With her mind catching on to what had just happened, Kanzakis eyes opened wide. A moment later, she reflexively pulled her head back, ending that brief connection.

She then gently touched her lips while her eyes focused on mine, perhaps wondering if what happened was real or not.

As it was too short and it only happened accidentally, we might as well not count it as such. In any case, looking at how she reacted, the girl was more surprised that kissing someone was that easy. She probably couldnt wrap her head around why it was a hurdle in her previous relationship.

While she was lost in her thoughts, I smiled and praised her. Mhm See that? You can do it even without taking up lessons or guidance. Its that easy.

T-thats not

Escaping her swirling thoughts about what happened, Kanzaki tried to argue but my next words cut her off. Yes, it is. You did it that easily. Accident or not, you passed the hurdle. However, I have to apologize for having your first kiss like that.

I put a hand on top of her head and patted it as I continued to rain down praises.

Before confusion filled her mind, I continued.

You dont have to look as though youre lost, Kanzaki. I admire your honesty. And I understand your reason for asking me for a lesson. However, I believe you also understand that its pretty pointless to ask someone for it. I mean, in the first place, you dont need one. You only needed the courage or determination to successfully do it.

I told her to be honest and when she did, I was saying this. Am I discouraging her? Pretty much, yeah.

She said she wanted to do it for herself, even presenting tempting conditions such as letting me do what I wanted to do. However, I knew for myself that I was already too different from the past me.

And even with my interest in her returning, I now found this situation absurd.

Kanzaki didnt have any experience. And because of what happened with her previous relationship, she probably acquired the courage to ask me, someone she pretty much blackmailed for guidance back then. In her mind, I was probably the same guy as before, the one who was disappointed because she refused the practical lesson. Thats why shes expecting that I would easily accept her proposal.

As shes not in any relationship at the moment, she deemed it the best time to rack up experience points, and who better to ask for it?

However, it didnt go the way that she expected it to happen.

If you say it like that Then are you?

Yes, Im sorry but I wont give you a lesson, Kanzaki. Theres no need for one. Although Im tempted by the offer, I can only decline it.

W-why? I mustered my courage to bring you here You told me to be honest and I did Why back out now?

I already told you why.

Not only she didnt need one, but also I wouldnt be able to keep this a secret from my girls. She wanted to downplay it as a simple lesson but in the end, thats just an excuse.

If I accepted her request for a lesson, I would surely be inclined to take her in as we progressed with it. Thats how it was going to happen with Otsuka-senpai, after all.

Not that I didnt want to create the same situation like that but in Kanzakis case, its not curiosity but her desire to stamp out what happened with her failed relationship. Shes probably only saying that this didnt involve her ex, yet that guys the whole reason why shes now desperate to ask someone like me.

Moreover, I felt the tug in my mind about not cheating on my girls. If I accepted and they heard of this situation from me, I could somehow imagine their disappointment

Because in the first place, the only connection I had with Kanzaki was that photo she took and used to compel me in giving her a lesson.

Its too weak. Weak enough that even with my interest resurfacing, I didnt have the inclination to make her mine. She smells good and her body is definitely tempting, yet I couldnt find a strong reason why I would like her the same as I like and love my girls.

I mean, Im more inclined to make Izumi-senpai mine than do the same for Kanzaki.

Last but not the least, she didnt have any interest in me. Im only a convenient person to her. She picked me because theres no one else to pick from and we already had that history.

I could be anyone else so long as it fitted what shes looking for

Besides, even if I rejected her. I already imparted the lesson she needed to understand And thats enough.

At least, in my opinion. However, looking at the girl in front of me, I probably failed...

Y-you wont change your mind? Lost at my rejection, Kanzaki now looked desperate with that question. She grasped my hand again and put it on her cheeks.

But instead of feeling her willingness to go through what she proposed, what I felt was fear. Shes trembling slightly. Instead of absorbing and understanding what I just told her about not needing a lesson, her mind was focused on my rejection.

Thats why Its now my responsibility to turn her focus back to it.

Kanzaki, let me repeat it. You dont need a lesson. You can accomplish a kiss given the situation. But if you just wanted to get better at kissing, theres no other suitable partner for it than your boyfriend.

I dont have one He broke up with me, remember?

Yes, he did. But do you really want to get better at it as soon as possible?

Y-ye No. The girl was about to blurt out yes but she changed it midway as she quickly shook her head. And after doing so, she became downcast. Her trembling gradually grew stronger as though she were about to burst into tears.

There you have it. You shouldnt be too desperate for it, Kanzaki. Also, we could write off that first kiss of yours as something that didnt happen. Its an accident, after all.

N-no. It happened. We cant just write it off.

As though my words had affected her, the girls trembling stopped as she hurriedly shook her head, rejecting my words.

Following that, Kanzaki looked straight at me again, her hand tightening on mine. Tell me, Onoda-kun. Did you reject me because of your girlfriend or is there another reason?

I see. With that question, I could say that the girl somehow managed to tide through my rejection Then I better give her a proper answer.

Yes, its because of my girlfriend. But theres another reason.

Another reason?

Mhm Because Im interested in you.

Upon hearing that, Kanzaki blanked out. Moments later, she blinked a few times as a puzzled expression crept on her face.

Huh? Thats contradictory. If youre interested then wont it be a win for you if you accepted?

Its not a win if I accept a lost girls request.

I Im not lost. She tried to deny it but the stuttering gave her away.

Yes, you are. Its too obvious that what happened in your relationship is continuing to haunt you. Know this, Kanzaki, youre not the one at fault. Dont put yourself down just because of a cowards mistake. Youre an excellent girl as you are... And thats the truth. After saying this, I lifted her hand and planted a kiss on it.