The Brooklyn Brotherhood.

Just Once.

Addison Fox.

For Meridith Murray Bickel.

Dear friend. Fellow band camp survivor. Companion pop-culture junkie. How lucky I am to have you in my life. I can't watch a Doogie Howser rerun without smiling and thinking of you.

Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back.

-Plato.

Prologue.

Brooklyn, 20 years ago.

A brand-new computer?.

Landon McGee was almost afraid to touch the black ThinkPad laptop. It was gorgeous, the cover so smooth as it stared up at him from where Mama Lou had nestled it inside a blanket inside a big box, and then wrapped for his birthday. He still couldn't believe it. His own computer?

Landon had wanted a computer since, oh, about ever, but he had never said anything. So how did she know?

He'd never even discussed it with Nick or Fender. They'd understand because they always understood him, but they'd have given him shit about it, too. So he'd kept it to himself.

"What is it, L?" Fender peeked over his shoulder. Landon was the first of the boys to have his birthday, and Fender's excitement-and the reality of what possibly awaited him for his thirteenth birthday in a few months-was palpable.

Landon bent and pulled the blanket out, careful with the precious cargo inside as Mama Lou gently removed the box from underneath. He let the blanket fall away and held up his new treasure.

His fingertips played over the lid before he turned toward her. "It's too expensive."

"It's a gift."

Something punched between his ribs with fists the size of the Incredible Hulk's, knocking the breathless joy out of the way. "Thank you for this, but it's too expensive."

A small flash of sadness filled Mama Lou's eyes before they widened in surprise when he shoved the blanket at her and leaped off the couch. The strains of a Christmas special echoed from the TV, but all Landon saw was a dim mixture of red and green as he raced past the screen and out of the room.

Up one flight. Then up the second of their Brooklyn brownstone.

He lowered himself onto the bed, the mattress still as hard and firm as when she'd bought it for him almost three years ago. Nick and Fender had matching ones and they regularly sprawled over theirs or bounced on them the moment they came in from school. Landon had worked hard to keep his feeling new. Unused. Unnoticed.

How had she known he wanted the computer? And a ThinkPad, too? Not only was it top of the line, but it had crazy memory and it was supersturdy and well- It was awesome.

The sky outside his window was already dark, even though it was only six o'clock. The streetlights on Cherry Street sent up a fluorescent glow, and Christmas lights winked on the house across the street. It was cozy and warm and so different from where he spent his first ten years. There were some streetlights there, too, but they were out as often as they were on. A few people decorated for Christmas, but most of the time no one cared or paid any attention.

He liked it when no one paid attention. It meant he could go around unnoticed. If you stayed invisible, people left you alone. But somehow, he hadn't managed to stay invisible to Mama Lou. From that first day they met her, right before he, Nick, and Fender had to go back into the school building from recess, she'd seen him. Seen all of them.

For instance, she knew how much Nick loved sports. On his last birthday she got him new football cleats and signed him up to play in the school peewee league, even though she kept saying she'd kill him if he got hurt.

Their mom also figured out real quick how good Fender was with puzzles. From the jigsaw puzzles they did spread out on the dining room table to the things she let him take apart and put back together, she always seemed to know when Fender got restless and needed to keep his hands busy.

Which left him. Although she'd adopted all of them, he'd officially been her son the longest. Landon knew he shouldn't care about that-he was happy with his new life-but it still sort of hurt that his real mom hadn't given a shit when Mama Lou made noises about adopting him out of foster care. It was real nice of her and things were a lot better than before, but he couldn't help wondering why his mom didn't put up a fight like Nick's dad or Fender's old man.

The knock pulled him out of his thoughts. "Landon?"

His heart spun around in his chest before dropping into his belly. Was she mad? "Hey."

"I wanted to see how you're doing. It's a shame to spend your birthday stuck up here in your room."

"I thought-" He scrambled to sit up. "I thought it might be better."

"To sit in your room and miss your presents and cake?"

Presents? As in plural? He tamped down on the shot of excitement and focused on why he'd escaped the living room. "I thought maybe you were mad."

"Why would I be mad?"

"I don't know." The words spilled out in a rush, his throat closing on the last syllable.

Only he did know. He knew he hurt her feelings, and he didn't want to do that. He didn't want to hurt anybody. He just wanted to stay invisible.

"If you mean about the computer, I'm not mad."

"But I bet I hurt your feelings."

She took a seat on the edge of his bed, her hand closing over one of his big clown feet. "You didn't hurt my feelings."

Landon looked up at that, not believing her. "But I gave you your gift back."

"That's what I wanted to talk about." She squeezed his foot. "If you really don't want it, I'll take it back and we can find a new present that you'd rather have."

Rather have? There was nothing he wanted more than a brand new laptop. "Okay."

"But before we do that, I'd like to ask you a question."

"Sure."

"Do you want the computer?"

Did he want it? Holy shit, he wanted it so bad. Like he wanted to breathe. And like he wanted to keep living here. And like he wanted to make her happy.

"It's expensive."

"That wasn't my question."

He knew Mama Lou had a big job in the city before she came back to Brooklyn. She didn't talk about it much, but one night when they were watching TV Nick had asked her about it. About that time.

The time before them.

They were all curious-he and his brothers had talked about her, of course-but she'd never said much. She didn't say much that night either, but she shared enough. He knew she'd lived in Manhattan and was a career woman. She had gone to an office every day, which, he figured, meant she did important things. It seemed a far cry from all the taxes she did now, sometimes at the dining room table, sometimes at people's houses. He'd wanted to ask her if she missed those times, but he'd been afraid to. What if she did miss those times being a career woman? He watched enough TV to know someone with an office job made a whole lot more than a woman with three kids who did people's taxes at the dining-room table. What if she wanted to go back to that?

"Landon?" When he didn't say anything, she gave his foot another light squeeze. "Would you like the computer?"

"Yes." One word-just a whisper-but it shot out of him with all the force of a rocket launched toward space. And then before he could stop himself, more words spilled out, one stronger and more excited than the next.

"It's a great computer. I've been saving for one and I don't have much but I can give that to you. You know. Toward the cost."

"But it's your birthday present."

"I know. But I know how much it cost. And it's a lot. For you. You know, to take on."

She didn't say anything, and Landon didn't know what else to say. They sat like that for quite a while, her hand on his foot and his gaze focused in rapt attention on the way her fingers gently settled there.

"I used to use a computer at my job. Every day, as a matter of fact. I know how important a computer is to create things and build code."

"You're a coder?"

She laughed at that, a warm sound that always made him feel safe. "No, nothing like that. I trust others know how to write the programs I need. But I'm quite grateful to those people. The ones who understand how computers work and how to create software."

"I bet you made a lot of money when you worked in the office."

"I did."

He wondered if he should say anything more, but the words tumbled out before he could stop them. "You don't make that much anymore. And you didn't have kids before. Three kids who eat a lot."

She squeezed his foot before she reached over and pressed a hand to his cheek. He liked when she did that, even though it was a dumb, babyish thing. She was always doing stuff like that. Touching their faces or giving them hugs or pulling them close to kiss their cheeks. It was the kind of thing real moms did.

"You're right. Those things do cost money."

"Nick eats a lot."

She giggled at that. "You and Fender keep up pretty well."

Images of their pancake-eating contest the prior Sunday morning drifted through his mind. "I bet there's not a lot of money left over."

"You're right about something. I did make a lot of money before. And I invested it well. I have more than enough for all of us, and more than enough to buy my son a present for his birthday."

"But-"

"Would you like the computer?"

"Yes."

"Will it help you with the coding work you've been learning in school?"

"Yes."

"Then it seems to me like it's not just a good birthday present, but a pretty good investment, too."

Landon sat there, weighing her words. He would use the computer every day. And if he had his own he could keep working on his school projects instead of having to take a break in the evenings. He could even write a program for her to keep up with her clients' schedules during tax season.

"I could help you, you know."

"You could?"

He rushed on. "With your clients. And your schedule. And we could even connect it to your e-mail program so you could confirm their appointments and what you need them to bring along because of how so many of them forget all their receipts."

"That sounds like an amazing idea."

"I can do that. With the computer. I even know the code to use to create it."

The smile was back in her eyes when she reached over and tousled his hair. "Then it really would be a shame to take it back."

"I think it would."

The distant creak of the elevator echoed from the far side of the house. "Sounds like Mrs. Weston."

"She does love that elevator."

"She also loves cake." Mama Lou glanced toward the door. "Race ya!"

His mother shot off the bed and out the door, hollering as she went for his brothers to help Mrs. W. out of the elevator. Landon got off his bed and straightened the covers, his mind already wandering to what he would work on later.

But first he was going to have the biggest piece of birthday cake and celebrate the fact that all his wishes had come true.

One.

Landon McGee knew three things about life. It was never boring. It was always kicking you in the ass. And, in the immortal words of Robert Frost, it went on. He also knew that the elements of life that made it endlessly fascinating or shockingly hard-sometimes both-usually came up and blindsided you on a random Tuesday.

Or a Wednesday morning, to be exact.

He'd walked into the loft space he rented in DUMBO ten minutes ago to find it in disarray. He and his suitemates were sort of digital sharecroppers, sharing the cost of the rent, the overhead, and the extremely necessary T-1 line that kept their small businesses afloat. Each of them was a computer geek to the core, ensuring paperwork was in short supply while the latest in equipment and digital design tools were plentiful.

So it was odd to discover that the filing cabinets were among the few items hit.