What? We're going through this in the dark? I feel the caress of panic. Blind panic. That's a joke.
"Climb."
The visibility lights aren't necessary. The glow of Climb, complemented by the luminescence of the idiot lights, provides adequate illumination. So. A little more Climb endurance won.
The Commander shuts down systems till it seems nothing but the Climb system remains on-line.
Internal temperature is so low frost forms on nonradiant surfaces and men exhale fog into their clasped hands.
The first salvo arrives and delivers enough applied cross-sectional kinetic energy to rattle bones and brains. I gasp for breath, fight a lost bug back into my right ear.
Down in the basement Varese is frenetically trying to catch up on a million little tasks he let slide during ready. The last hint of refinement has fled him. His cussing isn't inventive, just strong enough to crisp the paint off every surface within three kilometers.
The Commander continues securing systems. Even all delectors and radios, which, normally, would be maintained at a warm idle.
Piniaz taps my shoulder. "Shut her down," he says. "Then go kill the cannon." His dark face makes him hard to read. As if catching my thoughts, he whispers, "I think he's going a little far. We ought to be ready to slash and bite if we have to do down."
"Yeah." It'll take time to bring everything back to ready. Frightened, I close the systems down.
Up in Ops Yanevich and the Old Man are running and rerunning Fisherman's tapes, assembling the details of a cautionary message to the rest of the Fleet.
Six hours. For every second of them the Climber has whispered and stirred in response to forces acting on her Hawking point. Twice the Commander has ordered us deeper into the moon. We're down nearly three hundred kilometers. We're running a hundred Bev, the most I've ever seen, giving our point a diameter smaller than that of a hydrogen atom. We're gulping CT fuel-----
Yet we're being buffeted. Continuously. I don't know what they're doing up there, but... the whole surface has to be boiling, throwing trillions of tons of lunar matter into space.
The buffeting gradually increases. "Take her down another hundred kilometers, Mr. Westhause."
I didn't pay much attention to the moon when I had a chance. Is it big enough to have a molten core? Are we trapped between fires? Does the Executioner have the firepower to tear the moon apart?
Waiting. Thinking. Always the fear. What if they blast away till there's nowhere left to go?
God. They must have brought a Leviathan. Nothing else has so much firepower.
Suppose they destabilize the moon's orbit? The Commander and Westhause are betting on its stability. What if the moon can't take it and breaks up? What if? What if? Will there be any warning when it sours? Or will internal temperature just shoot up too fast for us to react?
Maybe they're punching their missiles deep by throwing them in in hyper. Their sudden materialization and explosion would crack the mantle to gravel-except that that massed energy
weapon fire will have turned it to a sea of lava. The water ice, surely, has boiled off into space by now.
Why are they so damned determined to skin this particular cat? I never did anything to them.
It's stopped. Suddenly, like a light switch being thrown. What the hell? God. I thought it would drive me insane. Alewel did lose his cool for a minute, holding his head and screaming, "Make it stop! Make it stop!" Piniaz had to sedate him.
Silence. Stretching out. Getting spooky. Stretching, stretching. Becoming worse than the bombardment.
Have they gone away? Are they laying back, waiting for us to come down?
The Executioner, they say, is a master of psychological warfare.
I unbuckle and venture to the honeypot. Sacrifice made, I prowl the confines of the compartment, trying to calm myself. Piniaz endures my footsteps for five minutes before snapping, "Sit down.
You're generating heat."
"Shit, man. That seat's getting hard. And wet." "Tough. Sit. You're in the Climbers now, Lieutenant." My restlessness isn't unique. This silence is a rich growth medium for the jitters.
Nobody looks anybody else in the eye.
Ten hours. Somebody in Ops is whimpering. Curious. We've been up this long before. Why is this time harder to endure? Because the Executioner is out there? They use a sedative to quiet the whimperer.
The Commander's methodical madness has proven effective. Internal temperature increase is lagging well behind the normal curve despite the fact that we haven't much fuel to use as a heat sink.
Soon after the whimperer goes quiet, the Old Man orders the atmosphere completely recycled. Then, "Corps^ man, I want the Group One sleepers given."
It's warm now but I shiver anyway. Sleepers. Knockouts. The last ditch effort to extend Climb endurance by reducing metabolic rates and making the least critical men insensitive to their environment. A desperation measure. Usually applied much later than this.
"Voss, why don't you just hand out capsules?" I ask the Pharmacist's Mate as he comes through Weapons with his injection gun. It looks like a heavy laser with a shower-head snout.
"Some guys would palm them."
I roll up a tattered sleeve. Vossbrink ignores me. He turns to Chief Bath, whom I consider more important to the ship's survival. The Chief looks like a man expecting never to waken.
"Why not me? How do you choose, anyway?"
"Psych profile, endurance profile, Commander's direction, critical ratings. You can almost always find somebody to do a job. Can't always find somebody who can take the heat and pressure."
"What about when we go down?"
He shrugs. "They'll be gone. Or they won't. If not, it won't matter."
I lean his way, offering my arm. The sleeper looks like an easy out. No more worries. If I wake
up, I'll know we made it.
"No. Not you, sir."
"There's nobody more useless than me."
"Commander's directive, sir."
"Damn!" Right now I want nothing more than total absolution of any responsibility for my own fate.
Fourteen hours. Feeling feverish. Unable to sit still. Soaked with perspiration. Breathing quick and shallow because of heat, stench, and the low oxygen content of the air. Pure oxygen. It's supposed to be pure oxygen.
What the hell is the Climb endurance record? I can't remember. How close are we? Looks like the Old Man means to break it. And stretch it with every trick ever tried, including predicting his heat curves with the discounts of the men we lost.
Don't look at the bulkheads. Mold blankets them now. I can almost see it spreading, sporulating, filling the air with its dry, stale smell. Jesus! There's a patch of it on Chief Bath's shirt. I'm coughing almost continuously. The spores irritate my throat. Thank heaven they don't give me an allergic reaction.
The last of our juice is gone. We're down to water and bouillon and pills. Yo-ho-ho. Famine in the
Climbers.
Where's that fearless old spacedog who jollied the boys on the beacon? Ho! The life-takers have whisked away his disguise.
Vossbrink came round an hour ago. He bypassed me again. I cursed him mercilessly. He gave me a
tablet I'm to swallow only on the Old Man's orders.
Those of us still conscious are a little insane. I want out, but... I don't have enough residual defiance to take the tablet. Been thinking about it, but can't get my hand to my mouth.
Christ, it's gloomy in here!
Maintaining a tenuous touch with reality by hating the Old Man. My old friend. My old classmate.
Doing this to me. I could cut his throat and smile.
And those bastards out there. Why the hell don't they go away? Enough is enough.
Westhause and the Commander are the only watchstanders left in Ops. I can't hear anything from