CHAPTER 56

I shook my head, “I don’t…”

I didn’t finish my sentence because I didn’t want to explain myself.

“You don’t want revenge? Do you already forgive them?” The man was very interested, even though he could see that she put up walls, to stop him from getting closer.

I didn’t nod or shake my head. After a minute of silence, and sighing to having to explain, I looked at him, “My forgiveness isn’t worth much.”

The man begged to differ and scoffed, “You…Why do you lower yourself so much? Was it because of how they had treated you?”

I let out a laugh, “You misunderstand.”

Without me telling him how he misunderstood, the man sighed, “How did I misunderstand?”

“I don’t think I’m worthless at all. Granted, I have flaws, but I accept my flaws wholeheartedly. My forgiveness wouldn’t mean much, because that would be all it is. I can’t turn back time, I can’t change someone’s thoughts…What will my forgiveness be…Especially if they don’t want it to begin with! If I wanted my mother died, through some kind of revenge…My words to her, when I last saw her, wouldn’t have been ‘why?’.”

I understood my own words, knowing that if I did feel something like revenge, it was probably something that had attracted the ‘other’ side within me, but at the moment, I was still ‘good’ and I honestly didn’t feel like I needed to get revenge.

But, the man didn’t quite understand me and said, “Then why was your first word ‘why’?”

I laughed to the obvious question, “Obviously because I didn’t understand!”

Truly, why would someone use a poison, that you get beheaded for?

Why didn’t she just use another method…Or just deal with it!? Normally, you have to build a bridge and walk over it…Did she realize that she had walked into the mud? I honestly didn’t understand!

The man frowned, remembering that she didn’t know, “She had said that you were the reason why her daughter had to rush to leave her side.”

With his words, I fell into contemplation. Blinking and putting my head to the side, looking even more charming to the man beside me.

My red, sinister eyes couldn’t look as innocent and sweet as the rest of me, making him chuckle.

With this sudden thought, he finally got curious and wanted to ask about her red eyes, but she interrupted his thoughts.

“Uh!”

Now I understand! Geez, to attempt to kill someone for that reason…Was it worth it? It really amazed me that this kind of era was so p.r.o.ne to people killing others…Was everyone short sighted? Did they have nothing better to do then to get themselves into trouble? Was that their ‘fun’?

Having been ‘living’ here for quite some time, and without anything going wrong, I sighed.

What’d I say, this era is doom!

The man thought her response was lacking, especially if she just found out why someone wanted to kill her, and nearly succeeded. “Don’t you desire revenge for that? Even now, I’m not sure how you survived from her evil deed!”

Ask me to help you…Let me tell you what I’ve done, my girl!

I looked at him and frowned back, “If something is to blame…Mmm…” I picked at the dirt on the ground, while in thought, “It’s probably herself, for not bringing her daughter up probably…Yeah…And, what’s that got to do with me?”

The man sat up straighter.

Wait, what is she saying? I talk about revenge and she talks about blame…

“What do you mean?” He asked, completely confused.

I sighed, “The reason why she did what she did, was because her daughter was leaving earlier?” I asked.

“Yes, she had to leave because your father and grandfather wanted to protect you, but didn’t want to hurt Gabriella.”

Protect me? Father…

I nod my head, I wasn’t a hundred percent sure before, but hearing this, I decided to finish what I was talking about first, “My point!”

After I finished my sentence, I thought about Talon…

Didn’t the man say that Talon was sick?

The man looked at her with wide, puzzled eyes, “What is your point!?”

I was startled.

My point? About what? Now I’ve forgotten what we were talking about…

With my oblivious eyes, Matthew fell into a strange silence.

Did she…Lose focus, or the point that she was trying to make? What in the world is going on? Wait…Is she playing with me?