'You knew my failing, Xervish. Why build a device I cannot use? Why bring me at all?'
'I didn't build it. The Council of Scrutators had it made and Ghorr said it was tailored to me alone. He lied. It wasn't until I opened the box this afternoon that I understood how it worked. In the time I could not find another artisan; a proper proper one.' one.'
The insult was like a smack in the mouth. 'Why didn't you warn me?'
'That would have made it worse.'
Then she realised that the solution was right in front of her. 'Surr, Tiaan is in here somewhere. She could use it.'
Hope flared in his eyes, which hurt her too. 'Yes, why didn't I think of that? Ullii? Ullii Ullii?'
The seeker groaned. Flydd crouched beside her. 'Ullii, can you see Tiaan?'
Ullii was holding her head. 'Myllii, Myllii?'
Flydd and Irisis exchanged glances. He tried again.
'Ullii. We must find Artisan Tiaan. Where is she?'
The seeker's eyes flicked from side to side. 'Long way from here,' she whispered.
'Can you take us there?' said Irisis.
'Too far. Toooo far.' She closed her eyes.
Irisis wept in despair. Flydd dragged her to her feet. 'There's no time for that. Every minute's delay means more dead.'
'Can't you you use it, surr?' she said desperately. 'You're a powerful mancer.' use it, surr?' she said desperately. 'You're a powerful mancer.'
'I told you, it's designed for an artisan, not a mancer. Ghorr has betrayed me he wants me dead and doesn't care if we fail. Do it Do it!'
His words froze her to the marrow. That was not Xervish, her friend and one-time lover speaking. It was the scrutator, who broke whomever he had to, to get the job done. She had long dreaded this moment, and surely suffered every pang a mortal human could suffer. If she failed, as she would, she would not have long to regret it. She met his eye.
'I will try, surr.'
'Don't try try,' he replied, harsh-voiced. 'Succeed. The army, the war, yes, even the survival of humankind is in your hands, Irisis.'
She took the jewelled cap from his hand. Holding it out, she touched her artisan's pliance with her other hand and brought the field into view. Irisis closed her eyes, the better to see see.
'The field is fading fast. And it's ... all flabby and warped. I've not seen anything like it. It's hardly got any colour left.'
'Then you'd better work quickly.'
Irisis imaged the field in all directions, then tuned her mind to the blue crystals. That was hard, for she was used to working with one at a time. She traced out paths, through ethyric s.p.a.ce, from the field to each of the crystals. It was difficult work, even for her. The knowledge of one path tended to erase the others from her mind.
You must do it! There is no alternative. She struggled on, fixing the first path, holding it while she did the second, the third, the fourth, the fifth. Now the next step. The one she could not do. Opening her eyes, Irisis saw the scrutator staring at her. His mouth moved, as if uttering the word There is no alternative. She struggled on, fixing the first path, holding it while she did the second, the third, the fourth, the fifth. Now the next step. The one she could not do. Opening her eyes, Irisis saw the scrutator staring at her. His mouth moved, as if uttering the word Hurry Hurry. She heard nothing except the hissing of the node-drainer.
She felt disconnected, as if she was being taken apart muscle by muscle, sinew by sinew, organ by organ. The disruption was beginning. Flydd looked even worse. And it would be worse for him if she succeeded, as he attempted to cap the node-drainer.
Snapping her eyes closed, she felt the blue crystals with her fingertips and imagined power flowing from the field into them. She could see it perfectly. Unfortunately, when she tried to draw on that power, nothing happened. No surprise there. It never had, since that day at her fourth birthday party when she had lost the talent.
SIXTY-THREE.
'Why did you lose it?' Flydd said in her ear. His k.n.o.bbly hands gripped her shoulders, supporting her.
'I wanted it too much,' she whispered, remembering that day so vividly. Desire had burned her.
'Why, Irisis?'
'Because I was the best ... Because it was my destiny ' She broke off, knowing that was wrong.
'Was it? I don't think so. You never wanted to be an artisan at all, did you did you?'
Back in the world of her four-year-old self, Irisis hardly knew what he was saying. 'I do want it!' She stamped one foot in its pretty pink sandal. 'All my life I've wanted it. Mother and father and dear old Uncle Barkus ...'
A long-suppressed memory exploded into her mind. On the morning of her birthday she had been talking to her mother about being a jeweller when she grew up. Even at four, Irisis had known what she wanted. She had expected her mother to be pleased but Nysygy had slapped her daughter's face.
'Don't be a stupid little girl! Jewelling is cheap, common work for cheap little people. You're going to be crafter one day, like your Uncle Barkus. Only you won't be crafter at a dirty little manufactory. You'll be the most brilliant crafter of all time.'
'But, Mummy,' the four-year-old Irisis had said, bewildered. 'I don't want to be crafter.'
'How dare you,' Nysygy had screamed, shaking Irisis by the shoulders. 'Never mention it again or ... or I don't know what I'll do to myself.'
Irisis could see her mother's staring eyes, the knife pressed against one slender wrist. 'If I die it will be your fault, you wicked daughter!' she hissed. Her mother was always making threats.
The child could not deal with emotional blackmail. Irisis just knew herself to be an evil little brat who would one day be the death of her mother. Fortunately dear old Barkus had come in. Her mother had tossed the knife on the table and turned to the bottle instead.
Flydd broke into her thoughts. 'What were you really really feeling, that day of the birthday party when you lost your talent?' feeling, that day of the birthday party when you lost your talent?'
'I was furiously angry, though I knew better than to show it. I hated my family, and most of all my mother.'
'And when you were asked to demonstrate your talent?'
The revelation struck her. 'I wanted to fail. Oh, Xervish, I wanted to fail! It was the only way out of the trap they had built for me.'
'You tried to use your talent but your subconscious mind would not let you. It closed it off and you never found it again.'
'Yes,' Irisis said softly, 'but still I could not escape them. Mother did my trick for me that day, and ever after refused to believe my failure. She was too strong for me. I became a liar and a cheat to cover it up. I had to.'
'What will you do after the war? Will you remain crafter?'
The fiction of 'after the war'. People had been consoling themselves with that phrase for a hundred and fifty years. The reality was different. 'Of course not! There will be no need for clankers then. I will follow my dream. People will want beautiful things again, one day.'
His hand squeezed her shoulders. 'Help us, Irisis. Save the war, then follow your dream.'
She looked within herself. The realisation had not made it any easier. She still did not know where her lost talent was, or how to recover it.
'Don't think about it,' Flydd said. 'Just do it!'
She tried. Her true calling was a beacon out of the tarry darkness. Irisis reached deep inside herself. She tried harder than she had in her life, searching again and again, but could not uncover her talent. Tears formed in her eyes.
'I can't ... do it,' she said, the barest exhalation of breath. 'I'm sorry. I don't know where to look.'
He gripped her shoulders again. Those fierce eyes looked into hers and they were blood-red. His lips had gone an ugly blue. A thread of blood appeared in one nostril. The node-drainer was tearing him apart. Flydd turned away. She had let him down.
'Clawers coming!' cried Ullii, who had been motionless in the corner all this time.
'How far?'
'Not far.'
'Give me the cap.' Flydd s.n.a.t.c.hed it from her hands. 'If you can't do it, I'll have to.'
It would kill him. 'Wait, surr!' She had an idea. 'Ullii, remember that time in the clankers, when they lost the field and I had to tune the controllers to that strange double node?'
Ullii's eyes were open and she was staring coldly at Flydd and Irisis. She did not answer.
'Ullii?'
'I remember,' said Ullii.
'How did you ?' Never mind. Can you see where my lost talent is?'
'You're a hard ball in my lattice. Can't see inside.'
'Please try, else the scrutator is going to die.'
'He's a nasty, cruel man,' Ullii snapped.
'But he cares for you, Ullii. He saved you from Jal-Nish.'
'I saved you you from Scrutator Ghorr. You promised to find Myllii. Hate you too.' from Scrutator Ghorr. You promised to find Myllii. Hate you too.'
Irisis had no answer to that. She looked desperately at Flydd.
'Ah, but I have have found Myllii,' he said smoothly. found Myllii,' he said smoothly.
Ullii rotated to face him, her eyes closed as if she were searching her lattice. 'Myllii,' she whispered. 'Where are you, Myllii?'
'He is far away,' said Flydd. 'Eiryn Muss has found Myllii and will bring him home to you, but it will take many, many days. Now can you please please help Irisis?' help Irisis?'
It was not enough. 'Irisis wants my Nish,' Ullii said sullenly.
'That pimply little runt? I do not,' cried Irisis.
'Saw you at Aachim camp. You were holding holding him.' Her voice rose in outrage. him.' Her voice rose in outrage.
'Nish is my friend,' said Irisis. 'I don't want him for a lover. Why would I, the little pipsq ' She broke off. Better not insult Nish further. No telling how Ullii would react.
Ullii had her arms crossed about her chest and a stubborn expression on her face.
'Oh, for goodness sake!' cried Flydd. 'You're not a pair of cats in an alley. Irisis, I forbid you, as scrutator, ever ever to be Nish's lover. Will that do, Ullii?' to be Nish's lover. Will that do, Ullii?'
Ullii gave Irisis a triumphant smile. 'Thank you, Xervish.' Seizing his withered hand, she kissed it. 'You are a kind man. I will do what you you want.' want.'
Irisis was outraged. How dare any man tell her whom she could take to her bed? 'You'll be sorry, Flydd. Don't think you'll be sharing my my favours anytime soon.' favours anytime soon.'
He smirked, the effect rather spoiled by the blood at the corner of his mouth. 'Can we get on? I feel I'm being filleted like a fish.'
Ullii put her hands over her eyes. Her arms shook. Her jaw clenched. Irisis felt as if she was picking at a ball made of black string, but it was wound so tightly she could not unravel it. She plucked and plucked, at one place and another, fruitlessly. Then a pair of hands began to work next to hers. Small and slender they were, and they seemed to know what they were doing. In her mind's eye, Irisis followed the movements in and out, back and forth. They eased one thread out of the tangle, leaving it sticking up in the air.
The fingers withdrew. Irisis took hold of the thread and tugged. It unwound, the ball spinning off the other way, growing smaller and smaller until it disappeared, leaving just a pile of shining silver thread. She began to gather it up, for at the end of it must be the key. Or maybe it it was the key. She began to weave the silver into a bracelet, an exquisite piece of jewellery. was the key. She began to weave the silver into a bracelet, an exquisite piece of jewellery.
'Clawers, clawers.' The seeker folded up on the floor.
As Irisis slid the bracelet on her wrist she saw the way so clearly that it was like a lifeline stretching out in front of her. She drew power and, to her surprise, her joy, it cascaded into the crystals. They exploded with light and something inside the cap gave forth a low, vibrating hum.
'I've done it! Xervish, I've done it!'
There was no time to enjoy her triumph. Flydd s.n.a.t.c.hed the cap. 'Prepare to defend me!' He ran to the node-drainer.
Irisis whipped out her sword and stood at the entrance, looking up and down and back over her shoulder. There were no lyrinx in sight. She was strangely weak and nauseous. Mancers suffered from aftersickness but this was the first time she had experienced it.
Flydd seemed to be having trouble fitting the cap. Strange energies kept bursting out in all directions. It was like trying to seal a flowing hose. He cursed, forced the cap over the top of the mushroom, and cursed again as it was tossed out of his hands to land on the tarry floor.
Irisis peered out the entrance but could not see any enemy. She crept down the pa.s.sage to the point where a broad thoroughfare became visible. The disruption was much less here. Some distance away, a lyrinx shadow fleeted across an opening, carrying something that looked like a human body. She edged back. Her sword would not stop a lyrinx, even for a minute.
The lyrinx hurried past, looking neither right nor left. She heard shouting. More enemy shadows ran by, all carrying loads. What was going on? Were they losing the war, or had they already won it? She scuttled back to the cavern. In her absence Flydd must have worked some great scrutator magic, for he cried out, 'It's on! Time to go.'
The energy fountain had disappeared but the room felt stranger than ever. The once solid tar was flowing like water, up up the walls. The walls expanded and contracted like the chambers of a beating heart. the walls. The walls expanded and contracted like the chambers of a beating heart.
Irisis fought back the panic, fought the nightmare of being entombed alive, the urge to flee. All this effort must not be wasted for want of courage at the last instant. 'Better be sure it's going to work first.'
'The power's not coming out, so it must go back. They're the only two choices.'
'Then they'll notice the power isn't flowing and come to investigate,' said Irisis. 'They'll take the cap off.'
'There's no way to remove it without breaking it, and if they tamper with anything, it triggers the power stored in the blue hedrons. That would destroy the node-drainer and everything around it.'
'What if they cut off the top of the node-drainer?'
'That will destroy it too. Once the flow is interrupted, anything will.'