"There is no best," he'd said during his dream earlier. Holding his head. Pulling his hair out. But he was talking about his version of Morton's Fork. His choice. Janie knows Henry couldn't have known the true choicea"he didn't know about Miss Stubin and her blindness, her hands. He still doesn't know, probably, unless she told him. After.

7:03 a.m.

Janie's brain won't let it die.

Because what if?

What if Henry's brain problem actually wasn't a real illness, like a tumor or aneurysm, that normal people have?

What if . . . what if it was a consequence?

The migraines, the pain. Pulling his hair out. As if there was so much pressure.

From not using the ability.

Pressure from not going into other people's dreams.

So much pressure, parts of his brain exploded.

"Noo-o," she says softly.

Sits there, frozen.

In shock.

And then she drops her head. Rests her cheek on the desk.

Groans.

"s.h.i.t, Henry," she says softly. She sighs and closes her eyes, and they begin to sting and burn. "You and your Morton's f.u.c.king Fork."

THE LAST DAY.

Thursday, August 10, 2006, 7:45 a.m.

Janie still sits at Henry's desk. In shock. Denial.

But deep down, she knows it's true. It has to be. It all makes sense.

Can't believe it all comes down to a totally different choice than what shea"and Miss Stubina"had thought all this time.

Not between isolation and being blind and gnarled.

But between being blind and gnarled, and isolating until your brain explodes.

"Gaaah!" Janie shouts. That's one great thing about this little house out in the middle of nowhere. She can shout and n.o.body calls the police.

She slumps back in the desk chair. Then slowly gets up.

Falls on the bed and just lies there, staring at the wall.

"Now what?" she whispers.

No one answers.

9:39 a.m.

She gets up. Looks around the little shack. Shakes her head.

Sorry.

So very sorry.

And now, looking at a fresh set of equally suck-a.s.s options, a true Morton's Fork, she realizes that she has a new choice to make.

She sits cross-legged on the bed, pen and paper in hand, and lays it all out. Pros and cons. Benefits and detriments. Suck versus suck.

Miss Stubin's life, or Henry's?

Which one does Janie want?

"No regrets," Miss Stubin had said in the green notebook. But she didn't know the truth.

"There is no best," Henry had said in the dream. He didn't know either.

Janie, alone in the world, is the only one who knows the real choice.

10:11 a.m.

She calls Captain.

"Komisky. Hey, Janie, how you doing?"

"Hi, Captaina"okay, I guess. You have time to talk today?"

"One sec." Janie hears Captain's fingernails clicking on her computer keyboard. "How's noon? I'll grab takeout, we can have lunch in my office. Sound good?"

"Sounds great," Janie says. She hangs up.

Feels the b.u.t.terflies in her belly.

And then.

She shakes her head and starts packing.

Packing up the things that she brought over here, smashing them into her suitcase to make it all fit. Hoping to carry it all in one load.

She's going back home.

If it weren't for Cabe, she'd probably just risk it. Stay isolated. In case she's dead wrong about what really happened to Henry.

But she's pretty sure she's right.

It's a gut thing.

So.

There it is.

Janie grabs a handle shopping bag from under Henry's sink and fills it with all the stuff she couldn't fit in her suitcase. Shakes her head from time to time.

Still can't believe it.

Before she leaves, she calls Henry's landlord to let him know that Henry died. Then, she closes down Henry's online shop for good, schedules a pickup for the last remaining item, and leaves the snow globe gift outside with a sign so Cathy doesn't miss it.

She sets her suitcase down. Closes the door behind her, leaving it unlocked, just as she found it.

Takes a deep breath of country air and holds it in, lets it out slowly.

Glances at the certainly potent sun tea, still resting on the station wagon's hood.

Picks up her suitcase. And sets off.

Crunches down the gravel driveway like a homeless person, carrying all her c.r.a.p.

Doesn't look back.

When she gets home, she puts her things away in her room, and from the bag she pulls the shoe box, all the letters untouched. Janie, medal pinned to her backpack and ring on her thumb, carries the box to the kitchen and sets it on the counter next to the lure of Rabinowitz's fruit and cake.

1l:56 a.m.

Janie greets the guys as she makes her way through the department to Captain's office. She stops at Rabinowitz's desk to thank him again for the sweets, but he's not there. Janie smiles and scribbles a note on a piece of scratch paper instead.

Then she knocks on Captain's door.

"Come!"

Janie enters. The smell of Chinese food makes her stomach growl. Captain is setting out paper plates and plastic forks. She opens up the food containers and smiles warmly. "How are you?"

Janie closes the door and sits. "Oh, you know," she says lightly. "Crazy as usual." She takes the napkins and peels one off the small pile, setting it next to Captain's plate.

"Help yourself," Captain says. They dish out food.

It feels awkward, the silence, just the two of them. Eating. Janie fingers the new ring on her thumb and accidentally dribbles brown sauce from chicken cashew nuts on her white tank top. Tries desperately to clean it with her napkin before it sets.

Captain reaches into her drawera"the drawer that seems to have everything anyone could possibly needa"and pulls out an individual packet of Shout Wipes. Tosses it to Janie.

Janie grins and rips it open. "You have absolutely everything in that drawer. Snacks, Steri-Strips, food stain wipes, plasticware . . . what else?"

"Anything and everything a person needs in order to live for several days," Captain says. "Sewing kit for b.u.t.ton emergencies, hair clips, toiletries, screwdriver set, SwissChamp Army Knife and no, you may not borrow it, it's the super-expensive one. Let's see, dog whistle, dog treats, police whistle, anti-venom, EpiPen, water bottles . . . and the traditional mess of rubber bands, paper clips, and outdated postage stamps. A few pennies."

Janie laughs. Relaxes. "That's amazing." Takes a bite.

"I was a boy scout." Captain's serious face never wavers.

Janie snorts, and then wonders if Captain wasn't joking. One never knows with her.

"So," Captain says. "We have a lot of catching up to do." She adds cream to her coffee. "My brilliant a.s.sessment is that your little family emergency last week had something to do with your father dying. True?"

"True," Janie says.

"Why in h.e.l.l did you not tell me what was up before?"

Janie looks up sharply. "Ia""

"We are family here, Hannagan. I am your family, you are my family, everybody here is a member of this family. You don't dis your family. You tell me when something big like this is happening, you hear me?"

Janie clears her throat. "I didn't want to bother you. It's not like I even knew him. Well, not really. He was unconscious the whole time."

Captain's sigh comes out like a warning blast from a steam engine. "Stop that."

"Yes, sir."

"Thank G.o.d Strumh.e.l.ler had sense enough to tell me about the funeral, or you would have been toast."

"Yes, sir." Janie's losing her appet.i.te. "I'm sorry."

"Good. Now, your father. Let's talk about him. He was a dream catcher too?"

Janie's jaw drops. "How did you know?"

"You said so in your testimonial. Between the lines. You said he had issues that people wouldn't understand, but you understood, or some such thing. Normal folk wouldn't have guessed what you really meant."

Janie nods. "I didn't intend to say thata"it just came out. But yeah, he was an isolated dream catcher."

"Ahh, isolated. Like what you're considering. Well, no wonder we didn't know about him," Captain says. "How did you find out?"

"I went into his dreams."

"Oh?"

"Uh . . . yeah. Found out some interesting stuff."

"I'll bet. And how did you know his UPS driver, Ms. Hannagan? Seems a bit odd that you've never spoken to your father, but from what she said in her testimonial, you apparently had a previous conversation with this lady in brown." Captain takes a bite of her lunch. "What's that on your thumb? Looks like high school bling right out of the eighties. Mm-hmm. Don't answer that."

Janie grins. Her face turns red. "Yes, sir."

"Quite the detective you are, even when you're not on a.s.signment."