"All right." He set her back onto her feet. "Let's go to the Faire."
The first booth beyond the gate was a portable shrine to Redoeya; she paused to clap and bow to the statue and drop a dime into his silver-strewn hands. She considered, eyes closed, hands clasped. What was it that she wanted? In earlier years she had prayed for things as simple as winning something from one of the booths. Searching her heart, she found only conflicting desires. Finally she prayed simply: May I figure out what it is I want in life. May I figure out what it is I want in life.
"Why do you do that?" Nathan had hung back, looking a mix of annoyed and bewildered.
"I always do that." She headed for the sweet bun stands as Faire custom number two; one needed to get them fresh and hot. "Tooloo said that if Grandpa wasn't going to put me in the protection of human G.o.ds, then she'd see me protected by the elfin ones."
He made a face.
"What?"
"Oh, I was fairly sure you weren't Catholic, but I expected you to be at least Christian."
"And?"
"Nothing."
Nathan bought sweet buns for both of them, and they drifted on, pulled by the tidal force of moving bodies.
There was more of everything at the Faire than she'd ever seen before. Another row had been added to the basic grid to accommodate the additional booths. Despite the extra s.p.a.ce, more people strolled through the aisles: elves dressed in human fashions, humans dressed in elfin fashion, parents with infants, couples of mixed races, and most surprisingly of all, armed guards of both races. Tinker had never seen on-duty guards at the Faire before. She wasn't sure if the tension she felt came from the armed presence, or her own sudden unease with Nathan.
"I can't believe there are armed guards here," she said to Nathan as they pa.s.sed the third guard, her dark EIA uniform and flat black gun a black hole for attention.
"The viceroy was nearly murdered twice," Nathan said. "And then there's the whole thing with the smuggling ring. With this many people in one place, it's the smart thing to do."
"I don't like it."
"You wouldn't have ended up tangling with that saurus if there'd been more than Windwolf and his bodyguard at the Faire."
Tinker flashed to that day, the saurus standing with a foot pinning the lower half of Windwolf's bodyguard to the ground and his upper half in its mouth. In an image that haunted her nightmares, the saurus pulled upward, stretching the guard's body obscenely long before shaking its head, tearing the male in half. She shuddered. "Let's not talk about that."
But once called up, she couldn't stop thinking about the day. Strange how she couldn't recall Windwolf's location until he was yelling in her face to run, and how, even now, she didn't remember him as wounded, only angry.
In a sudden rewrite of history that was almost dizzying, she realized that Windwolf had lost a friend that day, not only torn to shreds but also eaten. How long had they known each other? A hundred years? Poor Windwolf! No wonder he had been so angry.
"Guess." Nathan interrupted her thoughts.
"What?"
"So guess what they named the baby."
Baby? She glanced around and spotted a human woman showing off her baby to curious elves. She had always thought it odd that elves seemed fascinated by babies, but considering what Windwolf had said, a young adult elf may have never seen an infant in his or her life. She had to admit there was something intriguing about the miniaturization of a being that babies represented, but they were, on a whole, too fragile for her to deal with. She supposed that if someday she had "kids" she would have to deal with "babies"-an utterly frightening thought.
Nathan was still waiting for her to guess the baby's name and was growing impatient.
"I don't know the mother. Who is she?"
"What?" A frown quirked at the corner of Nathan's mouth as he scanned the brightly dressed crowd. "No. Not her," he said, spotting the baby being pa.s.sed around the knot of adults. "My sister's baby. Guess what they called my niece."
Oh, yes, his sister Ginny lived in Bethel Park. She had been waiting for Shutdown to go to Earth in order to have her second child, but the baby came a week early, and she delivered at Mercy Hospital. When Tinker had talked to Nathan before Shutdown his sister hadn't named the baby yet.
"Oh. Um. After you?" Was there a female version of "Nathan"?
"No. Mercy. Mercy Anne."
Yuk! Tinker tried to keep her face neutral and made polite noises. Luckily they'd collided with the ma.s.s of people listening to the musicians onstage at the edge of the Faire ground. She didn't recognize the group's name, but they were a common mixed-race band, blending the raw American rock beat and guitars with traditional elfin instruments and melodies. They featured an olianuni olianuni, and an obvious master playing it, his mallets a blur as he hammered. The guitars snarled around the rich deep bell-like melody beat out by the olianuni olianuni player. The lead singer was human, growling out a song about the shortness of human life and the reckless abandonment in which the race embraced its fate. In a high pure counter, the elfin backup singer chanted out the thousand blessings of patience. player. The lead singer was human, growling out a song about the shortness of human life and the reckless abandonment in which the race embraced its fate. In a high pure counter, the elfin backup singer chanted out the thousand blessings of patience.
"Want to dance?" Tinker shouted to Nathan, bobbing in place to the beat of the music.
"Actually, I was working my way to something. Can we find someplace quieter to talk?"
"Okay." Still moving with the beat of the song, she threaded her way through the crowd, trusting him to find a way to follow.
"You know"-he caught up with her beside a fishing booth, where people were trying to fish brightly gleaming pesantiki pesantiki out of a pool with small paper nets-"if you let me go first, I'd open up a path for you to follow." out of a pool with small paper nets-"if you let me go first, I'd open up a path for you to follow."
"Then all I could see would be your back. You can see over me. Here, let's sit."
The next booth down was the okonomiyaki okonomiyaki cart that usually sat in Market Square. Side benches folded down from it, and there were banners hanging down from the bamboo awning to give the deception of privacy. cart that usually sat in Market Square. Side benches folded down from it, and there were banners hanging down from the bamboo awning to give the deception of privacy.
"You're still hungry?" Nathan asked.
"I didn't get to eat a lot at the enclave." She felt a little guilty. Enclaves charged a set price that was rather steep. She held up the bag of silver dimes. "Let me pay."
"No, I'll pay." Nathan thumbed out some coins to the Asian man on the other side of the griddle.
They ordered their toppings, and the chef started to mix up the eggs, water, flour, and cabbage for the pancake.
"So?"
"The family across the street from my sister decided to emigrate back to the States, and they signed over their house to the EIA. They had a nice place: a four-bedroom Cape Cod with a two-car garage, and a natural-gas furnace with a wood burner backup system."
"Your point being?"
"Well, it got me thinking," Nathan said. "The house would be a nice starter place for you and me."
"What?" Her cry startled the chef.
"It's a nice place, well maintained. We could nab it now and move in later."
She could only stare at him in surprise.
"We put up curtains," Nathan said. "Buy a few pieces of furniture, and no one would know the difference. It needs sprucing up, so we take our time painting and such."
"You want to live together?"
Nathan took her hand. "I want to marry you."
"Whoa, whoa, whoa. What happened to waiting until I'm nineteen? I thought this was just a date."
"I don't mean right away. I don't want to rush you."
"I don't know-talking about marriage on a first date sounds like rushing."
Nathan winced. "Sorry, I suppose it is. It's just that this house is so perfect. My brother-in-law took me through the place. The rooms are large and sunny, the woodwork is all natural, there's this marvelous stone fireplace in the living room, and there's a level backyard for kids."
Kids?
Her face must have reflected her shock. He laughed.
"It's only eleven months until you're nineteen. In less than two years you'll be twenty." Nathan sounded like he was trying to convince himself. "We've got to look ahead. Sure there are lots of houses out there. Most of them have been standing empty for years; the pipes and windows are broken and roofs need to be replaced. This place is cherry."
"Nathan, I really meant it when I said we should date to see if we liked one another as more than friends. I don't know if I want to marry you."
There was a moment of hurt hidden quickly away. "I'm sorry, Tink; I shouldn't be pushing. I'm the one, after all, who wanted to wait until you're nineteen."
"Yeah." Tinker shook her head vigorously and then looked down, embarra.s.sed to be suddenly so eager to wait. "Is this about the mark? You're rushing because Windwolf made me part of his family?"
"That has nothing to do with it," Nathan said, so surlily that she figured it had everything to do with it.
"Oh, come on, Nathan, he's the viceroy. He's rich and powerful and could have any woman, elf or human, that he wants."
"Exactly."
"Look at me!"
"You're beautiful."
"Not when you compare me to high-caste elf females. You've seen them; everyone on the street stops and stares until they're out of sight."
"Maybe he has a thing for human women," Nathan said.
The possibility that Windwolf might like human women made her insides go weird, like someone had dropped them through hypers.p.a.ce to some point billions of miles from where she stood. She tried to root herself back to reality and ignore the possible "delicate arrangements" that the brazier might indicate. "I saved his life, twice now. He feels indebted to me. I'm an orphan. He's an elf; he's nearly twelve times my age. He's probably just acting like a father figure to me."
"This has nothing to do with Windwolf." Nathan reached out and took her hand. "It's just made me think, that's all. You're a legal adult. There's no real real reason to wait." reason to wait."
Having just compared herself to elfin females, Tinker felt a stab of sympathy and guilt for Nathan. How could he compete for her attention when just the idea of Windwolf kept making her feel all goofy? Nathan's interest in her had been intriguing until he started to talk about marriage. All of Windwolf, from his thoughts to his interest, did weird things to her emotions.
Nathan was waiting for an answer, and she didn't know what to say. She scrambled for something, and came up with, "I've got to go pee."
Nathan let go of her hand, and she fled. Why did he have to go all serious on her? Why couldn't he just take it slow and let her get used to the idea? And what was that scene at the parking lot? Was he going to try that again the moment they were alone in his car? Did he think they were going to have s.e.x tonight?
Suddenly she just wanted to be home in her own bed, alone.
She headed for the Faire entrance, but her tight skirt and high heels were making it difficult to run away. And how was she going to get home? Like a fool, she hadn't brought money enough for a taxi. She could call Oilcan, but how would he react? He might think something worse had happened between her and Nathan-and that would be bad.
She hit a patch of soft dirt, and her heels sunk deep, making her trip. Hands caught her before she fell, righting her.
"Thank y-oh." Her words dried in her mouth as she realized it was Windwolf holding her lightly.
What was it about him that inspired so many emotions all at once? She peered up at the viceroy for all of the Westernlands. Gosh, what did she even call him? Your Majesty? All she managed was a faint, "Hey."
"I am glad to see with my own eyes," Windwolf said as quietly, "that you are well."
"I'm okay." She balanced against him while she took off her shoes. High heels in dirt being mistake number ten or eleven for her tonight. "Maynard took care of me."
"Ah, good." Windwolf relieved her of her shoes, handing them off to one of his guards. "Come with me. My car is waiting."
"Great!" She took a step forward and then stopped. "Oh, wait. I told Nathan I was just going to-um-going to the rest room. He'd worry if I just disappeared." He'd also probably call out a manhunt for her, and that might get the NSA involved.
"Describe this Nathan. I will send someone with a message."
Oh, that was tempting. Whatever had caused her to bolt suddenly-it wasn't quite fear, she told herself, just huge anxiety-receded in Windwolf's presence. "No." She held his hand tightly, drawing strength. "I should go back and tell him myself." Tell Nathan what, she wasn't sure. Oh, G.o.ds, what a mess. "It would be proper."
Windwolf bowed his head, and they started to retrace her route. Now, what was she going to say? Nathan, I'm going home with Windwolf. Nathan, I'm going home with Windwolf. No. No. Windwolf is taking me home. Windwolf is taking me home. No. No. Windwolf is dropping me at my loft. Windwolf is dropping me at my loft. That sounded innocent enough. Nathan was going to ask why. That sounded innocent enough. Nathan was going to ask why. Because-because-because you're scaring the s.h.i.t out of me. Because-because-because you're scaring the s.h.i.t out of me. "Oh, be real, this is Nathan after all." "Oh, be real, this is Nathan after all."
"Pardon?" Windwolf leaned closer to hear her mumbled comment.
"Nothing. I'm just trying out apologies."
The crowd had been parting like waves when Nathan appeared before them, a rock to smash up against.
"What's going on here?" Nathan stared at Tinker's right hand holding Windwolf's.
Tinker hadn't even been aware that she still held tight to Windwolf. She fought the urge to s.n.a.t.c.h her hand free. She wasn't doing anything wrong. "I-I-I need to go home. Windwolf is dropping me at my loft."
"I'll take you home." Nathan took her left hand.
"Nathan!" she whined. Why did he have to be so dense? "Things went too fast tonight. I just want to go home."
"So I'll take you home." Nathan gave her hand a gentle tug.
Windwolf stepped in front of Tinker and caught Nathan's wrist. "No. She is coming with me."
"Look, you stay out of this." Nathan dropped into cop mode, and his voice went hard. "This is between me and her. Elves have no say in this."
"You did not listen to her. She is saying no. Now let her go."
The two males locked angry gazes at one another, ignoring her completely, while each holding on to one of her hands. She felt like a bone between two dogs.
"Nathan!" She tried pulling free of him. "Look, I just need some time to think about things. Give me time."
Nathan finally looked at her, and there was a world of pain in his eyes. "I'm sorry if things went too fast. Just don't go away with him."
Things went too fast? No, you went too fast! But she didn't say it aloud because she'd used the phrase first: It bothered her that he didn't own up to his actions, though. "Please, Nathan, let me go." But she didn't say it aloud because she'd used the phrase first: It bothered her that he didn't own up to his actions, though. "Please, Nathan, let me go."
Nathan glanced hard at Windwolf, but then sighed and dropped her hand.