"You're such a wonder!" he said.
She smiled. "So are y-you." It was the first time she had ever stammered in her life.
When she came back into the sitting-room, she found Portia inclined to be severe.
"Did you ask him to come again?" she wanted to know.
Rose smiled. "I never thought of it," she said.
"Perhaps it's just as well," said Portia. "Did you have anything at all to say to him before we came home, or were you like that all the while?
How long ago did he come?"
"I don't know," said Rose behind a very real yawn. "I was asleep on the couch when he came in. That's why I was dressed like this." And then she said she was hungry.
There wasn't, on the whole, a happier person in the world at that moment.
Because Rodney Aldrich, pounding along at five miles an hour, in a direction left to chance, was not happy. Or, if he was, he didn't know it. He couldn't yield instantly, and easily, to his intuitions, as Rose had done. He felt that he must think--felt that he had never stood in such dire need of cool level consideration as at this moment:
But the process was impossible. That fine instrument of precision, his mind, that had, for many years, done without complaint the work he gave it to do, had simply gone on a strike. Instead of ratiocinating properly, it presented pictures. Mainly four: a girl, flaming with indignation, holding a street-car conductor pinned by the wrists; a girl in absurd bedroom slippers, her skirt twisted around her knees, her hair a chaos, stretching herself awake like a big cat; a girl with wonderful, blue, tear-brimming eyes, from whose glory he had had to turn away. Last of all, the girl who had said with that adorable stammer, "So are y-you," and smiled a smile that had summed up everything that was desirable in the world.
It was late that night when his mind, in a dazed sort of way, came back on the job. And the first thing it pointed out to him was that Frederica had undoubtedly been right in telling him that, though they had lived together off and on for thirty years, they didn't know each other. The pictures his memory held of his sister, covered no such emotional range as these four. Did Martin's? It seemed absurd, yet there was a strong intrinsic probability of it.
Anyway, it was a remark Frederica had made last night that gave him something to hold on by. Marriage, she had said, was an adventure, the essential adventurousness of which no amount of cautious thought taken in advance could modify. There was no doubt in his mind that marriage with that girl would be a more wonderful adventure than any one had ever had in the world.
All right then, perhaps his mind had been right in refusing to take up the case. The one tremendous question,--would the adventure look promising enough to her to induce her to embark on it?--was one which his own reasoning powers could not be expected to answer. It called simply for experiment.
So, turning off his mind again, with the electric light, he went to bed.
CHAPTER VII
HOW IT STRUCK PORTIA
It was just a fortnight later that Rose told her mother she was going to marry Rodney Aldrich, thereby giving that lady a greater shock of surprise than, hitherto, she had experienced in the sixty years of a tolerably eventful life.
Rose found her neatly writing a paper at the boudoir desk in the little room she called her den. And standing dutifully at her mother's side until she saw the pen make a period, made then her momentous announcement, much in the tone she would have used had it been to the effect that she was going to the matinee with him that afternoon.
Mrs. Stanton said, "What, dear?" indifferently enough, just in mechanical response to the matter-of-fact inflection of Rosalind's voice. Then she laid down her pen, smiled in a puzzled way up into her daughter's face, and added, "My ears must have played me a funny trick.
What did you say?"
Rose repeated: "Rodney Aldrich and I are going to be married."
But when she saw a look of painful incomprehension in her mother's face, she sat down on the arm of the chair, slid a strong arm around the fragile figure and hugged it up against herself.
"I suppose," she observed contritely, "that I ought to have broken it more gradually. But I never think of things like that."
As well as she could, her mother resisted the embrace.
"I can't believe," she said, gripping the edge of her desk with both hands, "that you would jest about a solemn subject like that, Rose, and yet it's incredible!... How many times have you seen him?"
"Oh, lots of times," Rose assured her, and began checking them off on her fingers. "There was the first time, in the street-car, and the time he brought the books back, and that other awful call he made one evening, when we were all so suffocatingly polite. You know about those times. But three or four times more, he's come down to the university--he's great friends with several men in the law faculty, so he's there quite a lot, anyway--but several times he's picked me up, and we've gone for walks, miles and miles and miles, and we've talked and talked and talked. So really, we know each other awfully well."
"I didn't know," said her mother in a voice still dull with astonishment, "that you even liked him. You've been so silent--indifferent--both times he was here to call...."
"Oh, I haven't learned yet to talk to him when any one else is around,"
Rose admitted. "There's so little to say, and it doesn't seem worth the bother. But, truly, I do like him, mother. I like everything about him.
I love his looks--I don't mean just his eyes and nose and mouth. I like the shape of his ears, and his hands. I like his big loud voice"--her own broadened a little as she added, "and the way he swears. Oh, not at me, mother! Just when he gets so interested in what he's saying that he forgets I'm a lady.
"And I like the way he likes to fight--not with his fists, I mean, necessarily. He's got the most wonderful mind to--wrestle with, you know. I love to start an argument with him, just to see how easy it is for him to--roll me in the dirt and walk all over me."
The mother freed herself from the girl's embrace, rose and walked away to another chair. "If you'll talk rationally and seriously, my dear,"
she said, "we can continue the conversation. But this flippant, rather--vulgar tone you're taking, pains me very much."
The girl flushed to the hair. "I didn't know I was being flippant and vulgar," she said. "I didn't mean to be. I was just trying to tell you--all about it."
"You've told me," said her mother, "that Mr. Aldrich has asked you to marry him and that you've consented. It seems to me you have done so hastily and thoughtlessly. He's told you he loves you, I've no doubt, but I don't see how it's possible for you to feel sure on such short acquaintance."
"Why, of course he's told me," Rose said, a little bewildered. "He can't help telling me all the time, any more than I can help telling him.
We're--rather mad about each other, really. I think he's the most wonderful person in the world, and"--she smiled a little uncertainly--"he thinks I am. But we've tried to be sensible about it, and think it out reasonably. We're both strong and healthy, and we like each other.... I mean--things about each other, like I've said. So, as far as we can tell, we--fit. He said he couldn't guarantee that we'd be happy; that no pair of people could be sure of that till they'd tried.
But he said it looked to him like the most wonderful, magnificent adventure in the world, and asked if it looked to me like that, and I said it did. Because it's true. It's the only thing in the world that seems worth--bothering about. And we both think--though, of course, we can't be sure we're thinking straight--that we've got a good chance to make it go."
Even her mother's bewildered ears couldn't distrust the sincerity with which the girl had spoken. But this only increased the bewilderment. She had listened with a sort of incredulous distaste she couldn't keep her face from showing, and at last she had to wipe away her tears.
At that Rose came over to her, dropped on the floor at her knees and embraced her.
"I guess perhaps I understand, mother," she said. "I didn't realize--you've always been so intellectual and advanced--that you'd feel that way about it--be shocked because I hadn't pretended not to care for him and been shy and coy"--in spite of herself, her voice got an edge of humor in it--"and a startled fawn, you know, running away, but just not fast enough so that he wouldn't come running after and think he'd made a wonderful conquest by catching me at last. But a man like Rodney Aldrich wouldn't plead and protest, mother. He wouldn't _want_ me unless I wanted him just as much."
It was a long time before her mother spoke and when she did, she spoke humbly--resignedly, as if admitting that the situation she was confronted with was beyond her powers.
"It's the one need of a woman's life, Rose, dear," she said, "--the corner-stone of all her happiness, that her husband, as you say, 'wants'
her. It's something that--not in words, of course, but in all the little facts of married life--she'll need to be reassured about every day.
Doubt of it is the one thing that will have the power to make her bitterly unhappy. That's why it seems to me so terribly necessary that she be sure about it before it's too late."
"Yes, of course," said Rose. "But that's true of the man, too, isn't it?
Otherwise, where's the equality?"
Her mother couldn't answer that except with a long sigh.
Strangely enough, it wasn't until after Rose had gone away, and she had shut herself up in her room to think, that any other aspect of the situation occurred to her--even that there was another aspect of it which she'd naturally have expected to be the first and only critical one.
Ever since babyhood Rose had been devoted, by all her mother's plans and hopes, to the furtherance of the cause of Woman, whose ardent champion she herself had always been. For Rose--not Portia--was the devoted one.
The elder daughter had been born at a time when her own activities were at their height. As Portia herself had said, when she and her two brothers were little, their mother had been too busy to--luxuriate in them very much and during those early and possibly suggestible years, Portia had been suffered to grow up, as it were, by herself. She was not neglected, of course, and she was dearly loved. But when, for the first time since actual babyhood, she got into the focal-plane of her mother's mind again, there was a subtle, but, it seemed, ineradicable antagonism between them, though that perhaps is too strong a word for it. A difference there was, anyway, in the grain of their two minds, that hindered unreserved confidences, no matter how hard they might try for them. Portia's brusk disdain of rhetoric, her habit of reducing questions to their least denominator of common sense, carried a constant and perfectly involuntary criticism of her mother's ampler and more emotional style--made her suspect that Portia regarded her as a sentimentalist.
But Rose, with her first adorable smile, had captured her mother's heart beyond the possibility of reservation or restraint. And, as the child grew and her splendid, exuberant vitality and courage and wide-reaching, though not facile, affection became marked characteristics, the hope grew in her mother that here was a new leader born to the great Cause.