"Ha," Webster snaps. "Gonna start taking it seriously now?"

I pick up the notebook again. This potential interest seems to have nothing to do with his being Lance Webster, so maybe he's genuinely got something. I still think it's b.o.l.l.o.c.ks, though. And I can't imagine Sainsbury's wanting to advertise that their shops are crawling with insects.

"Um ... the Concorde doesn't exist anymore," I volunteer, spotting another glitch. Webster waves this away.

"Doesn't matter. Kids still know what it is."

I sigh and have a final scan, running out of straws to clutch at.

"I guess you're really not into kids' stuff."

"Not really," I admit, "not since I was ... you know."

"A kid?"

"Yeah."

"Not enough beer involved, perhaps?"

"I'm sorry?"

"Ever think about having kids?"

Uh-oh. Here comes his "life coach" act again.

"Well, I probably would do, but ..."

"I understand. There's an essential ingredient missing."

"Yup."

"Did you enjoy your own childhood?"

Who is he now? Freud?

"Yeah, well enough," I grumble. "You?"

Suddenly the cafe has gone very quiet, and I'm certain the five or so people present, Marzy included, are hanging on our every word. How I long to be elsewhere.

"Tell you what," says Webster. "Are you doing anything tomorrow afternoon?"

"Sat.u.r.day?" I reply, mentally flicking through my packed diary. "Not a lot. Why?" One thing that can be said for all this: at least it gives Alan (the real one) a kick up the a.r.s.e. I'm on the bus when he rings me, about halfway down Mare Street.

"Clive-ist!"

This is Alan's new thing, putting "-ist" on the end of everything. Much like a few years ago when he added "-ster" to everyone's name: I became "the Clivester," Polly "the Pollster." For a short time Liz was "the wifester," which was where the craze abruptly met its end.

"Meet me for a jar!" he trumpets. "Liz went to her mum's for the avo with Jocasta-I got let off 'cos of my sore throat."

"I can't," I tell him, reluctant to go into too much detail.

"What you up to?"

"I'm meeting someone."

"Who?"

"Just someone."

"You're meeting Webster again? again? Didn't you meet him yesterday?" Didn't you meet him yesterday?"

"Yeah."

"Aren't you guys getting a little friendly?"

"p.i.s.s off. It's actually all getting a bit annoying. He's taking me on a 'mystery tour.' Says he wants to reacquaint me with my childhood."

"Wow. Can I come?"

"No."

The line goes a little quiet; when Alan speaks again his voice has lost its edge of mockery.

"What's he like?"

"Alan, I can't really talk about this when I'm on the bus. I'll meet you later if you like."

"How long you gonna be?"

"Dunno. Depends what he's got in mind."

"It must be quite cool to hang out with him, though?"

I groan, and take a quick look round the bus to see who's listening. No one looks remotely interested, but I turn back and lower my voice to just above a whisper.

"He is cool to hang out with-as long as you can stand the way he continually asks you probing questions about your life, kicks his legs over to your side of the table, keeps banging on about children's books, eats the most boring food known to man, never suggests meeting in a pub ..."

"Why don't you suggest it, then?"

"He says he's on the wagon at the moment. I've also got to keep up the act of not knowing virtually everything there is to know about his life and career, and not having been his biggest fan for the past seventeen years, and not even knowing very much about b.l.o.o.d.y music at all."

"You seem to be managing okay so far, man."

"Yeah, but it's b.l.o.o.d.y hard work! I feel so ... suppressed when I'm talking to him. I'm not me. I trip over my words. My face aches from this perpetual grin. I spilt my tea ..."

"Well, that does sound a little bit like you."

"And I keep wanting to say stuff about his songs. He ... when ..."-I lower my voice still further-"when we were paying in the caff yesterday he handed me a fiver and said, 'There's my contribution,' and I swear I was within f.u.c.king molecules molecules of saying-" of saying-"

"'... to this pretend revolution'?"

"Yeah."

"Fair enough, man, but look ... just think, you're in the presence of the bloke who gave you all that stuff. He got you through some tough times ..."

"Oh, please."

"He did! I don't mean to be cheesy, man, but this guy wrote the sound track to your f.u.c.king youth ... and he genuinely wants to hang out with you!"

"Well, I can't think why."

"Well, whatever! The fact is, he does. Just try and enjoy it for what it is. Be a bit grateful."

"Uh."

"And ... honestly, man, if the opportunity arises ... I wouldn't mind saying h.e.l.lo."

"Ah! I see."

"Yeah, well. Like I said, if the opportunity arises."

"Right. I'll keep you posted."

"Have a good one. Later."

"Yeah."

I've been instructed to meet him outside Bethnal Green tube station, although as it turns out neither of us arrives by tube. I've been waiting a couple of minutes on the busy corner of Roman Road when a black cab pulls up, from which Webster leaps, again suggesting the reserve accounts haven't completely dwindled.

"Morning!" he beams. It is two o'clock.

"Hi," I wave, receiving that day's frisson at the appearance of my companion. He's looking more like Lance than ever-jeans, chunky trainers, a dark blue suit jacket and shades. His hair even looks relatively funky. He pays the driver then gives my hand a squeeze.

"Let's go back in time," he announces, in a deep-throated American accent.

"Sorry?"

"Oh, cheer up, you miserable f.u.c.ker!" he yells, slapping my back. "Christ, dunno why I bother." He propels me briskly up the street, runs up the steps to a large red factory-looking building on the right, bursts through the double doors and two seconds later I find myself inside the Museum of Childhood.

"Now," he informs me, "this is just about the best f.u.c.king thing in London."

From that point onwards, my presence is purely incidental. Webster, with an enthusiasm more animated than anything anything I ever saw him do onstage, is truly besotted with the place. He bounds around, from toy exhibit to doll's house, from antique pram to puppet show, whooping with joyous recognition ("Oh, man! My neighbour had one of these! I stole it one weekend and busted it. Got grounded for a month"), sobbing with painful memories ("My first girlfriend had this doll ... When she moved away she gave me its cardigan to remember her by ... I was heartbroken ... was only five"), pointing out vintage remote-control cars and video games to any hapless kids that pa.s.s ("You see this? It was brilliant. You could programme it to go anywhere, up stairs, the works. Better than your 'wee' or whatever it's called") and almost, before I step in and calm him down, jumps into the indoor sandpit with a collection of toddlers. While it's fairly entertaining in itself, the downside of this absurd behaviour is that I can't, as I had hoped, furtively try to spot if anyone recognises him, because just about everyone in the building is gaping at him anyway. I ever saw him do onstage, is truly besotted with the place. He bounds around, from toy exhibit to doll's house, from antique pram to puppet show, whooping with joyous recognition ("Oh, man! My neighbour had one of these! I stole it one weekend and busted it. Got grounded for a month"), sobbing with painful memories ("My first girlfriend had this doll ... When she moved away she gave me its cardigan to remember her by ... I was heartbroken ... was only five"), pointing out vintage remote-control cars and video games to any hapless kids that pa.s.s ("You see this? It was brilliant. You could programme it to go anywhere, up stairs, the works. Better than your 'wee' or whatever it's called") and almost, before I step in and calm him down, jumps into the indoor sandpit with a collection of toddlers. While it's fairly entertaining in itself, the downside of this absurd behaviour is that I can't, as I had hoped, furtively try to spot if anyone recognises him, because just about everyone in the building is gaping at him anyway.

Compared with Webster's larking about, the actual contents of the museum are of mild interest to me: the train set is pretty cool, some of the old video games raise a smile (Astro Wars!) (Astro Wars!), but the Scalextric and Lego collections are underwhelming and I reckon it's a bit of a swizz that you can't actually play with most of the stuff. After half an hour I'm starting to eye the downstairs coffee bar hopefully-until I spy something out the corner of my eye and proceed to make a total total t.i.t of myself. t.i.t of myself.

"Alan! Alan, man! You okay?"

What's come over me is anyone's guess. I'm standing staring through one of the gla.s.s cases, sobbing uncontrollably. I can count the number of times I've cried in the last decade on one finger, so it's really a rather bizarre sensation, made even stranger by the man comforting me-who is, funnily enough, the bloke responsible for me crying the previous time.

"Alan, dude! s.h.i.t, what's the matter? Can I get you anything?"

I feel like saying, "For a start, you can stop calling me Alan"-but stop myself.

"No, no, I'm fine," I splutter. "Thanks."

"Jesus, man," he laughs, "you should've just told me you were bored and wanted a coffee, no need to do this!"

I break into a smile. "You know ... actually, a cup of tea would be great."

We descend the stairs and Webster sits me down at one of the large tables. He dashes off while I wipe my eyes and continue to feel pretty b.l.o.o.d.y silly. A minute later he returns with a pot of tea and two pieces of cake.

"b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l, I'm sorry," I tell him. "No idea where that came from."

"No worries," he replies. "This place tends to bring odd emotions out."

"It was the toy."

"Well, I'm pleased to hear that. I'd be slightly concerned if you were crying because of the design of the carpet."

"It was my dad's favourite toy."

"Right," he nods solemnly. "Your dad is ..."

"Oh, no!" I laugh, catching his drift. "He's alive and well and living in Elstree."

"Well, we can't have everything."

"Ha. It's just ... oh, it's so stupid."

"No, not at all. Please carry on. That is, if you want to."

"Yeah ... well, that windup Pinocchio-on-a-donkey, he had it since he was a kid and ... well, my dad wasn't really much fun when we were kids. He worked loads, came home late. He was very much a 'kids should be in bed already so I can have my sherry in peace' kind of guy ... not unpleasant at all, just ... I dunno ... distant ..."

"Got it."

"And when I was about eight, I was a right little brat ..."

"As we all were."

"Yeah, I s'pose ... but I was really stressing my mum out this one weekend, wanting this, wanting that, arguing with my sister and stuff ... I dunno what happened, my mum probably had a word with my dad and told him to try and chill me out or something ... He came into my bedroom with this toy. He'd never done anything like this before. He knelt down and said something like 'Well, son, here's a toy I had when I was a boy,' and he showed me how it worked-and bless his cotton socks, it's a toy for four-year-olds probably, but it obviously meant loads to him ... but all I could f.u.c.king say was, 'Dad, it's rubbish! It's wooden and c.r.a.p and ...'-I dunno, probably that it hadn't got any s.p.a.ce Invaders on it or something ... and he just looked so heartbroken and picked up his toy and stomped off out the room ... He never tried to do anything like that again ... I can't help thinking he was never really a.r.s.ed with trying to get close to me after that, he'd reached out to me once and I basically told him to f.u.c.k off ..."

Poor old Webster is just gazing down into his tea, probably doesn't know where the h.e.l.l to look.

"Anyway," I conclude, "that was his toy up there."

Webster does a bit more of his solemn nodding, then: "I understand ... wish I could help, y'know? But the truth is we must've all done stuff to our folks that we regret."

"You have, then?"