Father Juan was silent for a moment. Then he said, "Before I was a priest, I served the G.o.ddess. And Her teaching is this: that we are lovable, and She is completely in love with us. Two paths, perhaps? Or is it that you haven't understood the teachings of our Mother Church?"

"Ay," Antonio murmured, crossing himself with his free hand.

"Do you dare to see yourself as worthy of Holy Love?" Father Juan demanded. "Do you have that much courage?"

Antonio kept his head bowed, but she could feel him trembling beside her.

"And Jenn," Father Juan said.

She jumped when Father Juan said her name.

"You have a shadow in your heart as well," Father Juan said. "Yours is also hatred."

She looked at him in surprise. He was standing in front of the candles, and the gauzy yellow light seemed to give him a halo and to make him seem timeless, ageless.

"Of course I hate the vampires," she said. "Don't ask me not to."

"I'm speaking of something else. Someone else," Father Juan said. His expression was so patient, and kind. "The man who betrayed you. Your father."

Jenn's mouth dropped open. "He gave me to Aurora. Heather's a vampire because of him!"

"I'm not talking about his sins. I'm talking about you. Your hatred of him is a shadow in your heart. And while the shadow is there, love cannot grow."

Jenn felt even more anger rushing in, over her. Filling her to overflowing. "But what he did-he betrayed me, nearly got me killed."

"Can't the same be said of Antonio?" Father Juan asked.

Jenn reeled as though he had just slapped her.

"And yet you don't hate him," Father Juan said.

"It wasn't his fault."

"Yes, it was," Antonio said roughly.

She turned to look at him, her heart beginning to beat faster. She could tell by the way his lips pursed that he could hear. Suddenly his eyes flashed red, but before she could jerk away, they were back to brown.

"I wasn't strong enough," he explained. "I couldn't overcome my fear and my evil and my l.u.s.t. I was weak. And for that I am truly sorry."

Jenn swallowed hard.

Father Juan gestured to her hand on top of Antonio's. "I believe that G.o.d has put you two together for a very specific reason. Jenn, you're as broken as Antonio. You've lost the warmth that brought you to me, to learn how to save your fellow man. You've shut down. You need a full heart to be a good warrior."

"No," she began, but Antonio stopped her with a finger pressed against her lips. Then he drew back, and averted his face.

Dumbfounded, Jenn stared at him-the blue-black curls, the ruby cross in his ear. Her heart pounded. She felt confused, breathless.

"I hear it," Antonio whispered. "I hear you wanting. That's your heart. That's life. That's being alive."

"You must turn wanting into giving, both of you," Father Juan said. "Listen to me, Antonio, you are not a Cursed One. No one who is loved is cursed."

"Ay, Padre," Antonio murmured. "How can that be?"

"My children," Father Juan said, "these times weigh heavily on all of us. Your hearts are longing and your souls are yearning. But you won't be able to love until each of you steps out of the shadow and walks in the sun cast by the beloved. That is the way to give love. And giving love is the greatest act of faith there is. Do you believe me?"

Antonio dipped his head. "I have faith, Father. But belief . . ." He tipped back his head and gazed into the darkness of the chapel ceiling. "I'm working on that."

And I don't have faith, Jenn thought miserably. I've tried to, but I don't.

"Jenn, my poor child," Father Juan said, "I can almost read your thoughts. Tell me, what can you place your faith in? Think of something that you can believe in. Search. Hard."

She was silent. Empty.

Antonio spoke softly. "Remember when you used to call yourself just Jenn? You thought you didn't belong on the team. You didn't understand why I . . ." His voice broke. "Why I loved you."

She swallowed down horrible grief as she nodded. Antonio reached over and took a tendril of her hair between his fingertips and stared at it.

"I . . . I have faith in you, Antonio," she blurted. "I have faith that you're trying to be the man you want to be."

Cautiously, yet deliberately, Antonio put his arms around her. They were strong . . . and cold.

"Then you love me in the same way that G.o.d loves me."

"No," Father Juan said. "G.o.d is sure of you. As each of you must become sure of yourself. And then the gift of your love will give us victory over the Vampire Kingdom. That's what the runes have been trying to tell me. I understand that now."

Father Juan turned and gazed at the statue of St. Andrew. "Here beginneth the lesson."

DOVER, ENGLAND.

SKY, JAMIE, LUNE, SOLEIL, AND THE COVEN.

We look like a freakin' parade, Jamie thought as he glanced back at the line of witches following him and Skye.

Well, mostly Skye.

He glanced at her again. Her face was hard, jaw set: one determined witch. She'd have to be. The motley a.s.sortment trailing behind them was doing so because of her force of will. It remained to be seen how many of them would actually fight when it came down to it. Would be an interesting thing to see if they did, though. That'd take the Cursers down a notch or two.

He touched his gun with the wooden bullets, which he had tucked into his waistband. He'd run his final test that morning. It worked. After months of blood, sweat, and tears, it finally worked. He had that and the one with silver bullets as well. His granda would be right proud of the work he'd done on her.

He'd risked a call that morning to Father Juan. Sounded like the whole bleedin' war was about to be centered in Transylvania. It was fitting when he thought about it. There was a kind of poetry to it, if you liked that kind of thing. Himself, he preferred less drama, less irony, and more killin'.

He felt the weight of the gun on his waist. Steady, old girl, you'll get your chance soon enough.

Skye walked quietly beside Jamie, far too busy wrestling with her own demons to even try and begin to take on his as well. He kept fidgeting with a gun holster, and unzipping the leather satchel over his shoulder and glancing inside. She had relived the fight with Estefan a thousand times. She kept picturing his face as he died, and it sickened her every time.

She had broken every vow she had ever made. She was a killer, not just of vampires but also now of witches. Or whatever Estefan was in the end, she thought with a shudder.

Lune and Soleil marched right behind her. Once her best mates, now they were more like her lieutenants. And that makes me what, a general? She had a sudden fleeting taste of what it must have been like to be Eriko, or now Jenn. She hated it. She didn't want to lead. Many of the witches walking behind her would die in the coming battle.

Maybe all of them.

Maybe even her.

And yet all she could do was relive the guilt of killing Estefan over and over again. Even though he had deserved it. Even though he had given them-her-no other choice.

It was me. I made him bleed like that, she thought, though every other witch present had said that they had done the same thing.

She sighed. Holgar wouldn't take it as hard as she was taking it. He had killed before, and it didn't seem to bother him. Maybe it was because he was a werewolf. Maybe it was just that he wasn't a witch who had taken vows to harm none.

"What you thinking, witchy?" Jamie interrupted her thoughts.

She glanced at him. "I was wondering how Holgar is faring," she said after a minute.

Jamie c.o.c.ked his head. "Truth? I'm not sure you know the full story on Holgar. Him killing his girl, y'know."

"Girl?" Skye asked cautiously, heart stuttering for a moment.

"Yeah. Werewolf at the battle at Salamanca," Jamie said. You know, his fiancee. She stayed with his old pack, and they made a treaty with Aurora. She fought us, and he had to kill her."

Fiancee. Skye's head spun. Holgar had killed the woman he loved in that fight. She hadn't know that. And she hadn't been there for him afterward. She'd heard him speak often of a girl he had known back home, who had refused to see that joining with the vampires was wrong. Skye had had no idea they had actually been engaged.

Tears burned her eyes.

The war destroyed everyone and everything that was good and decent and beautiful. That had to end. And if it meant she had to march into h.e.l.l at the head of the coven trailing behind her, so be it.

She could rain fire as well as the next witch.

She blinked at the sudden ferocity of her thoughts. The idea of killing to protect or avenge Holgar seemed so much easier than killing to protect herself. She sighed. It was more proof of how Holgar had stolen her heart and made it his.

"You're doing this because you're jealous," she said. "Trying to drop this on me when you know it'll shatter me. It's beneath you, Jamie."

He ducked his head. "It is that," he agreed. "I'm sorry, Skye. Then again, it seems like there's not a one of us hasn't been b.u.g.g.e.red by this whole bleedin' mess."

In her heart Skye agreed. The war had made monsters of them all. Look at Jamie, trying to diminish Holgar in her heart. But she couldn't deny that she was shaken by what he'd told her. She couldn't picture Holgar killing the girl he'd planned to marry.

They walked a while longer in silence. They pa.s.sed the landing for the commercial ferry that took pa.s.sengers to France. A large fishing boat idled in a protected cove-their boat. It was time to say good-bye to England. When they landed in France, they'd catch a train.

Skye stiffened a moment later, though, when she realized that there were at least a dozen young people cl.u.s.tered near the landing, dressed in warm coats and jackets, watching them.

Her senses went on high alert. Gordon, the witch who had arranged the meeting at the landing, had a.s.sured them that the dock would be deserted, their pa.s.sage secret. Had something gone wrong?

The sun was still high in the sky, so the people couldn't be vampires. They could be minions, though, or mutated monsters. She swallowed hard. Or even werewolves or more Dark witches like Estefan.

"f.e.c.kin' h.e.l.l, what's this? A going-away party?" Jamie asked softly.

Skye shook her head. She called softly over her shoulder to Lune and Soleil. "Keep your eyes out for trouble."

They didn't answer, but she sensed a warming on her shoulders, as if phantom hands had touched her there. Her coven sisters understood. Rea.s.sured, she continued to stride forward, senses alert.

Beside her, Jamie eased a gun out of his satchel. It was the one that fired silver bullets. So he shared her fear that it could be werewolves waiting for them. Though the silver would drop a human or a witch just as fast as a regular bullet.

They came closer, and she saw one ginger-haired girl standing slightly apart, crossbows slung over her back and a quiver of bolts, like Robin Hood.

The girl turned, and Jamie raced forward with a shout.

Alarmed, Skye stared after him for a moment before running to catch up. What had he seen that had set him off? Her heart pounded, and she willed her mind to be calm. If there was magick to be done, better to do it when she had full control of herself.

A dozen paces from the girl, Jamie stopped short, and Skye nearly slammed into him. Gordon was standing a little ways from the girl. It was clear the two had been talking before Jamie and she had shown up.

"Kate! What the f.e.c.kin' h.e.l.l are you doing here?" Jamie demanded.

The girl crossed her arms defiantly. "It's still a free country. It's the cities you have to watch out for."

"Thought you didn't consort with witches," Jamie snorted, nodding toward Gordon. Gordon gave a little wave.

The girl shrugged. "They were good enough for you. Plus I figured the enemy of my enemy-"

"I heard you the first time you said that," he said, cutting her off with a grin. "Come here."

The two embraced in a quick hug, and Jamie practically beamed at her. The girl was younger than he was, and Skye couldn't help but think that she was about the age Jamie's little sister would have been had she not been torn apart by werewolves.

The rest of Skye's coven was arriving, though, and she still had no answers.

"Umm, h.e.l.lo?" Skye said, quickly moving from bewildered to irritated.

Jamie made a face. "Sorry. Skye, this is Kate, a la.s.s from the old country who can kick bleedin' Curser a.r.s.e all day long. Kate, this is Skye, my mate I was tellin' you 'bout."

"You found her? Alive and not converted?" Kate said.

"See for yourself," Jamie said, his grin growing bigger.

Kate gave Skye a once-over. "Nice."

"So, what are you doing here?" Skye asked, cutting straight to the point. There would be time enough later to hear how the two of them had met, and from the enthusiastic greeting she figured that was one story she didn't want to miss.

"Yeah, Kate?" Jamie echoed.

Gordon took that as his cue to join the conversation. He smiled. "I knew Kate and her friends from an incident a few months back. I reached out to them and told them that if they wanted to help kick the vampires back into the shadows, they should meet some friends of mine."