A Personal Story
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Well then, Emi.
Let me begin with a proper self-introduction.
My name is Nare.
Nare Luclees.
The head of the Luclees family.
A 16-year-old girl.
At least, physically.
The Luclees family owns and has managed the Makaringis ore mines in this country of Saryunas for generations as a prestigious household.
As the sole daughter, I was an elite promised a future from birth.
Naturally, I was strictly disciplined by my mother, the previous head.
MotherTorre Luclees was capable at work, but lacked emotion and was inept at handling personal matters.
She was quite hard on her subordinates like Doj and the same went for my father, that man Sarelka.
Especially since my father was utterly incompetent at work.
That man was actually the fourth son of a wealthy merchant family and should have received a decent education.
But his meek personality clashed severely with my arrogant, cold-hearted mothers, leaving him unable to perform in that environment That may be true, but still.
Whenever she saw Sarelkas face, Mother would heap scorn on him, and that man could only shrink back without retort.
To me, that was the very definition of a married couple.
From the start, I was raised in quite a warped family environment.
In the end, that man moved into the household of his mistress Fateu and stopped returning to this manor.
But Mother just left that man be.
In Mothers mind, his role was likely finished the moment I was born.
She paid no heed to the half-sisters born around my age.
Now, while Mother was like that, her end was quite abrupt.
There was a cave-in accident in the mines, you see.
Mother had gone for an inspection and got caught up in that accident, never returning.
I was shocked and saddened.
No matter how harsh a person Torre Luclees was, she was still my mother.
My only family.
Father?
I couldnt consider someone who never returned home as family, could I?
In any case, I was just a helpless young girl back then.
Just an ordinary young girl mourning her mothers death.
Which is why I was utterly shocked and indignant when that man Sarelka suddenly came to me demanding I relinquish the family headship to him as the father.
In this country, the family headship is inherited by the legitimate child.
For the live-in husband Sarelka to succeed this family, he needed my consent as the legitimate child.
Of course, that wasnt an impossible scenario.
I may have been strictly disciplined by Mother, but I was still just a 16-year-old girl.
With time to mature and gain experience, having my father handle the duties as proxy would be understandable.
Normally, it would be an acceptable arrangement.
Except the person in question was an incompetent manchild who never returned home.
Naturally, I couldnt accept such a demand.
I quite rudely berated him, calling him a joke.
You know what that man did then?
He took out a knife from his pocket and said, Do as I say unless you want to die!
Hahaha, thinking back, its quite impressive that cowardly man mustered the courage for that.
Apparently Fateu had instigated him, but it was still uncharacteristic behavior nonetheless.
For a cowardly father to muster the courage to point a blade at his own daughter its just not a funny joke at all, is it?
Hm?
Whats wrong Emi, have you had your father point a blade at you too?
Hahaha, my condolences then!
It makes me feel unexpectedly empathetic toward you.
In any case, as for me, the daughter Nare Luclees who had a knife pointed at her back then was just a helpless young girl.
Seeing that sudden transformation from the usually meek man, I became utterly terrified.
So I fled.
To the heads study room.
And locked myself in there, beginning my seclusion.
Fortunately, the manors keys were kept in the study room, so that man could no longer lay a hand on me.
Trapped in that room, I just trembled in terror.
Having been raised by my harsh mothers personality, even I as her daughter was disliked within the manor.
I had no allies. I couldnt trust anyone.
Utterly confused, unable to think of anything, I just trembled.
That state continued for about a week.
Food?
There were some baked goods on the shelves in the study room, so I survived on those.
For water, I ate the snow piled on the windowsill.
During that week, Sarelka did quite a few outrageous things.
First, he announced to everyone that I had followed after Mother in death.
That was an utterly thoughtless move, you see.
If I stepped outside, that lie would be immediately exposed.
But Sarelka had been instigated by Fateu to kill me if he couldnt steal the family headship.
Since I had fled into seclusion, he couldnt convey that to his mistress, so he lied instead.
Such reckless, spontaneous actions were so like that man.
Sarelka then brought his mistresss family into this manor to begin living here.
There were no servants who objected.
The long-serving retainers loyal to the Luclees family had already been dismissed by Sarelka.
As for the remaining servants, it seemed they had lost all loyalty to the family due to my harsh mothers personality.
This staff purge apparently proceeded astonishingly smoothly.
Now, as for me, after being cooped up in that room for a week, my mind finally calmed down a bit and the baked goods ran out.
I had no choice but to eventually leave the room.
Were you surprised?
When I peeked outside, Fateu and Keranko were behaving as they owned the place while most of the familiar servants were gone.
Even a young girl could tell this was bad.
But in my hurry back then, I noticed there was still one servant remaining from my mothers time.
So I secretly sought help from that man.
That man was Doj.
Seeing me, Doj was quite surprised.
After being told I had died, suddenly having that very person visit his room in the dead of night would obviously shock anyone.
So what did Doj do?
Despite his surprise, he invited me into his room.
And urged me to have a seat and calm down first.
The simpleminded young girl that I was, I let my guard down and readily sat in the offered chair.
And Doj, seeing me drop my guard, killed me.
Thats right, Doj was the first to kill me.
He struck the back of my head in one blow using an ornament in the room.
It really hurt.
By the way, dont you think that staff purge went too smoothly, even if they disliked Mother?
Sarelka really was that incompetent at work, you see.
He couldnt have done all that alone.
There was someone helping him, and that was Doj.
Whats more, Doj, who was in an intimate relationship with Sarelkas mistress Fateu, had instilled this in Fateu:
If Nare is gone, Sarelka will become the head of the Luclees family. That way, the familys money and power will be under Fateus control.
Thats why Fateu instigated Sarelka to try to steal the family headship from me.
In other words, the mastermind was Doj.
To have trusted such a man and let my guard down, I was truly a hopelessly foolish young girl.
So then.
Originally, this foolish young girl was supposed to be killed, the Luclees family devoured by those fools, and ruined.
That was supposed to happen.
But then, a miracle occurred.
The rewinding of time.
I was more than just surprised, I was utterly dumbfounded.
I definitely should have been killed by Doj.
I even remember that pain.
And yet, I found myself trembling in seclusion in the heads study room once more.
Grasping the situation, of course I was elated.
And I thanked the heavens.
Thank you.
Now, I could redo my life.
Reclaim what had been taken from me.
It was an exhilarating feeling.
In reality, I had been cast into hell.
Immediately, I took action.
First, I visited Sarelka.
This couldnt continue.
I pleaded for him to stop his illegitimate takeover of the family.
Looking back now, it was such a foolish act that its ludicrous.
Of course Sarelka wouldnt accept my claims.
If he did, his own ruination awaited him afterward.
Naturally, there was no reasoning with Sarelka.
The moment he saw my face, that man drew Agzeliary and tried to cut me down.
And I was killed once more, my second death.
This was probably the shortest time between the loop rewinding and my death.
Next.
The servants I tried to rely on killed me.
My unreliable father tried to kill me too.
There were no allies within the manor.
So what to do?
Having obtained another chance through the time rewind, I considered my options.
And I decided to seek outside help.
I secretly slipped out of the manor and appealed the Luclees familys situation to the authorities, you see.
Hm?
Youre saying I shouldnt have been able to leave the manor, enveloped in haze and unable to go anywhere?
Hahaha, indeed, thats how it is now.
But it wasnt always like that.
Even as time repeated, I could leave the manor, and people outside continued living their normal lives.
In any case, I appealed to the authorities.
It caused quite an uproar.
Attempted murder against a prestigious familys daughter, and a household takeover.
Sarelkas actions were clearly grave crimes.
That man was promptly arrested.
And Fateu who had instigated him, along with the mastermind Doj behind the scenes, were also arrested.
The Luclees family was safely returned to my hands.
Thank goodness, I thought it would all be resolved!
But unfortunately, it didnt turn out that way.
There was someone who took issue with this outcome and harbored intense resentment toward me.
That person was Karashia.
From her perspective, the position of heir to a prestigious family that should have fallen into her lap by chance was inexplicably snatched away by me.
Well, not snatched away, just restored to its proper form, but still.
In any case, she resented me deeply.
Ah, Karashia and Keranko werent involved in Fateu and Dojs scheme at all, so those sisters were just banished from the manor, not arrested.
By appealing for help from the authorities like I did, it was inevitable I would become enemies with Karashia.
Things would go smoothly at first, so I tried this method several times, but no matter what, Karashia would end up killing me in the end.
Sometimes she cut me down with Agzeliary, her fathers keepsake.
Sometimes she poisoned my food.
Sometimes she used explosives in a suicide attack to blow me up.
That woman would come after me to kill me with tremendous determination, no matter what.
Shes seriously dangerous.
Absolutely terrifying.
Since Karashia herself didnt commit any crimes until she killed me, I couldnt have her arrested beforehand.
Even if I hired bodyguards to increase my defenses, she would find an opening and kill me.
She was truly an unmanageable woman.
Through all this, after being killed over and over and over again, I honestly stopped caring about the family affairs.
Until then, I had thought about inheriting and passing down this long-standing Luclees family to the next generation and so on
But honestly?
More than the family, I just wanted to live a peaceful life for myself.
Thats a normal desire, right?
So I tried to flee.
I secretly slipped out of the manor, intending to escape somewhere far away.
But that didnt work out either.
Fundamentally, it was winter season.
A harsh time for an inexperienced young girl to travel far.
On top of that, terrifying monsters lived in this area.
Have you heard of the Ranrananga White Lizards?
Lizards that act in groups and can even move in winter.
Theyre hailed as symbols of hardy life force undefeated by ice and snow, and their forms are even engraved on the familys treasured heirloom ring passed down for generations.
These things would obstruct my journey, you see.
No matter how I changed the time or route, whenever I tried to leave this small country, they would invariably attack me.
Unfortunately, I had no combat training.
Each time they attacked, I was easily killed.
What a mess, right?
Being eaten alive was quite the harsh experience.
No matter what I tried, it didnt work out.
I couldnt escape.
And yet time kept repeating over and over.
Gradually, my heart became steeped in despair.
I stopped caring about anything.
Even when time rewound and I returned to the heads study room, I lost all motivation to take action.
In which case, this is what would happen before I starved to death, Sarelka would have a master key made to enter.
Seeing me utterly devoid of will to live or resist, that man judged me harmless and began confining me to a room in the manor.
A nuisance to keep me alive, but he didnt want to soil his own hands if possible.
Quite the typical cowardly, passive manifestation of malice from that man.
Ironically, this confined life ended up being the one allowing me to live the longest.
But unfortunately, while long-lived, it was also the most painful life.
Food was only provided in the bare minimum amounts to avoid starvation.
Moreover, after some time, my existence would be discovered by Fateu and the others.
From then on, it was terrible.
Daily torment and abuse.
Vicious violence inflicted, then abandoned.
Keranko was especially cruel.
Karashia was dangerous, but Keranko was dangerous too.
How could she inflict such violence on a helpless person with a smile on her face?
My confinement always ended with Kerankos cheerful smile.
Truly.
I was utterly exhausted.
Repeating hell over and over and over and over again.
But you know.
At some point, I realized something interesting.
I discovered an incredibly amusing, refreshing, and delightful way to view this show!