'I try to be aware of 'em, at least, in case they end up being played on me. You think they're trouble?'
Lamb shrugged. 'I think you're best off treating folk the way you'd want to be treated and leaving their choices to them. We're all of us trouble o' one kind or another. Half this whole crowd probably got a sad story to tell. Why else would they be plodding across the long and level nowhere with the likes of us for company?'
All Raynault Buckhorm had to tell about was hopes, though he did it with something of a stutter. He owned half the cattle with the Fellowship, employed a good few of the men to drive 'em, and was making his fifth trip to Crease where he said there was always call for meat, this time bringing his wife and children and planning to stay. The exact number of children was hard to reckon but the impression was of many. Buckhorm asked Lamb if he'd seen the grass out there in the Far Country. Best damn grass in the Circle of the World, he thought. Best water, too. Worth facing the weather and the Ghosts and the murderous distance for that grass and that water. When Shy told him about Grega Cantliss and his band he shook his head and said he could still be surprised by how low men could sink. Buckhorm's wife Luline possessed of a giant smile but a tiny body you could hardly believe had produced such a brood shook her head too, and said it was the most awful thing she'd ever heard, and she wished there was something she could do, and probably would've hugged her if they hadn't had the height of a horse between them. Then she gave Shy a little pie and asked if she'd spoken to Hedges.
Hedges was a shifty sort with a wore-out mule, not enough gear and a charmless habit of talking to her from the neck down. He'd never heard of Grega Cantliss but he did point out his ruined leg, which he said he'd got leading a charge at the battle of Osrung. Shy had her doubts about that story. Still, her mother used to say, you're best off looking for the best in people, and it was good advice even if the woman never had taken it herself. So Shy offered Hedges Luline Buckhorm's pie and he looked her in the eye finally and said, 'You're all right.'
'Don't let a pie fool you.' But when she rode off he was still looking down at it in his dirty hand, like it meant so much he couldn't bring himself to eat it.
Shy went on around them 'til her voice was sore from sharing her troubles and her ears from lending them to others' dreams. A Fellowship was a good name for it, she reckoned, 'cause they were a good-humoured and a giving company, in the main. Raw and strange and foolish, some of them, but all fixed on finding a better tomorrow. Even Shy felt it, time and trouble-toughened, work and weather-worn, weighed down with worries about Pit and Ro's future and Lamb's past. The new wind on her face and the new hopes ringing in her ears and she found a dopey smile creeping under her nose as she threaded between the wagons, nodding to folks she didn't know, slapping the backs of those she'd only just met. Soon as she'd remember why she was there and wipe that smile away she'd find it was back, like pigeons shouted off a new-sown field.
Soon enough she stopped trying. Pigeons'll ruin your crop, but what harm will smiles do, really?
So she let it sit there. Felt good on her.
'Lots of sympathy,' she said, once they'd talked to most everyone, and the sun had sunk to a gilt sliver ahead of them, the first torches lit so the Fellowship could slog another mile before making camp. 'Lots of sympathy but not much help.'
'I guess sympathy's something,' said Lamb. She waited for more but he just sat hunched, nodding along to the slow walk of his horse.
'They seem all right, though, mostly.' Gabbing just to fill the hole, and feeling annoyed that she had to. 'Don't know how they'll fare if the Ghosts come and things get ugly, but they're all right.'
'Guess you never know how folk'll fare if things get ugly.'
She looked across at him. 'You're damn right there.'
He caught her eye for a moment, then guiltily looked away. She opened her mouth but before she could say more, Sweet's deep voice echoed through the dusk, calling halt for the day.
The Rugged Outdoorsman Temple wrenched himself around in his saddle, heart suddenly bursting- And saw nothing but moonlight on shifting branches. It was so dark he could scarcely see that. He might have heard a twig torn loose by the wind, or a rabbit about its harmless nocturnal business in the brush, or a murderous Ghost savage daubed with the blood of slaughtered innocents, fixed on skinning him alive and wearing his face as a hat.
He hunched his shoulders as another chilly gust whipped up, shook the pines and chilled him to his marrow. The Company of the Gracious Hand had enveloped him in its foul embrace for so long he had come to take the physical safety it provided entirely for granted. Now he keenly felt its loss. There were many things in life one did not fully appreciate until one had cavalierly tossed them aside. Like a good coat. Or a very small knife. Or a few-score hardened killers and an affable geriatric villain.
The first day he had ridden hard and worried only that they would catch him. Then, when the second morning dawned chill and vastly empty, that they wouldn't. By the third morning he was feeling deeply aggrieved at the thought that they might not even have tried. Fleeing the Company, directionless and unequipped, into the unmapped wasteland, was looking less and less like the easy way to anything.
Temple had played many parts during his thirty ill-starred years alive. Beggar, thief, unwilling trainee priest, ineffective surgeon, disgusted butcher, sore-handed carpenter, briefly a loving husband and even more briefly a doting father followed closely by a wretched mourner and bitter drunk, overconfident confidence trickster, prisoner of the Inquisition then informant for them, translator, accountant and lawyer, collaborator with a whole range of different wrong sides, accomplice to mass murder, of course, and, most recently and disastrously, man of conscience. But rugged outdoorsman made no appearance on the list.
Temple did not even have the equipment to make a fire. Or, had he had it, known how to use it. He had nothing to cook anyway. And now he was lost in every sense of the word. The barbs of hunger, cold and fear had quickly come to bother him vastly more than the feeble prodding of his conscience ever had. He should probably have thought more carefully before fleeing, but flight and careful thought are like oil and water, ever reluctant to mix. He blamed Cosca. He blamed Lorsen. He blamed Jubair, and Sheel, and Sufeen. He blamed every fucker available excepting, of course, the one who was actually to blame, the one sitting in his saddle and getting colder, hungrier, and more lost with every unpleasant moment.
'Shit!' he roared at nothing.
His horse checked, ears swivelling, then plodded on. It was becoming resignedly immune to his outbursts. Temple peered up through the crooked branches, the moon casting a glow through the fast-moving streaks of cloud.
'God?' he muttered, too desperate to feel a fool. 'Can you hear me?' No answer, of course. God does not answer, especially not the likes of him. 'I know I haven't been the best man. Or even a particularly good one . . .' He winced. Once you accept He's up there, and all-knowing and all-seeing and so on, you probably have to accept that there's no point gilding the truth for Him. 'All right, I'm a pretty poor one, but . . . far from the worst about?' A proud boast, that. What a headstone it would make. Except, of course, there would be no one to carve it when he died out here alone and rotted in the open. 'I am sure I could improve, though, if you could just see your way to giving me . . . one more chance?' Wheedling, wheedling. 'Just . . . one more?'
No reply but another chill gust filling the trees with whispers. If there was a God, He was a tight-mouthed bastard, and no- Temple caught the faintest glimmer of flickering orange through the trees.
A fire! Jubilation sprang to life in his breast!
Then caution smothered it.
Whose fire? Ear-collecting barbarians, but a step above wild animals?
He caught a whiff of cooking meat and his stomach gave a long, squelching growl, so loud he worried it might give him away. Temple had spent a great deal of his early life hungry and become quite adept at it, but, as with so many things, to do it well one has to stay in practice.
He gently reined in his horse, slid as quietly as he could from the saddle and looped the reins around a branch. Keeping low, he eased through the brush, tree-limbs casting clawing shadows towards him, breathing curses as he caught his clothes, his boots, his face on snatching twigs.
The fire had been built in the middle of a narrow clearing, a small animal neatly skinned and spitted on sticks above it. Temple suppressed a powerful impulse to dive at it teeth first. A single blanket was spread out between the fire and a worn saddle. A round shield leaned against a tree, metal rim and wooden front marked with the scars of hard use. Next to it was an axe with a heavy bearded head. It took no expert in the use of weapons to see this was a tool not for chopping wood but people.
The gear of one man, but clearly a man it would be a bad idea to be caught stealing the dinner of.
Temple's eyes crawled from meat to axe and back, and his mouth watered with an intensity almost painful. Possible death by axe loomed large at any time, but at that moment certain death from hunger loomed larger yet. He slowly straightened, preparing to- 'Nice night for it.' Northern words in a throaty whisper of a voice, just behind Temple's ear.
He froze, small hairs tingling up his neck. 'Bit windy,' he managed to croak.
'I've seen worse.' A cold and terrible point pricked at the small of Temple's back. 'Let's see your weapons, slow as snails in winter.'
'I am . . . unarmed.'
A pause. 'You're what?'
'I had a knife, but . . .' He had given it to a bony farmer who killed his best friend with it. 'I lost it.'
'Out in the big empty without a blade?' As though it was strange as to be without a nose. Temple gave a girlish squeak as a big hand slipped under his arm and started to pat him down. 'Nor have you, 'less you're hiding one up your arse.' An unpleasing notion. 'I ain't looking there.' That was some relief. 'You a madman?'
'I am a lawyer.'
'Can't a man be both?'
Self-evidently. 'I . . . suppose.'
Another pause. 'Cosca's lawyer?'
'I was.'
'Huh.' The point slipped away, its absence leaving a prickling spot in Temple's back. Even unpleasant things can be sorely missed, apparently, if you have lived with them long enough.
A man stepped past Temple. A great, black, shaggy shape, knife-blade glinting in one hand. He dragged a long sword from his belt and tossed it on the blanket, then lowered himself cross-legged, firelight twinkling red and yellow in the mirror of his metal eye.
'Life takes you down some strange paths, don't it?' he said.
'Caul Shivers,' muttered Temple, not at all sure whether to feel better or worse.
Shivers reached out and turned the spit between finger and thumb, fat dripping into the flames. 'Hungry?'
Temple licked his lips. 'Is that just a question . . . or an invitation?'
'I've got more'n I can eat. You'd best bring that horse up before it shakes loose. Watch your step, though.' The Northman jerked his head back into the trees. 'There's a gorge that way might be twenty strides deep, and with some angry water at the bottom.'
Temple brought the horse up and hobbled it, stripped its saddle and the damp blanket beneath, abandoned it to nuzzle at whatever grass it could find. A sad fact, but the hungrier a man is the less he tends to care about the hunger of others. Shivers had carved the carcass down to the bones and was eating from a tin plate with the point of his knife. More meat lay gleaming on some torn-off bark on the other side of the fire. Temple sank to his knees before it as though it were a most hallowed altar.
'My very great thanks.' He closed his eyes as he began to eat, sucking the juice from every morsel. 'I was starting to think I'd die out here.'
'Who says you won't?'
A shred of meat caught in Temple's throat and he gave an awkward cough. 'Are you alone?' he managed to gasp out anything but more of the crushing silence.
'I've learned I make poor company.'
'You aren't worried about the Ghosts?'
The Northman shook his head.
'I hear they've killed a lot of people in the Far Country.'
'Once they've killed me I'll worry.' Shivers tossed down his plate and leaned back on one elbow, his ruined face shifting further into the darkness. 'A man can spend the time he's given crapping his arse out over what might be, but where does it get you?'
Where indeed? 'Still hunting for your nine-fingered man?'
'He killed my brother.'
Temple paused with another piece of meat halfway to his mouth. 'I'm sorry.'
'You're sorrier'n me, then. My brother was a shit. But family is family.'
'I wouldn't know.' Temple's relatives had rarely stayed long in his life. A dead mother, a dead wife, a dead daughter. 'Closest thing I have to family is . . .' He realised he had been about to say Sufeen, and now he was dead as well. 'Nicomo Cosca.'
Shivers grunted. Almost a chuckle. 'In my experience, he ain't the safest man to have at your back.'
'What is your experience?'
'We were both hired to kill some men. In Styria, ten years ago or so. Friendly, too. Some others. A poisoner. A torturer.'
'Sounds quite the merry company.'
'I ain't the wag I seem. Things got . . .' Shivers scratched ever so gently at the great scar under his metal eye. 'A bit unpleasant.'
'Things tend to get unpleasant when Cosca's involved.'
'They can get plenty unpleasant without him.'
'More so with,' muttered Temple, looking into the fire. 'He never cared much, but he used to care a little. He's got worse.'
'That's what men do.'
'Not all of them.'
'Ah.' Shivers showed his teeth. 'You're one of them optimists I've heard about.'
'No, no, not me,' said Temple. 'I always take the easy way.'
'Very wise. I find hoping for a thing tends to bring on the opposite.' The Northman slowly turned the ring on his little finger round and around, the stone glittering the colour of blood. 'I had my dreams of being a better man, once upon a time.'
'What happened?'
Shivers stretched out beside the fire, boots up on his saddle, and started to shake a blanket over himself. 'I woke up.'
Temple woke to that first washed out, grey-blue touch of dawn, and found himself smiling. The ground was cold and hard, the blanket was far too small and smelled powerfully of horse, the evening meal had been inadequate, and yet it was a long time since he had slept so soundly. Birds twittered, wind whispered and through the trees he could hear the faint rushing of water.
Fleeing the Company suddenly seemed a masterful plan, boldly executed. He wriggled over under his blanket. If there was a God, it turned out He was the forgiving fellow Kahdia had always- Shivers' sword and shield had gone and another man squatted on his blanket.
He was stripped to the waist, his pale body a twisted mass of sinew. Over his bottom half he wore a filthy woman's dress, slit up the middle then stitched with twine to make loose trousers. One side of his head was shaved, the orange hair on the other scraped up into stiff spikes with some kind of fat. In one dangling hand he held a hatchet, in the other a bright knife.
A Ghost, then.
He stared unblinking across the dead fire at Temple with piercing blue eyes and Temple stared back, considerably less piercingly, and found he had gently pulled his horse-stinking blanket up under his chin in both fists.
Two more men slipped silently from the trees. One wore as a kind of helmet, though presumably not for protection against any earthly weapon, an open box of sticks joined at the corners with feathers and secured to a collar made from an old belt. The other's cheeks were striped with self-inflicted scars. In different circumstances on stage, perhaps, at a Styrian carnival they might have raised quite the laugh. Here, in the untracked depths of the Far Country and with Temple their only audience, merriment was notable by its absence.
'Noy.' A fourth Ghost had appeared as if from nowhere, between man and boy with yellow hair about his pale face and a line of dried-out brown paint under his eyes. Temple hoped it was paint. The bones of some small animal, stitched to the front of a shirt made from a sack, rattled as he danced from one foot to the other, smiling radiantly all the while. He beckoned Temple up.
'Noy.'
Temple very slowly got to his feet, smiling back at the boy, and then at the others. Keep smiling, keep smiling, everything on a friendly footing. 'Noy?' he ventured.
The boy hit him across the side of the head.
It was the shock more than the force that put Temple down. So he told himself. The shock, and some kind of primitive understanding that there was nothing to be gained by staying up. The world swayed as he lay there. His hair was tickly. He touched his scalp and there was blood on his fingers.
Then he saw the boy had a rock in his hand. A rock painted with blue rings. And now with just a few spots of Temple's red blood.
'Noy!' called the boy, beckoning again.
Temple was in no particular rush to rise. 'Look,' he said, trying common first. The boy slapped him with his empty hand. 'Look!' Giving Styrian a go. The boy slapped him a second time. He tried Kantic. 'I do not have any-' The boy hit him with the rock again, caught him across the cheek and put him on his side.
Temple shook his head. Groggy. Couldn't hear that well.
He grabbed at the nearest thing. The boy's leg, maybe.
He clambered up as far as his knees. His knees or the boy's knees. Someone's knees.
His mouth tasted of blood. His face was throbbing. Not hurting exactly. Numb.
The boy was saying something to the others, raising his arms as if asking for approval.
The one with the spikes of hair nodded gravely and opened his mouth to speak, and his head flew off.
The one beside him turned, slightly impeded by his stick helmet. Shivers' sword cut his arm off above the elbow and thudded deep into his chest, blood flooding from the wound. He stumbled wordlessly back, the blade lodged in his ribs.
The one with the scarred face flew at Shivers, stabbing at him, clawing at his shield, the two of them lurching about the clearing, feet kicking sparks from the embers of the fire.