"Oh, I can't, Felix, it's too cruel."
"Nothing's too cruel if you're used to it." He started to get up from the couch, but Walter prevented him.
"Lie down there. I'll read it to you if I must, simply because someone will have to do it sometime. But I would rather be hanged than do it."
He hardly ventured to look at Bauer when he had finished the newspaper account. When he did look at him, he saw him sitting up on the couch, his hands clasped over his knees, a slight increase of colour on his face but no mark of any unusual anger or feeling.
"How could he do it! How could he!" Bauer whispered to himself, looking off into the distance as if Walter were not present. His whole att.i.tude affected Walter more deeply than if he had given way to a violent pa.s.sion.
"It's an outrage! There ought to be some way to get the money. You could have him arrested when he------"
"Arrest my father? On the charge of being a thief? Would you do that to your------"
Walter choked. "Arrest my father? I should think not. But------"
"He may be all you think, but I will never lift a finger against him.
Let G.o.d punish him, as he has already."
"And meanwhile, if Halstead & Co. are informed how matters are, they might------"
"It isn't likely. They have paid the money once. Certainly they won't do it again. I never heard of any such philanthropists doing business in Washington."
"But how will you be able to go out to Arizona?" Walter blurted before he thought, and then wanted to bite his tongue off as Bauer turned his face towards him, a faint smile lighting it.
"I won't go. 'Wir mussen alie einmal sterben?'"
"But you'll have to go. We'll have to find a way."
"Where there's a will there's a way? Also even more necessary, the money. Now I've will enough. But it won't pay for a ticket nor buy the necessary canned goods to go with the sand of the desert when I get there. I'll set up my incubators here at Burrton and raise chickens enough to bury me decently. 'Wir mussen alie einmal sterben.'"
"Yes, but we don't have to die before our time. There must be some way out."
"I don't know of any." said Bauer gravely but not with any bitterness.
"But don't let it worry you. I don't want to have you worried with it."
Nevertheless Walter did worry over it tremendously. He had never known anything in all his experience that affected him so profoundly. And in his next letter home, without hinting to Bauer of his intention, he sounded his father as to ways and means for helping Bauer at this crisis in his life.
"Isn't there some one in Milton who would be interested enough in Bauer to help send him out to Arizona? The doctor says it's his only chance.
And he's pretty hard hit. Think of losing $4,500 at one fell swoop, and by his own father too. And I advised the business relation between them.
Of course we had no idea that the matter would turn out as it has but that doesn't change the fact. As near as I can figure, it will cost at least three hundred dollars to get Bauer out to Arizona, pay for his board and room and keep him there a year. He isn't a member of any church and Dr. Howard of the Congregational Church here in Burrton said a few Sundays ago that his people must make a special effort to raise the money to care for several needed cases of their own, so I don't feel like going to him with Bauer's story right now. And besides, I don't believe Bauer would take church help. He's awfully proud and while he doesn't say much about his trouble and pretends to take it easy, I can see he is pretty hard hit. And who wouldn't be, to lose $4,500 at one clip and at the same time realise that he's got consumption. I tell you it strikes me as pretty hard lines for poor Bauer. The worst of it is this mess about his father. That seems awful. And there isn't anyone more affectionate and dependent than Bauer. That's the reason he took up with me, because he had to have someone. He doesn't know I'm writing this sort of a letter about him, if he did he'd object, but I feel as if something ought to be done. Perhaps you and mother can think out some plan to help him. If I could see some way to cut down my expenses here I would do it and put in my little to help. But I'm living as close to the line as I can. The school is expensive and I don't know what I can do until I get out and begin to make instead of mar dollars."
Paul took this letter to Esther. And it happened that while he was reading it to her, Helen came in. Paul stopped reading and looked at Esther.
"It's all right. Let Helen hear it. I'm sure Walter meant it for a family letter."
They were all shocked at the news. And Helen seemed even more moved by the letter than her father and mother, though she made no remark of any kind until Esther began to look at her with some concern. Paul said, after a moment of sober thought:
"I believe Masters can do something for him out there at Tolchaco. There is the old Council Hogan out there in the cottonwoods past the 'dobe flats. Bauer could sleep there. It's about the same as outdoors. And he could do something perhaps at the trading post to help pay for his board. I'll write to Masters at once and see what he says. And--I have another idea that I think will do something. We can't let a fellow like Bauer go down without doing something and if he objects to being helped, why, we'll just box him up and ship him out there f. o. b."
After Paul had gone down to the office Mrs. Douglas and Helen continued the discussion over Walter's letter.
"What other idea does father have to help Mr. Bauer?" asked Helen.
"I don't know unless he is thinking of that precious book of his!" Mrs.
Douglas laughed and Helen joined her.
It had come to be a good natured joke in the Douglas household that Paul's book was such a great failure that publishers had it listed among the "six worst sellers" if anyone ever had the courage to print it. He had put in a tremendous amount of hard work on the volume which was a bold treatment in original form of the Race Question in America. The ma.n.u.script had been sent to eight different publishers and had been returned, in three instances with scathing comments.
Paul doggedly clung to his first estimate of the book. Each rejection by the last publisher only served to increase his faith in what he had written.
"I tell you, Esther, the publishers don't know a thing. Half the time their office readers can't spell. They don't know gold from mica schist.
Half the books the publishers put out are dead failures. They don't know anything more about it than a native of Ponape knows about making an igloo."
Esther smiled.
"You are naturally a little prejudiced, don't you think? But I don't blame you. It's lucky for us though, that we don't depend on book sales for a living. Let's see, how much has the book cost you so far?"
"Well, in typewriting, and postage on returned ma.n.u.script it has cost me about one hundred and fifty dollars," said Paul good naturedly. "But I'll send it to every publisher in America before I'll give up. I've written a good book and I know it. And I've made up my mind to one thing, Esther. When it comes to making terms I'll sell the ma.n.u.script outright for cash and give the money away to the most needy cause I can find."
"Better have the stipulation with the publishers stereotyped, father,"
said Helen, who was present when this conversation was held. "It will save you time and money."
"Very well, Miss," replied her father. "But don't you dare ask for any of this extra when my ship does come in. Not a cent of it does this ungrateful, unappreciative family get. It is my book and the 'child of my heart' and if it brings me anything I will spend it in riotous living on the other fellow."
Esther and Helen laughed and Paul went down to the office and courageously expressed the ma.n.u.script to one of the eastern publishers who had not yet seen it.
All this had occurred several months before Walter's letter about Bauer and when Paul went down to the office after getting the news his heart and mind were burdened with plans for Bauer's relief. He began to open his mail and a letter from the eastern publisher specially interested him. After reading it, he looked at the check accompanying the letter and chuckled in antic.i.p.ation of meeting Esther and Helen at lunch when he came home.
The mother and daughter were continuing their talk about Walter's letter.
"Can Mr. Bauer get well out there? Walter did not say very clearly?"
Helen asked.
"Many cases like this do recover," said Esther. "But he ought to go at once. If he is having severe hemorrhages that will be his only hope."
Helen was silent for some moments.
"How much did Walter say it would cost to keep him out there a year?"
"He said three hundred dollars."
"It seems like a very small sum, doesn't it?"
"It certainly does. But you remember in some of Mr. Masters's letters to your father about the mission expenses at Tolchaco how ridiculous the amounts seemed to us? You remember one year the entire mission force including seven persons lived on less than fifteen dollars a month for each? I suppose Walter had something like that in mind. And you remember how often in his letters Walter has spoken of Bauer's horror of the luxurious habits of one of the students at Burrton as if it were a great wrong?"
"It was Van Shaw," said Helen with a short laugh. "Walter spoke last Christmas about the solid silver dog collars Mr. Van Shaw purchased for his kennel. Fancy Mr. Bauer buying solid silver dog collars! Fancy him even buying a dog!"
"Unless it was to prevent someone from abusing it. I never met a young man with such a kind heart as Bauer."