"Go away," she said, and shut the door on his face.
She wanted to press Pony for details about what Windwolf was doing, how Oilcan was coping with her supposed death, if work had continued on her research center...but Pony looked like h.e.l.l. She cleaned the blood from Pony's face, and nearly cried over the heel print bruised into the back of his right hand, his fingers swollen and broken.
"It is nothing," he mumbled. "I heal quickly. I will be better in no time."
Unfortunately, until he was functioning better, there would be no escaping.
She fingered where the power beads had been worked into his hair; the oni had cut his braids off, leaving little tufts of hair. Spell-marked or not, without the stored magical power, Pony's shields would quickly fail. The oni's ability to create "permanent" constructs-like Riki's wings and the Foo dogs-outcla.s.sed the elves' magic that normally required a ley line or it exhausted local ambient magic.
Pony took the lack of weapons and shields personally. "I'm sorry that I have failed you."
"Don't be an idiot. You haven't failed me." And then, because he didn't seem to believe her, she added truthfully, "I'm glad not to be all alone."
"Ah. I see. Then I'm glad to be here."
She couldn't bring herself to scorn him, despite it being silly for him to be happy to be stuck in such a situation. "What are you doing?"
Pony had started to stretch cautiously out on the floor. "I am going to sleep."
"Oh, get in the bed."
"You should sleep in the bed. I can sleep on the floor."
"Don't make me hit you." Tinker pushed him toward the bed. "The bed is huge, and I'm quite small, as everyone keeps pointing out. We can both share it without even noticing the other is in it."
"It wouldn't be proper."
"Get in the bed or I'll sleep on the floor too."
He actually agonized over it before giving in.
What the h.e.l.l had she been thinking?
Fully awake in the darkened room, Tinker listened to the whisper of Pony's breathing. He lay so close she could feel the warmth from his body. His well-defined, muscled body. If she put out her hand, she could touch his hard stomach. Run her hand down his lean flank.
Why had she thought sharing a bed would be a good idea?
She had been scared and angry and frustrated when she went to bed. Now, for some inexplicable reason, she wanted to be held. No, more than held. All too easily, she could imagine being cradled naked in Pony's arms, his mouth on the nape of her neck, his strong hands cupping her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, their bodies thrusting together as his...
That was a truly dangerous line of thought. You're a married woman, idiot! You're a married woman, idiot! She loved Windwolf, so why was she suddenly l.u.s.ting for Pony? She loved Windwolf, so why was she suddenly l.u.s.ting for Pony?
Even pretending to be asleep became impossible. She opened her eyes and found that she could make out Pony's face: the shape of his mouth, the line of his nose, and the soft curve of his brow. Among the elves, she had taken his good looks for granted. After being surrounded by the oni and their alien ideals of beauty, she saw him with new eyes. Looking at him shot something akin to a low-voltage current down through her body to her groin. What would it be like to kiss him? Would he taste like Windwolf? She turned over to resist the temptation to find out.
Why was she feeling this way? She loved Windwolf. Didn't she? Certainly, if she could choose, she would want Windwolf beside her. Did she desire Pony only as a stand in for her husband? Did she only want someone bigger and stronger to make her feel safe and protected? Or did she love Windwolf only because of the s.e.x? Would any s.e.xy elf male do?
What a stupid time to be worrying about it. Pony's honor would never allow anything to happen, and besides, she'd probably never see Windwolf again. The oni were going to kill both of them as soon as the gate was done. There was no point pretending that Tomtom wouldn't dispose of them in some cruel yet offhandedly casual method. The white of exposed bone flashed into her mind. She curled against the flare of fear and misery.
I got away once, she reminded herself. I can do it again.
What was the point of being a genius, if she couldn't outthink her enemies?
Pony was doing exercises when Tinker woke the next morning. Stripped to the waist, he worked through a series of lightning-fast moves that would end suddenly in a perfect pose. Movement. Stillness. An attack. A block. A kick. A parry. Fluid. Precise. Soundless. Muscles upon muscles shifting under sleek skin, he was beautiful to watch. She felt the ache of desire flare up again. She moaned, rolling over to bury her head under pillows. Could this get any more embarra.s.sing?
She realized then that she needed to pee.
She sat up and discovered that in that position, the need was greater.
"Good morning." Pony pressed his fist against his palm and bowed.
"Morning." She eyed the chamber pot in the corner. There was a real toilet off the workshop-could she reach that? No. She felt like she was about to burst. "Could you, um, turn around?"
She tried to pee quietly, but failed due to the acoustic properties of ceramic and the amplifying curvature of the bowl. Horses p.i.s.sed quieter. Was it possible to die of humiliation? Mark up another difference between Pony and Windwolf-she hadn't been self-conscious the first time she used the toilet in front of Windwolf. She tried to act nonchalant, but she could feel the burn of embarra.s.sment on her face as she washed her hands.
"Do you train every morning like that?" she asked to distract both of them.
"Yes. The sekasha sekasha were made to be living weapons. We hone our bodies to perfection." were made to be living weapons. We hone our bodies to perfection."
"You embrace being a weapon?"
"I take joy in my strength." He high-kicked and locked into place, balanced on one foot. "And I like to fight."
He grinned, and suddenly he didn't seem like the mild Pony she knew, but someone wilder, and fiercer, more aptly named Stormhorse. She tried to study him clinically, taking note only of his injuries. His bruises looked days old, mottled purple and faded yellow.
"How do you feel?"
"Whole, except for my hand." He held it out for her inspection. The middle and ring fingers were still swollen and stiff. He flexed them carefully, wincing. "It will be another day or two before I'll be able to hold a sword, perhaps as much as four before I can strike with this hand without fear of causing more pain to myself than my opponent."
"Good. We have to get out of here."
"Out?"
"We need to escape."
Pony looked at her with utter surprise. "But you gave your word."
Tinker winced: She had suspected that this was how the conversation would go, but she hated to have her fears confirmed. "Pony, these are bad, nasty people with not a fleck of honor among them."
"In giving your word, it is only your honor that matters, not the receiver. If you think the person is not worth your honor, you don't extend it."
She checked the impulse to stick her tongue out at him. "Would you rather I break my word or let these monsters take over our world?"
"I would rather die than be the reason you broke your word."
Elves! "This is not about you, this is about them doing whatever they could to break me."
"That's because you are the pivot."
"Yeah, yeah, so everyone keeps reminding me." But, actually, she had kind of forgotten all that between Sparrow's betrayal, Chiyo's breeding, and Pony's capture. Tinker thought she understood the mess until Sparrow waltzed in and clued the oni. How did their knowledge and her promise change things? The seer had said that it was only a matter of time before the oni opened a gate-certainly if Tinker refused to cooperate, they could bide their time; they were immortal and humans made advances in technology daily. That equation had a zero sum-which was why she was cooperating until she could escape. But the seer also indicated that they could only defeat the oni by choosing when the gate was opened, and indicated that the pivot picked the time. If she was in the oni's control, did it mean that the oni controlled the choice?
She decided to bounce her questions off of Pony, who probably had more experience in these seer-type of things. "Sparrow told the oni that the only way to bind me was with ties of my own making..."
"Sparrow?"
Oops, she forgot Pony didn't know that little piece of nastiness. "She's working with them. They had me fooled into thinking I was on Onihida, but I figured it out and got away last night. Sparrow recaptured me and brought me back to them."
Pony darkened with anger, and he stalked about the room as if looking for something to vent his rage on. He growled out Elvish she didn't recognize, but they sounded like obscenities.
"Pony, I'm trying to figure out what the seer meant."
"Forgiveness." He fell silent, but he continued to stalk about the room.
"Do you know if the seer said anything more about me being the pivot?"
"She did not, although closely pressed by all. 'Bind the pivot,' was all she said. 'If the pivot be true, then the battle can be won. If the pivot proves false, all will be lost.' "
Tinker tried to wrap her mind around it, but Sparrow's translation was making it difficult. "Sparrow told the oni that they'll only be able to hold me with promises freely given. Has the oni won merely by making me promise? Is it just the words, or..."
"Sparrow often hears what she wants to hear," Pony interrupted her. "The seer isn't saying that getting you to make promises will win the battle. The seer said 'if the pivot be true true' which means you must keep all your promises, no matter to whom."
"Oh, you must be kidding."
"No."
"I can't make them a gate."
"You must. You promised."
"Th-that doesn't follow logic," Tinker protested.
"Seeing into the future is like having a gleaming thread appear in the darkness. You must walk that path, no matter how treacherous, to reach the foreseen outcome. If you step off it, you're lost from sight, and both you and your goal become unknown again."
"So, although it flies into the face of everything sensible, the only way to stop the oni...is to do...what they want."
"What they forced you to promise."
She shook her head. No. It didn't make any more sense out loud or stood on its head. "What if being 'true,' is just 'loyal'? I can't be 'loyal' to the elves if I'm making a gate for the oni."
"No. You're confusing words. Those don't mean the same thing."
She winced. "They're synonyms, right? Close to the same meaning."
"True only means that one keeps their word of honor. It is a word applied to head of households and clan leaders as they interact with equals or enemies."
If she got out of this, she had to smack Tooloo a good one. Obviously when the half-elf taught her Elvish, any approximate English word would work, to h.e.l.l with confusion that other meanings of the English word might cause.
"Domi, you swore not only on your honor but on the honor of your house. For an elf, there is no stronger oath."
Yeah, that was why she used it. She wanted to scream. What an irrational mess. "I'm not really an elf! I'm a human with funny ears. I didn't know what Windwolf intended with the spell. I'm not even sure why Windwolf made me this way. If you love someone, don't you take them as they are?"
"Domi, I am young for an elf, but I am over a hundred. I grew up in a large city in the Easternlands. Many elves live there, but in a hundred years, one meets most of them. And in all that time, I have never met anyone like you. Not a single person, having met you, has questioned Windwolf's desire to prolong your life. You blaze like a star. You don't seem to see that, but then you surround yourself with people nearly as bright as yourself. You raise people up to your heights. Even if Windwolf did not love you, he would not want to see your brilliance put out."
She burned in embarra.s.sment. "Me? Blaze?"
"From your wit to your confidence to your compa.s.sion, you are an amazing person."
"Windwolf barely knew me when he proposed."
"After living so many years, if you're wise, you learn your own heart. You know when you meet someone that 'this person I can be friends with,' or 'this person I can build a friendship with-it will be difficult work-but it may be may be very sound,' or 'this person I will never be friends with.' There are times, though, where it seems like magic; you look at a person and your soul opens up and recognizes a true love. Windwolf looked at you and believed you are one he could live forever with. And in some ways, I am the same." very sound,' or 'this person I will never be friends with.' There are times, though, where it seems like magic; you look at a person and your soul opens up and recognizes a true love. Windwolf looked at you and believed you are one he could live forever with. And in some ways, I am the same."
She looked at him. "What?"
He dropped to one knee and took her hand. "Domi, do you think I would pledge my life to you, be willing to die for you, if I did not in some way, love you?"
"You love me?" she repeated, stunned.
"You are my domi domi. And in all ways, you have proved the worth of my decision. You have protected me, as I have protected you. A holding is like a marriage, where trust runs deep. And in only a few days, I knew that to be beholden to you would be a good thing."
That threw her into a whirlwind of emotions, but the door opened behind Pony, saving her from discovering what dangerous thing might arise from that chaos. A gale force of alarm blasted through her, scouring away everything else.
There was an entire squad of oni warriors with Riki to escort her and Pony back to the workshop. Ironwood timbers sat stacked just inside the side door, which was padlocked shut again. A crew of humans sat waiting. They were Asians in blue jeans, T-shirts, and work boots.
Tinker checked in confusion. "Who are they?"
"They're the carpenters to make the frame out of the ironwood," Riki explained. "I thought since you designed the framework yesterday, that you'd want to get started on building it. We've got a tight deadline."
"Wait, isn't this like your ultra-secret hideout? What the f.u.c.k are they doing here? Did you kidnap them all? Are you going to kill them when they're done?"
Riki blinked and glanced again at the carpenters. "Oh, no, they're not humans. They're oni permanently disguised as humans, sort of like how the yap dogs were those big monster things. We had to immigrate them into Pittsburgh under Chinese visas."
Tinker thought of the sprawling Chinatown on the Northside. "Oh s.h.i.t, don't tell me all the Chinese are oni."
"Okay." Riki walked away.
She was growing sure that Riki had told her one truth-a gate had only recently opened from Earth to Onihida. Too many little things were pointing at it: the throwaway comments about Earth-born oni, the carpenter's obvious awkwardness with the most basic of power tools, the famine-obsessed cook, the brown rice which turned out to be a luxury item not served to the carpenters, to their dismay. The list grew the entire morning. When she believed she was on Onihida, she hadn't paid attention-that she was no longer on Elfhome had been proof enough for her. Now she couldn't stop wondering about it.
She had delegated building the framework to Riki so she could concentrate on limiting the veil effect and making it the primary function of the new gate. Her biggest fear was she'd only swap the dimensional side effect with the jump capabilities of the gate and accidentally send Pittsburgh to Alpha Centauri. An hour of running models rea.s.sured her that if she did, it would be a very small chunk, most likely only the oni compound itself. Small loss there.
Her mind, however, kept trotting back to the oni's door to Onihida. Riki had said it was in an inconvenient spot; obviously it was located outside of the U.S., or the Chinese visas wouldn't be needed. Certainly, if the two doors were on opposite sides of the planet, it could be called inconvenient.
She jerked to a halt. Luckily only Pony noticed.
"What is it?"