He took hold of Hanny's chin and moved his head left and right, inspecting it for any more traces of make-up.

'I mean,' he said, spitting on the hankie and moving over to Else, 'Someone could tell you to set off now and before you know it you might be swimming home, or not swimming home, if you know what I mean.'

Leonard dabbed at Else's lips, taking off the redness there, and then shoved the hankie into his pocket.

'They say it's the biggest graveyard in the north of England,' he said, looking behind him at the sea and the sludge.

He took out a paper bag of mints and ate one. He noticed Hanny staring at them, and he smiled to himself and put them away. Laura banged on the window at him and after waving her away, Leonard looked at Hanny and me in turn and then pulled up his sleeve.

'Is this it?' he said, showing us the watch he was wearing.

'Yes.'

He looked at us again and undid the buckle and handed it to me.

'I should stay well away from here if I were you,' he said. 'Dangerous place. It's very easy to misjudge things. You could get well out of your depth and end up in all sorts of trouble.'

Hanny put the watch back on his wrist.

'Listen,' said Leonard. 'Hear that?'

A steady hiss was coming as the sea began to wash up against the rocks at the bottom of the cliff behind the house.

'I should get a move on if I were you,' he said. 'I wouldn't want you to be stuck here all night.'

He looked at us again and went behind Else, turned her chair around and pushed her into the house.

Chapter Eleven.

We left Coldbarrow at the right time.

Looking back once we reached the pillbox, the sea was pounding the rocks by Thessaly, sending up spikes of foam that hung in the air before disintegrating back into the swell. The sands were gone.

Hanny was pleased to have his watch back and kept on showing it to me, wanting me to tell him the time.

'We're late, Hanny,' I said. 'That's all that matters.'

When we got back to Moorings, Father Bernard was standing at the top of the lane, looking out for us.

'Come on, you two,' he said as we pa.s.sed him. 'You'd better get a move on before your mother has an aneurysm.'

Everyone was waiting on the bus with firm-set faces. Mummer pulled up her sleeve to reveal her watch and looked at me. That was all she needed to say.

I sat next to Hanny and he smiled at me and put his fingers on his lips where Else had kissed him. I took hold of his hand and moved it away.

'Leave it, Hanny,' I said and gave him a look that made him lower his head. I didn't mean to scold him like that. It wasn't his fault after all. It was just that I didn't want Mummer to see.

That was what I told myself anyway. There was another feeling that I didn't want to recognise at the time but seems rather obvious now. I was jealous. But only in the way I was jealous of the boys at school whose s.e.xual exploits had elevated them above the playground proles.

It wasn't that I particularly wanted their experiences-my G.o.d, I would have been terrified-only to be in their club, where membership guaranteed that you didn't have your gym shoes rammed down a toilet pan full of muck and urine or your ribs blackened by discerning elbows in the corridors. The s.e.x stuff didn't really matter. I didn't care about that.

I suppose I was jealous because that kiss had been wasted on Hanny. It didn't matter to him or to his peers at Pinelands. What I could have done with that experience back at school. To have had the ears of the changing room as I described it all in lurid detail, to have been thought of in another way, if only for the final term, might have made all the difference. I don't know.

Hanny touched his face again. There were still faint traces of lipstick on his chin that Leonard hadn't managed to get rid of. I wondered if Mummer might notice, as she noticed every small difference in Hanny's appearance, but she had her back to me and was watching silently out of the window like everyone else.

No one spoke at all, in fact, until a few miles further on when Mrs Belderboss patted the back of Father Bernard's seat.

'Stop, Father,' she said and he pulled into the side of the road. 'Look.'

Everyone peered out of the windows as a swarm of bright red b.u.t.terflies spun over the field in a flexuous shape, twisting and spiraling as one ent.i.ty.

'Have you ever seen anything so beautiful?' said Mrs Belderboss.

'What are they doing out? It's too early in the year for them,' said Mr Belderboss. 'They'll die before the day's done.'

''Tis G.o.d's world, Mr Belderboss,' said Father Bernard, smiling. 'I'm sure He knows what He's doing.'

'I think it's a sign,' said Mrs Belderboss to Mummer and put her hand on hers. 'That G.o.d will be with us when we go to the shrine.'

'Yes,' said Mummer. 'Perhaps it is.'

'I'm sure of it,' Mrs Belderboss replied.

After all, signs and wonders were everywhere.

Father Wilfred had told us time and time again that it was our duty as Christians to see what our faith had taught us to see. And consequently Mummer used to come home from the shop with all kinds of stories about how G.o.d had seen fit to reward the good and justly punish the wicked.

The lady who worked at the bookmakers had developed warts on her fingers from handling dirty money all day long. The Wilkinson girl, who had visited the clinic on the Finchley Road that the women at Saint Jude's talked about in hushed tones, had been knocked down by a car not a week later and had her pelvis snapped beyond repair. Conversely, an elderly lady who came into the shop every week for prayer cards and had spent much of the previous decade raising money for Cafod, won a trip to Fatima.

Mummer would tell us these tales over the dinner table without a flicker of doubt that G.o.d's hand was at work in the world, as it had been in the time of the saints and martyrs, the violent deaths of whom were regularly inflicted upon us as exempla of not only the unconditional oath we had to make to the service of the Lord but of the necessity of suffering.

The worse the torment, the more G.o.d was able to make Himself known, Mummer said, invoking the same branch of esoteric mathematics Father Wilfred used in his sermons to explain why the world was full of war and murder-a formula by which cruelty could be shown to be inversely proportionate to mercy. The more inhumane the misery we could inflict upon one another, the more compa.s.sionate G.o.d seemed as a counterpoint to us. It was through pain that we would know how far we still had to go to be perfect in His eyes. And so unless one suffered, Father Wilfred was wont to remind us, one could not be a true Christian.

In the vestry after Ma.s.s, if it wasn't chastis.e.m.e.nt over one thing or another, it was a lesson on a particular saint that he considered to be an encouragement for young boys to seek the opportunity of hardship, though it was hard to tell the difference between the two sometimes when he used the saints like a birch rod.

When Henry turned up late for Ma.s.s one Sunday, Father Wilfred thrashed him with the Blessed Alexandrina De Costa-the Portuguese mystic who had leapt from a window to escape being raped, had crippled herself in the fall, but still managed to come to Ma.s.s every Sunday on time. Even when she decided to devote her life to G.o.d and ate nothing but the Eucharist and each Friday had the blessed joy of experiencing the agony of Our Lord on the cross, she was still there at church before everyone else. It was the least Henry could do, even if his bicycle had developed a puncture on the Edgware Road.

'I'm sorry, Father,' Henry said. 'I'll pray to Saint Christopher,' he added in a moment of inspiration.

'Idiot boy,' Father Wilfred said. 'We pray with the saints, not to them. The saints intercede on our behalf and pet.i.tion G.o.d to help us.'

'Oh, yes, Father.'

'Will you remember that, McCullough?'

'Yes, Father.'

'But how will you remember it, McCullough?'

'I don't know, Father.'

Father Wilfred looked on the desk and picked up a metal ruler. He grabbed Henry by the wrist and before Henry could flinch he brought the edge of the ruler down on his knuckles, splitting them open.

'Will that help you to remember, McCullough?'

Henry gripped his bleeding hand tightly and moved backwards and sat down on a chair.

'Well?' said Father Wilfred.

'Yes, Father,' said Henry. 'I won't forget.'

Father Wilfred looked at him and after a moment he went to the sink and handed Henry a paper towel with a look of contempt.

I suppose I took it for granted that Henry was one of those children that adults dislike-there are children like that-but quite why Father Wilfred despised Henry so much I didn't know. Perhaps it was because Henry was rich when he had been so poor. The Poor, after all, were Father Wilfred's favourite yardstick. They were the caste by which all things had to be measured and in doing so he made every small enjoyment an affront to their dignity. We were to think of The Poor when we reached for a second helping of cake. We were to think of The Poor when we wished for presents at Christmas, or when we coveted the new bicycle in the shop window. Father Wilfred had never had enough to eat. Never enough clothing to keep him warm in the Whitechapel slums. He had never possessed anything other than an old tyre which he used to knock along the road with a stick, trying to keep it from falling into the gutter.

It wasn't simply out of some obligatory moral stance demanded by scripture that he felt for The Poor so much, it was the core of his calling. Everyone was disappointed, but perhaps not surprised, that he chose in the end to give up his plot in Saint Jude's churchyard and requested that he be interred with his mother and father and his dead brothers and sisters in the Great Northern Cemetery instead.

But it seemed that there was more to it than that. We Smiths were better off than the McCulloughs by a long way and Father Wilfred never berated me the way he did Henry. Henry just seemed to rile him for some reason.

Father Wilfred turned to me suddenly, aware that I was staring.

'Carry on, Smith,' he said.

I went back to winding the handle of the spirit bander that was copying the parish newsletters. It was something I did on the first Sunday of the month and always tried to hold my breath as much as possible to stop the methylated spirits from raking out the back of my throat.

'Why were you late, McCullough?' said Father Wilfred, folding his arms.

'I told you, Father,' he said. 'I got a puncture.'

Father Wilfred nodded. 'Yes, I know that's what you said.'

He went to a bookshelf, pulled out a Bible and dropped it into Henry's lap.

'But I'm not convinced that it is necessarily the truth. Psalm one hundred and one, verse seven,' he said.

'Sorry, Father?'

'Find it, McCullough.'

'But I'll get blood on it, Father.'

'You won't.'

Henry carefully flipped through the book, trying not to bleed onto the pages.

'Well?' said Father Wilfred.

'I can't find it, Father.'

'Psalms, McCullough. Between Job and Proverbs. It's not difficult.'

At last Henry found the right place and started reading.

'"He that worketh deceit shall not dwell in my house; he that telleth lies shall not tarry in my sight."'

Father Wilfred repeated what Henry had said in a slow, measured way, pacing up and down the office.

'G.o.d hates liars, McCullough,' he said, nodding to the Bible on Henry's knee. 'It's in there a thousand times over. Proverbs, Romans, Jeremiah. When you lie, McCullough, you are brethren with the serpent in the garden. You forfeit your place in heaven. G.o.d has no time for deceivers. I'll ask you again. Why were you so late?'

Henry looked down at his bleeding knuckles.

'You were too lazy to get out of bed weren't you?'

'Yes, Father.'

'And too overweight to make up the lost time.'

'Yes, Father.'

'Yes, Father,' he repeated. 'Psalm fifty-five, verse twenty-three. Quicker this time, McCullough.'

Henry sped through the pages and traced his finger along the line.

'"But thou, O G.o.d, shalt bring them down into the pit of destruction; b.l.o.o.d.y and deceitful men shall not live out half their days."'

Father Wilfred held out his hand for the Bible.

'Do you know what the most terrible torment of h.e.l.l is?' he said.

Henry pa.s.sed it to him. 'No, Father.'

'The worst torment, McCullough,' he said. 'Is not being able to repent of the sins you have committed.'

'Yes, Father.'

'In h.e.l.l, it is far too late.'

'Yes, Father.'

'You must come and see me in confession, McCullough.'