

like "meeting G.o.d face to face": SGD, "Annals of the Evergreens," typed ms., n.d., Houghton.

"socially ambitious"-"perhaps a little too aggressive": Burgess, Reminiscences of an American Scholar, Reminiscences of an American Scholar, p. 60. p. 60.

"Sue saw no one as a child": MLT, "Short Character Sketches," [1882], Yale.

"rare hours, full of merriment": Catherine Anthon to MDB, October 8, 1914, Houghton.

"a really brilliant and highly cultivated woman": Burgess, Reminiscences of an American Scholar, Reminiscences of an American Scholar, p. 60. p. 60.

"The tie between us": ED to SGD, [late 1885], Letters, Letters, 3:893. 3:893.

"Dear Sue-": ED to SGD, [c. 1882], Letters, Letters, 3:733. 3:733.

"One Sister have I in our house-": Fr 5A.

"But Susan is a stranger yet-": Fr 1433C (variant of "What mystery pervades a well!").

"I feel the red in my mind": ED to Elizabeth Holland, Letters, Letters, 2:452. 2:452.

"The Things that never can come back, are several-": Fr 1564; also in ED to Elizabeth Holland, [fall 1881], Letters, Letters, 3:714, and chapter 3. 3:714, and chapter 3.

"I think everyone will exclaim over it": MLT, journal, [summer 1879], quoted in Austin and Mabel, Austin and Mabel, p. 52. p. 52.

"My little one will, I feel, be always secondary": MLT, journal, October 6, 1879, MLT Papers, Yale.

Having been "taken in": See MLT reminiscence, MTB Papers, Yale.

who "stimulates me intellectually more than any other woman": MLT to WAD, [February 17, 1883], Yale.

"She thinks it is such a fine thing" "I could twist him around my little finger": MLT, journal, March 2, 1882, Yale.

"their little affair": MLT, journal, September 15, 1882, Yale.

"dear" Mr. Austin d.i.c.kinson "is so very fond of me" "to think that out of all the splendid & n.o.ble women": MLT, journal, September 15, 1882, Yale.

"It nearly broke my heart": WAD to MLT, [fall 1882], Yale; "I love you, I admire you": WAD to MLT, [1882], Yale; "The sun cannot shine without": WAD to MLT, [1882], Yale. All quoted in Austin and Mabel, Austin and Mabel, pp. 135, 138, 145. pp. 135, 138, 145.

"The way in which you love me": MLT to WAD, [November 29, 1883], Yale.

"The greatest proof I have ever ever had": MLT, journal, August 3, 1883, Yale. had": MLT, journal, August 3, 1883, Yale.

"Ned has been very devoted": MLT, journal, December 6, 1882, Yale.

"Where is the wrong in preferring sunshine to shadow!": WAD to MLT, [November 1882?], Yale.

It would take another year: The best a.n.a.lysis of the affair can be found in Gay, The Bourgeois Experience, The Bourgeois Experience, pp. 71108; for a full account of the affair, see pp. 71108; for a full account of the affair, see Austin and Mabel. Austin and Mabel. 240 "Emily always respected real emotion": MTB, diary, March 27, 1851, Yale. 240 "Emily always respected real emotion": MTB, diary, March 27, 1851, Yale.

"If anything happens to me": WAD, quoted in Austin and Mabel, Austin and Mabel, p. 139. p. 139.

"She has not been outside": MLT to Mary and Eben Loomis, November 6, 1881, Yale.

some of Emily's strange, powerful poems: See MLT, diary, February 8, 1882, Yale.

"All the literary men are after her": MLT, diary, March 26, 1882, Yale.

"'You will not allow your husband to go there'": Revelation, Revelation, p. 59. p. 59.

Before Austin would cross another Rubicon: WAD, diary, September 11, 1882, box 101, Yale.

"It was odd to think": MLT, journal, September 16, 1882, Yale.

"A Route of Evanescence": Fr 1489F.

"That without suspecting it": ED to MLT, [September 1882], Letters, Letters, 3:740. d.i.c.kinson had also sent this poem, which she clearly liked, to Helen Hunt Jackson, her Norcross cousins, and Sarah Tuckerman before sending it to Higginson for his approval in 1880 and then consenting to offer it for auction at a charity benefit. 3:740. d.i.c.kinson had also sent this poem, which she clearly liked, to Helen Hunt Jackson, her Norcross cousins, and Sarah Tuckerman before sending it to Higginson for his approval in 1880 and then consenting to offer it for auction at a charity benefit.

"I have just had a most lovely note": MLT, journal, October 6, 1882, Yale.

"The great mission of pain": ED to Frances and Louise Norcross, [late November 1882], Letters, Letters, 3:750. 3:750.

"We were never intimate": ED to Elizabeth Holland, [December 1882], Letters, Letters, 3:754. 3:754.

A cousin recalled: Clara Newman Turner, "My Personal Acquaintance with Emily d.i.c.kinson," quoted in YH, YH, 2:383. 2:383.

"My Brother is with us so often": ED to James D. Clark, [mid-March 1883], Letters, Letters, 3:765. 3:765.

"Blow has followed blow": ED to Elizabeth Holland, [mid-December 1882], Letters, Letters, 3:754. 3:754.

the "coals of fire": TWH to Moncure Conway, June 9, 1882, Butler.

"a intimacy of many years": ED to James D. Clark, [August 1882], Letters, Letters, 3:737. 3:737.

"He rang one summer evening": ED to James C. Clark, [August 1882], Letters, Letters, 3:738. 3:738.

"Your Sorrow was in Winter-": ED to Otis Lord, [December 3, 1882], Werner A 749c.

"Further in Summer than the Birds": Fr 895D.

"'Open the Door'": ED to Elizabeth Holland, [1883], Letters, Letters, 3:803. 3:803.

"Emily was devoted": LD to unknown recipients, November 16, [1883], UVA.

"I see him in the Star": ED to SGD, [October 1883], Letters, Letters, 3:799. 3:799.

"Gilbert was his idol": MLT, journal, November 11, 1883, Yale.

"I kept him alive": MLT, journal, March 30, 1884, Yale.

"He, the youthful serious young scientist": MTB, drafts, February 27August 30, 1927, Yale.

"I do not think David is": MLT, journal, February 6, 1890, Yale.

"beyond anything I have known": WAD to MLT, July 6, 1885, Yale.

Adultery, he told his daughter: See MTB, notes on an interview with her father, David Peck Todd, September 29October 3, 1933, Yale.

"every one knows that he": MLT, journal, January 6, 1885, Yale.

"the law of G.o.d": MLT journal, March 4, 1885, Yale.

"Our life together is as white and unspotted": WAD to MLT, [October 1884], Yale.

"The whole town weeps for him": MLT, diary, August 19, 1895, Yale.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN: MONARCH OF DREAMS "from a race of day-dreamers": TWH, "The Monarch of Dreams," holograph, Houghton.

"'Does all dreaming without action'": TWH, "The Monarch of Dreams," holograph, Houghton.

"felt himself a changed being": Monarch, Monarch, p. 48. p. 48.

"the lost opportunity": Monarch, Monarch, p. 52. p. 52.

"It is a warning": TWH to AH, December 7, 1886, Houghton.

"To live and die only to transfuse external nature": TWH, "Literature as an Art," p. 747.

this "has made me willing to vary my life": TWH, journal, frontispiece, 1873, Houghton.

"The trouble with me": TWH, journal, March 14, 1875, Houghton.

"I died for Beauty-but was scarce": Fr 448; Beauty and truth are "Kinsmen": This perplexing poem, narrated by one of d.i.c.kinson's posthumous speakers, is also a response to Elizabeth Barrett Browning's Vision: Vision: "These were poets true, / Who died for Beauty as martyrs do / For Truth-the ends being scarcely two" (lines 289291); see Pollak, "d.i.c.kinson, Poe, and Barrett Browning," p. 124. "These were poets true, / Who died for Beauty as martyrs do / For Truth-the ends being scarcely two" (lines 289291); see Pollak, "d.i.c.kinson, Poe, and Barrett Browning," p. 124.

"as a swimmer yields his body to a strong current": TWH, "The Monarch of Dreams," holograph, Houghton.

"I began to doubt everything": "A Night in the Water," in Army Life, Army Life, pp. 123124. pp. 123124.

Few of his accomplishments: See TWH to LSH, January 29, 1862, Houghton.

"I'm adrift in the universe without it": TWH to Ellen Conway, December 6, 1878, Butler.

"My favorite child": TWH to Edmund Clarence Stedman, October 24, 1887, Butler.

"The Pilgrims landed": "More Mingled Races" [1897], in Book and Heart, Book and Heart, p. 151. p. 151.

"inexpedient...to advocate women's suffrage": Harper, The House of Harper, The House of Harper, p. 250. p. 250.

"The Mendelssohn family had not the slightest objection": TWH, "The Shadow of the Harem," in W&M, W&M, p. 251. p. 251.

"in a literary way": TWH to Moncure Conway, [1884], Butler.

"no thin idealist, no coa.r.s.e realist": quoted in TWH, "Margaret Fuller Ossoli," in Parton, et al., Eminent Women of the Age, Eminent Women of the Age, p. 186. p. 186.

"I affirm that democratic society": TWH, "Americanism in Literature," p. 62.

"actual life-the life of every day": TWH, "Literature in a Republic" (1892), in Reed et al., Modern Eloquence, Modern Eloquence, 5:574. 5:574.

"the aristocracy of the millionaires is only a prelude": Part, Part, p. 110. p. 110.

"Sow a victim, and you reap a socialist": Book and Heart, Book and Heart, p. 173. p. 173.

Yet he apparently said nothing: Tilden Edelstein points out that Higginson's social views were in flux: he had supported labor during the Amesbury-Salisbury strike of 1852, but during the labor strikes of 1887 he said nothing either; see Strange Enthusiasm, Strange Enthusiasm, pp. 378379. pp. 378379.

CHAPTER FIFTEEN: PUGILIST AND POET she wrapped small gifts: The turquoise brooch is described in Barney, "Fragments from Emily d.i.c.kinson," p. 801.

"The doctor calls it 'revenge of the nerves'": ED to Louise and Frances Norcross, [August 1884], Letters, Letters, 3:827. 3:827.

For several days she seemed delirious: See SGD to Martha d.i.c.kinson, October 22, 1884, Houghton.

"Biography first convinces us of the fleeing of the Biographied": ED to TWH, [February 1885], Letters, Letters, 3:864. 3:864.

"Pa.s.s to thy Rendezvous of Light": Fr 1624.

"I work to drive the awe away": ED to Louise and Frances Norcross, [March 1884], Letters, Letters, 3:817. 3:817.

"How can can the sun shine": Mary Lee Hall to Genevieve Taggard, November 4, 1929, NYPL. the sun shine": Mary Lee Hall to Genevieve Taggard, November 4, 1929, NYPL.

"I have not been strong for the last year": ED to Mrs. Samuel E. Mack, [autumn 1884], Letters, Letters, 3:843. 3:843.

"The Crisis of the sorrow": ED to Elizabeth Holland, [late 1883], Letters, Letters, 3:802. 3:802.

"the Flood subject": ED to TWH, June 8, 1866, Letters, Letters, 2:454. 2:454.

"Exterior-to Time-": In Fr 446.

"Circ.u.mference, thou bride": ED to Daniel Chester French, [April 1884], Letters, Letters, 3:822, see also Fr 1636B; "Success is dust": ED to Daniel Chester French, [April 1884], 3:822, see also Fr 1636B; "Success is dust": ED to Daniel Chester French, [April 1884], Letters, Letters, 2:821. 2:821.

"My Business is Circ.u.mference": ED to TWH, [July 1862], Letters, Letters, 2:412. 2:412.