"I knew he was not dead."
"He is alive and well, and one of the first inquiries he made was for you."
"Now they shall see," she said exultantly, and her lips curled, "how much truth there was in those slanders of Garret Dawson's. Dear old souls! why were they afraid? Why would they not let me challenge him?"
"They were not so foolish," I said. "He held papers. If Uncle Luke had not come home we could not have disproved them."
"And there is an end to your marriage?" she asked breathlessly.
I held out my hand to her. It no longer carried Richard Dawson's ring.
"He set me free last night," I said, "before we knew who was coming home. You must clear him in your thoughts, G.o.dmother. He never knew how his father had obtained our consent to the marriage. He was furious when he knew and he set me free. I wish I knew what had become of him."
"Don't trouble about him, child. Presently you will find a lover worthy of you."
I said nothing, but my heart leaped. I was a proud woman to think that Anthony Cardew loved me, and still I was grieved for the others.
"You will breakfast with me, child?" she went on.
"I am furiously hungry," I replied. "And afterwards--will you come back with me to Aghadoe?"
"I think not. If your uncle wants me he will find me here."
"I think he will see Garret Dawson first. He will not come to you till all that is cleared up."
"It need never be cleared for me. Whatever the story was, it is for me as though it never existed."
I made a most prodigious breakfast. I had no anxiety as to what they might think about my absence at Aghadoe; I felt they would know where I was.
I said no more to my G.o.dmother about returning with me. I felt she was right in waiting for Uncle Luke where she was, and I was sure he would go to her when he had confronted Garret Dawson and wrung the truth from him. But after breakfast, lest they should be waiting for me at Aghadoe, I returned home the way I had come, feeling as though I walked on air. I could have run and leaped, except when a thought came to me of Richard Dawson, and then my heart was suddenly heavy.
I entered the woods by the postern gate, and hurried along with a heart full of grat.i.tude to the kind G.o.d who had brought good out of evil and had delivered us from our troubles.
Just at the edge of the wood some one stepped from one of the side paths full in my way. It was Richard Dawson, and I was amazed at the havoc the sufferings of one night had wrought in him.
"Don't be afraid of me, Bawn," he said. "I'm not here to trouble you, only there is something I want to give you. Here are those precious papers my father held. I have been waiting here for some chance messenger to take them. They are my gift to you. Let Lord St. Leger see that he has everything and then destroy them."
He held out a sealed packet to me and I took it.
"Everything is there," he said. "Henceforth we are as harmless as a snake that has had its poison-bag out. Think kindly of me, Bawn. I am going a long journey. I have had a scene with my father. He swears that not a penny of his money shall come to me. What matter? I shall do without it very well. Good-bye, Bawn."
"G.o.d-speed," I said, altering the word of farewell.
He turned round and came back to me.
"Nay, not G.o.d-speed," he said harshly. "G.o.d has little to do with such as I am."
And then he was gone.
CHAPTER x.x.xVII
THE JUDGMENT OF G.o.d
I walked into the dining-room and found Uncle Luke at breakfast, with Lord and Lady St. Leger on each side of him, eating little themselves, but pressing one thing after another on him.
I felt a sense of a new alertness about the house. Although the old servants were faithful they had grown a little slipshod in their ways, seeing that it mattered little to their employers. Now things had suddenly a.s.sumed a swept and garnished air. One felt that the master had come home.
They all looked up at me with some expectation when I came in.
"Where have you been so early, Bawn?" my grandmother asked, while Uncle Luke came and set a chair for me and stood smiling at me; I was glad that in those waste places of the earth he had not forgotten those fine debonair ways which of old had made the women fall in love with him.
"I have been to Castle Clody," I answered.
"I thought as much. Why did not Mary come back with you? Was she transported at the good news?"
"She thought perhaps that Uncle Luke would----"
I paused for words. I had a feeling that even in this case, where I was sure that Uncle Luke cared for his old love, I should respect my G.o.dmother's dignity. Even Luke L'Estrange ought not to be sure that she expected him.
"I thought she would have come to rejoice with us," my grandmother said disappointedly; and my grandfather's face showed that he, too, did not understand the constant friend's absence in the hour of great joy.
"Is it that she cannot forgive us?" he muttered.
But the lover knew better than that.
"To be sure I must go to her," he said. "It would not be fitting that she should come to me. I would have been earlier astir than Bawn; I would have been waiting for her doors to open, only that--there is something that must be done first."
"I don't think there is anything you need wait for, Uncle Luke," I said, handing the sealed packet to my grandfather. "I met Richard Dawson on my way back. He was waiting for some one to carry his message. He told me that my grandfather was to examine these papers, to see that everything was there, and afterwards to burn them."
My grandfather seized the papers eagerly. His hand shook so that he could not open them, and he fumbled for his gla.s.ses.
"You have a son now, sir," said Uncle Luke, putting an arm about his shoulder.
They went away to the window to examine the papers, and for some time there was silence in the room. At last my uncle gathered the lot together and going to the fire placed them on top of it. They caught; and in a few seconds there was no trace of them.
"How little or how much of this Garret Dawson believed to be true I leave to his Maker," he said, turning about as the last ash went up the chimney. "For his son's sake I shall not try to punish him. I believe some of these letters were forged. I will show you one of these days letters from the girl I saved from Jasper Tuite. For that is how it was.
She is an honoured wife and mother of children. It is one of the few things in my life of which I may be proud."
Afterwards he went away and we knew that he was gone to Castle Clody.
There was so much to be done and I had to do it all; Lord and Lady St.
Leger could only be silent together, gazing into each other's eyes, praising G.o.d humbly for their son given back from the dead. I left them in the sunshine on the terrace creeping up and down, and as I looked back before I entered the house by the French windows of the morning-room, I recognized all at once that my grandmother had put off her black, and was wearing grey, with some of her old lace tr.i.m.m.i.n.g it.
It was a tabinet which I must have seen in my childhood. The memory of it was so remote that I felt as if I must have read about it; but I had an exact memory of the way it was made, which was billowing about the feet, and with a very straight bodice. While I looked at them she picked a rose from the wall and fastened it into her husband's coat.