One night, as he was recovering from one of these long, deep fits of abstraction, before the jeweler's window, he saw that Alicia Pardo and her friend Candelas were really drawing near. They, too, had seen him.
Upset, almost speechless, the student saluted them. Alicia affectionately pressed his hand; and now more strongly than ever he breathed that violet odor which had perfumed all his dreams of theft.
The girl asked:
"Well, what are you doing here?"
"Nothing much, only pa.s.sing a little time."
Alicia inspected the shop window.
"Ah, yes, yes, you were looking at my necklace, weren't you?"
"Yes, that's just what I _was_ doing."
And as he said this, he blushed deeply, because this confession was equivalent to another, that he was drawing closer to her. Smilingly Candelas peered at the student. Alicia added with cruel malice:
"You know, dear, I asked him to get it for me."
"Yes, I know, I remember," said Enrique.
He spoke sadly. Alicia began to laugh.
"Well, how about it? Are you really thinking of giving it to me?"
"_Quien sabe?_"
Sudden anger had endowed his face with virile and aggressive tension.
Forehead and lips grew pale. Candelas, good-natured in a careless way, tried to salve his misery.
"You'd better leave us women alone," said she. "We're a bad lot. Believe me, the best of us, the most saintly of us, isn't worth any man's sacrificing himself for."
Alicia interrupted her friend, exclaiming:
"What a little fool you are, to be sure! We were only joking. Do you think Enrique would really do any such crazy thing for me? What nonsense!"
Proudly the student repeated:
"_Quien sabe?_"
Then, after a little silence, he added:
"I don't know what makes you talk that way. You've never proved me. You don't know what kind of a man I am!"
Two months earlier, the laughing, mocking words of these girls would have disconcerted him. But now he felt himself transfigured; he felt new, vigorous ardors in his blood. He no longer doubted. An extraordinary dominating concept of his own person had taken possession of him; and this concept of his youth and boldness, of his strength and courage, had exalted him like strong drink. In a single moment the youth had grown to be a man.
Alicia closely observed him. Her mouth grew serious, and under the parting of her hair, that lay symmetrically on her forehead, her eyes became pensive. She knew little of primitive man's hunting-ways, but was expert in judging characters and stirring up pa.s.sions. And though she did indeed care little for books, men's consciences lay open to her eyes; which kind of reading is far better. Her keen instincts, rarely amiss, perceived something dominant, something desperate in the student's voice and gestures. She judged it wise to end the conversation.
"So long, Enrique. By the way, Manuel's been asking for you, a number of times."
"Thanks. Give him my best regards."
"When are you coming to see me?"
Still shrouded in gloom, Darles answered:
"I don't know, Alicia. But you can be sure I'll come as soon as I have the right to."
In this allusion to what he now called his duty, trembled indefinable bitterness and pride.
When the student found himself alone, rage seized him--rage that, unable to express itself in words, found vent in tears. He felt convinced that his answers, somewhat mysterious, had duly impressed the girl. Yes, they had been good. Now his conduct must back up his words, or he would lose all his gains. Boastingly he had pledged himself to something very serious. Nothing but ridicule could fall on him, if he failed to make good his offer. This meant he must go through, to the bitter end.
"Yes, I will become a thief," he pondered.
Calmer now, he took his way to his tavern, where he ate a peaceful supper, and went home and early to bed. He slept well, with that peace which irrevocable decisions produce in minds long racked by stress and storm. It was noon when he awoke. He got up at once, put on clean clothes and wrote his father a quiet letter that contained nothing except his studies. Then he tied up all his books and went down to the street with them enveloped in a big kerchief.
"They've all got to be sold," thought he. "If I'm caught, I'll need money. If I get away and nothing is ever found out about me, I can get them back, some time."
After having disposed of the books, he went to a fashionable restaurant and had rather a fine dinner. In all these little details, so different from the order and simplicity of his usual life, you could have seen a certain sadness of farewell. After dinner, he went to drink coffee on the terrace of the Lion d'Or, and stayed a while there, observing the women. Many, he saw, were beautiful. As yet he had decided nothing definite about what he meant to do. He preferred to let things take their own, impromptu course. Sometimes great battles are best decided off-hand, on the march, in the imminent presence of danger.
At exactly six o'clock he got up, crossed the Calle de Sevilla and went through the Carrera de San Jeronimo toward the Puerta del Sol. The street-lamps and the lights in the shops had not yet begun to burn. It was an April evening; a cool, fresh, damp breeze wafted through the streets. Far to the west, shining in rosy s.p.a.ce, Venus was shedding her eternal beams. Darles went peacefully along, his calm movements in harmony with the perfect equanimity that had taken possession of him.
When he reached the Ministerio de la Gobernacion, he stopped a while to watch the street-cars, the carriages, the crowds circulating about him.
Then the idea that, before long, these people would catch him, rose in his mind once more.
"To-morrow," thought he, "I'll be seeing nothing of all this."
In his eyes gleamed the sadness of a last farewell. It seemed to him he had gone too far, now, to change his resolution of stealing.
A romantic desire, almost a dandified pride, that drove him to make good with the girl, formed the basis of his madness, rather than any carnal desire. This desire, which had at first possessed him, had now evolved into a refined and purely artistic sentiment, a wish to accomplish some heroic deed. At last a.n.a.lysis, merely to get possession of Alicia had become unimportant. The most vital factor, practically the only one now, was to a.s.sume in her opinion a splendid heroism. Darles wanted to show this kind of heroism, which the adventurous soul of woman always admires. He was finding himself on a par with great criminals, with ill.u.s.trious artists, with multimillionaires who wreck their fortunes in a single night, with every man who steps outside the common, beaten paths. And the poor student, reflecting how the girl would always remember that an honorable man had gone to jail for love of her, thought himself both happy and well-paid.
Absorbed in these chimerical fancies, Enrique Darles came to the jeweler's shop in Calle Mayor. Its lights had just been turned on, and now they flung bright radiance across the sidewalk. The boy stopped in front of the window, which was filled with blinding splendor. There, in the middle of the display, was the terrible necklace of emeralds. It was hung about a half-bust of white velvet. Darles studied it a long time, and at first felt that mingled chill and fear which the sight of firearms will sometimes produce in us. But soon this sensation faded.
The green light of the emeralds exalted him. It seemed to exercise a kind of magnetic attraction, resistless as the force of gravitation.
Nevertheless, the boy still hesitated. He still understood that in this little s.p.a.ce between him and the shop-window a great abyss was yawning.
But suddenly he thought:
"Suppose Alicia should see me here, now?"
This idea overthrew his last fears. With a sure hand he opened the shop door. He walked up to the counter. His step was easy and self-possessed.
A tall, finely-dressed clerk, with large red mustaches, advanced to meet him.
"What can I show you, sir?" asked the clerk.
With an aplomb that just a moment before would have seemed impossible to him, Enrique answered:
"I'd like to see that emerald necklace in the window."
"Yes, sir."
Darles glanced about him. He noted that a white-bearded old gentleman--doubtless the proprietor--was closely observing him from the rear of the shop. Already the student had made up his plan of attack. He would s.n.a.t.c.h the jewels and break for the door. He had left this door ajar, on purpose.
The clerk came back with the necklace, which he laid on the moss-green cloth that covered the show-case. Enrique hardly dared touch it.