That Magic Mischief.
Susan Conley.
Acknowledgments.
Thanks to Jennifer Lawler and everyone at Crimson Romance!
For the speedy response from NYC re: fashionable boites, thanks to Tanya Dean, Michael Conley, Nancy Fava, Sara Zatz, Johannes Kroemer, Melanie McLynn Conley, Herb Ouellette, and Nic Quaife - family and friends who are better than Google.
To Johannes, and Vanina Feldsztein for all the beautiful photos.
To Ciara O Dowd and JJ Harrington for being fantastic workshop co-facilitators: doing the work in the beginning of 2012 helped keep the spirit of this story on the front burner. Also, thanks to Ciara for her very patient responses to completely insane queries about using tracking changes in Word.
And sincerest possible thanks to every single person who asked, "How's your next book?" because it expressed to me a belief that there would be a next book - and so it is.
Prologue.
It was time.
This decision was far from arbitrary, but the human attached to this Pooka wouldn't understand. Humans, sniffed the Pooka, as she lazily changed into a he and then back into a she. That race understood precious little, not only about the world they lived in, but the other worlds as well.
Underworld, Innerworld - they hadn't a clue.
But ... in fairness. This Pooka's creature (as she was fondly beginning to think of the woman) well, she was a bit of a different story. A seeker, she was, investigating the limited ways and means that humans had at their disposal to peek beyond the veil, to peer though the dimensions, to tune into the vibrations of other beings and other levels of being.
What's 'er name again? The Pooka consulted her astral calculations ... ah, yes, Annabelle Walsh. Thirty years of age, college educated, photographer, Irish-American. Unmarried. Unattached. Unhappy. Ah well, thought the Pooka. A wee bit of that tough love and the girl would get herself sorted. She was almost there, what with her sacred space and aromatherapy and all - although all that feng shui rubbish was right out.
Ah, well, that was her job then; set the girl straight and no mistake about it.
She was - unusually - a Pooka committed to helping.
In her own mischievous, playful, disruptive way.
Whether she, herself, liked it or not.
If this human wanted, as she seemed to be attempting, to connect with spirit, to walk the path of fairie, to consult the oracle - So be it.
But those silly candles with the nonsensical Chinese characters have got to go.
Chapter One.
What was the point of being a witch if Annabelle couldn't manage a spell to fix her broken heart? There, she'd said it; I'm a witch, I'm a witch, I'm a witch! She felt slightly guilty, and a tiny bit fraudulent - she wasn't in a coven or anything, and she couldn't be sure that any of the spells she'd tried had actually worked. What Annabelle had done was read a bunch of books, created a sacred space in her apartment, listened to her inner voices, and ... well, observed the Celtic calendar and all that. Two years in a row, she got on the Uptown Number 1 to go to the summer solstice celebration, at St. John's Cathedral, at 3:00 A.M.
At least it made her serious.
Rolling over in her bed, light slanting through the ground floor windows of her one-bedroom in Carroll Gardens, Brooklyn, she stared at the pattern that the past-midday sun made on the ceiling. She fixated on the place where the ceiling met the wall in the southwest corner of her medium-sized boudoir, and wished she had done a better job painting the walls the soothing Wedgewood blue - things got sloppy around the edges, and she knew she'd never be bothered touching up the ceiling with white, even though the bits of blue tortured her. Not as much as they had tortured Wil - whoops. Almost lost it there. Oh, nooooo; even the mean, stupid, lousy, crappy things he said had the power to set her off crying.
Rolling over, other side; bad choice. Three million sodden, crushed tissues littered the floor, or rather, coated it. It was sickening, this was sickening, it wasn't the end of the world, it was just, you know, a breakup, an ending, the making of room for a new beginning, an opportunity for psychic fine-tuning - Oh God, she thought, Remember when Wil - when he teased me about my affirmations, it was really so cute, and obviously he was listening to me ... When he made up all those hopelessly corny little sayings, and even went so far as to write them down on index cards and tape them up all over the apartment? Helplessly, Annabelle started to cry again. Prepared as always, she ripped into tissue box number four, and was about to settle down for another good bawl when the phone rang.
Her stomach flipped - then rushed to her throat - then hit the floor. For a second, a split-second, the gaping, aching hole in her chest filled with a bubble of hope. Amazing, the thought that can fill a split-millisecond: It's him! It's Wilson! He's changed his mind and he wants me back, oh God, okay it's him and he does still love me.
Her body sang with it, the relief, the exhilaration, but in another split-millisecond, in the time it took or her to check her caller ID, she knew it wasn't him. It was Lorna.
She tried for blase, or at least cheery.
"Hi!" There. That was peppy, the peppiest she'd been in days.
"You sound dreadful." Annabelle could hear the cloud of Gitanes Blonde exhaled, could see it filling Lorna's minuscule West Village studio-with-loft-bed.
"I'm fine." Annabelle snorted into a tissue. "Coming down with - "
"Anna. Please. I'm not completely insensitive. Did you sleep?"
"Eventually. Nightmares. I'm sure I'm PMS'ing as well."
"Would you like to talk?"
"Oh." Annabelle's voice clogged as her broken heart got caught in her throat. "Yeah. Maybe. Later. I'm still in bed."
"I'll come out to you."
"Oh my God, it's that bad, isn't it? I mean, visit me? In Brooklyn? Take the F train?"
"I will be taking a cab, of course. I don't love you that much."
"The place is a disaster, I haven't cleaned in days - "
"This may never happen again, Anna, so enjoy it. I'm coming over."
Annabelle hung up as the tears surged again: those were the exact words that Wil - that he had used the day he unexpectedly called her, a call so unexpected, she'd known immediately something was up ...
"I'm coming over."
Annabelle almost dropped the receiver: it was four-twelve P.M., and Wilson was calling. If Annabelle had learned anything in the three years and nine months she'd known and loved him, she knew that he never called on odd minutes. Not in terms of ones, threes, fives, etc., but odd in terms of being off the hour or the half hour. Nor did he call, ever, during business hours.
A little quirk of his, an adorable little control-freak quirk, totally in line with one of the first compliments he had ever given her: "You're so orrrrrrrganized," he'd rumbled when he first saw her apartment (third date), stroking his hand down from the top of her ash blonde head, hesitating at the small of her back, and turning her toward him for a kiss.
"Hello? Annie?"
"Hi, yeah, come on over. You sound weird? Bad day?"
"We need to talk."
No. No way. Battle stations. Danger. Danger. Annabelle took a breath. "Whoops. Sounds serious. Have I been leaving the seat up again?" Humor. Good. Good girl.
"I'm in a taxi. (Taxi? Oh shit.) I'll be there in ten."
"Wilson, please." Teary, begging.
"Annie. Just wait. I'm on my way."
Dial tone.
Ah, there's a feeling she hadn't felt since second grade, when she routinely used to faint during math. Every Tuesday, this kind of feeling would overcome her, a light-light-lighter-than-the-air-that-was-slowly-leaving-her-body feeling of disconnection. The room would zoom away from her, then rush back to proper perspective, her skin would tingle all over, with sounds distant and echoing in her ringing ears and especially, especially, the slow blur of vision, the glowing ring of light that entirely filled her line of sight and then went black.
"I will not pass out, I will not pass out, come back, come back, come back, Annabelle Annabelle Annabelle ... " Her head continued to buzz. Head. Headache. Aspirin. Bathroom. Face. Make up.
Face. White. She'd always thought that was a literary flourish, pale as a ghost and such. Nope, there it was, her round Irish face as chalky as cheese. Chalky as cheese, chalky as cheese ...
This would be a good time to rearrange the bookshelves. The aspirin bottle clattered into the sink. She'd been meaning for weeks to switch from chromatically arranged within theme - women's fiction, travel guides, travel writing, homeopathy, art, history, art history, herbs, etc. - into a more straightforward and visually varied alphabetical mode. Perhaps - ah - complete and utter alphabetization was called for, i.e.: art, drama, homeopathy, etc. Perhaps she need not throw out the idea of chromatic arrangement, either; she could color-code each section by investing in an assortment of hand-painted rice papers from Kate's Paperie and - He's going to break up with me.
Those photographs - hmmm. Why not set them in chronological order, starting from the top right, along the shelves, in front of the chromatically and alphabetically sorted books, as necessary? A wonder she'd never thought of it before. And her souvenirs, the ones she'd bought herself, and the ones that Lorna and Maria Grazia brought back from their travels, organized perhaps, by weight and volume.
He's going to - Phone. Speed dial. Ring. Ring. Ring. Please. Please.
"Maria Grazia? It's Annabelle. I think ... I think Wilson's going to break up with me."
Chapter Two.
Waiting for Lorna, Annabelle sat by the phone, which was also by the front door, the door to the bathroom, and the kitchen sink, and looked around the long and narrow front room. She had cunningly divided it into a 'living room,' a 'dining room' (where she was currently seated), and an 'office.' Her eyes roved from her tiny loveseat, to the tall narrow pine bookshelves that flanked her 'office' desk, to her sacred space, which was actually an old sewing machine she'd picked up off the street ... which should have been the biggest clue that the thing didn't work.
So much for those slipcovers she thought she'd run up. Too heavy to drag back out again, she began idly placing objects on the sky blue cloth she had draped over the top: a vase of flowers, crystal candleholders holding beeswax candles, a few of her more important goddess books, a tin of incense that Maria Grazia had brought back from Morocco, a box full of images she had yet to paste into a wish book, and her tarot cards.
Annabelle lit the candles and sat down on the floor. She tried deep breathing for a few seconds, and feeling slightly calmer, took the deck out of its wooden box, and began to shuffle the cards. Her mind was far from clear, she was far from centered, but she wanted answers. She wanted results. She wanted guarantees.
She let her breath flow in and out; it lulled her, cleared her head, calmed her down, and the smell of the burning wax soothed her, as she tried to formulate a mature, non-attached-type question. Not: Will Wilson come back to me, please, please?
Her breathing hitched. Yeah, definitely not that. "Okay. The issue is ... Wilson. Um. Do we have a future together?"
She turned over a card. The Knight of Pentacles, reversed.
"Damn it." Reversed, this Knight meant carelessness, a standstill in affairs. "Okay, so if things are at a standstill, that means they can move forward again, right?" She turned another card.
Three of Swords, reversed. Sorrow due to loss. Well, duh, Annabelle thought, and then winced, as if she'd said it out loud. As if the cards could hear ...
She turned over the next card warily.
Wheel of Fortune. Not always a good sign, though, as it could mean an unexpected loss rather than a gain, even when in the upright position as it was now. "I don't know what any of this means," Annabelle mumbled, knowing full well what it meant. This was all about the now, and she didn't like the now.
At moments like these, Annabelle found it was usually a good thing to stop pulling cards.
Queen of Cups. She shivered. That was her court card. Good natured, intuitive, a loving female figure, one whose imagination often outweighed her good sense ...
Strength. The beautiful woman gently pats the lion on his head, symbolizing serenity, and the power of the human spirit to overcome any obstacle. Yeah, yeah, yeah ...
The Sun. "Summertime? Two months from now? I'll be better in two months?"
Annabelle gathered up the reading and returned the deck to its box. This wasn't what the cards were for, to be used as replacement for experience and living. Even if she didn't like what her experience was telling her and the way her life was going, it was time to put the tarot away.
She continued to sit. She tried to go back to the deep breathing but got bored. She just sat still, and remembered that she'd never had much luck reading Wilson's cards. Maybe it never worked was because it was almost always post-coital, the only time he was ever mellow enough to entertain the idea. She could never make sense of his configurations, none of the images seemed to relate to the others, she'd pull card after card and make a spread that was meaningless, confused. He would lose interest and patience. She would feel as though she'd failed. Ugh.
She'd like to blame it all on him, but she supposed her own muddled thinking got in the way as well: always hoping he was asking about the future of their relationship, whether she would marry him, whether she would like an emerald-cut diamond in a platinum setting, as opposed to a three carat marquis-cut in white gold.
Someday, maybe, she'd find that remotely amusing.
But not today. Rising, she left the candles burning and got some incense going as well. Lavender: soothing, healing. She wanted healing. She wanted that fistful of pain to get out of her chest and dissolve into the ether. She wanted all her lessons learned in a six-week correspondence course, she wanted a whole, strong heart, she wanted Wilson back, she wanted all the sadness to leak out of her pores, she wanted her life back. Her self back. Now.
Lorna emerged from the taxi at the corner of Court and Clinton. She ascended the curb, and paused. Having never been, in her entire life, on the other side of the Brooklyn Bridge, she sniffed the air, unable to imagine what this part of the world could possibly smell like. Finding nothing out of the usual, she removed her iPhone from her elegantly understated Coach bag and called up her Map app. As she waited to be enlightened as to her coordinates, she cast her cool glance over the neighborhood.
This was, indeed, a neighborhood. If pushed, she would grudgingly admit that it was rather pretty. The buildings were lower, the trees were taller, the combination allowed the light to filter down in a soothing green - very natural, she mused. The storefronts were homey and well kept, and the predominantly Italian flavor to the place gave it an old world, old New York vibe, and, she could maybe, perhaps, see the charm in living in a place like this. Well, it really was darling, wasn't it. How nice for Anna.
But for Lorna - no. The mental leap required to cross a body of water every day to get into the city did not register as doable. She couldn't conceive of it. Crossing bodies of water meant a journey, not a commute. She was perfectly happy in the West Village. Who wouldn't be, really. Downtown, convenient, leafy, as leafy as this, in all honesty - if you stood on her toilet you could see the Hudson. Anything anywhere on the island of Manhattan, just a raised arm away. The idea of having to take the subway everywhere, sitting there, rocking and bumping around with the hordes - not only that but the time involved, walking to the subway, waiting on the platform, sitting on the train, getting into town, transferring, for God's sake.
Had the neighborhood glanced back at the tall, willowy woman standing as still as a statue on the curb, it would have taken in the platinum blonde locks that fell, sheet-like, down her back, noticed the flawless ivory skin, the impeccable maquillage, the tasteful ensemble, and perhaps, perhaps, it would have shivered just a little bit. Lorna would graciously accept the conclusion of cool, as she cultivated coolness - but only her friends would know, in her heart of hearts, that she would clutch at the verdict of cold. And that's why they were her friends, the best friends in the world.
As her handheld hovered between question and answer - My God, not even a decent connection out here - Lorna reached for her smokes. Extracting a pack of Gitanes from the pocket of her oyster grey Anne Klein car coat, she flicked the lighter (also located in said pocket), and stepped gracefully out of the way of a mob of mothers wheeling their progeny down the sidewalk.
Families. Lorna shuddered mildly. Screaming kids, disgruntled dads, washed-out moms. Surrounded. No wonder Anna was so distraught about that idiot Willy. Lorna allowed herself the ghost of a smirk. How he loathed that. How he loathed her. Mister Other People's Money Humorless Bloody Wilson.
Ah, but poor Anna. Poor, poor dear. It had been ages since she'd dated anybody that was even as passable as ol' Wils. Such a big heart, a big romantic heart that took anybody on board and gave them a shot. Good Lord, that wrestler guy. Always had an A&P bag full of vitamins and powdered drinks on hand so he could bulk up at will and in all situations. And that string of actors, useless bastards, who used up all her mousse and stole her CDs. The yearly crush, the annual all-consuming fixation on some guy at work, or the donut vendor, or God knew.