"Scusa, il mio amico", Antonio said, stood up and came real close to me. I lost myself in the green of his eyes, in which light and dark veils seem to sough. "Is it possible that you are experienced in stuff like this?"

"In what?"

He smiled wearily as if I wanted to fool him.

"Okay, okay", I replied. "The truth is that I encountered such difficile cases a couple of times."

"And who won?"

"Good, I hope, il mio amico."

"e un detective!" he suddenly yelled out so loud that not just I but even jaded Giovanni winced. "We got ourselves a real detective! Finally investigative know how moves in with us. Forget London, where dark creatures in tweed rush through the fog, forget New York with all its serial killers. From now on the criminal tango is played in Rome!"

"Without my magnifying gla.s.s and my cape I'm pretty much left stranded, Dr. Watson."

"Don't hide your light under a bushel, Francis. Just a minute ago you delivered a great piece of criminal investigation. In front of me there's an expert. It cannot be denied, your witty reflections speak for themselves. And you know what: I want you to teach me a thing or two, I want to be your Dr. Watson. The both of us, you, the Master, and I, your apprentice, will end this series of murders."

"How did you conceive the idea that I will actually let myself in for that, you wacko?"

"Because I can read it in your eyes, Francis. I see the flare of curiosity and the shine of ambition in them. Admit it to yourself, il mio amico: You're hooked! And this bait probably isn't even the tastiest compared to the former ones. But you can't help it, you are crazy for these cases with many barbs. So let us apprehend our first dark angler together before he has fished everyone in this sea."

"As we have reached fishing by now: What are the odds of one those colleagues with gills hopping into my mouth within the next seconds, before I crack from hunger?"

"You want to eat something? That's it?"

Antonio looked at me as if I had just stated that I derived from trolls.

"No, first I want to hold a presentation about Garry Kasparov's strategy at his last tournament. Of course I want to eat, and I want it now, what do you think, douche bag!"

"Now, now Francis, you're in Rome, the culinary Mecca of the whole planet. You are going to tuck in so many delicacies, that you will eventually crave for a rotten fishbone."

"You don't happen to call this Spaghetti Bolognese with a hint of green on the stairs up there delicacies?"

"Spaghetti Bolognese with a hint of green?"

He shook himself grossed out so that for a moment every single hair of his velvet fur sat up like spines and let him look like he had licked on a socket.

"My dear Francis, I believe, you really are starving, hunger has made you rant by now. So what does your palate crave for? La Rosetta have the best fish. If you are into meat, we should go visit Checchino Dal 1887. And La Pergola is the home of the real haute cuisine."

"Phew, difficult choice", I said, while I had to try hard not to drool all over myself again. "The problem is that I lost my platinum card on the plane."

"Boo, only morons and humans pay for food! As an honorary gourmet critic all the top chef in the city are at my paws. Feasting is culture, and who could evaluate the quality of this culture better than our kind with our sensitive tongues. At least I'd rather swallow prussic acid than beg for trash in this horrible place. Come on, Francis, follow me and let your palate experience the fourth Lucullan dimension."

"Eccellente, Antonio!" Giovanni said. "Until now I never even had a clue about this gluttony being culture but as I value culture above all things, I'm also going to take one for the team and join you."

"No way!" Antonio replied unlovingly and headed towards the stony hill that consisted of rotting wall pieces and pillars, which had fallen over and broken into rough slices. "You stay here and keep your eyes open. I'm sorry, old pal, but when I mentioned the sensitive tongue, the operative word was sensitive, I didn't talk about the record speed at which this tongue carries dirt of all kinds into the mouth. And regarding to your tummy rumbles: Didn't Francis mention some Spaghetti Bolognese with a hint of green? Always keep in mind that green is the color of hope!"

Although I didn't support Antonio's arrogant behavior and although I felt awfully sorry for the pirate right now, my current state didn't allow the moralist in me to come out and play. To be honest, Antonio's list of restaurants had already killed any morality inside of me.

Yet, it took some time before I was able to break away from dead Siamese's black mask-like face with its widened azure blue eyes. This time I blanked out the big hole in her head, imagined how she used to enjoy the sun and the balmy air, and the lovingly rubbing of those whom she cared for. I pictured to myself how she, like the desirable lady she was, tested her impact on hotheads, edgily posing in this ancient oasis. I imagined how she had jauntily celebrated every single day in her life. But at the thought of the black nothing that she had entered, my fantasy slackened and let me sink into the depths of depression despite the urgent physical necessity. A last goodbye, a last glance at this wasted beauty, then I followed Antonio on the stony hill of trash, which lead towards an intersection.

"Oh, Francis", I heard Giovanni's voice behind my back. I turned around and saw him desertedly standing next to the body like the last watchman of a sunken kingdom.

"You asked if I had noticed any special skills at the victim when she was still alive. Now I remember one thing. Well, she couldn't juggle a ball on her nose, but she was quite acrobatic."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, these young chicks are all pretty limber but not even a circus monkey could have beaten this sister here. I have never seen a fellow who could balance on poles or the tops of the pillars so well. She was capable of doing a couple of full turns during a jump and then land on four paws. O yeah, extraordinary acrobatic, that she was. And gorgeous."

He looked down sadly at the Siamese, and suddenly I knew that neither the smart-alecky Francis nor the vain Rome-expert Antonio nor any of the dirt eating pack at the Largo Argentina would attend the wake for her, no one but this scar face who got mocked by everyone.

A lukewarm night in Rome means pleasure. This I had already guessed beforehand. And Antonio showed me that they could turn into a real surprise at any time. After we had left the Largo Argentino and had crossed Corso Vittorio Emanuele II with a suicidal sprint right through the cars, which kept flashing by, we plunged into Rome's pulsing heart. Oh I wanted to kiss them, the many alleys whose cobbles shone golden in the streetlights. I saw the triumphal arches, which reminded me of entries to palazzos, well, even to utterly normal houses, promising a romantic as well as a scary interior. I marveled at the baroque churches on every street corner, which had once been endowed by churchmen who had been much more focused on earthly glamour than on Christian asceticism but still represented G.o.d's glory in the world better than anything else. And finally the old sea of houses itself: yellow, ocher-colored facades with darkish green blinds, small balconies on every floor, and roof gardens with real jungles of pot plants all over the place. Who wasn't able to enjoy themselves in this very spot, might as well blow their brains out with my blessing.

Antonio had decided on the Ristorante Piperno close to the Tiber Island at the Monte de' Cenci, where apparently they served Roman cuisine which had more to it than usual home cooking. Although by now I felt like a gourmet who gets close to a mental breakdown when he has to decide on a restaurant, the whole thing still seemed pretty hilarious to me. Not with the best will in the world I could imagine us marching into some location and flagging down the waiter with our raised paws. In this context I'll skip the joke about the "cat's table".

"Dear Antonio, your man-about-town-show is really quite matchless, but can you maybe tell me how we are supposed to have dinner at a restaurant? I'm afraid that we will already fail at pushing the door handle."

We pa.s.sed by some small and still open grocery stores where thick salamis and gammon were hanging from the ceiling like stalact.i.tes in a dripstone cave. And those nom noms in the shop windows! No wonder these people, alongside the French, spent triple the money on eats than the rest of Europe. In piazzas, always decorated with artful fountains, sat people in front of cozy trattorias and had a good bite or gulp, let the comforting twilight from the windows of the time-honored houses around them shine on them, and not seldom one of the stretched hands petted our backs affectionately. Compared with this, my home reminded me of socialist military housing.

"Who said we'd have to push any door handles at all, Francis?" Antonio replied with a malicious smile. "And who said we will use the front door like any average blockhead? Trust me, il mio amico, a restaurant is like a well-filled tummy. But you won't find the truth by visiting its belly, but its b.u.t.t!"

Finally we arrived. Through the windows I saw cushioned chairs surrounded by silver and fine wainscot from pre-war times. People in clothes of refined taste pushed all kinds of delicacies into their mouths and toasted each other. Waiters with handlebar mustaches and ankle-length ap.r.o.ns bustled around the mostly southern looking customers. Without a doubt, this was one of the cla.s.sier locations.

"Follow me", Antonio said giving me a suggestive look and disappeared in a narrow back alley. I obeyed, and after a few feet we found ourselves at the back of the restaurant, in a small and dark backyard. Just at this moment an a.s.sistant inside yanked the door open. The man dragged a hatchless trash bin towards some other bins, which had already formed a group close to the yard wall.

"Leftovers!" Antonio said when we were by ourselves again. "The people ate what the cardinals left over. This is how the Roman cuisine emerged, from leftovers. Pagliata, coratella, trippa, all entrails. You can still find them on the menu of every Roman trattoria. Still it's not just poor man's food, it's more like reduced food with traditional ingredients and without nick-nack."

He noticed how I frowned in my mind.

"Don't worry, this is not trash, it's so fresh it can't get any fresher. The fine people who eat here are so supersaturated that they leave half of their dishes behind. So the good stuff ends up in the trash. This happens in all fine restaurants."

Well, in that case ... We lunged at the unwanted like members of a prehistoric clan used to lunge at their foes. Our hind paws vaulted us right on top of the trash bins with their excessive tripes, half eaten and perfectly filleted fish, the lamb bowels consisting of heart, ris, milt and lungs. A side-glance was enough to make sure that Antonio had let gone of his n.o.ble table manners just like me and had transformed his snout into some kind of power shovel, which he used to plunge deeply into these paradisiacal dishes without hesitation. I didn't work with less zeal. But while my tongue tried to celebrate this masterful wonder food, my greedy stomach unceasingly forced me to gulp it down at breakneck-speed. And to be quite honest, I didn't even care who was going to win this battle. In short, I had never eaten this many delicacies in such a short time.

After about fifteen minutes our bellies had a.s.sumed the shape of bellows, which were bursting at the seams. Full and jaded, we sat down next to the trash bins, sucked on one or two bones and let our eyes wander about the by now star-strewn sky. In front of us the dark alley stretched like a never-ending tube with some bypa.s.sing people who from the distance looked like a pattern of dark and light to us. Soft Latin guitar sounds mixed with the clinking of gla.s.ses. Antonio burped happily. And as this stated my current condition just perfectly, I burped back.

"You saved me from starving, Antonio", I said. "For that I will feel obliged till the end of my days. I just wonder why the fellows at Largo Argentino don't take a similar approach and line up in the fine restaurants' backyards."

"Why, why because they're stupid! Although they live in a mega city where the word "food" is sort of a bad word considering its refinement, they have no freaking clue of where to find these treasures. They follow their conservative instinct of territorial persistence, stay at the ruin site and wait for charity."

"Which is quite less than one can say for you."

"Too right. Rome is my pleasure garden. There isn't a spot I wouldn't know, not a secret kept from me, and not a single delicacy, which I haven't tried. I'm a wanderer and il cronista di Roma, I'm the whiskered Marcello Mastroianni. I am Rome! And you, Francis, you investigative tourist, I will take you by the paw and let you in on the sweet and bitter aspects of my beloved city."

The tapered black face seemed euphoric, and the green eyes beamed as if they were two lights that were supplied with more power than they needed. Indeed, Antonio apparently was a stroke of luck to me because in this moloch I couldn't have asked for a better guide. Especially as I had, without words and out of pure self-respect, promised to reveal this murder mystery, and therefore depended on a Rome insider.

Meanwhile I believed that there was a deep sad gulf between Antonio's laud on his city and what I thought to be the circ.u.mstances in his biography. As it had been this very city where he must have experienced the biggest trauma in his life. Due to his cultivated manner of expression and his sophisticated att.i.tude, the idea of him being born as a stray seemed absurd. So he had been abandoned just like the others. But which nutcase abandoned such a pretty guy whose superior intelligence couldn't have been a secret for long? And why?

"Okay, okay, I got it, Antonio", I said. "You love Rome more than cable TV. Still I can't get the idea out of my head that in a former life you weren't a wanderer and il cronista di Roma at all but had a real home. And this home belonged to one of these wonderful Romans. Right?"

Promptly, his curtain of happiness rang down like theatrical scenery. The silky head sank low, and so did his eyelids, narrowing his eyes to slits, his snout trembled softly. I guess I had twisted the knife in a still festering wound.

"O yes, Francis, I used to live with a human", Antonio said, his voice shaking, while he turned his head away from me so I wouldn't see his desolated face. "He was my Signore, my best friend, my idol. He was a real Roman. I still remember how he used to dress up for the night in front of his mirror and asked for my opinion, half kidding, half not, without suspecting that I really understood. Rolled up sleeves with his Rolex on or rather pulled down with cuff links? The red Brioni tie or just an open collar with two b.u.t.tons undone? Then he tried on some stylish suits, always joking with me like with an old pal. I remember the smell of his aftershave, tangy and understated. I will never forget the beautiful ladies, which he brought home from his nighttime expeditions. Each of them a pet.i.te Roman G.o.ddess. And never will I forget the parties at the loft, when they opened bottles of champagne with knifes and when I was the beloved center of attention. In this home I was the cheerful soul and the icing of the cake that was his life."

"Sounds like a refugee from a natural reserve for critically endangered machos", I said sort of unaffected. "I'm sorry, Antonio, but the description of your former owner somehow sounds like some Jesus constructed by Ferrari. On the face of it, between the tying of Brioni ties and opening of champagne he still found time to get rid of you. Can you maybe tell me why?"

"What a hottie!" Antonio burst out suddenly.

He yanked up his head, and automatically I followed his eyes, which focused on the distant end of the alley. Although the darkness was making it quite hard to see, we faced a feline couple, which were enjoying themselves there. The snow-white female and her reddish brown lover, a pretty muscular guy, gently rubbed themselves at each other, swatted each other on the nose and took turns in hissing sensually. It wasn't hard to guess what was about to happen shortly. My good breeding allowed me to watch the scene from the corners of my eyes only; actually I wanted to get up right away and slip off.

But not Antonio. His face that had just been full of melancholy just a moment ago had abruptly gotten sucked into a rising wave of fascination. His eyes were literally popping out of his head, and he watched the couple's ado with undisguised l.u.s.t and with a clicking tongue.

"What a hottie!" he repeated, a little quieter this time, and whistled from the corner of his snout.

"Yeah, great body", I admitted in duty bound. "But apparently we're too late."

"Unfortunately. But a little fantasizing won't hurt. As I still need a red one for my collection."

"So do I", I babbled untruthfully as the awkward situation disabled my brains. But then I got aware of the mistake and made sure that the female was a white fellow. Being the neurotic I am, of course I couldn't stop myself from correcting both our mistake loudly.

"Uhm, I guess you mean you still need a white one for your collection. The red one, that's the guy, Antonio, the girl is white."

"Yes, you heard right, Francis", Antonio replied distantly, without stopping his meditative observation. "I still need a red one for my collection!"

I opened my snout to disagree but suddenly noticed that my jawbones were locked like an open steel trap. For a long moment there seemed to be a quiet wind blowing inside my head. Then the feelings of disbelief, horror and, even more, disgust made a dead set at each other like people who are leaving a burning house in panic. Antonio was no Marcello Mastroianni, more like a whiskered Helmut

Berger. (2) Could this be real? Did I know anything comparable from my rich experience? Had I seen anything like this on Discovery Channel?

Meanwhile the lovers had left the alley and entered the big lightened street again. The emptiness that they left behind now seemed like a sad place in which something had gone astray beyond retrieval. According to his bitter face, my "partner" shared this impression.

"Now pipe down, Francis, before you say something rash."

Next to me, Antonio shot an awkward glance at me.

So I piped down. Because I seriously needed a break to stomach this unexpected turn. The thought of h.o.m.os.e.xual love amongst us guys nauseated me so much that I didn't only throw up my just eaten dinner but also my whole rhapsody of Rome. Of all things, why did I have to end up with someone like that? I thought. And how could guys enjoy something like that? In our modern sophisticated times it was bon ton to have a pretty laid back att.i.tude towards this very issue. Apparently, people didn't make a distinction between lovers of chocolate and lovers of this specialty. Only apparently though! In reality they secretly struggled to control their revulsion as much as needed in order to put up a brave front.

And I, being known as a true freethinker everywhere, how did I manage to change my revulsion into neutrality? Then suddenly, a spectacularly sensitive solution crossed my mind: taking a powder, screaming b.l.o.o.d.y murder!

"Et tu, Brute?" Antonio eventually said, in reference of my knowledge of Caesar having been murdered also by his best and closest friend Brutus. Saying that, his face wasn't boastful like someone who belongs to the politically correct camp, but deeply sad.

"Well, uhm, I believe, uhm, you jump at conclusions ..." I started.

"You don't need to keep talking, Francis! Or should I say keep lying?"

"Okay, smart a.s.s, you're absolutely right: I'm not a fan of such tight friendships. I frankly admit that. But at least I know now why you were abandoned."

Even though my imagination refused working when faced with love among guys, I was still able to picture the consequences it had caused. In my mind I saw the pithy Roman again. The man in front of the mirror wasn't just a ridiculous macho. Behind the chic suites and accessories hid bigotry and adamantine views on the right character of male s.e.xuality. That the guy was keeping a real felidae-adonis as his mascot was part of his sw.a.n.k, hunky self-display. (I could almost hear the jokes about Antonio's with velvet fuzz covered b.a.l.l.s at these terrific parties.) But just as long as the mascot played by the rules and, like his mirror image, dutifully performed the macho en miniature.

So while Signore had splashed expensive aftershave at his face and tried on cufflinks in front of the mirror, he hadn't just joked with his "little man". No, he had kept an eye on him, and probably his cigarillo had dropped out of his mouth and burned a hole into his shirt, when he saw which gender Antonio had chosen for his acquisitive desires. The whole thing didn't just seem disgusting and filthy too him, but like betrayal on their bromance. Mamma mia, my pet is gay! might have been his scream of terror. And with this scream he had dismembered the "little guys" in the middle of their flirtation, had grabbed Antonio by his neck and had given the pervert a permanent boot out of the door. Ever since Antonio had been homeless. Strange though, as my sweet Rome expert didn't look as if he lacked accommodation.

The a.n.a.lysis of this psychodrama had been pretty simple. But what about the drama inside my head? Wasn't I myself a macho like the guy in front of the mirror, who believed everything beyond his s.e.xual horizon to be filthy? d.a.m.n it, my actual plan had been discovering the hidden corners of this beautiful city instead of the unplumbed depths of my old head! So it came in handy that Antonio rose to speak again.

"Why, Francis, I guess you didn't think that the first Italian you meet will be queer, huh? No wonder, the world more and more becomes a village. And everything becomes alike, the humans, the animals, and not to forget the common intolerance, which seemed to have infected everyone like an evil illness. Maybe your stomachache lessens a little when I tell you that I didn't choose this. I was born this way. And I don't hurt anyone. And I'm proud of what I am!"

"In other words: I'm an uptight old fart, which would love to put guys like you into a concentration camp. Isn't that what you think?"

"No, but your implied disgust at h.o.m.os.e.xuality brings grist to the mills of those who would build such camps for my kind."

"Bulls.h.i.t, I'm just old-fashioned. And in terms of intolerance, look who's talking. It's everyone's right to nourish and cherish the most ridiculous prejudices, as long as he doesn't get on the wrong side of somebody. Didn't Kant say that? Or was that Woody Allen? Of course this generous consideration doesn't apply to the problematic matter of mice, I guess we are at one on this point!"

In Antonio's gored face the smooth smile showed up again and let the good old dandy return. I had a feeling that he got my point. That was very important. For the both of us. He might have made disappointing acquaintances often enough. But not one that would have made him forget how to enjoy himself. But this was different. Antonio liked me so much that it would break his heart if our new friendship died because of his confession. The same applied to me. But if you know think of the obvious, you're totally wrong. Antonio had no s.e.xual interest in me whatsoever. Aside from this delicate matter we were just tuned on the same wavelength.

"All right, il mio amico, go ahead and nourish and cherish your prejudice, while I think about how to cure you from them. It's late, Francis. After this fine dinner we should look for a suitable bed for the night."

"Do we need to sleep at the backdoor of some luxury hotel now because the people used to sleep behind the cardinals' churches?"

"Now, now Francis, you're in Rome, you will sleep in so many silk sheets that you will eventually long for a sleep on wet asphalt."

"I remember that slogan. Leftovers followed it. Anyway, the silk sheets don't sound too bad as long as I don't have to shave my legs for that, hahaha!"

"Well, that would fit our hostess just fabulously."

"Hostess? Isn't it like against your club's rules to hang out with chicks?"

"O Francis, you got to learn a lot about us. Has n.o.body told you that a gay guy's best friend is a woman?"

"Not yet. And by now I'm so tired that it wouldn't shock me if somebody told me that the Pope's best friend is Marilyn Manson!"

We stood up and shook ourselves, so that the heavy weight in our bellies got into the right position for the hike that lay ahead of us. I just wanted to start going, when Antonio suddenly cut me off. His beaming turquoise moons looked so deeply into my average eyes that in my matt condition I pretty much lost focus.

"Personal dispositions and opinions aside, Francis", he said insinuatingly. "You can totally rely on me. The both of us will shoot down this beast, I firmly believe in that."

"I don't just believe in that, I'm sure of that." I replied, broke away from his mesmerizing eyes and made my way through the darkness.