"People
are like garbage."
Whenever
I saw people gathered, this line from a famous animated movie[1] sprung to mind.
And I suspected that there were no shortage of people who shared my sentiment.
While
this may not hold true for individuals, when people come together in groups it
is due to hatred. They perceive other people as combustible waste and drop
bombs in the place of incinerators. In any case, they can't help their desire
to set garbage alight.
Let us
suppose that the ent.i.ty known as G.o.d truly exists. That He is a being that
transcends humanity and gazes out over Earth from above. If we hold that to be
the case, then it follows that chaos and disorder please Him. G.o.d does not
desire tranquility. This is surely because He is displeased when such inferior
creatures lose themselves in delusions of grandeur. With His invisible hand, he
leads humanity to the slaughter. He does this not for amus.e.m.e.nt, nor to stave
off boredom, but because of a visceral disgust, much the kind that you or I
would feel upon gazing on an outbreak of insects.
I
suddenly noticed that my reverie had delayed me in my task of duplicating the
words on the blackboard, and I began frantically scrawling.
I
reflected upon my irregular thoughts. These thoughts were certainly not
desirable. Perhaps the reason I was having them was because we had been
learning about how the strong systematically weeded out all others across
history?
That
was divergent from my ideals. The strong and the weak certainly did exist. That
was why I was determined to become strong and, instead of plundering from the
weak, extend them a hand of salvation. To lead them justly. That was the only
method by which true peace could be attained.
What
stood in my way, then, was the kind of evil that would consume mankind in
irrationality. I had to destroy it. ...I see, my thoughts just now were the
result of my hatred towards evil becoming misdirected towards humanity itself.
Evil,
huh.
I gazed
at the seat behind me. It appeared he was absent today, so the seat was empty.
It was the seat belonging to a man who could very well be described as evil
incarnate.
In my
sixteen years of life, I had never met a man so thoroughly twisted as Masato
Yahara. The reason for that lay not in his depravity, nor in his stupidity.
There were likely countless men more opposed to society and more idiotic than
him.
But
upon drawing Yahara's jeers, I recognized wicked nature for what it was. Masato
Yahara was quite literally a monster. He consumes people in as direct a way as
possible. His tentacles reach deep within people's souls. His value system is
so warped that the only way he can confirm his own existence is through the
destruction of others.
The
runaway train that is Yahara long since became derailed. And he believes that
by running people over, he can right his course. But such a thing is of course
absurd. A derailed train cannot find its way back onto the tracks. It will
simply destroy and kill everything in its path, only stopping once it crashes
and destroys itself.
If left
to his own devices, he will no doubt continue consuming people. Like a candy
he's grown bored of, he will chew up and spit out those precious, irreplaceable
souls.
Modern-day
laws are too lenient on such wrong-doers. But even though we all harbor such
feeling of dissatisfaction, society refuses to change. A rotten human cannot be
rehabilitated and will continue to rot, and much the rotten orange from a line
in a certain school-based drama[2] will rot everything around it as well.
But the
filthy rabble of our world continue wriggling about with nary a care. It's
repulsive beyond belief.
Thus
the strong have a duty to root out evil. In that act, they elegantly save the
weak.
Ahh,
it's almost embarra.s.sing how much I love justice, how much I want to become a
hero.
On that
night, I spotted Masato Yahara on my way home from prep school.
In the
end, I tested him. It was a test to determine if his life had worth. He failed
spectacularly; in fact, he scored zero points.
And so
I justly killed him.
The
first thing I had to figure out was how to dispose of the body. No matter how
just my actions were, even if everyone approved of them, today's laws would
never acquit a murderer. Thus I had to cover it up.
Because
he was planning on killing me in the first place, Yahara was kind enough to die
in a place where he would not be quickly found. The optimal outcome for me
would be for his death itself not to come to light and for him to simply be
treated as a missing person, with n.o.body knowing the truth of the incident.
But it
was difficult to imagine the body going forever without being found. This
defunct factory had traces of people coming and going, with lanterns and
blankets and such lying around. The people who came and went were likely filth
of Yahara's ilk.
It
would be best to dispose of the body somewhere harder to come across. If the
body was found like this, it would be treated as evidence of a crime,
autopsied, and the entire affair would then be handled as a murder investigation.
Ideally
the body wouldn't be found, and it wouldn't become an incident. If I could dump
the body in the mountains without being seen, I could avoid being caught.
But
because I was only sixteen, I didn't have a driver's license. I couldn't think
of any way to transport my grim baggage without being seen.
I
needed an accomplice. But who? My parents... even if they acknowledged my
justice, the sight of a corpse would cause them to lose their nerve and
recommend that I turn myself in. Even if they held strong convictions, people
who were faint of heart wouldn't do.
I could
think of a few adults I respected, but any of them would get cold feet once
they saw a corpse, and without looking at the big picture would recommend that
I turn myself in. n.o.body had as strong a sense of justice as I did, nor would
helping me provide any benefit for them.
I was
at a loss. I couldn't think of anyone.
I
couldn't figure out my next step, so with some reluctance I temporarily left
the scene. If somebody happened upon this place, that alone would be curtains
for me.
I wiped
up the blood from the knife and wiped down the places I had touched with a
handkerchief to get rid of my fingerprints. Thankfully, you couldn't see the
spurts of blood against my black uniform. After leaving the factory, I was able
to make my way to the station without running into anyone.
All in
it, it was quite a mental burden on me. As soon as I got home and layed down on
my bed, I slept like a log.
I woke
up. Instantly, the gears in my head began turning. The first thing I did was
check on my smartphone to see whether or not Yahara's body had been discovered.
I checked a number of news sites, but there didn't appear to be any articles
indicating as such. A real-time search didn't show any traces either.
After
descending the stairs and offering rushed greetings to my family, I hopped in
the shower. As I lathered my hair, I racked my brains for a way to dispose of
the unfortunate corpse.
I could
dismember it. But while that was the conventional way to transport a body, I
wasn't exactly inclined to. Even if it was originally the monster that was
Yahara, it was unmistakably a human body. The psychological burden would likely
be substantial. And in the one-in-a-million chance the body was discovered, the
fact that it could no longer pa.s.s for an accident was another strike against
this method.
So I
was back to wanting to transport the body as it was to somewhere people
wouldn't find it, then disposing of it. That conclusion hadn't changed.
There
was no school on Sat.u.r.days, so I ran searches for terms related to the incident
on my phone while watching the news in the living room. It was odd for me to be
fiddling with my phone instead of studying, so my family seemed somewhat
suspicious, but I doubted they suspected me of murder. I needn't pay them much
mind.
I
wanted to transport the body by vehicle, but I still couldn't come up with an
accomplice. Although it was of course too late at this point, events already
proceeding as they were, I began to regret having killing Yahara. If I had
killed him in a more thought-out manner, I could have avoided this whole mess.
The
next time I have to kill someone, I'll make sure to think it out first.
Someone
I have to kill, on the same level as Masato Yahara. I wonder who that could be?
"―"
With
that thought fresh in my mind, I thought of a partner. Returning to my room, I
began to think of ways to sway him to my side. At the moment, he and I had
essentially no common ground.
But
then I thought of an extremely simple method.
I spent
the rest of Sat.u.r.day preparing, and then it was Sunday. At three in the
afternoon on the dot, I stood in front of a local convenience store. I entered
the shop, and after a few uses of the ATM had successfully withdrawn a million
yen[3]. After consistently saving my allowance and my New Year's money, that sum
amounted to my net worth.
Not
seeing the man I was searching for, I headed outside and was greeted with the
sight of my target wearing the shop's uniform and listlessly taking out the
trash. He didn't seem to be on break, but he was smoking regardless. Because I
lived nearby, I happened to know that he would be working part-time at this
hour on Sundays.
"Yamazaki-senpai."
Ryuusuke
Yamazaki turned to me while holding his cigarette in his mouth, his expression
sullen. At any rate, it looked like his vulgar blond hair was taking a few
points off his IQ.
"Who
the f.u.c.k are you?"
"I'm
Shuuichi Akiyama, the representative of cla.s.s 1-2."
"No,
like, who the f.u.c.k are you? What business would a high and mighty cla.s.s
rep like you have with someone like me? Don't f.u.c.kin' tell me you're gonna rat
me out to the school for smoking."
Ignoring
his idiotic question, I got straight to the point.
"I
heard that you know how to drive. Do you have your own car?"
I had
seen him drive a black station wagon to get her, but I wanted to confirm it
just in case.
Likely
excited to brag about his car, Yamazaki's face lit up.
"Yeah, I'm
working here to pay 'er off. ...What's your deal, you like my car? You wanna go
for a ride in the pa.s.senger seat, huh? Sorry man, that seat's reserved for
chicks who put out. I'm not into that f.a.g stuff."
Not
wanting to play along with his vulgar banter, I pulled out the million I had
just withdrawn and handed it to him. At the sight of such a large quant.i.ty of
cash, Yamazaki's eyes went wide.
"Wha...
You...! The f.u.c.k's this cash for?"
His
reaction was exactly what I expected, and I struggled to stifle my laughter.
With
his mouth hanging open and a stupid expression plastered on his face, Yamazaki
didn't even wait for a proper explanation to begin counting the bills. With his
glittering eyes and his agitated, wild breathing, he was the very image of a
swine unable to contain itself at the sight of slop. Unable to defy his brain's
newfound addiction, he would no doubt act exactly as I needed him to.
"I have
a favor I need to ask of you. Would you be willing to undertake it?"
Yamazaki
stopped the car in the parking lot of a defunct convenience store near the site
of the factory. I was slightly concerned about being seen, but thanks to the
various illegally-parked cars we weren't exactly conspicuous. If we didn't stay
long, I doubted it would be a problem.
"So
Akiyama, you're really gonna pay me a mil for one day's work? Also, where the
h.e.l.l are we?"
After
stopping the car, Yamazaki was understandably on guard as he surveyed the area.
"I
didn't lie. More importantly, did you prepare everything I asked you to?"
Wanting
to avoid creating links between myself and Yamazaki, I hadn't told him my phone
number or LINE ID. He seemed like a somewhat careless man, so I was concerned
he hadn't bought everything I had requested.
"Yeah,
it's all in the trunk. Whatcha gonna do with all that?"
I
verified the contents of the trunk. Inside was a large black vinyl sheet, a
roll of cloth tape, and some rope. Tools to transport a corpse.
"Everything
seems to be in order. We'll be carrying it all to the site of that factory."
"...No
complaints here, I guess."
Although
he had some misgivings, the million yen sapped his desire to object and he
walked inside the building.
"f.u.c.k,
it stinks in here!"
Just as
Yamazaki said, the moment we stepped inside we were greeted by a smell
reminiscent of a mound of rotting fish. It was so like Yahara to resemble trash
to the end. Of course he would stink if he rotted — and as soon as that thought
crossed my mind, I reflected. I left the corpse here all this time, but due to
the smell the odds of it being discovered were higher than I had projected.
"Wait,
that's-"
The
body was lying there, wrapped in blankets. The blankets were stained red with
blood.
"It's a
corpse."
Yamazaki's
face initially contorted, but eventually settled into a vulgar grin.
"I
get it. Now I get what you're havin' me do."
On the
off chance that he had gotten cold feet when faced with a corpse, it was
thinkable that he would reject my request. Showing him the cash up front was a
countermeasure against that. While people can put up with losing an opportunity
to gain something, they exhibit extreme resistance to giving up something they
initially thought was theirs.
But it
seemed my fear had been unfounded.
"Makes
sense that you'd pull out that mil, then. h.e.l.l, you're practically gettin' off
cheap."
I
hadn't been expecting him to suggest I turn myself in. So that was his
response, hmm. He didn't examine my complexion, nor did he take interest in the
corpse itself — his first instinct was to try and wring more money out of me.
Thank
goodness he was so faithful to his desires.
"You
the one who offed him?"
"That
was the result, yes. It was legitimate self-defence, but there isn't anybody
who can verify that."
"I
getcha, I getcha. So you got no choice but to hide it."
The
corners of his mouth upturned, Yamazaki drew near the corpse with no sign of
hesitation. To my surprise, he turned over the blankets himself. His lack of
resistance made me doubt whether or not he might be a psychopath.
"Huh?
...Yo, Akiyama! This f.u.c.ker's Masato Yahara!
"That
is indeed my cla.s.smate Masato Yahara. You can piece together why I had to come
all the way out here, I gather?"
"This
guy jumped you, and when you fought back he ended up eatin' it, something along
those lines, right? d.a.m.n, I always had him pegged for one of those guys
who wouldn't die even if you killed 'em, but he up and died pretty d.a.m.n easily,
huh?"
"Did
you and Masato Yahara know each other?"
"Nah, I
just heard that he was one bad motherf.u.c.ker and steered clear of him. Y'know,
there were those rumors that he took down a whole gang and that he was the
leader of some prost.i.tution ring. And I heard that one of my senpai's
friends tried to get up in this guy's business for being cheeky or some s.h.i.+t,
and this guy almost stabbed him."
I was
a.s.saulted by waves of repugnance. It would appear my decision to kill him had
been correct.
"So
what's up next, boss?"
"First,
we'll conceal the body in the blankets and vinyl sheet and carry it out. We'll
take the weapon with us too. I'm pretty sure I wiped off all the blood already,
but I'll double-check so that on the off chance there's any left I can wipe it
off. Once all that is finished, it shouldn't be possible for anyone to narrow
the scene of the crime down to this location."
"Other
than me, that is."
I
wondered if that was a veiled threat.
"Heh
heh."
Without
thinking, I laughed inwardly.
He
reacted just as I suspected he would, without a micron of deviation.
Ahh,
thank goodness.
Choosing
Ryuusuke Yamazaki as my partner truly was the right decision.
Once we
had loaded the body into his trunk, I left the transportation and disposal to
Yamazaki and headed home. After travelling by train, bus, foot the previous
day, I had found an ideal disposal site deep in the mountains. If Yamazaki
followed my instructions and dug a hole and buried him in it, it was unlikely
Yahara's corpse would ever be discovered. Leaving that task to Yamazaki alone
caused me no end of anxiety, but it was less dangerous than me being seen in
his car, so I didn't have much choice. In a perfect world, n.o.body would think
that Yamazaki and I had any relations.h.i.+p.
But one
of my calculations was off.
I had
underestimated how incompetent Yamazaki was.
One
week had pa.s.sed since Yamazaki took the body up into the mountains. It was
Monday morning, and as had become a habit for me I was scrolling through a
real-time news feed on my phone when my drowsiness was blasted away. There was
a posting about a body being
discovered in the aforementioned mountains. Leaping from my bed, I ran into the
living room and clung to the television. The news was reporting that Masato
Yahara's body had been discovered by a hiker. I listened in shock as the
announcer described how his ident.i.ty had been confirmed by the student ID card
in his pocket.
Ryuusuke Yamazaki.
Not only did that incompetent not bury the body, he even ignored my order to
strip it. And on top of that, he left the student ID? How incompetent could one
man be? If he had thought about it for half a second, he'd realize just how
problematic that was! Even if dumping a body was a crime, just how overactive
was this guy's sense of danger?
"Shuu! You look
awful, what happened?"
My mother shouted in
a shrill soprano. As always, her voice rattled around in my head.
Frantically
controlling my breathing, I spoke with feigned composure.
"It's nothing to
worry about, Mother. ...I'll be heading to school now."
But my voice was
trembling. Just as my mother had pointed out, my face was white as a sheet.
"Don't be ridiculous!
With you looking like that, there's no way there's nothing wrong!"
In reality, I was
fighting back fury. Fear and anxiety were secondary. Contempt. Hatred.
Resentment. Such emotions were the cause of my trembling.
All that filth can do
is weigh down the excellent, it seemed. Far beyond being useless, they were
hindrances. Their very existence soiled the earth.
"Shuu... You're
staying home today."
Upon seeing my
abnormal condition, my mother, who would normally insist I go to school even if
I had a fever, commanded me. While this was odd in and of itself, it was
surpa.s.sed by the suspicion I would no doubt arise if I didn't attend school
today.
I took a deep breath
to settle myself.
Visions of that
defunct factory invaded my mind. Ever since I stabbed Masato Yahara, I couldn't
break my mind free of that place. It was like it was binding my soul against my
will. Why should I, who acted in accordance with justice, have to go through
all this?
Suddenly, my mind was
plunged into black and white and I was a.s.sailed with pain deep within my eyes.
Black and white particles crawled along my skin and penetrated my pores,
filling me with an itching sensation as they violated me.
Ahh, back at that
factory there was a press I couldn't figure out the purpose of. What was it
capable of crus.h.i.+ng? What was it capable of crus.h.i.+ng?
What did it want to
crush?
A gigantic press. A
press to thoroughly crush them. A press to thoroughly crush their eyeb.a.l.l.s and
their bones and their nails and their organs and their genitals and their blood
into pulp. We could collect up that formless meat with bulldozers. Splat, splat,
splat. We could intentionally do it loudly. The noise is pleasantly obscene,
after all. Splat, splat, splat. We could envision their soundless screams as we
gleefully make meatb.a.l.l.s from their meat. Perhaps the meatb.a.l.l.s would be black,
or red, or pink. It would be cannibalism. We would force-feed them the
meatb.a.l.l.s. While crying, they would break out into a mad dance at how delicious
they were. They're delicious, aren't they? All squishy and sticky and squishy.
While making vulgar noises, they would feast. While descending into madness,
they would feast. Once they realized what the meatb.a.l.l.s were made of, they
wouldn't even wait for the press before consuming their comrades. They would be
so tasty they wouldn't be able to help themselves. They would be unable to help
themselves when faced with their desires. They would be eaten alive. They would
scream in pain. n.o.body would save them. People like them have no empathy, so
they can't comprehend the pain of others. I would laugh as I gazed out upon
them. Meatb.a.l.l.s. In the end, you filth were nothing but meatb.a.l.l.s. Just like
the giant meatball there, you all are nothing but bundles of meat. Bundles
without souls. The final survivor of the cannibalism would cry out. Where are
the delicious meatb.a.l.l.s? He would ask me. Please bring me more! Please bring me
more meatb.a.l.l.s! He would entreat me. And I would point to where the meatball
was. And he would eat the meatball I was pointing at. He would eat it with
great relish. He would eat with delight, he would eat with madness. He would
eat his own meat. He would eat himself. I would clutch my stomach and laugh.
Indeed. All you people do is consume yourselves. I would point that out out of
kindness. I would point out what kind of beings you are.
"Shuu!"
My mother's shout
brought me back from my world of delusions.
"It
looks like you're right, I'd better stay home today..."
After
whispering that, I tottered back to my room. I couldn't walk straight. And as
if I had released too much energy in that last vision, I couldn't think
straight either.
As I
layed on my bed, I took deep breaths to settle down my heart. But the
electrical signals in my brain were going haywire, and I was so itchy I
practically scratched my head off.
I
couldn't settle down. The grotesque images wouldn't stop.
A
thousand knives. A shower of blood. Flesh warped like clay.
I shook
my head to try to drive out the delusions. If my mind went blank, they would
get inside me!
—Get
inside me?
Wouldn't
that imply that they weren't my thoughts in the first place?
I could
sense it myself. The fact that these thoughts were both dangerous and abnormal.
That they were undesirable. So why wouldn't they stop?
I
didn't know. I myself didn't know.
"Heh
heh heh..."
Suddenly,
I could hear laughter. Contemptuous, disparaging laughter.
"Man,
how defective are you? You don't know?"
Leaping
out of my bed, I scanned the room.
I was
at a loss for words.
Where
was I? What was going on?
It felt
like I was standing atop the heart of a tremendous beast. Everywhere I looked
was reddish-brown and pulsing. Magma that smelled of blood was spurting. It
smelled like something was decomposing, too. The air was filled with refuse,
making it impossible to see clearly. Something important to the world was
clearly stagnating.
Ahh, it
was so unsightly it make me sick.
And yet
something strangely excited me. My breath grew wild, and I wanted to leap in
the air.
I see,
this must be that factory. Is this real? Is this a delusion? I don't know. The
boundary between the two seemed vague.
"You've
done yourself a pretty good job of crus.h.i.+ng us, I see."
Masato
Yahara stood in front of me. His entrance was abrupt, but to me it seemed like
the most natural thing in the world.
"I
crushed you. Certainly, I did crush you. But what of it? All of this is simply
a delusion."
"A
delusion, huh? Quite the f.u.c.ked-up delusion you cooked up there. Weren't you
supposed to be all upright and clean handed and s.h.i.+t?"
Yahara's
face contorted into a sneer.
"...Shut
your mouth, meat-man. If this is the world of my delusions, everything should
go according to my whim. I'll simply crush you into delicious meatb.a.l.l.s."
"Heh...
Just f.u.c.kin' try, I dare you."
He put
up no resistance, and I dropped the ma.s.sive press on him. Splat! The sound of
something soft being crushed rang out, and the vicinity was painted red. It was
over too soon.
My
being crushed was over too soon.
"Why?"
There
was no consistency or anything in my mental image. Yet I ended up being
crushed. Despite no longer having vocal cords, I whispered "why?" one more
time.
"It's
one f.u.c.ked-up delusion, right?"
Why,
even though it was a delusion, had it come to such a grotesque end? Why was
Masato Yahara standing there as if it were natural?
"It
can't be...!"
I
finally understood the meaning of Yahara's words.
"You
got the feeling that you were being violated a minute ago, right? It's simple. I
don't have a body, so it's easy as h.e.l.l for me to get inside you."
Yahara's
discontent sneer didn't fade.
"This
ain't your delusion. Your thoughts ain't your own. You ain't even yourself any
more."
I was
no more than a piece of meat now, and he trampled me underfoot.
"I'm
in control of this world now."
I
opened my eyes. I felt awful. I had an unpleasant dream, but I couldn't
remember what it was about.
Why was
it, I wondered? I was certain the dream had been unpleasant, yet I felt oddly
refreshed. It was like the exhilarating sensation you got after overcoming a
nasty fever. But it was clear to me that I had lost something in exchange for
that exhilaration. I had lost it entirely. And I could never get it back.
But
that was fine. I had been freed from a needless attachment. People were
creatures that feared change, but that reaction was no more than an unthinking
dismissal.
My
strict adherence to ethics vanished.
Ahh...
it welcomes me.
It was
opening in front of me—
—a new
world.
Perhaps
that odd dream was a gift from G.o.d? From then on, everything I did went
perfectly. Solving problem sets, my reading comprehension, advancing projects I
was working on, everything was going brilliantly. My ability to concentrate was
clearly improving as well. Not letting it get mixed in with the noise, nor
getting distracted, I could immerse myself in a single task.
It was
like I finally had my priorities all in order. It wasn't anything conscious.
But it felt like I had built a solid set of unconscious rules.
It was
after school. The cla.s.sroom was illuminated by the setting sun, making my
cla.s.smates' shadows stand out. But I could no longer make their faces out from
each other. My mind s.h.i.+rked its duties, deciding that this point was of little
importance.
Amongst
them, one person's face remained clear.
I had
to verify his character.
"Hiiragi,
I have something I would like to ask you. Could I have a moment of your time?"
Kouta
Hiiragi. As far as I knew, he was Masato Yahara's one and only friend.
From
his appearance he was the epitome of normality, far removed from the kind of
person I was obligated to eliminate. But his closeness to Yahara merited
caution.
"When
he was still with us, would it be correct to say that you were the one who with
the closest with Yahara?"
I began
probing him. If he was of the same breed as Yahara, it naturally fell upon me
to cull him.
"I
wonder, was it true that Yahara was involved in some rather unwholesome
affairs? Well...I refer to affairs in the broad sense, by the way. Perhaps that
alone makes it not unusual he was involved in this incident. There were various
things published about him in those periodicals, weren't there? Were you
completely unaware of all that?"
"I
knew about the stimulants. But he never mentioned anything about any gangs or
prost.i.tution rings or anything. He didn't show any signs of being involved with
them, either. I'm pretty sure that's all just misinformation."
"Perhaps
you weren't close enough to Yahara to involve you in things like that? Are you
saying that he never to bring you into his group of delinquent companions?"
"Pretty
much. He didn't involve me in sketchy stuff like that. He never even ate lunch
with me, let alone tried to get me to smoke or anything. If we were around each
other we'd chat, if the timing worked out we'd walk home together. But he
definitely never tried to coerce me, and he never invited me anywhere. That was
about the extent of our relations.h.i.+p. I'm sure that if I ever stopped
wanting to spend time around him and started avoiding him, he wouldn't have so
much as spoken to me."
I
scrutinized his words, but other than the fact that he had kept silent about
the stimulants nothing he was saying seemed particularly problematic. However,
there remained the possibility that he was playing dumb so as not to fall under
suspicion.
Furthermore,
the fact that had adored Yahara was clear.
My
initial conclusion was that there was no need to prioritize marking him.
Something along those lines.
"So,
why do you ask?"
A
phrase floated to the front of my mind.
It
would not be so strange for you to be killed as well.
He
might be evil enough to warrant elimination.
Indeed,
it was imperative that I identify those people that warranted elimination. That
was the decree I had been given upon killing Masato Yahara and evolving past
the ordinary.
But
putting that to words would be problematic. Although I had utmost faith in my
sense of justice, I was under no pretenses that the rest of the world would
accept it so readily. Long ago, Galileo was put to trial for his advocacy of
the heliocentric model.
"I suspect
that the reason that Yahara was killed was the fact that he was sticking his
hand in dangerous places. Following that reasoning, I felt it was possible that
you, as his friend, might be in danger of meeting a similar fate. Am I
mistaken?"
It was
possible he would misconstrue my reply, so I followed up with my true feelings.
"In
fact, I was thinking—that it would not be so strange for you to be killed as
well."
Hiiragi
wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed, so I thought it unlikely that he would
pick up on my true goal.
But
contrary to my expectations, Hiiragi reacted to my words.
"...What
makes you s.p.a.ce out so?"
"I,
I'm not-"
Perhaps
he was more clever than I gave him credit for? Was he simply a.s.suming a facade
of mediocrity? Had he been hiding the fact that he was of the same breed as
Yahara, that he was a person that I needed to eliminate?
It
seemed that my guard had been too lax a moment ago.
In any
case, it would be best to end this conversation peacefully, in order to keep up
appearances. But the moment I thought to make preparations to depart, something
unthinkable happened.
"Oy, is
Akiyama around?"
That
incompetent loudly called out for me.
You
have to be joking. After all the warnings I gave him about avoiding been seen
together, for him to brazenly show up like this... My opinion of him as
incompetent remained unrevised.
But I
couldn't simply ignore him. Leaving Hiiragi with some empty words, I headed to
Yamazaki.
Saying
that he wanted to go somewhere away from others, Yamazaki lead me to the
audiovisual room. Normally the door would be locked, but Yamazaki threaded a
wire into the keyhole and the door opened in no time. The long desk was already
adorned with open snack wrappers and empty bottles, so I conjectured that
Yamazaki and his compatriots made frequent use of the room.
Standing
in front of a large projector, Yamazaki spread his hands like a politician
giving a speech.
"Let's
chat about my circ.u.mstances a bit. My mom and I live alone. She got
tricked by some jacka.s.s who ghosted her, and had me when she was just
seventeen. Around that time, her folks, meaning my gram and gramps, cut ties
with her, so she had to raise me all by her lonesome. She's running f.u.c.kin'
ragged, man, she mans a register at a supermarket in the afternoon and has to
work a nightclub in the evenings. I just wanna treat her, you feel me?
Like, I wanna take her out for barbeque or somethin'. That's where I'm
comin' from."
A story
the world could do without hearing.
"Would
you mind if I helped you cut to the chase? To put it plainly, you're looking
for more money, correct?"
"d.a.m.n,
you catch on quick! That's our favorite cla.s.s rep for ya'!"
I could
tell from his reaction to seeing the corpse that he would eventually try to
extort more money out of me. Here it was.
Of
course, I had no money left. The million I had already given him was my entire
net worth, the result of years of scrimping and saving.
"Yamazaki-senpai.
I do not have any more money."
"Oh?"
"And
although it pains me to point out the failures of another, the body was
discovered because you failed to follow my instructions and bury it properly.
While we both have our dissatisfactions, shall we simply call it good at that?"
"The
f.u.c.k? You got any d.a.m.n proof I didn't bury it right? Who knows, maybe
some wild animals dug it up or somethin'? And besides, there's no need to get
your panties in a bunch. If they can't figure out where the guy was offed,
there's no way in h.e.l.l they could pin it on you."
Had
this man never heard of crisis management?
"Well, I
guess if I hadn't transported it for ya they'd have figured you out in a
heartbeat. And now I gotta deal with all this guilt and s.h.i.+t. It's
keeping me up at night, man. The f.u.c.k kinda person are you, tellin' me to go
dump poor little Maa in the mountains. f.u.c.k, now I feel like turnin'
myself in."
"Senpai,
we would both be in a deal of trouble of the truth of the incident came out.
Dumping a body is a serious crime, you know."
Yamazaki
laughed mockingly.
"Don't
make me f.u.c.kin' laugh. Yeah, I'd be in some trouble. But who gives a
s.h.i.+t about that. But you absolutely can't let the truth get out. That's the
only thing you can afford to give a s.h.i.+t about. Even if it's the tiniest
f.u.c.kin' chance, you can't ignore it."
Apparently
his cunning was the only thing this man was good for. As he surmised, my
previous words had been a hollow threat. It was like telling a man holding you
at gunpoint that he'd go to jail if he shot you. It went without saying who had
the initiative.
"...How
much do you want?"
"Another
million, for now."
For
now.
Those
words stuck in my head, words that indicated that more demands would eventually
be forthcoming.
"Do you
really think a high schooler like myself could quickly come up with a sum like
that?"
"You
say some funny s.h.i.+t, man. The h.e.l.l's that got to do with me?"
The
bell rang. Yamazaki smirked as he thumped me on the back.
"I'm
countin' on ya, killer."
After
saying that, he raised one hand and left the audiovisual room.
The
sound of the door closing echoed throughout the room, cutting through the
silence. The silence in the room felt like it was reproaching my own silence,
so I forced my mouth open.
"Haha..."
My joy
leaked out.
And
when it did,
"Ahahahahahahahahahaha!"
It was
too funny.
"The
h.e.l.l does that have to do with him? The h.e.l.l does that have to do with him
indeed!"
Yamazaki
hadn't doubted me in the slightest. He hadn't doubted that he was on the side
doing the taking. A million yen? There was no way I would pay such a sum.
Yamazaki said some amusing things. I absolutely couldn't let the truth
get out. That was the only thing I could afford to give a s.h.i.+t about.
Quite
so.
Nothing,
least of all money, has anything to do with a man who is about to die.
I had
decided on it from the very beginning. When I couldn't find a n.o.ble individual
to request transportation from, when I couldn't find an accomplice, I realized
something.
As long
as the transporter was also someone I could eliminate, I wouldn't have any
problems.
Yamazaki,
the finest sc.u.m known to man, was the last piece of evidence I needed to
destroy. There would be n.o.body left who knew the truth.
But for
him to mistake himself for being in a commanding position, oh, how precious I
could laugh.
Ryuusuke
Yamazaki.
You
will fall into the hole I dug and die.
It's
that factory. I was at that defunct factory again.
Just like
last time, I exterminated him. I wielded a knife with the intent to kill him.
Not
hesitating with the knife, he provoked me by stabbing at my heart. But that
wasn't enough to cause me to draw back. I had resolved to kill him from the
get-go.
I
thrusted back and stabbed him in the chest.
There
was almost no resistance. But I could sense that it was the real thing. Human
flesh was softer than I had expected, and it gave surprisingly little
resistance.
I
quietly drew the knife from Yahara. Blood spurted out. The blood got on my
face, covering up my sight. The warm liquid was sticky and unpleasant.
Yahara's
body toppled to the floor.
"You
needed to be eliminated. The world would be better off before you committed a
sin that could not be undone."
"Is
that so?"
"What...?"
His
wound should have been fatal, but he simply stood back up as if nothing had
happened.
"What,
you don't follow? I'm saying you ain't able to do stuff like that."
Although
he was still dripping with blood, Yahara looked down on me.
"Just
shut up and die already, d.a.m.n you!"
I
stabbed him again. Actually, unsatisfied by his flesh's give, I stabbed him
over and over.
But
Yahara just stood up again and again, laughing like a madman all the while. He
seemed completely unfazed by his countless wounds.
"Quit
messing with me... Why won't you die! Just die! Die! Die!"
Stab.
Stab. Stab.
Rise.
Rise. Rise.
"Why...
why, G.o.dd.a.m.nit!"
No
matter how many times I stabbed him, Yahara refused to die. He was vomiting
blood, his bowels were hanging out, yet he just kept gazing at me with his
protruding eye and sneering.
"You
can't kill me. Not as long as you're alive, anyway. That's just how it works."
He
spoke with his tongue hanging out and pointed at me.
I gazed
down at myself in suspicion.
"Wh-!"
My body
had been ripped to shreds. Similar to Yahara's... no, exactly like Yahara's.
"Why?
Why is this happening to me! What did you do to me, Yahara?"
"Wait, I
did something? Heh... I didn't do jack s.h.i.+t, man."
"Then...
then what's going on? Why am I covered in wounds?"
"Well
hot d.a.m.n. You still don't know what's going on? Who's the one holding the knife
here? Who's the one stabbing away? Who's the nutcase here?"
It went
without saying, it was—
"Right,
it's you. You're the one f.u.c.king yourself up."
Yahara
caressed my cheek with a blood-soaked hand.
"C'mon,
brother. If you wanna kill me, all you gotta go do is drag your sorry a.s.s to
the top of a cliff and take a dive."
Once I
realized the meaning of his words, my dumbfounded face must have been quite the
sight. Unable to hold it in, Yahara clutched his viscera-drenched stomach and
gave a booming laugh.
"Ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!"
He kept
laughing.
"Ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!"
Before
I realized it, I was laughing too.
It was
so funny I couldn't help but laugh.
It was
the same thing, after all.
Yahara
laughing and me laughing were the same thing, after all.
Our
voices overlapped and joined into one. They were the same from the very start.
There was no way Yahara, who didn't have a body, could laugh, which meant that
I was simply laughing by myself.
If you
put the two of us side-by-side in a mirror, we were reverses of each other. We
were like opposites. But when looked at from the right angle, opposites were
actually identical. It was like how hatred, the opposite of love, was close
enough to its counterpart that they could practically be called the same
emotion.
Black
and white a.s.similated with each other.
In
recognizing that, I made it my strength.
I had
affirmed who I was.
I found
a suitable "stepping stone," so I set my plan into action. It wasn't something
I had planned, but rather a stroke of good fortune. My mind was clear, and I
wasn't about to let a chance like that slip away from me. All that was left to
do was fasten a rope to the roof and place Yamazaki atop the "stepping stone".
Exalted
at this favorable turn of events, I was beginning to make my way home when I
spotted something that surpa.s.sed all my expectations.
I
gasped reflexively.
Was
that Kouta Hiiragi and Ririko Matsumi having a conversation?
Ririko
Matsumi. One of the people I was cautious around. While she wasn't exactly
evil, she was an inorganic substance whose existence held no meaning. Because
she was inorganic, she couldn't interact with humans.
But even
in the face of such an inorganic ent.i.ty, Hiiragi was speaking to Ririko Matsumi
as if they were old friends.
What
exactly was going on here?
This
wasn't something I could simply overlook. I rushed over to Hiiragi and asked
him about his relations.h.i.+p with Ririko Matsumi.
"I
don't know about close, but we've talked a few times."
He's
talked with that inorganic substance "a few times"? How was that even possible?
An odd
sense of unease washed over me. The fact that Hiiragi was abnormal in that
regard was a conclusion I arrived at not from reason, but from instinct.
"Do
have a habit of getting involved with people like her?"
Concealing
my emotions, I dug deeper.
"'People
like her'?"
"Forgive
my wording, but people with problems. Ririko Matsumi, Masato Yahara, and
perhaps we should count Miki Kouzuki as well."
"It's
not like I'm intentionally hanging out with weird people..."
"But
you're awfully close to a number of them. And you don't seem to be particularly
close to anyone else."
"I
mean, it's true that I don't have many close friends..."
"And
you say that you don't seek those kind of people out deliberately? If that's
the case, then perhaps you hold some sort of fascination from their
perspective?"
Hiiragi
was the kind of person who seemed harmless at a glance. His interactions with
Masato Yahara initially put me on guard, but if it hadn't been for that I
likely wouldn't inspected him at all.
But
that was exactly why it was such a serious problem.
If it
turned out that Hiiragi was truly a man who needed to be eliminated like Yahara
or Yamazaki, then that meant that a problem individual was hiding within
somebody I couldn't currently get a read on. If that was the case, then that
meant that the range of people I needed to kill was much wider than I thought.
There would be no end to them.
How
long would I have to carry this purge out for?
Suddenly,
Hiiragi realized that I was looking at him with wide eyes. That wouldn't do. My
emotions were showing.
I
exhaled and calmed my expression.
"I
apologize. It would appear I've said some rather untoward things. Please forget
I said any of that. I guess the incident has just made me a little
high-strung."
If I
was simply high-strung, how high-strung should I be?
The
first thing I needed to consider was why Hiiragi had gotten so close with
Yahara. There were as many detriments to being around him as there were stars
in the sky. As a matter of fact, Hiiragi had earned the trepidation of his
cla.s.smates, and had been unable to make any close friends since. And by
spending time with a delinquent, he found himself in the teachers' bad books as
well.
But in
spite of all that, he had gotten close to Yahara. Such a thing would be
unthinkable would proportionally large benefits.
Occam's
razor would dictate that there was some manner of utility value in that
relations.h.i.+p.
—Utility
value. Was he was interested in the stimulants? Was he interesting in sleeping
with women Yahara could provide him? No... a man with desires so base would
have been outed as evil in an instant. The fact that he was not obviously evil
was the problem.
What
other benefits could there be, then? What could Masato Yahara even be used for,
save stirring the flames of his homicidal urges in order to have him kill
somebody? And n.o.body save a demon would wish for—
—wait,
have him kill somebody?
Was
that line of thinking truly so irrational as to be worthy of immediate
rejection? At any rate, I myself was on the brink of being killed. That was the
unwavering truth.
...What
if, and this is only a hypothetical, what if it was possible to manipulate
Yahara's actions?
I had
to remember the scene I had just seen. Kouta Hiiragi was talking familiarly
with the machine girl, Ririko Matsumi. He was even going out with the
self-proclaimed magus Miki Kouzuki. Was it possible that the two of them had
been teaching him ways to manipulate others? Was I leaping to conclusions?
...But even if it wasn't to that extent, the fact that Hiiragi's circ.u.mstances
were peculiar was true beyond a doubt.
Indeed,
something about Kouta Hiiragi was clearly making me uneasy. There was something
about him that was different from other people.
"I'm
worried about you, Hiiragi."
With
those words, I tested Hiiragi. If he was the kind of person I needed to worry
about, he might understand what I truly meant.
I
prayed that Hiiragi would take my words normally. I didn't want to believe that
there was a strain of evil in this world so wily that I couldn't immediately
identify it.
But
much to my regret, Hiiragi's face scrunched up at my words' disagreeable
nature. He had clearly picked up on their implication.
"What
do you mean by 'worried about'?"
Perhaps
trying to trick me, he asked an innocent-sounding question.
"Hmm? I
mean that I'm worried about you getting caught up in this incident, of course.
What else might I mean?"
I
considered Hiiragi's reactions up until this point. It seemed likely that he
possessed powerful mind-reading abilities. There were too many things that
didn't make sense otherwise.
Now,
let's examine the facts once more.
Would
it have been possible for Hiiragi to have been manipulating Yahara?
The
answer was that it would. Given his level of mind-reading ability, it would be
possible to antic.i.p.ate how the other party would react to what you did and
said. If you applied this knowledge, you could intentionally say and do things
to influence the other party.
I
wasn't sure as to what extent this ability could accomplish. But there was one
thing I was sure of.
Kouta
Hiiragi would have been capable of meddling with Masato Yahara's murder.
The
motive was straightforward. When possessing that much power, it would be only
human to want to test it. And it went without saying that manipulating a
deviant like Yahara would be far more entertaining that manipulating an average
person.
Hiiragi
was putting his revulsion towards me on full display, so I asked him a
question.
"What's
the matter?"
"...I
have to get going."
He left
without answering, practically fleeing. He might have caught a glimpse at my
thoughts just now.
I
didn't know the degree to which Hiiragi had influenced Yahara's actions. But
the conclusion was clear.
—The
fact that I was almost killed was Hiiragi's fault.
A
difficult wrong to forgive.
A
villain I needed to eliminate.
"...He's
next."
After
Ryuusuke Yamazaki, the next person I would eliminate was Kouta Hiiragi.
Now
then, a decision becoming reality warrants but a short digression.
That
night, Ryuusuke Yamazaki fell from the school roof and died.
He died
because he had to die.
That's
all there was to it.
As I
emotionlessly watched Yamazaki's fall from the school parking lot, I considered
how best to corner Kouta Hiiragi.