"I'm not hungry... and I'm not heartbroken."

I heard Aideen sigh and could imagine her nose scrunching up in annoyance.

"If you aren't heartbroken then why have you been held up in here for the past two days?"

"Because I'm jet lagged."

Aideen laughed. "I bought that excuse yesterday, but you have slept a collective total of twenty-six hours since you got home so it's time to think up a new excuse."

I snuggled into my pillow.

"Okay, I have cramps in my stomach and can't move. How is that for an excuse? Now fuck off and leave me alone."

I heard Aideen huff. "I'm sick of this, enough excuses! Excuses sound best to the person who is making them up, stop feelin' sorry for yourself!"

I humourlessly chuckled. "No, I'm not done with me pity party yet... Why are you still here?"

"Fuck's sake, Keela! Stop pushin' me away! I know you're hurtin' and I want to help you. I'm not the bad lad here, babe, I'm your friend."

I bit my inner cheeks to stop myself from crying.

I was done with crying.

"I just want to be on my own, Ado... please."

I felt my bed dip then a body mould around mine, spooning me.

"Not a hope in hell, we're in this together. I took an oath as a blood sister to go through what you go through. I took that shite seriously so there is no gettin' rid of me."

I burst out into unexpected laughter and said, "I love that our friendship is based off of really inappropriate humour.

"Me too."

God, I loved this girl.

"I love you."

Aideen kissed the back of my head. "I love you, too."

"I'm sorry for bein' horrible. I know you did nothin' wrong."

"Don't apologise, I know it's your hurt and anger takin', not you."

We were silent for a few moments until I decided I wanted to talk.

"I seen the whole thing."

Aideen gave me a squeeze but remained silent.

"Him, Everly, and Dante were comfortable with each other... They've done it loads of times before. They were like some sort of thing."

Aideen gasped. "Does your Uncle Brandon know?"

I nodded. "Uncle Brandon said he paid for her time with Alec and Dante over the years to keep her happy while he was busy with work, which by the was is shady and illegal as fuck, but this time he didn't give her his permission so he is pissed about it. I don't know how to feel about it because their relationship is their own, but I can't help but blame Alec. He could have said no Aideen, he really could have."

Aideen stroked my back.

"And if cheatin' wasn't bad enough, he did it with them on the bed we shared. The bed we had sex in for the first time. It makes me feel sick to me stomach."

Aideen held me tightly as my voice cracked.

I closed my eyes and chuckled. "Micah and Jason got married today."

"I know... the stupid bitch."

I laughed, and so did Aideen.

And for a second I didn't feel so broken.

"You're up."

I smiled at Aideen four days later when I emerged from my bedroom.

"I'm up."

She placed her hands on her hips.

"You're showered."

I looked down to myself and then back up.

"I'm showered."

Aideen smiled. "Thank God, you were startin' to reek."

I laughed. "Bitch."

Aideen beamed. "Are you goin' to dry you hair?"

I shook my head. "Can't be arsed."

Aideen gestured to the chair nearest to me.

"Park it and I'll plait it."

I happily did as asked and sat down while Aideen French plaited my hair.

"Have you eaten anythin'?"

I nodded my head. "I had a few slices of toast."

Aideen blew out a relieved breath. "I'm so happy, I thought I was goin' to have to force feed you today."

I chuckled. "I'm fine Ado I'm washed, feed, and fully clothed."

"Yeah, but how is your head doin'?"

I lightly smiled. "Me head isn't what's hurtin'."

"I know babe," Aideen finished off my plait and cuddled me to her.

"Since you're up and dressed I'm liftin' your Storm ban."

Yay!

"It's evil that you kept him at the kennel away from me."

Aideen came around and shrugged. "I had to take matters into my own hands when you wouldn't leave your room. I knew a Storm ban would get you out sooner rather than later."

Evil cow.

"Well, I'm out now so go and get me baby."

Aideen saluted me. "On it boss!"

I chuckled as she grabbed her keys and literally skipped out of the apartment.

"Bloody weirdo," I said when she left.

To keep me occupied I spent a few minutes tidying up the kitchen and when I had nothing left to do I sat down. I was sat at my kitchen table only a few seconds when a knock came from my door and I rolled my eyes.

Aideen probably forgot something.

I walked over to the door and opened it. "What did you forget this time-"

I cut myself off when the person I was looking at was not Keela.

"Hello kitten."

It was Alec.

I stared at Alec for a long moment and I noticed he looked like shite, he had bags under his eyes and he looked like he'd lost weight.

He looked how I felt.

I shook my head and tried to slam the door shut, but Alec jammed his foot between the door and the doorframe preventing it from closing.

"Please, kitten-"

"Don't! Don't call me that!"

I pushed against the door as hard as I could trying to force it closed, but Alec pushed back against the door. He was stronger than me and once the door was pushed open he made his way into my apartment.

"Get out!" I screamed.

Alec closed the door behind him and turned the lock.

I walked backwards into the kitchen and looked for a weapon. Alec saw my eyes dart around the room and he frowned as he removed his jacket.

"I'm not going to hurt you Keela, you know I'm not."

I laughed. "I don't know you so I've no fuckin' idea what you're capable of."

Alec looked vulnerable as he stared at me.

I couldn't look him in the eyes so I focused on his chin instead.

"What are you doin' here? Do you not think you have fucked me over enough?"

Alec looked at me, his gaze uncertain.

"I'm sorry... I needed to see you."

"Why?"

He took a deep breath and said, "Because I missed you."

He missed me?

Oh, that was rich.

I humourlessly laughed. "You missed me? Did you miss me when you were fuckin' Everly and Dante?"

Alec flinched. "I deserve that."

"No Alec you deserve to be hit by a double decker bus, that is what you deserve."

Alec nodded his head. "I agree."

I glared at him. "Don't agree with me."

"Okay."

I snarled, "Don't do what I say to appease me either."

Alec opened his mouth to speak but thought better of it and closed his mouth.

He was silent for a moment then said, "I don't know what to do then."