"That is all I ask in the meantime," said Kit. "I don't expect you to influence Miss...o...b..rn. In fact, she must understand that I have no claim and feel herself free to refuse."
"You are generous," Mrs. Osborn remarked. "Of course, it is obvious that her grat.i.tude must count for much."
"I don't want her grat.i.tude to count," Kit declared, and Osborn gave him a puzzled glance.
"There is something else that must be said. Grace has been indulged and knows nothing of self-denial. Frugality that you think proper and usual would be hardship to her. Can you give your wife the comforts and refinements she has had at home?"
Kit noted Mrs. Osborn's faint smile and wondered whether it hinted at ironical amus.e.m.e.nt, but he put a doc.u.ment on the table.
"You are ent.i.tled to ask and I have brought a short draught of the arrangements I am ready to make if I am fortunate enough to win your daughter."
Osborn picked up the paper and gave it to his wife. Then he looked at Kit with surprise.
"This alters things; you are almost a rich man! If you wanted, you could buy a house like Tarnside."
"No," said Kit firmly; "it alters nothing and leaves me where I was. I'm satisfied with Ashness."
"Ah," said Osborn. "You mean you would sooner be a working farmer than a country gentleman? The preference is somewhat remarkable!"
"I know where I belong. The important thing is that if Miss...o...b..rn marries me, she will be a farmer's wife."
"Exactly," said Osborn. "From my point of view, it's an awkward drawback.
I doubt if my daughter is suited for the part." He looked at Mrs. Osborn and resumed: "But this is a matter Grace must decide about and you insisted that no pressure should be used. I imagine you were afraid of my influence and do not know if I am afraid of yours or not. If you agree, I will send for her."
Kit said he was willing and was silent when Osborn went away. Although he imagined Mrs. Osborn was sympathetic, he could not force himself to talk.
Since he had insisted that persuasion must not be used, he could not demand to meet Grace alone and she might find it hard to accept his plans without some explanation, which would be awkward to give when her parents were there. He could, if he wanted, change his mode of life, but if they were to be happy, she must be removed from influences he thought dangerous and he must use his energy in useful work. He saw this very clearly; but whether Grace would see it was another thing.
He felt some strain while he waited and watched the trembling shadows move upon the gra.s.s. The rays of light that pierced the dark foliage flickered about Mrs. Osborn's dress and when he glanced at her he thought her look encouraging, but she did not speak. By and by Osborn returned and said Grace was coming, and Kit found the suspense hard to bear.
At length she came and his heart beat as he watched her cross the lawn.
She wore a plain white dress and when she stopped in front of the others her face was pale but calm.
"Mr. Askew has asked my permission to marry you and I cannot refuse if you agree," Osborn said in a formal tone. "He stipulates that I must not persuade you one way or the other, and declares that he does not want to work upon your grat.i.tude."
Some color came into Grace's face as she looked at Kit. "Then, you don't value my grat.i.tude?"
"I value it very much," Kit replied with forced quietness. "But I feel it ought not to count."
He stopped awkwardly, for he noted a sparkle in Grace's eyes and felt that he was badly handicapped. She was proud and probably did not understand his disinterested att.i.tude. It was a relief when Mrs. Osborn interposed:
"Mr. Askew is trying to be just. We have agreed that you are not to be influenced."
"Ah," said Grace, "I think I see--"
She waited and Osborn went on: "Since you are to make a free choice, I must state things as plainly as I can. Mr. Askew is not poor; he is able to give you all we think you ought to have. In fact, there is no very obvious reason he should not leave Ashness, but he does not mean to do so, and although I cannot follow his argument, imagines that it would be better for you both if he carries on his farming. It looks as if he did not approve our rule."
Kit frowned, and colored when Grace turned to him. On the whole, Osborn had not stated things incorrectly, but the situation was embarra.s.sing; Grace would, no doubt, resent the stipulation he felt forced to make and expect a more lover-like att.i.tude from the man who asked her to be his wife.
"Grace," he said appealingly, "I'm afraid you don't understand. But when you must give up so much I durst not hide the drawbacks. Besides, it's agreed that I must not urge you."
She studied him for a moment. "I do understand," she said, and then turned to Osborn. "I suppose you are trying to guard me, but I am not afraid. One gets tired of pretense and secret economy, and forced idleness has not much charm. Well, if Mr. Askew, knowing what he knows about us, is willing to run the risk--"
"Grace!" said Kit, moving forward, but she stopped him with a proud gesture.
"There is a risk. I think we shall both need courage, but if you are willing I need not hesitate. I will try to make a good farmer's wife."
She turned and went away, and the blood came into Kit's face as he looked at Osborn.
"I have played fair, but it was hard. Now you have heard her answer, I'm at liberty to plead my cause."
Osborn said nothing, but his wife gave Kit a friendly smile and he went off with a resolute step in pursuit of Grace. He came up with her in a shrubbery, but it looked as if she did not hear him, for her head was bent.
"Grace," he said, putting his hand on her arm. "I'm embarra.s.sed and, in a way, ashamed."
She turned and confronted him with her wonted calm. "I don't see why you are ashamed. You were just--I think I mean quite impartial. You wanted me to weigh things and would have been resigned if I had found the drawbacks too much."
"It wasn't as easy as you think," said Kit grimly. "In fact, I was burning with anger and suspense. But, you see, I had promised your father--"
"Yes," said Grace; "that was plain. You were firm when you thought I might be forced to marry Thorn, and when father agreed not to use his influence, I suppose you could not use yours. Well, I'm glad you were angry; it was human, and your scrupulous fairness was not flattering."
She paused and, to Kit's relief, gave him a smile. "After all, it would not have hurt to be urged to marry the man I did like."
"You mean me?" said Kit and boldly took her in his arms.
She drew back from him, blushing, after a few moments, but Kit was content. There was something fascinatingly elusive about Grace and he could wait. They went on quietly down the path until they came to a bench in a shady nook. Kit leaned against a tree and Grace sat down.
"Kit," she said, "I didn't know you were rich. It really doesn't matter, but I'm glad I fell in love with you when I didn't know."
"Then, you were in love with me?"
She smiled. "Of course! I must have been, when I came to you because I was afraid of Thorn. Love gave me confidence; I knew you would help. In a way, I did an extravagant thing, because you were not really like a lover at all."
"The control I used often hurt," said Kit. "I was afraid I might alarm and lose you; it was much to see you now and then." He paused, feeling there was something to be said that must be said now. "However, about Ashness--"
"Oh," said Grace, "I suppose it cost you an effort to be firm and I hope it did. You needn't be afraid, though. When my father told me, I understood, and it won't hurt to leave Tarnside; I'm anxious to get away."
"My dear!" said Kit. "Ashness has some charm and we will try to make it a proper home for you."
"It is a home; I sometimes went to see your father--I liked him so much, Kit. One feels the old house has sheltered sincere men and women who loved each other and something they left haunts the quiet spot. I don't want you to alter it much."
"You shall alter it as you like. The only rule at Ashness will be what pleases you."
"Now you're very nice! I'm going to be happy because I can be myself. So far, I've been forced to be reserved. You don't really know me, Kit."
"Perhaps that's true," Kit remarked. "You're wonderful, because there's always some fresh charm to learn. I thought I knew you before I went away, but when I came back I saw how foolish I was. I wonder whether you knew I loved you then?"
Grace blushed. "I think I knew, and felt cheated."
"Why did you feel cheated?"