The years, however, which had gone before that restoration, the dreadful ma.s.sacres and yet more dreadful proscriptions of Cinna and Marius, had left indelible and sanguinary traces on the ancestral tree of many a n.o.ble house; and on none deeper than on that of Hortensia's family.
Her brother, Caius Julius, an orator second to none in those days, had been murdered by the followers of Marius, almost before his sister's eyes, with circ.u.mstances of appalling cruelty. Her house had been forced open by the infuriate rabble, her husband hewn down with unnumbered wounds, on his own hearth-stone, and her first born child tossed upon the revolutionary pike heads.
Her husband indeed recovered, almost miraculously, from his wounds, and lived to see retribution fall upon the guilty partizans of Marius; but he was never well again, and after languishing for years, died at last of the wounds he received on that b.l.o.o.d.y day.
Good cause, then, had Hortensia to tremble at the tender mercies of the people.
Nor, though they struck the minds of these high-born ladies with less perplexity and awe than the vulgar souls without, were the portents and horrors of the heaven, without due effect. No mind in those days, however clear and enlightened, but held some lingering belief that such things were ominous of coming wrath, and sent by the G.o.ds to inform their faithful worshippers.
It was moreover fresh in her memory, how two years before, during the consulship of Cotta and Torquatus, in a like terrible night-storm, the fire from heaven had stricken down the highest turrets of the capitol, melted the brazen tables of the law, and scathed the gilded effigy of Romulus and Remus, sucking their s.h.a.ggy foster-mother, which stood on the Capitoline.
The augurs in those days, collected from Etruria and all parts of Italy, after long consultation, had proclaimed that unless the G.o.ds should be appeased duly, the end of Rome and her empire was at hand.
And now-what though for ten whole days consecutive the sacred games went on; what though nothing had been omitted whereby to avert the immortal indignation-did not this heaven-born tempest prove that the wrath was not soothed, that the decree yet stood firm?
In such deep thoughts, and in the strong excitement of such expectation, Hortensia and her daughter had pa.s.sed that awful night; not without high instructions from the elder lady, grave and yet stirring narratives of the great men of old-how they strove fiercely, energetically, while strife could avail anything; and how, when the last hope was over, they folded their hands in stern and awful resignation, and met their fate unblenching, and with but one care-that the decorum of their deaths should not prove unworthy the dignity of their past lives.
Not without generous and n.o.ble resolutions on the part of both, that they too would not be found wanting.
But there was nothing humble, nothing soft, in their stern and proud submission to the inevitable necessity. Nothing of love toward the hand which dealt the blow-nothing of confidence in supernal justice, much less in supernal mercy! Nothing of that sweet hope, that undying trust, that consciousness of self-unworthiness, that full conviction of a glorious future, which renders so beautiful and happy the submission of a dying Christian.
No! there were none of these things; for to the wisest and best of the ancients, the foreshadowings of the soul's immortality were dim, faint, and uncertain. The legends of their mythology held up such pictures of the sensuality and vice of those whom they called G.o.ds, that it was utterly impossible for any sound understanding to accept them. And deep thinkers were consequently driven into pure Deism, coupled too often with the Epicurean creed, that the Great Spirit was too grand and too sublime to trouble himself with the brief doings of mortality.
The whole scope of the Roman's hope and ambition, then, was limited to this world; or, if there was a longing for anything beyond the term of mortality, it was for a name, a memory, an immortality of good report.
And pride, which the christian, better instructed, knows to be the germ and root of all sin, was to the Roman, the sole spring of honourable action, the sole source of virtue.
Now, with the morning, quiet was restored both to the angry skies, and to the restless city.
Worn out with anxiety, and watching, sleep fell upon the eyes of Julia, as she sat half rec.u.mbent in a large softly-cushioned chair of Etruscan bronze. Her fair head fell back on the crimson pillow, with all its wealth of auburn ringlets flowing dishevelled; and that soft still shadow, which is yet, in its beautiful serenity, half terrible, so nearly is it allied to the shadow of that sleep from which there comes no waking, fell over her pale features.
The mother gazed on her for a moment, with more gentleness in her eye, and a milder smile on her face, than her indomitable pride often permitted her to manifest.
"She sleeps"-she said, looking at her wistfully-"she sleeps! Aye! the young sleep easily, even in their affliction. They sleep, and forget their sorrows, and awaken, either to fresh woes, as soon to be obliterated, or to vain joys, yet briefer, and more fleeting. Thoughtlessness to the young-anguish to the old-such is mortality! And what beyond?-aye, what?-what that we should so toil, so suffer, to be virtuous? Is it a dream, all a dream-this futurity? I fear so"-and, with the words, she lapsed into a fit of solemn meditation, and stood for many minutes silent, and absorbed. Then a keen light came into her dark eyes, a flash of animation coloured her pale cheeks, she stretched her arms aloft, and in a clear sonorous voice-"No! no!" she said, "Honour-honour-immortal honour; thou, at least, art no dream-thou art worth dying, suffering, aye! worth _living_ to obtain! For what is life but the deeper sorrow, to the more virtuous and the n.o.bler?"
A few minutes longer she stood gazing on her daughter's beautiful face, until the sound of voices louder than usual, and a slight bustle, in the peristyle, attracted her attention. Then, after throwing a pallium, or shawl, of richly embroidered woollen stuff over the fair form of the sleeper, she opened the door leading to the garden colonnade, and left the room silently.
Scarcely had Hortensia disappeared, before the opposite door, by which the saloon communicated with the atrium, was opened, and a slave entered, bearing a small folded note, secured by a waxen seal, on a silver plate.
He approached Julia's chair, apparently in some hesitation, as if he felt that it was his duty, and was yet half afraid to awaken her. At length, however, he made up his mind, and addressed a word or two to her, which were sufficiently distinct to arouse her-for she started up and gazed wildly about her-but left no clear impression of their meaning on her mind.
This, however, the man did not appear to notice; at all events, he did not wait to observe the effect of his communication, but quitted the room hastily, and in considerable trepidation, leaving the note on the table.
Julia was sleeping very heavily, at the moment when she was so startled from her slumber; and, as is not unfrequently the case, a sort of bewilderment and nervous agitation fell upon her, as she recovered her senses. Perhaps she had been dreaming, and the imaginary events of her dream had blended themselves with the real occurrence which awakened her.
But for a minute or two, though she saw the note, and the person who laid it on the table, she could neither bring it to her mind who that person was, nor divest herself of the impression that there was something both dangerous and supernatural in what had pa.s.sed.
In a little while this feeling pa.s.sed away, and, though still nervous and trembling, the young girl smiled at her own alarm, as she took up the billet, which was directed to herself in a delicate feminine hand, with the usual form of superscription-
"To Julia Serena, health"-
although the writer's name was omitted.
She gazed at it for a moment, wondering from whom it could come; since she had no habitual correspondent, and the hand-writing, though beautiful, was strange to her. She opened it, and read, her wonder and agitation increasing with every line-
"You love Paullus Arvina," thus it ran, "and are loved by him. He is worthy all your affection. Are you worthy of him, I know not. I love him also, but alas! less happy, am not loved again, nor hope to be, nor indeed deserve it! They tell me you are beautiful; I have seen you, and yet I know not-they told me once that I too was beautiful, and yet I know not! I know this only, that I am desperate, and base, and miserable! Yet fear me not, nor mistake me. I love Paullus, yet would not have him mine, now; no!
not to be happy-as to be his would render me. Yet had it not been for you, I might have been virtuous, honourable, happy, _his_-for winning him from me, you won from me hope; and with hope virtue; and with virtue honour!
Ought I not then to hate you, Julia? Perchance I ought-to do so were at least Roman-and hating to avenge! Perchance, if I _hoped_, I should. But hoping nothing, I hate nothing, dread nothing, and wish nothing.-Yea! by the G.o.ds! I wish to know Paullus happy-yea! more, I wish, even at cost of my own misery, to make him happy. Shall I do so, by making him yours, Julia? I think so, for be sure-be sure, he loves you. Else had he yielded to my blandishments, to my pa.s.sion, to my beauty! for I am-by the G.o.ds! I am, though he sees it not, as beautiful as thou. And I am proud likewise-or was proud once-for misery has conquered pride in me; or what is weaker yet, and baser-love!"
"I think you will make him happy. You can if you will. Do so, by all the G.o.ds! I adjure you do so; and if you do not, tremble!-tremble, I say-for think, if I sacrifice myself to win bliss for him-think, girl, how gladly, how triumphantly, I would destroy a rival, who should fail to do that, for which alone I spare her.
"Spare her! nay, but much more; for I can save her-can and will.
"Strange things will come to pa.s.s ere long, and terrible; and to no one so terrible as to you.
"There is a man in Rome, so powerful, that the G.o.ds, only, if there be G.o.ds, can compare with him-so haughty in ambition, that stood he second in Olympus, he would risk all things to be first-so cruel, that the dug-drawn Hyrcanian tigress were pitiful compared to him-so reckless of all things divine or human, that, did his own mother stand between him and his vengeance, he would strike through her heart to gain it.
"This man hath Paullus made his foe-he hath crossed his path; he hath _foiled_ him!
"He never spared man in his wrath, or woman in his pa.s.sion.
"He hateth Paullus!
"He hath looked on Julia!
"Think, then, when l.u.s.t and hate spur such a man together, what will restrain him.
"Now mark me, and you shall yet be safe. All means will be essayed to win you, for he would torture Paul by making him his slave, ere he make you his victim.
"And Paul may waver. He hath wavered once. Chance only, and I, rescued him! I can do no more, for Rome must know me no longer! See, then, that thou hold him constant in the right-firm for his country! So may he defy secret spite, as he hath defied open violence.
"Now for thyself-beware of women! Go not forth alone ever, or without armed followers! Sleep not, but with a woman in thy chamber, and a watcher at thy door! Eat not, nor drink, any thing abroad; nor at home, save that which is prepared by known hands, and tasted by the slave who serves it!
"Be true to Paullus, and yourself, and you have a friend ever watchful. So fear not, nor despond!
"Fail me-and, failing truth and honour, failing to make Paullus happy, you _do_ fail me! Fail me, and nothing, in the world's history or fable, shall match the greatness of my vengeance-of your anguish!
"Fail me! and yours shall be, for ages, the name that men shall quote, when they would tell of untold misery, of utter shame, and desolation, and despair.
"Farewell."
The letter dropped from her hand; she sat aghast and speechless, terrified beyond measure, and yet unable to determine, or divine, even, to what its dark warnings and darker denunciations pointed.
Just at this instant, as between terror and amazement she was on the verge of fainting, a clanging step was heard without; the crimson draperies that covered the door, were put aside; and, clad in glittering armour, Paullus Arvina stood before her.
She started up, with a strange haggard smile flashing across her pallid face, staggered a step or two to meet him, and sank in an agony of tears upon his bosom.