"No. Don't ask me why. I couldn't." He saw that her smile stayed, tinged with perplexity, perhaps annoyance.

"It's such a big thing to give up."

It vexed him now. He felt done with it. "I simply loathe her," he said quietly.

"But you shouldn't loathe anything."

He made a nervous gesture." I loathe her because I've told you all this while we're walking here!"

"Guy, really!"

"She's everything that should be loathed," he went on, staring in front of him. "Sometimes I think I hate everything in the world. No decency, no conscience. She's what people mean when they say America never grows up, America rewards the corrupt. She's the type who goes to the bad movies, acts in them, reads the love-story magazines, lives in a bungalow, and whips her husband into earning more money this year so they can buy on the installment plan next year, breaks up her neighbor's marriagea""

"Stop it, Guy! You talk so like a child!" She drew away from him.

"And the fact I once loved her," Guy added, "loved all of it, makes me ill."

They stopped, looking at each other. He had had to say it, here and now, the ugliest thing he could say. He wanted to suffer also from Anne's disapproval, perhaps from her turning away and leaving him to finish the walk by himself. She had left him on one or two other occasions, when he had been unreasonable.

Anne said, in that distant, expressionless tone that terrified him, because he felt she might abandon him and never come back, "Sometimes I can believe you're still in love with her."

He smiled, and she softened. "I'm sorry," he said.

"Oh, Guy!" She put out her hand again, like a gesture of beseeching, and he took it. "If you'd only grow up!"

"I read somewhere people don't grow emotionally."

"I don't care what you read. They do. I'll prove it to you if it's the last thing I do."

He felt secure suddenly. "What else can I think about now?" he asked perversely, lowering his voice.

"That you were never closer to being free of her than now, Guy. What do you suppose you should think about?"

He lifted his head higher. There was a big pink sign on the top of a building: TOME xx, and all at once he was curious to know what it meant and wanted to ask Anne. He wanted to ask her why everything was so much easier and simpler when he was with her, but pride kept him from asking now, and the question would have been rhetorical anyway, unanswerable by Anne in words, because the answer was simply Anne. It had been so since the day he met her, in the dingy basement of the Art Institute in New York, the rainy day he had slogged in and addressed the only living thing he saw, the Chinese red raincoat and hood. The red raincoat and hood had turned and said: "You get to 9A from the first floor. You didn't have to come all the way down here." And then her quick, amused laugh that mysteriously, immediately, lifted his rage. He had learned to smile by quarter inches, frightened of her, a little contemptuous of her new dark green convertible. "A car just makes more sense," Anne said, "when you live in Long Island."The days when he was contemptuous of everything and courses taken here and there were no more than tests to make sure he knew all the instructor had to say, or to see how fast he could learn it and leave. "How do you suppose anybody gets in if not through pull? They can still throw you out if they don't like you." He had seen it her way finally, the right way, and gone to the exclusive Deems Architectural Academy in Brooklyn for a year, through her father's knowing a man on the board of directors.

"I know you have it in you, Guy," Anne said suddenly at the end of a silence, "the capacity to be terribly happy."

Guy nodded quickly, though Anne was not looking at him. He felt somehow ashamed. Anne had the capacity to be happy. She was happy now, she had been happy before she met him, and it was only he, his problems, that ever seemed to daunt her happiness for an instant. He would be happy, too, when he lived with Anne. He had told her so, but he could not bear to tell her again now.

"What's that?" he asked.

A big round house of glass had come into view under the trees of Chapultepec Park.

"The botanical gardens," Anne said.

There was no one inside the building, not even a caretaker. The air smelled of warm, fresh earth. They walked around, reading unpronounceable names of plants that might have come from another planet. Anne had a favorite plant. She had watched it grow for three years, she said, visiting it on successive summers with her father.

"Only I can't ever remember these names," she said.

"Why should you remember?"

They had lunch at Sanborn's with Anne's mother, then walked around in the store until it was time for Mrs. Faulkner's afternoon nap. Mrs. Faulkner was a thin, nervously energetic woman, tall as Anne, and for her age as attractive. Guy had come to be devoted to her, because she was devoted to him. At first, in his mind, he had built up the greatest handicaps for himself from Anne's wealthy parents, but not one of them had come true, and gradually he had shed them. That evening, the four of them went to a concert at the Bellas Artes, then had a late supper at the Lady Baltimore Restaurant across the street from the Ritz.

The Faulkners were sorry he wouldn't be able to stay the summer with them in Acapulco. Anne's father, an importer, intended to build a warehouse on the docks there.

"We can't expect to interest him in a warehouse if he's building a whole country club," Mrs. Faulkner said.

Guy said nothing. He couldn't look at Anne. He had asked her not to tell her parents about Palm Beach until after he left. Where would he go next week? He might go to Chicago and study for a couple of months. He had stored away his possessions in New York, and his landlady awaited his word as to whether to rent his apartment or not. If he went to Chicago, he might see the great Saarinen in Evanston and Tim O'Flaherty, a young architect who had had no recognition yet, but whom Guy believed in. There might be a job or two in Chicago. But New York was too dismal a prospect without Anne.

Mrs. Faulkner laid her hand on his forearm and laughed. "He wouldn't smile if he got all New York to build over, would you, Guy?"

He hadn't been listening. He wanted Anne to take a walk with him later, but she insisted on his coming up to their suite at the Ritz to see the silk dressing gown she had bought for her cousin Teddy, before she sent it off. And then, of course, it was too late for a walk.

He was staying at the Hotel Montecarlo, about ten blocks from the Hotel Ritz, a great shabby building that looked like the former residence of a military general. One entered it through a wide carriage drive, paved in black and white tile like a bathroom floor. This gave into a huge dark lobby, also tile floored. There was a grotto-like barroom and a restaurant that was always empty. Stained marble stairs wound around the patio, and going up them behind the bellhop yesterday, Guy had seen, through open doorways and windows, a Japanese couple playing cards, a woman kneeling at prayer, people writing letters at tables or merely standing with a strange air of captivity. A masculine gloom and an untraceable promise of the supernatural oppressed the whole place, and Guy had liked it instantly, though the Faulkners, including Anne, chaffed him about his choice.

His cheap little room in a back corner was crammed with pink and brown painted furniture, had a bed like a fallen cake, and a bath down the hall. Somewhere down in the patio, water dripped continuously, and the sporadic flush of toilets sounded torrential.

When he got back from the Ritz, Guy deposited his wristwatch, a present from Anne, on the pink bed table, and his billfold and keys on the scratched brown bureau, as he might have done at home. He felt very content as he got into bed with his Mexican newspapers and a book on English architecture that he had found at the Alameda bookstore that afternoon. After a second plunge at the Spanish, he leaned his head back against the pillow and gazed at the offensive room, listened to the little ratlike sounds of human activity from all parts of the building. What was it that he liked, he wondered. To immerse himself in ugly, uncomfortable, undignified living so that he gained new power to fight it in his work? Or was it a sense of hiding from Miriam? He would be harder to find here than at the Ritz.

Anne telephoned him the next morning to say that a telegram had come for him. "I just happened to hear them paging you," she said. "They were about to give it up."

"Would you read it to me, Anne?"

Anne read:*"Miriam suffered miscarriage yesterday. Upset and asking to see you. Can you come home? Mama.'a"Oh, Guy!"

He felt sick of it, all of it. "She did it herself," he murmured.

"You don't know, Guy."

"I know."

"Don't you think you'd better see her?"

His fingers tightened on the telephone. "I'll get the Palmyra back anyway," he said. "When was the telegram sent?"

"The ninth. Tuesday, at 4 P.M."

He sent a telegram off to Mr. Brillhart, asking if he might be reconsidered for the job. Of course he would be, he thought, but how asinine it made him. Because of Miriam. He wrote to Miriam: This changes both our plans, of course. Regardless of yours, I mean to get the divorce now. I shall be in Texas in a few days. I hope you will be well by then, but if not, I can manage whatever is necessary alone.

Again my wishes for your quick recovery.

Guy Shall be at this address until Sunday.

He sent it airmail special delivery.

Then he called up Anne. He wanted to take her to the best restaurant in the city that night. He wanted the most exotic cocktails in the Ritz Bar to start with, all of them.

"You really feel happy?" Anne asked, laughing, as if she couldn't quite believe him.

"Happy anda"strange. Muy extranjero!'

"Why?"

"Because I didn't think it was fated. I didn't think it was part of my destiny. The Palmyra, I mean."

"I did."

"Oh, you did!"

"Why do you think I was so mad at you yesterday?"

He really did not expect an answer from Miriam, but Friday morning when he and Anne were in Xochimilco, he felt prompted to call his hotel to see if a message had come. There was a telegram waiting. And after saying he would pick it up in a few minutes, he couldn't wait, once he was back in Mexico City, and telephoned the hotel again from a drugstore in the Socalo. The Montecarlo clerk read it to him: *"Have to talk with you first. Please come soon. Love, Miriam.'"

"She'll make a bit of a fuss," Guy said after he repeated it to Anne."I'm sure the other man doesn't want to marry her. He's got a wife now."

"Oh."

He glanced at her as they walked, wanting to say something to her about her patience with him, with Miriam, with all of it. "Let's forget it," he smiled, and began to walk faster.

"Do you want to go back now?"

"Certainly not! Maybe Monday or Tuesday. I want these few days with you. I'm not due in Florida for another week. That's if they keep to the first schedule."

"Miriam won't follow you now, will she?"

"This time next week," Guy said, "she won't have a single claim on me."

Ten.

At her dressing table in Hotel La Fonda, Santa Fe, Elsie Bruno sat removing the night's dry skin cream from her face with a cleansing tissue. Now and then, with wide, absent blue eyes, she leaned closer to the mirror to examine the little mesh of wrinkles below her lids and the laugh lines that curved from the base of her nose. Though her chin was somewhat recessive, the lower part of her face projected, thrusting her full lips forward in a manner quite different from Bruno's face. Santa Fe, she thought, was the only place she could see the laugh lines in the mirror when she sat all the way back at her dressing table.

"This light around herea"might as well be an X-ray," she remarked to her son.

Bruno, slumped in his pajamas in a rawhide chair, cast a puffy eye over at the window. He was too tired to go and pull the shade down. "You look good, Mom," he croaked. He lowered his pursed lips to the glass of water that rested on his hairless chest, and frowned thoughtfully.

Like an enormous walnut in feeble, jittery squirrel hands, an idea, bigger and closer than any idea he had ever known, had been revolving in his mind for several days. When his mother left town, he intended to crack open the idea and start thinking in earnest. His idea was to go and get Miriam. The time was ripe, and the time was now. Guy needed it now. In a few days, a week even, it might be too late for the Palm Beach thing, and he wouldn't.

Her face had grown fatter in these few days in Santa Fe, Elsie thought. She could tell by the plumpness of her cheeks compared to the small taut triangle of her nose. She hid the laugh lines with a smile at herself, tilted her curly blond head, and blinked her eyes.

"Charley, should I pick up that silver belt this morning?" she asked, as casually as if she spoke to herself. The belt was two hundred and fifty something, but Sam would send another thousand on to California. It was such a good-looking belt, like nothing in New York. What else was Santa Fe good for but silver?

"What else is he good for?" Bruno murmured.

Elsie picked up her shower cap and turned to him with her quick broad smile that had no variations. "Darling," coaxingly.

"Ummm?"

"You won't do anything you shouldn't while I'm gone?"

"No, Ma."

She left the shower cap perched on the crown of her head, looked at a long narrow red nail, then reached for a sandpaper stick. Of course, Fred Wiley would be only too happy to buy the silver belt for hera"he'd probably turn up at the station with something atrocious and twice as expensive anywaya"but she didn't want Fred on her neck in California. With the least encouragement, he would come to California with her. Better that he only swore eternal love at the station, wept a little, and went straight home to his wife.

"I must say last night was funny though," Elsie went on. "Fred saw it first." She laughed, and the sandpaper stick flew in a blur. Bruno said coolly, "I had nothing to do with it."

"All right, darling, you had nothing to do with it!" Bruno's mouth twisted. His mother had awakened him at 4 in the morning, in hysterics, to tell him there was a dead bull in the Plaza. A bull sitting on a bench with a hat and coat on, reading a newspaper. Typical of Wilson's collegiate pranks. Wilson would be talking about it today, Bruno knew, elaborating on it till he thought of something dumber to do. Last night in La Placita, the hotel bar, he had planned a murdera"while Wilson dressed a dead bull. Even in Wilson's tall stories about his war service, he had never claimed to have killed anybody, not even a Jap. Bruno closed his eyes, thinking contentedly of last night. Around ten o'clock, Fred Wiley and a lot of other baldheads had trooped into La Placita half crocked, like a musical comedy stagline, to take his mother to a party. He'd been invited, too, but he had told his mother he had a date with Wilson, because he needed time to think. And last night he had decided yes. He had been thinking really since Saturday when he talked to Guy, and here it was Saturday again, and it was tomorrow or never, when his mother left for California. He was sick of the question, could he do it. How long had the question been with him? Longer than he could remember. He felt like he could do it. Something kept telling him that the time, the circumstances, the cause would never be better. A pure murder, without personal motives! He didn't consider the possibility of Guy's murdering his father a motive, because he didn't count on it. Maybe Guy could be persuaded, maybe not. The point was, now was the time to act, because the setup was so perfect. He'd called Guy's house again last night to make sure he still wasn't back from Mexico. Guy had been in Mexico since Sunday, his mother said.

A sensation like a thumb pressing at the base of his throat made him tear at his collar, but his pajama jacket was open all the way down the front. Bruno began to button it dreamily.

"You won't change your mind and come with me?" His mother asked, getting up. "If you did, I'd go up to Reno. Helen's there now and so's George Kennedy."

"Only one reason I'd like to see you in Reno, Mom."

"Charleya"" She tipped her head to one side and back again.

"Have patience? If it weren't for Sam, we wouldn't be here, would we?a"

"Sure, we would."

She sighed. "You won't change your mind?"

"I'm having fun here," he said through a groan.

She looked at her nails again. "All I've heard is how bored you are."

"That's with Wilson. I'm not gonna see him again."

"You're not going to run back to New York?"

"What'd I do in New York?"

"Grannie'd be so disappointed if you fell down again this year."

"When did I ever fall down?" Bruno jested weakly, and suddenly felt sick enough to die, too sick even to throw up. He knew the feeling, it lasted only a minute, but God, he thought, let there not be time for breakfast before the train, don't let her say the word breakfast. He stiffened, not moving a muscle, barely breathing between his parted lips. With one eye shut, he watched her move toward him in her pale blue silk wrapper, a hand on her hip, looking as shrewd as she could which wasn't shrewd at all, because her eyes were so round. And she was smiling besides.

"What've you and Wilson got up your sleeves?"

"That punk?"

She sat down on the arm of his chair. "Just because he steals your thunder," she said, shaking him slightly by the shoulder. "Don't do anything too awful, darling, because I haven't got the money just now to throw around cleaning up after you."

"Stick him for some more. Get me a thousand, too."