Chapter 722: Speak With Your Conscience

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Li Qianxue’s expression was extremely cold and there was uncontrollable anger in her eyes. However, she still tried her best to control her volume and not let her emotions get out of control.

Su Yuxin entered the study and was doing a project. He said that he would be free to accompany her for a walk in the capital after he was done.

She didn’t want her children to hear her words. No child could accept their parents’ carelessness and favoritism.

She was the only daughter of the Li family. Old Master Li had given her all his love.

After she became a mother, even though she spoiled and doted on Su Peizhen when she was young, she treated Su Yuxin the same, but what about Su Chenghui?

“Su Chenghui, do you dare? Do you dare to say that you didn’t mistreat the other two children against your conscience?”

Some things were already in the past, and she didn’t want to mention it. For the past twenty years, she had thought that she was blind and had misjudged him.

But the children were innocent. Now, he appeared in front of her every day. She knew that he treated her well and wanted to make things right.

But how could he make things right? What could he possibly do to make things right?

Su Qingsang had been mistreated by him for so many years, and they hadn’t even properly celebrated Su Qingsang’s birthday.

Li Qianxue’s questioning made Su Chenghui speechless. He wanted to say no, he wanted to say that he had never mistreated Su Yuxin, but Su Qingsang..

“Qianxue…”

Li Qianxue did not want to talk to him. After glaring at him, she entered the room.

The door opened and closed. Su Chenghui stood in the living room and suddenly realized that the situation in front of him was more difficult than he had imagined.

Su Yuxin had been in the study room previously. He was highly regarded by the professor and had two projects that he wanted to help him with.

He did not hear the argument outside. When he was done with his work, he wanted to go to the guest room to see Li Qianxue, but he heard the door being slammed closed.

“Yuxin, mommy is tired. Go to sleep first. If there’s anything, we can talk about it tomorrow.”

Su Yuxin stood at the door. He was quite smart and immediately figured out the key point of the problem.

When he was in the study just now, half of his idea was to create some opportunities for Su Chenghui. Unlike Su Qingsang, who met him later in her life, his relations.h.i.+p with Su Chenghui were much deeper.

When there was an opportunity, he couldn’t help but want to help Su Chenghui. It didn’t mean that Su Chenghui had to get back together with Li Qianxue.

It was just that he couldn’t bear it. After all, he had seen Su Chenghui’s performance over the past year.

After the father and son washed up, they slept on the bed. This was also something rare.

The Li family was big and had a nanny and servants. After the two children were born, they were specially taken care of. Su Chenghui really didn’t have the experience of sleeping in the same bed as his son.

He turned over and looked at the night sky outside the window. He noticed that his son wasn’t asleep. He didn’t turn back. He just turned over and laid flat on his back while looking at the ceiling above his head.

“Yuxin, do you hate me too?”

Su Yuxin shook his head. “No.”

“Why don’t you hate me? I thought you would hate me.”

“You are my father.”

This was the answer.

Su Chenghui smiled bitterly. There was a hint of disappointment in his voice. “Do you really not hate me?”

“Father.” Su Yuxin didn’t know how to comfort him. He wasn’t good at comforting people. “Mother is just still angry. You just have to wait for her anger to subside.”

Just angry? It was hatred.

“I know I made a mistake in the past, and I have been trying to make up for it, but now I realize that your mom doesn’t want me to make up for it.”

He had always thought that what Li Qianxue hated was his lack of love and his deception.

Only today did he realize that what Li Qianxue hated the most was the damage he had done to the two children. The injury was on the child’s body, and the pain was in the mother’s heart.

To Li Qianxue, the two children were her weak points.

Su Yuxin didn’t know what to say. At this moment, it was inappropriate for him to say anything. Li Qianxue was such a proud woman. Why would she want Su Chenghui to make it up to her?

Not to mention Li Qianxue, even he and Su Qingsang had long pa.s.sed the age where they needed a father’s love.

“Go to sleep.” Su Chenghui realized that he had said too much. In his eyes, his son was still young. He wasn’t willing to transfer this kind of pressure to him.

He turned over and went to sleep on the other side. Su Yuxin looked at Su Chenghui’s silhouette in the darkness.

“Dad, since mom won’t forgive you and doesn’t want your compensation, why don’t you change your method?”

Feeling that Su Chenghui had suddenly turned around, Su Yuxin spoke in a softer voice, “Back then, how did you make mom fall in love with you? Why don’t you just make mom fall in love with you again?”

Let Li Qianxue fall in love with him one more time? It was easier said than done.

That was simply an insurmountable Himalaya Mountain to him.

Su Yuxin also realized that his suggestion wasn’t very useful. He turned around, closed his eyes, and stopped talking.

However, Su Chenghui could not sleep all night because of his words.

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Li Qianxue did not sleep well. She was very picky and recognized the bed.

Most importantly, the bed that she slept on was the one that Su Chenghui had slept on before. Even if she didn’t want to, she could still smell the scent of Su Chenghui that was left behind on the bed.

It was very faint, but she had been married to Su Chenghui for so many years. She already knew everything about him.

The smell made Li Qianxue lose sleep. It wasn’t easy for her to fall asleep, but she had a nightmare of the past.

Yes, that past was really a nightmare for Li Qianxue.

She dreamed about Su Qingsang’s childhood. To her, she could remember very little about the things that happened before Su Qingsang grew up.

But she still had some impression of that incident. After she met Su Qingsang, she had been trying hard to suppress her thoughts.

However, the dream wasn’t under her control.

“Mom?” In the dream, Su Qingsang had turned into a four or five-year-old girl. From the perspective of a bystander, she saw Su Qingsang hiding in the corner of the living room and looking at Su Peizhen, who was pouncing on her, with envy.

Su Peizhen was four to five years old, and it was that time period when chldren liked to play.

She went to kindergarten and was exposed to many new things every day. She liked Li Qianxue and after school every day, she spent a long time telling Li Qianxue about what happened in school.

Today, their outdoor activity was playing with mud. This was absolutely not allowed in the Li family.

Li Qianxue was a germaphobe and did not like dirty and messy homes. However, Su Peizhen had a lot of fun. She was still young at that time and was only a child.

Li Qianxue had always been very patient with her daughter. She looked like a mud monkey and called the nanny to let her bring Su Peizhen to wash up.

At that time, the smile on her face was too gentle. Su Qingsang, who was watching this scene from the corner, felt inexplicably envious.

She took small steps and carefully approached her. At that time, Li Qianxue sat back on the sofa. She was reading a financial magazine in her hand.

“Mom?” Su Qingsang called out very softly the first time. Li Qianxue did not hear it.

Because she did not react, Su Qingsang became a little bolder and took another two steps forward.

“Mom?”

She swallowed her saliva. These two words had already used up all of her courage.

When Li Qianxue heard it, she suddenly turned around. When she saw that the person who came was not Su Peizhen but Su Qingsang, her expression changed.

“Who are you calling Mom?”

Su Qingsang bit her lip and was shocked by Li Qianxue’s att.i.tude. She didn’t know why, but she was still so young and she just wanted to be close to Li Qianxue.

This was due to innate blood-related kins.h.i.+p, but unfortunately, Su Qingsang didn’t understand it back then.

“I, you…” she couldn’t speak clearly. When she met Li Qianxue’s exquisite and beautiful face, she couldn’t help but call out again, “Mom.”

She was also a child of this family, and her surname was Su. She could call Li Qianxue Mom, right?

Li Qianxue threw the magazine in her hand onto the coffee table. She stood up abruptly and looked down at the small figure with a gloomy face.

“I’m not your mother. Don’t call me mother.”

Her upbringing prevented her from abusing or hurting Su Qingsang, but it was impossible for her to accept Su Qingsang. She wasn’t that magnanimous.

Su Qingsang was frightened by her gaze, especially the moment she lifted her leg. She almost thought that she wanted to beat her up.

With a pale face, she turned around and ran away without looking back.

That was a memory from a long time ago. That night, she suddenly had a dream.

Li Qianxue remembered that after that, Su Qingsang always avoided her.

But at that time, she felt that it wasn’t enough. She didn’t want to see Su Qingsang. After all, every time she saw Su Qingsang, it was nothing more than a reminder to her that Su Chenghui didn’t love her.

So she found Su Chenghui.

“It’s fine if you want me to raise your illegitimate daughter. You know my temper. If you don’t want me to kick her out, you can tell her to stay away from me.”

What was Su Chenghui’s reaction at that time? He didn’t say anything. Not only did he not say anything, but he also made Su Qingsang, who was already afraid of her and would take a detour almost every time she saw her, to the back of the main house to live in the annex building with the servants.

If Old Master Li thought it was too harsh, and he eventually let Su Qingsang move back into the room. Su Qingsang might have ended up like a maid in the future.

Su Chenghui, for such a long time, just watched as her daughter became distant from her and became estranged from her.

With so many opportunities, he could have made things right and let everything go back to square one, but what about him?

She hated him.

She hated Su Chenghui as much as her heart ached for her daughter at that time.

Just like how there was no end to the world, her hatred for him also knew no limits.

Li Qianxue woke up from the dream. That strong emotion made her eyes bulge, and they were sore.

She blinked her eyes and couldn’t fall asleep anymore. She got up and looked at the time. She didn’t expect it to be only five in the morning.

Unable to fall asleep, she got up and went to the kitchen to get some water to drink.

However, the moment she stepped out of the room, she was almost frightened by the black shadow on the sofa. It was five in the morning. The sky was about to brighten. His facial features could not be seen clearly. She could only see a blurry shadow.

When she turned on the light and saw that the person was Su Chenghui, Li Qianxue’s face became frighteningly gloomy.

She had just woken up from a nightmare. Now that she saw the person who gave her a nightmare, she naturally didn’t have a good expression.

Li Qianxue glanced at him coldly, and went into the kitchen to get some water.

She had just poured herself a gla.s.s of water to drink when Su Chenghui came over.

He had always walked very softly and didn’t make much of a sound. Li Qianxue was caught off guard when she saw him appear again. The cup in her hand almost fell to the ground.

He was in the dream, and in reality. Li Qianxue’s expression was unsightly. “Su Chenghui, you aren’t sleeping in the middle of the night. Why? Did you have a nightmare?”

Su Chenghui didn’t answer her question. He glanced at Li Qianxue and thought about the decision he made after the entire night.

When he met Li Qianxue’s gaze, it was as if he had lost his memory and he couldn’t remember what he wanted to say. “Qianxue, did you have a nightmare?”

Li Qianxue sneered. “Aren’t you my nightmare?”

After drinking the water in one gulp, Li Qianxue didn’t want to stay any longer. She put down the cup and left.

Su Chenghui held her arm and stared at her face.

“Let go of me.” Li Qianxue’s voice was very cold. “Su Chenghui, let go of me.”

“Yuxin is still sleeping.” Su Chenghui reminded her in a low voice.

“Su Chenghui, don’t put on an act of caring about Yuxin in front of me. It’s disgusting.”

“Qianxue.” Su Chenghui really didn’t want to be at daggers drawn with Li Qianxue every time. He had been working hard to improve the relations.h.i.+p between the two of them.

It didn’t need to change much. As long as Li Qianxue didn’t look at him with such a mocking gaze and didn’t treat him with such an aloofness, it would be fine.

“Yuxin said that he doesn’t hate me.” When he went to Rong City to ask Su Qingsang, she said she didn’t hate him either.

Su Chenghui didn’t know why he said this, but Li Qianxue seemed to understand what he meant and pulled her hand back forcefully.

“Yuxin said that he doesn’t hate you?”

“Yes.”

“What a coincidence. Yuxin isn’t the only one who doesn’t hate you. Qingsang also said that she doesn’t hate you.”

Su Chenghui didn’t quite understand what Li Qianxue wanted to say. Li Qianxue stood up straight and stared at Su Chenghui’s face.

“Your son and daughter don’t hate you because you’re their father. No matter what you do, they will forgive you.”

She took a step forward and placed one hand on Su Chenghui’s chest. She didn’t use much strength, but her beautifully manicured nails almost pierced his chest.

“But I’m different. If they don’t hate you, I will hate you in their place. Su Chenghui, all those years, what you put me through was because I was blind, but I will never forgive you for what you did to the children for the rest of my life. If they don’t hate you, I will hate you for them.”

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When Su Yuxin got up, he found that the atmosphere between Li Qianxue and Su Chenghui was even worse.

Li Qianxue didn’t sleep well last night, so she went back to sleep again. This time, she didn’t have a nightmare, but when she got up, she still didn’t look good.

Seeing Su Yuxin standing there in a daze, she reached out her hand to ask him to go out with her.

“I checked yesterday. There’s a Cantong and Dim Sum restaurant that serves good breakfast. Let’s go.”

Su Yuxin wasn’t in a hurry to follow behind her. Instead, he looked in Su Chenghui’s direction. Su Chenghui sat on the sofa and looked over, but he didn’t seem to have any intention of getting up.

“Yuxin, let’s go. Let’s go have breakfast with Mom.”

Li Qianxue called out again. Su Yuxin couldn’t help but call out to Su Chenghui.

“Dad, want to join us?”

“No need, you guys go ahead.”

Su Chenghui’s expression was very calm. He knew that Li Qianxue didn’t want to eat with him.

“You guys go and eat. I’ll cook some noodles for myself later.”

“Did you hear that? Let’s go.”

Li Qianxue pulled her son and left. She had no intention of paying any attention to Su Chenghui. Su Yuxin was pulled to the door by her.

The moment the door was closed, Su Yuxin saw Su Chenghui sitting on the sofa. That figure was filled with loneliness.