Left with d.i.c.k and Jane, and d.i.c.k was pawing Jane in the car and I asked him where his missus was. Was dropped by d.i.c.k at 2:00.

Friday, June 25, 1982 Rupert and all the kids told me they were going away for the weekend, so I decided not to go down to the office, I was afraid of getting stuck in the elevator.

Talked to Jon and he was going to stay home after going to the doctor's because he was rundown.

I'd gotten tickets to the Feld Ballet in the old Elgin Theater which they now call the Joyce Theater. Met Chris and Peter there. Fun costumes and cute kids. There was one all-girl number and one all-boy number sort of like Grease Grease and then one boys and girls together. The and then one boys and girls together. The West Side Story West Side Story number with all the boys was done sort of as if they were making out. number with all the boys was done sort of as if they were making out.

But dance is so disillusioning for me. If you're over twenty-five, you're finished. Because after twenty you lose that sparkle, you get too stylized. And there's always a sparkly fifteen-year-old coming along to wash you up.

Then we went to Claire's on Seventh Avenue on the West Side, it's like one of those new, bright California places, all latticework, and jammed with fairies and Way Bandy came in and he looked like death, and he just drank coffee and I told him I still want him to do my makeup when I go out on the town.

Sat.u.r.day, June 26, 1982 Went down to Heartbreak, the new discotheque near Vandam near the Paradise Ballroom. It's a cafeteria in the daytime and then a disco at night, and the music is all fifties and some sixties and everybody dresses the way they want and everybody dances the way they want. If you did a movie of it, it would be so underplayed. And all the kids at Heartbreak were coming over and saying that I'd told them at Studio 54 I'd look at their work, and all I could say was, "Well, so when are you coming down?" and even the doorman at Heartbreak I think is coming to show me his work.

Sunday, June 27, 1982 Cabbed to 45th and Broadway ($6) to see Blade Runner Blade Runner (tickets $10) at the Criterion. The movie was dark. I don't know if it's really abstract or really simple. And there's a narrative. It's like d.i.c.k Powell playing Philip Marlowe. And if I ever saw this as a script, I wouldn't know what to think. And they say these lines seriously, it's all done like it's real problems. And it's like Ronnie Tavel's plays in the sixties or Charles Ludlam's. Dropped Jon (cab $8). Watched cable till 1:30. (tickets $10) at the Criterion. The movie was dark. I don't know if it's really abstract or really simple. And there's a narrative. It's like d.i.c.k Powell playing Philip Marlowe. And if I ever saw this as a script, I wouldn't know what to think. And they say these lines seriously, it's all done like it's real problems. And it's like Ronnie Tavel's plays in the sixties or Charles Ludlam's. Dropped Jon (cab $8). Watched cable till 1:30.

Tuesday, June 29, 1982 Worked all afternoon.

Went to the thing at the Plaza for Bill Bla.s.s Chocolates and a guy there told me that my sister-in-law, Ann, and his mother are religious fanatics together. And at first I pretended that I didn't have a sister-in-law because I can't stand her. But then I told him about my nephew Paul who left the priesthood and he told me about his sister who left the convent and now is f.u.c.king black guys. I had strawberries dipped in chocolate. And I left depressed after a sugar letdown.

Wednesday, June 30, 1982 Geraldine Smith came by with Liz Derringer who was interviewing me for the Southampton newspaper. Gary Lajeski is having a show of my prints or something out there, which I don't even know anything about, in a couple of weeks, and Fred thinks I should go because he says then you're in people's minds and they'll buy later.

Decided not to go to Lena Home's goodbye party. Decided to go to Roy Cohn's third annual birthday party in his house in Greenwich. Steve Rubell wasn't driving his car because he's been drinking too much, so Ian drove, and it was me and Steve and Ian and Bob. And Bob is so sour, he doesn't talk to me anymore. I didn't wear a tie. I was wearing an Interview Interview T-shirt and he got mad at that. I don't know what's his problem. T-shirt and he got mad at that. I don't know what's his problem.

Roy's house is right near the center of Greenwich. It's a really little house. And when you go to these Roy Cohn things all everybody says is, "It's so amusing, it's so interesting, because you never know who you'll find at these things." They say you get everyone from the Mafia to the shoe repairman. Which is true, because this guy came over to me and said, "I'm the garage mechanic who worked on your car for years. I've always wanted to meet you." C.Z. Guest was there, she'd put in the roses at Roy's house, and Cornelia was with her. And I did something dumb. I guess wine is affecting me quicker now. The guy Combemale whose wife is Freddy Woolworth's sister was telling me a joke and he tore a dollar bill in half. So I took out a hundred dollar bill and tore it it in half and gave half to Mrs. Ba.s.sirio and half to Doris Lilly and told them that they'd have to be friends forever because they each had the other half. in half and gave half to Mrs. Ba.s.sirio and half to Doris Lilly and told them that they'd have to be friends forever because they each had the other half.

The food was really good, but the people were acting like such animals to get it. Everybody says Roy has seven boyfriends, one for each day of the week. And he must have gone to a butcher to have a facelift, because you could see the b.l.o.o.d.y scars from his latest one, they really were showing.

Tuesday, July 6, 1982 With the eclipse of the moon we got letters from the faithful nutty-letter writers, people like Joey Sutton and Crazy Rona. And Paul America called-I don't know from where-but the office has a list of "Do Not Take Calls From" people so they didn't put the call through. And they said he was saying that he was one of my superstars, but he was never even in one of my movies. Oh wait! My Hustlerl My Hustlerl I forgot, I forgot, (laughs) (laughs) he was the he was the star star. He (laughs) was My Hustler (laughs) was My Hustler.

And Jean Stein's going to be on the talk-show circuit probably with Viva. Oh, I've got to put the bug in Viva's ear that Jean Stein is just using her.

Friday, July 9, 1982 I was invited to a surprise birthday lunch party at a restaurant on 48th Street for Phyllis Diller's sixty-fifth birthday. So I decided to stay uptown until that at 1:30.

When I walked in a lady with gla.s.ses said that she still had my mother's book, and I was trying to think of which lady in my advertising days would I have given one to, and I just couldn't place who this grandmother-looking woman was, and then someone said, "Kaye!" and it dawned on me-Kaye Ballard. And so I went running back and had to pretend as if I'd just been out of it. And she was fun, she's in The Pirates of Penzance The Pirates of Penzance. It's funny, these people were such big TV stars, and then when you lose your ratings, you're just like a normal person.

And at 2:00 Phyllis Diller arrived. She said that they told her it was a New York Times New York Times interview and that they wanted her to wear a bright-colored dress because it would photograph better, but she hadn't known why, since the interview and that they wanted her to wear a bright-colored dress because it would photograph better, but she hadn't known why, since the Times Times was black and white. was black and white.

Tommy Tune arrived and he's all Southern charm, he said that he still reads the Philosophy Philosophy book, that it's made him what he is today, that he picks it up and rereads it for inspiration and he feels good again. book, that it's made him what he is today, that he picks it up and rereads it for inspiration and he feels good again.

The press was there and they took photographs. And it was embarra.s.sing because I'd brought Phyllis a Cow print wrapped in an Interview Interview and she thought the wrapping was the art and she was being so careful with it and she said and she thought the wrapping was the art and she was being so careful with it and she said [imitates] [imitates], "Faaabulous."

Sat.u.r.day, July 10, 1982 Brigid was going through her old files, she has the whole seventies doc.u.mented. She has what she did every minute written down and then on tapes. She did so much. If people found out all you could do on amphetamine, it would really get popular again.

Wednesday, July 14, 1982 Worked on the Endangered Species portfolios and talked on the phone to Ron Feldman and sent Chris down with them, and Ron was excited, really excited, and now we have to figure out how to market them. Dropped Rupert (cab $5.50).

Sat.u.r.day, July 17, 1982 It was a scorcher. Went to the Whitney Museum (admission $4). Saw the Ed Ruscha show, which was interesting. Went to see Young Doctors in Love Young Doctors in Love (tickets $10) and it was really good (cab $3). It was directed by Garry Marshall who I didn't know was an old guy. And there was a funny scene where the guy in the Calvin Klein ad is wheeled into the operating room in his jeans in the same position he's in in the ads, and so that's funny if you get it. Not everybody gets it. (tickets $10) and it was really good (cab $3). It was directed by Garry Marshall who I didn't know was an old guy. And there was a funny scene where the guy in the Calvin Klein ad is wheeled into the operating room in his jeans in the same position he's in in the ads, and so that's funny if you get it. Not everybody gets it.

Sunday, July 18, 1982-New York-Fire Island-New York Chris called and said we were getting a 10:00 plane to go to Fire Island to take photographs. Picked up Jon and went to 23rd Street (cab $8). Got to Fire Island and had lunch at an outdoor spot. We decided to call Calvin's and he said to come right over (phone $.20). And Calvin's house is right off Ocean Walk and there's 8,000 boys around it, and a lot of girls, too, and they're all walking around wanting to be discovered for a jeans ad.

When we went home we had the same pilot and as we got to the water we heard a noise and I think something broke, and when we finally made it to Manhattan we had a very hard landing. I don't think he was a good pilot, and when we got out we saw gas leaking (round-trip $360 $360 plus $40 tip). Calvin had said you don't have to tip them, but the pilot didn't give me my change back either time, so I guess you do. plus $40 tip). Calvin had said you don't have to tip them, but the pilot didn't give me my change back either time, so I guess you do.

Tuesday, July 20, 1982 Got up early. It was a hot day. Went to Bloomingdale's just to get cool. Went to Janet Sartin and John Duka the fashion guy from the Times Times was there, he looked over my face, and he's probably going to write about it, and when I was done I told him I felt like a new woman. I think my face is getting better. I'm not sure. Janet was there, he looked over my face, and he's probably going to write about it, and when I was done I told him I felt like a new woman. I think my face is getting better. I'm not sure. Janet (laughs) (laughs) was blaming it on the weather. was blaming it on the weather.

Friday, July 23, 1982-New York-Montauk Landed in Montauk in forty-five minutes and got into Halston's new car. Victor was there with "Ming Vauze," who is really his friend Benjamin in drag. Bianca was out there but she was pretending not to be, because later Jon saw her on the beach and she made him swear to G.o.d that he wouldn't tell he saw her because she was with Chris Dodd who's a senator from Connecticut who's getting divorced from his wife.

Sat.u.r.day, July 24, 1982-Montauk It was a really beautiful day. Jon had brought Indecent Exposure Indecent Exposure out, the David Begelman book. And everybody was reading out, the David Begelman book. And everybody was reading Edie Edie. It was funny to look and see everybody with that cover. And I think that as he read the Edie Edie book Jon started to turn on me. But Ian Schrager as he read it got book Jon started to turn on me. But Ian Schrager as he read it got more more interested, but the thing he kept asking questions about was Paraphernalia. Dozens of questions about Paraphernalia-who owned it, who designed it, who interested, but the thing he kept asking questions about was Paraphernalia. Dozens of questions about Paraphernalia-who owned it, who designed it, who really really owned it. And it's the most unimportant thing in the book. I guess he was sort of interested because of Norma Kamali, although I don't think they're still seeing each other. owned it. And it's the most unimportant thing in the book. I guess he was sort of interested because of Norma Kamali, although I don't think they're still seeing each other.

The kids with beautiful bodies were playing the pinball machines in town. It looked like all the movies I've been seeing, like Porky Porky s, they were just beautiful. Gosman's was too crowded with old people so we went to a local place where there were kids and models, and that was $40. Got a toothbrush ($2) at White's, the drugstore. Went back and watched TV and talked intellectual. Read the good art books that Victor always has around. s, they were just beautiful. Gosman's was too crowded with old people so we went to a local place where there were kids and models, and that was $40. Got a toothbrush ($2) at White's, the drugstore. Went back and watched TV and talked intellectual. Read the good art books that Victor always has around.

Steve Rubell and Ian had gone to East Hampton to play tennis with Steve's brother and they brought back corn and came just in time for dinner and all Steve could rave about was the corn because he he brought it. Steve and Ian's deal to buy a hotel went through. brought it. Steve and Ian's deal to buy a hotel went through.

Sunday, July 25, 1982-Montauk-New York When I woke up and went to the kitchen, Steve was having his morning Coca-Cola and reading the book on the Annenbergs, he's fascinated by crooks.

Christopher called and said he'd gone to Fire Island for the day. Nena went to the hospital for an operation. I asked Doc c.o.x to check out her doctor and he did and said that she was in good hands. I asked him to keep a close eye on her situation.

Monday, July 26, 1982 Got up at 9:00. Called Nena at the hospital, talked to her doctor, they said the operation is in the morning and it'll be intensive care for two days afterwards.

This girl from Santa Fe came by the office, she used to work at Interview Interview. I can't remember her name. One of those girls like from Aspen who look deep inside you and want to know your real true meaning. She reminded me of the kind of girl that would always be visiting Jed from California, that type. And she was after Agosto and I got dead serious and told him to go in the back and not come to the front until she was gone. I mean, I'm not going to let her ruin his life by looking for meaning meaning in it! She left a note for him with her number on it, and I destroyed it, I didn't tell him about it. I'm not going to let her start trouble. in it! She left a note for him with her number on it, and I destroyed it, I didn't tell him about it. I'm not going to let her start trouble.

And I kept running into Doria Reagan in her muumuu and I think I kept asking her if it was a Perry Ellis. I was nervous about the fashion show that I was supposed to model in at Studio 54 at 9:30 so I was drinking coffee all day and trying to be thin.

Cabbed to Studio 54 ($4) and couldn't find the back door but a black b.u.m found us ($.50). Inside there were twenty-five raving models and me, and they all had big baskets and tight underwear. I talked to Michael Holden and told him I couldn't believe he wasn't a movie star yet but it didn't come out right because I was nervous. I had to go out twice. I was numbers 33 and 49.

And then afterwards Chris criticized my modeling saying that since I'm older I should walk proud and show who I am and not be shy and keep my head down, but I think I have to figure out a way to be more of a buffoon, to fall down or something.

Then we went to a party at Heartbreak (cab $8). Chris and Peter were fighting because Chris wanted Peter to pick up a model and he didn't.

In the cab going home I was scared because it was a big black driver and there was no picture on the license. Got home and called Jon to tell him about my modeling experience. He was in bed in L.A.

Tuesday, July 27, 1982 Went to Madison Square Garden (cab $4) to see Billy Squier, he was just going on. Backstage there were about fifty nude girls serving hot dogs and beer and mud wrestling. Took pictures, then realized I didn't have film in the camera. And an absolutely nude girl came over and said, "I see you at St. Vincent's church every Sunday." The Queen group was really nice to us, they gave us drinks.

We went to the Palace which is the new discotheque on 14th Street where Luchow's just moved out of. And it was packed, packed, like a deathtrap firetrap. There's a lot of little rooms, I don't know what that means.

Got home and talked to Jon in California.

Wednesday, July 28, 1982 Went out with Jay to a teeth store he found, it's on 21st on the ninth floor and it's so great, all these teeth. I wanted a giant-size aluminum set, they said it was antique. They recognized me because Jay had an Andy Warhols TV Andy Warhols TV T-shirt on (teeth $484). Carried the big teeth in the rain. That was fun. T-shirt on (teeth $484). Carried the big teeth in the rain. That was fun.

Calvin Klein invited me out to Fire Island for the weekend and I talked to Steve Rubell and he said that Bianca had called and asked if I was going to be there, because she was invited, too.

Thursday, July 29, 1982 Called John Reinhold and invited him to come to Suzie Frankfurt's with me but he said he wanted to spend time with Berkeley, his twelve-year-old daughter who just got back from camp. So I invited them to Serendipity and we went there (cab $8) and ordered big things just to look at. And it was fun talking to Berkeley, she's given up being an actress and now she may be a cartoonist. She left camp ten days early. It was one of those ones where you milk cows and feed chickens.

Dropped them off ($6) and then went with Curley to 33rd and First Avenue to pick up this friend of his and it was a little brownstone and he's 6'6" and sleeping on the floor and the place is a mess and it's fun to see how kids really live who go out looking so chic in Brooks Brothers clothes and velvet slippers and here they are living in a hot box. Went to Xenon (cab $6).

Howard Stein was there. And Cornelia Guest had called and invited me to a party at his place on Sunday in East Hampton. He's using Cornelia to get into East Hampton society and (laughs) (laughs) she's using him to get into Xenon. she's using him to get into Xenon.

Oh, and Bob is being so grand, he won't tell me any inside gossip about the Bloomingdale thing. It was in the papers yesterday that now Alfred Bloomingdale's mistress Vicki Morgan is suing his wife Betsy because she said it was Betsy who made Alfred stop sending her money. Vicki Morgan said, "And after all those Marquis de Sade things he made me do." So this is the president's best friend.

Sat.u.r.day, July 31, 1982-New York-Fire Island, New York Got to the Pines and called Calvin's from the Boardwalk to tell him that Chris was with me just for the day. They said it was okay. Went over there and only Chester Weinberg and David Geffen were up. It was a grey day, had some breakfast. Then Calvin and Steve Rubell woke up and they talked about the fun time the night before.

Went to a Hawaiian party at Gil de la Cruz's down the street. In the sunlight you can really see what these people look like, you really see. Egon Von Furstenberg was the only one I knew. Although I thought I recognized the dog from the Breakstone TV ad, the one with the black spot over his eye that Sam Breakstone chases away. Then we went for pizza, and you could really see in the light who the dogs were (pizza $20). Then we went back to Calvin's but we walked in on Calvin and Steve who were with those two p.o.r.no stars Knoll and Ford and so we were embarra.s.sed and left and went back to the party down the street.

Then went home again and by this time Chester Weinberg had come back from the party, too, and he had walked in on two guys who told Chester to go away so Chester was hiding out in his room. Then we had barbecued steak and all the talking was gay gay gay. If I'd had a tape recorder you wouldn't believe it. Then what happens is everybody goes to bed about 12:00 and sets their alarms for 2:00 because "things don't get really hot until 4:00." I heard everyone getting up at 2:00 but I stayed in bed, and later I heard them all coming back from their 4 A.M A.M. cruise.

Sunday, August 1, 1982-Fire Island-New York Woke up in the Pines. In the maid's room downstairs. Talked to Jim the houseboy who wants to be a dancer. Put on block-out sun lotion because I'd gotten red on the grey day before. Continued to read Indecent Exposure Indecent Exposure and opened right to a page where they were talking about David Geffen, so I read it out loud to him. and opened right to a page where they were talking about David Geffen, so I read it out loud to him.

Talked a lot to David Geffen. His father made bra.s.sieres. It turns out he was a person I didn't know, just one of those fringe people around Danny Fields, and he knew Nico when she was with Leonard Cohen. And his new Donna Summer alb.u.m got the greatest review ever, it's going to make him $2.5 million by the end of the week.

Went over to Gil de la Cruz's for a minute, Diane Von Furstenberg was there. I think she loaned the fabric for the Hawaiian party.

We got on a seaplane and took off and there were screams coming over the radio that there was a door open, and it was mine, I could have fallen out ($100).

We ran into Michael Coady from Women's Wear Women's Wear where you land and he wasn't drinking so he was sweet. Then the pilot who seemed like he was from New York said, "Where can I get a cab?" And so we told him, and he walked with us, and he said, "Maybe I can help you out." I said what did he mean and he said he had the best cocaine and I said oh no no, that I didn't use it, and so then he was embarra.s.sed and so we walked the whole three blocks together without saying anything. where you land and he wasn't drinking so he was sweet. Then the pilot who seemed like he was from New York said, "Where can I get a cab?" And so we told him, and he walked with us, and he said, "Maybe I can help you out." I said what did he mean and he said he had the best cocaine and I said oh no no, that I didn't use it, and so then he was embarra.s.sed and so we walked the whole three blocks together without saying anything.

Monday, August 2, 1982 Mark Ginsburg was bringing Indira Gandhi's daughter down and he was calling and Ina was calling and Bob was calling saying how important this was, so I gave up my exercise cla.s.s and it turned out to just be the daughter-in-law, who's Italian, she doesn't even look Indian.

Went to 25 East 39th Street to Michaele Vollbracht's (cab $4.50). Ran into Mary McFadden on the way in and I told her she looked beautiful with no makeup and she said she'd never worn more. I told her that in that case, as one made-up person to another, it looked like she didn't have any on. Giorgio Sant'Angelo was there. The food looked really chic but I didn't have any.

Went to Diane Von Furstenberg's party for the launching of her new cosmetics (cab $4). And all the boys at the party were the same ones who had been on Fire Island. It was fun seeing Diane, she was hustling perfume. Her clothes are so ugly though, they're like plastic or something. And she had all the high-fashion girls there wearing them. Barbara Allen was there and even she looked awful in the clothes. I did get an idea for new decorating though-big boxes of color that you can put in a room and move around and change your decorating color scheme.

Thursday, August 5, 1982 I watched Tarzan Tarzan on cable and Bo Derek is the worst actress in the world. She was eating a banana, and she couldn't even eat a banana. It was like she had no teeth. on cable and Bo Derek is the worst actress in the world. She was eating a banana, and she couldn't even eat a banana. It was like she had no teeth.

And Susan Pile told Jon that my birthday was actually August sixth and I'd told him it was on the fifteenth because I thought I could get by it, but now they're having a party, I think. And I had big fights at the office. Somebody left food around and I was screaming and I told Paige Powell, our Interview Interview ad-seller, to go and scream at whoever it was, and it turned out to be this new kid at ad-seller, to go and scream at whoever it was, and it turned out to be this new kid at Interview Interview who's just so cute and he's always nice and smiling to me and walks me to the corner to get my cab and stuff, and so then I was embarra.s.sed and I denied that I'd told Paige to do it-I said that oh, she must have just been on cocaine or something-and Robyn repeated the word "cocaine" to her and she went crazy, and then I got mad at Robyn for telling her, and he blamed it all on Jay and Jay said he didn't do it and I was handing out pink slips like crazy and I screamed at Jennifer, the new receptionist girl, because I told her not to give me coffee in a coffee cup and she did, she said there was nothing else there and I screamed that there were plenty of champagne gla.s.ses and why didn't she bring it to me in one of those instead of a crummy old cup that everybody uses and G.o.d, it was one of those days. who's just so cute and he's always nice and smiling to me and walks me to the corner to get my cab and stuff, and so then I was embarra.s.sed and I denied that I'd told Paige to do it-I said that oh, she must have just been on cocaine or something-and Robyn repeated the word "cocaine" to her and she went crazy, and then I got mad at Robyn for telling her, and he blamed it all on Jay and Jay said he didn't do it and I was handing out pink slips like crazy and I screamed at Jennifer, the new receptionist girl, because I told her not to give me coffee in a coffee cup and she did, she said there was nothing else there and I screamed that there were plenty of champagne gla.s.ses and why didn't she bring it to me in one of those instead of a crummy old cup that everybody uses and G.o.d, it was one of those days.

And I introduced Robyn to Iolas, I thought that might do the trick for Robyn's art career. Robyn's such a nice kid but he has no ambition and he does want to be an artist, and so I thought that since Ronnie left and things worked out so well for him-his art career is doing really well -that maybe it could happen for Robyn, too. So seventy-four-year-old Iolas grabbed Robyn's hand and was holding his palm. They say that you get energy from that and you do, I think. So Iolas thought he'd get Robyn's energy. But I was hoping Robyn would get his his.

Paul Morrissey is going off to Germany, he's getting offers to do all the movies Fa.s.sbinder was supposed to do. They should ask me! me!

Friday, August 6, 1982 It was a depressing day, my birthday. Wandered around the neighborhood. Called John Reinhold for coffee but he had a lot to do because he was getting ready to go on a trip to j.a.pan. Jon was going to New Hampshire.

Ran into Robert Hayes and he said that Greg Gorman the Interview Interview photographer had called and they wanted me over on 18th Street near Fifth to be in a publicity photo with Dustin Hoffman who was in drag filming photographer had called and they wanted me over on 18th Street near Fifth to be in a publicity photo with Dustin Hoffman who was in drag filming Tootsie Tootsie, and I thought that sounded like fun.

But when I got there, they said, "All right, we'll be shooting your scene soon." They actually were putting me in in the movie. So Greg Gorman was really devious, he must have known that for that I'd want to get paid. They thought they could just get me in one second, which they did. Dustin looked great. When I think of all the lady teachers I had that must have been really drag queens! But then they thought that Dustin should be in a s.e.xier dress to be photographed with me, so they wanted to change him and asked me to come back at 3:15. the movie. So Greg Gorman was really devious, he must have known that for that I'd want to get paid. They thought they could just get me in one second, which they did. Dustin looked great. When I think of all the lady teachers I had that must have been really drag queens! But then they thought that Dustin should be in a s.e.xier dress to be photographed with me, so they wanted to change him and asked me to come back at 3:15.

And Ruth Morley was the costume lady. I know her because I worked on a Thurber play that Kaye Ballard was in, and I really did the costumes but Ruth got credit because of the union. In 1954 or '55.1 guess I was exploited. And it was a rich-b.i.t.c.h producer, and you really do see people carry on and cry because the show isn't going right.

So went back to the office and there were little packages around, and they kept calling me from the Tootsie Tootsie set. Took Susan Pile over there with me, she was in town from L.A. It was my birthday and I was trying to be in a good mood but I was a grouch. When we got back to the set, Dustin was wearing something more gay. And it was going to be Dustin's birthday on the eighth and I told him that was mine, too. set. Took Susan Pile over there with me, she was in town from L.A. It was my birthday and I was trying to be in a good mood but I was a grouch. When we got back to the set, Dustin was wearing something more gay. And it was going to be Dustin's birthday on the eighth and I told him that was mine, too. (laughs) (laughs) Met Dustin's new wife, very pretty, who looks like Debra Winger. So many of these girls now do. But the baby looks like one of those babies Barbra Streisand would have with Elliott Gould. Met Dustin's new wife, very pretty, who looks like Debra Winger. So many of these girls now do. But the baby looks like one of those babies Barbra Streisand would have with Elliott Gould.

Walked on Columbus and Central Park West and saw Ron Galella shooting on Central Park West and it turned out to be in front of Linda Stein's where she was having a party for Elton John after his Madison Square Garden first-night concert. Called her up ($.20) and she wasn't back yet, so went over to Jon's and called again and she said to come, just not to bring too many people.

It turned out to be 100 Zoli models. That's what Elton had asked Linda to get and she did. Timothy Hutton was there with Jennifer Grey.

Tuesday, August 10, 1982 Wandered around the East Village and that made me feel weird. It's picking up again, the places were lighted. Gem Spa is still there. I thought about the fifties when I lived on St. Mark's Place and then about the sixties when we ran the Dom discotheque there with the Velvets and Nico playing, and about going to all those psychedelic things at the Fillmore and eating at Ratner's delicatessen and everything. It was nostalgic.

Sat.u.r.day, August 14, 1982 The limo driver said that he didn't know really how to get to New Jersey, but that he'd try. We picked up Christopher and Peter and went out to the Meadowlands to see Blondie, and before them on the bill was Duran Duran and also David Johansen.

We went back to see her. And Chris Stein has lost thirty pounds, he's been sick, I think it's all this bad air from some air conditioners. Debbie's so fat now, she kicked us out because she wanted to get dressed in her Stephen Sprouse clothes.

Our seats were up in the concessionaire's box, and that was fun. I took pictures of the mother, the wife, and the kid, three generations of concessionaires (hot dogs $20). And the milk shakes were so thick they must have been plastic, it was like drinking margarine. Marianne Faithfull came along and read a poem she wrote and somebody put down drugs and she said, "Oh don't put down drugs, because I'm on cocaine right now." And I did like her so much, she was much different than when she stopped by the office a few weeks ago with Jay Johnson. She was so intelligent and so together. And she didn't have an English accent, she was like an American, and so alert and not out of it at all.

Monday, August 16, 1982 I watched one of the morning shows and they had Ken Wahl on and he's very good-looking but he was smart-alecky and saying all the corny things dumb actors say. Like that he could "go back to pumping gas." He said, "Well, I'm from the Midwest."

But tell me why it is that everybody is so good-looking now. In the fifties, there were the really good-looking people and then all the rest who weren't. Today, everybody is at least attractive. How did it happen? Is it because there's no wars to kill the beauties?

Friday, August 20, 1982 Christopher found a boy named Christopher on Christopher Street who said that Paul Morrissey had also just found him on the street and asked him to be in a movie he was doing in Berlin.

Sat.u.r.day, August 21, 1982 Stopped at Schrafft's on 58th and Madison and the waitresses there were all saying, "Is it him?" "It's him." "It isn't him." And so when I went out I said, "It's me," and they were thrilled.

Ran into Claudia Cohen on Central Park South where she lives with forty-foot ceilings, and we decided to be Puerto Ricans and sit on a stoop and gossip. She told me that that big Joan Hackett/Marsha Mason "girlfriends" rumor that got all over town was started by Bobby Zarem because he got mad at Joan Hackett who was his client. And so then we left each other, and one minute later I saw Bobby Zarem walking along, talking to himself.

Monday, August 23, 1982 The Duran Duran kids came by and brought some bigger and taller girlfriends. Tried to stay on a diet but went off it by nighttime. The German kid who had us do the Fa.s.sbinder posters came by. It turns out that Paul isn't actually taking over any Fa.s.sbinder movies, it's that this kid hired him to do a movie, and it's going to be, Paul says, about a hustler who hustles in order to buy clothes. But isn't that why all all hustlers do it? ... No, I guess that isn't why Joe Dallesandro would do it. hustlers do it? ... No, I guess that isn't why Joe Dallesandro would do it.

I told the guy that Paul was nuts, that I've come to the conclusion he really believes all these wild theories he comes up with. No matter who Paul's talking about now, he'll either tell you they're really a Communist, or really in the Mafia. Before it just used to be that they were really a fairy or a lesbian.

Wednesday, August 25, 1982 Got up and it was raining. Decided to stay uptown because Mercedes Kellogg was giving a lunch and somehow I was invited and I thought it would be a good chance to corner Bob about the Bloomingdale death gossip because he'd be there, too.

Cabbed to Park and 74th ($2). It turned out to be a birthday party for Claus von Bulow. And Doris Duke was there with Franco Rossellini. He said that Isabella's getting a million and a half for one of her modeling contracts and that she and Marty Scorsese are still trying to work it out.

So when I had Bob cornered in the cab I asked him about the Bloomingdale death, because it came out in the press on Sunday or Monday that he had died on Friday, and Bob had seen Betsy Friday night out in California, but Bob said that Jerry Zipkin knew but kept it a big secret and hadn't even told Bob when he and Bob went out to the supermarket together.

Sunday, September 5, 1982-Montauk Bianca came by with her Senator Dodd boyfriend who is a cross between Teddy and Bobby Kennedy. He's the youngest senator, thirty-eight. Took a walk, took pictures, got back to the house. Halston was all dressed, saying goodbye to us and we were shocked because we didn't know what happened.

Then Jon found out that Halston's mother had died. Halston kept it a secret all through dinner last night, he acted as if nothing happened, but he told Victor to tell us after he left.

We had a really good talk with the senator. Robert Redford's his best friend. He's keeping his romance secret because it's only forty days left till his divorce. Bianca is all over him (dinner $120 with tip).

Tuesday, September 7, 1982-New York Hired Benjamin "Ming Vauze" Liu to pick me up every morning and keep an eye out for me while I'm walking around the streets. He arrived late. Sat around waiting for him and got mad. Found out Richard Gere was on the new cover of Rolling Stone Rolling Stone, complained to Interview Interview that that was the reason he turned us down. Watched that that was the reason he turned us down. Watched Mr. Goodbar Mr. Goodbar and Richard Gere was in it and I hated him for turning us down. Actually he was so good in it, though. Couldn't watch the ending because it was too crazy. and Richard Gere was in it and I hated him for turning us down. Actually he was so good in it, though. Couldn't watch the ending because it was too crazy.

Sat.u.r.day, September 11, 1982 Went around with Jon who's looking for a co-op to buy. Because I've decided to do a real photo book of real apartments. Real Apartments. Not photograph houses the way Architectural Digest Architectural Digest does, but do just what people really live like. Isn't that a good idea? Bianca just got a ten-room apartment at the El Dorado, it just went co-op so they're all up for sale and people are trying to make a killing. So cabbed to the El Dorado ($5). The lady showed us three apartments, and the first was two f.a.ggots who'd just bought a loft so they were selling, and then one that belonged to a lady I guess in her eighties, and she had doilies and things on the sofas. It looked like a Barbra Streisand kind of place. does, but do just what people really live like. Isn't that a good idea? Bianca just got a ten-room apartment at the El Dorado, it just went co-op so they're all up for sale and people are trying to make a killing. So cabbed to the El Dorado ($5). The lady showed us three apartments, and the first was two f.a.ggots who'd just bought a loft so they were selling, and then one that belonged to a lady I guess in her eighties, and she had doilies and things on the sofas. It looked like a Barbra Streisand kind of place.

Oh, and on Page Six in the Post Post a few days ago there was a headline: "Warhol Man Does Mick Jagger's Apartment," and then the item said that Jed was the director of a few days ago there was a headline: "Warhol Man Does Mick Jagger's Apartment," and then the item said that Jed was the director of Bad Bad and now he decorates apartments, and they said they asked him about it and he said, "No comment." And there was an article on survivors in the and now he decorates apartments, and they said they asked him about it and he said, "No comment." And there was an article on survivors in the Daily News Daily News last Sunday-they asked Lester Persky about me and he put me down, he said I was a has-been, it was funny. last Sunday-they asked Lester Persky about me and he put me down, he said I was a has-been, it was funny.

And I don't think I told the Diary this, but Tom Baker, our star of I, a Man a Man, died. He O.D.'d. Mickey Ruskin had a wake for him.

Thursday, September 16, 1982- New York-Washington, D.C.

I was nervous all day because I knew I was going to the White House that night for the state dinner for the Marcoses. Took Valiums. I can't stand going to Washington, all those TV lights.

Arrived at 4:00 (cab $10). Went to the Watergate (tips $2, $4, $2). Jerry Zipkin and Oscar de la Renta were there. Made calls, was very nervous, ordered lunch, had more Valium, ordered a limo, and went to the White House and got in easy.

Bob and I went with our dates. My date was Frances Bergen, Charley McCarthy's (laughs) (laughs) mother. And she wasn't interested in me at all, she got away as soon as she could. mother. And she wasn't interested in me at all, she got away as soon as she could.

And the Marine introduced me on the line as "Mr. World," and then the girl sergeant escorting me said that she was nervous, that it was her first time doing this. They asked me why I was invited and I said because Mrs. Marcos lived on my street.

The Valiums weren't really working, but then the dinner was outside in the garden and it was so beautiful and it was dark so it was fine. And they took a chance, no tent, and it was beautiful that way, but you get shoved and pushed so much from place to place. Only about eighty people. Then they turned on four billion lights. No TV cameras, though, so I wasn't nervous.

The president's table was right behind me. The president of U.S. Steel was at my table, and I said, "Oh I'm from Pittsburgh and my poor brother is out of work from the steel mill"-I was lying like crazy-"and he's lost his mill job and what you should do is put one of the unused buildings to use and make it into a Disney World and give tours and charge people $10 to get a little coal on their faces and see the hot lava being poured," and he said, "Oh what a great idea, why didn't I think of that?" The Vice-president Bushes were at our table, and she said that she knew somebody I knew but now I can't remember who it was.

Then the speeches came and the president made his quick and then Marcos was slow. I relaxed. And then the Fifth Dimension came on and sang "Up, Up and Away" and there's more new members than old. I asked one of the marines if there was a pay phone and everyone laughed at me. Bob wanted to stay on and dance. I got the limo and went back to the hotel. Called Jon and then fell asleep at 12:00.