Bai Yaoyao lowered her head and said, "Don't you wish that it would be my first time?"
Actually, Bai Yaoyao felt really uncomfortable and embarra.s.sed when she was saying this. Her face had even turned red. However, she felt that since she was going to choose him, there were a lot of things she had to make clear.
Duan Yanhao was stunned for a moment. He hugged Bai Yaoyao tightly as his heart ached for her. "Yaoyao, love is pure, and it's all in the heart. Do you think I'm someone who will mind such a thing?"
"Whether you mind it or not, I still want to tell you."
"I know. In my eyes, you are the purest. You are also the most beautiful."
Hearing these words, Bai Yaoyao felt as if her ice-cold heart was almost melting. She knew that Duan Yanhao was a soldier and a man of few words and smiles, so it was very rare of him to say such things. She felt as if her whole body was basking in sunlight when she heard this.
The thick fog of her past dissipated with these words as well.
It was really nice that the person she met after going through that pain was Duan Yanhao.
Since the topic was brought up, Bai Yaoyao did not want to hide anything from Duan Yanhao anymore. She pulled him over to the chair beside her to sit down and started telling him about her past.
"I met him when we were in school. Back then, I was bright and carefree. The future was so uncertain then, but life was not complicated. I simply liked one person with all my heart and just wanted to treat him well. I was not calculative about my gains or losses. For him, I did many things that were really foolish in other people's eyes, but even so, I don't regret doing them. After all, I was madly in love during that time, and even after experiencing such love, I have no regrets…"
As Duan Yanhao listened, his heart ached. His grip on Bai Yaoyao's hand tightened as he used his big and strong hands to give her warmth and strength.
With Duan Yanhao by her side, she did not feel as sad as she had imagined when she recounted her bittersweet past. It felt as though she was just telling a story.
"In the very beginning, his first love left him, so my heart really ached for him. I thought to myself that if it was me, I would not care for any riches in the world. I felt that as long as I can be together with the person I love, I would be happy even if we led a simple life. I saw how desolated and lonely he was at that time, so I wanted to care for him silently… I prepared meals for him, knitted sweaters, bought him things, and even saved money for him… After that, he slowly changed when he sought after power… Actually, even until now, I still feel that I was always the one giving. Perhaps I have never been in his heart…"
Duan Yanhao almost could not bear to listen any further. He held onto Bai Yaoyao's hand tightly as he said seriously, "You have me. My heart is with you."
"Yeah, because of you, I don't feel sad when I talk about it anymore. It's like I'm just narrating someone else's story. Just take it as I'm telling you a story, okay?"
Bai Yaoyao smiled and continued. When she reached the end of her story, Duan Yanhao's eyes had reddened and were bloodshot. That was how much his heart ached for her.
When Bai Yaoyao was done talking about her past, she put on a strong smile and said, "Don't you think I'm such a fool?"
Duan Yanhao pressed Bai Yaoyao's head to his chest and kissed her hair as he said, "You're not a fool. You're too, too nice. The foolish one is someone else, which is good."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, he's foolish, that's why you ended up by my side instead."
Bai Yaoyao took a deep breath, inhaling the scent on Duan Yanhao's clothes. That scent was unique to Duan Yanhao—a dark, manly fragrance.
"Yanhao, you're the one who slowly healed my heart. If not for you, I might not have been able to recover on my own."