Chapter 257: The Real s.h.i.+ Qingzhou
Translator: Storm in a Teacup
All the a.s.sa.s.sins who entered the Song mansion were captured, and the âtreasureâ they mentioned was taken away by Liu and Ouyang.
s.h.i.+ seemed to have restrained himself and calmed down.
He went to meet Song Qingtian and Long was waiting for him outside.
After about an hour, s.h.i.+ came out of the Song mansion.
Long immediately went to him. âHow many casualties are there?â
s.h.i.+ said, âEighteen people died and more than twenty got injured.â
Long frowned. âSo many people died?â
s.h.i.+ did not speak.
Long sighed. âLetâs go back first.â
s.h.i.+ nodded. âMhmm.â
The two of them went back together. Long didnât walk very fast and s.h.i.+ was right behind him.
After a while, Long said gently, âQingzhou, youâve been out for a long time. Have you had breakfast and lunch?â
s.h.i.+ kept silent.
As Long took s.h.i.+âs hand, s.h.i.+ became a little stiff.
Long knew that his appearance made s.h.i.+ unhappy.
He also knew that his words were not the best answer.
But that was just the truth, even if sometimes it could really hurt people.
Long was willing to give s.h.i.+ all the best things. He was willing to give his lover everything in the world.
But blood and killing werenât what he wanted.
He didnât want the person he loved to lose himself.
s.h.i.+ could kill, but he shouldnât become like a devil.
That wasnât the real s.h.i.+ Qingzhou!
Just as the tyrant earlier wasnât the real Long Xiaoyuan!
Therefore, Long said that just now and he didnât regret it.
He believed that his empress would understand.
Their relations.h.i.+p needed to be maintained by both sides. No matter what s.h.i.+ became like, Long would still love him, but Long didnât want him to lose control and become a devil!
The two of them returned to the house hand in hand.
Long took s.h.i.+ to the pool and they squatted down.
âQingzhou, wash your hands.â
s.h.i.+ still kept silent as he washed his hands.
Long also did the same thing.
After a long time, he held s.h.i.+âs hand and stood up.
âLetâs go back to the room. Iâll order the servants to deliver the food.â
Without nodding or speaking, s.h.i.+ just followed silently.
Long took s.h.i.+ back to the room.
Then, they sat down at the table.
s.h.i.+ had been very silent. After the meal was sent there, Long kept putting food in s.h.i.+âs bowl as usual. s.h.i.+ dropped his eyes and ate the food. However, the atmosphere wasnât as relaxed as before.
The two of them finished eating without saying anything.
After that, Long ordered the servants to clean the table.
âLetâs go to rest. Qingzhou, you got up so early today. Go to take a nap.â
After thinking for a moment, s.h.i.+ didnât refuse.
They walked towards the bed hand in hand and Long took off s.h.i.+âs coat.
s.h.i.+ lowed his head and didnât stop Long.
Later, s.h.i.+ only had underwear on.
Long held s.h.i.+âs hand and they went to bed.
The two of them lay down side by side. s.h.i.+ closed his eyes, while Long turned his head and looked at him.
s.h.i.+ didnât open his eyes, but Long believed that s.h.i.+ must know he was looking at him.
After a long time, Long said softly, âQingzhou, do you blame me?â
s.h.i.+ didnât speak and he looked very relaxed, as if he had fallen asleep.
Long held s.h.i.+âs hand and pressed his body against s.h.i.+âs.
s.h.i.+ became a little stiff.
Long said gently, âQingzhou, youâll understand what I said. I believe youâll certainly understand.â
It seemed that s.h.i.+âs eyelids flickered, but they returned to normal soon.
âQingzhou, itâs not that I donât love you or I donât love you enough, but that I love you too much. Qingzhou, I love you so much that I donât want you to lose yourself for anyone or for any reason. You must remember who you are. Youâre s.h.i.+ Qingzhou. Take me as an example. I used to be a tyrant and no one liked me at that time. But I have changed. Qingzhou, you like me now, right? If I become cruel and ruthless again, I believe you will still like me and you wonât leave me until we die. Weâve promised each other. But Qingzhou, all people like nice things. Donât you think so? If thereâs a choice, youâd hope I can be still like this. In the past, I was a fatuous emperor and you were not the only person I liked. I also had many concubines around me.â
When he said the last few words, s.h.i.+ seemed to make an angry reaction.
Long knew that s.h.i.+ wasnât really asleep.
He knew s.h.i.+ heard what he had said.
s.h.i.+ reacted angrily because he heard Long mentioning those concubines.
s.h.i.+ didnât like those women, who had always been a thorn in his side.
Long kept trying to persuade s.h.i.+. He whispered more softly in s.h.i.+âs ear, âQingzhou, I know you donât want me to become that ruthless emperor again, because that man was different from me now⦠You like the present me, donât you? But you⦠Qingzhou, I love you. No matter what youâre like, Iâll always love you, because my feelings for you wonât change. But I donât want you to kill too many people and be stained with too much blood. Qingzhou, do you remember what I said in the past? Iâm afraid there will be karma. Iâm afraid there will be retribution. If one of us must kill and become like a devil, I hope that person is me. Qingzhou, did you forget what Iâve said?â
s.h.i.+âs body trembled slightly. Finally, he opened his eyes.
âQingzhou.â Long stared at s.h.i.+âs scarlet eyes. âI like your eyes, no matter what color they are. However, Iâm afraid that the color will become darker and darker. At that time, will you also want to kill me? I can accept your changes, but I canât accept it if you canât control yourself and lose your mind. In that case, will I still be the most important person in your heart? Qingzhou, do you understand? Iâm really worried.â
âLong Xiaoyuanâ¦â s.h.i.+ said hoa.r.s.ely, âYouâre worried that Iâll be possessed, arenât you?â
âYes, Iâm worried,â Long said gently.
s.h.i.+ shook his head slowly. âNo, Iâm sober. Even if Iâm possessed, Iâm still sober.â
âSoberâ¦â Long was stunned slightly. âSo⦠Qingzhou, you killed those people not because you lost control, but because⦠you really wanted to do that?â
âThatâs right.â The corners of s.h.i.+âs lips turned upward. âIâm very sober. Long Xiaoyuan, perhaps the poisonous insect really had a great influence on me in the past, but it had gradually weakened. This is just my nature. This is s.h.i.+ Qingzhou. This is what Iâm like. Do you understand?â
Long didnât know what s.h.i.+ said was true or not, so he became speechless.
âYou know Iâve been developing my own forces. Thatâs because I need to make preparations. In the past, you and I had a bad relations.h.i.+p and you didnât like s.h.i.+ family. I was afraid that you would kill my father, so I had the thought of⦠killing you. Long Xiaoyuan, you havenât done anything to hurt s.h.i.+ family, so it doesnât matter even if Iâm despised and humiliated by you. But if you hurt my family, I will surely kill you. This is me, the real s.h.i.+ Qingzhou.â
Long kept silent. He thought of that novel, in which s.h.i.+ really killed the emperor. Therefore, when he became the emperor, the first thing he did was to get close to s.h.i.+!
âLong Xiaoyuan, do you understand? This is the real me. The man you like is a fake. I cheated you. Iâm not as kind and gentle as you think. Am I wrong to kill my enemies?
Those b.a.s.t.a.r.ds deserve to be tortured and slaughtered! This is me, the real s.h.i.+ Qingzhou. Do you understand?â
Long was shocked and didnât know what to say.
s.h.i.+ pushed Long away and jumped from the bed. With his internal strength, he waved his hand and made his clothes fall on his body.
Later, s.h.i.+ stood beside the bed, looking down at Long.
âLong Xiaoyuan, that perfect lover is just your illusion. The real s.h.i.+ Qingzhou is like what you see now. You canât change me⦠and I donât want to change.â
After that, s.h.i.+ took a look at Long and then vanished without trace.
s.h.i.+ turned around and sadness filled his eyes. However, that was invisible to Long.
Long could no longer see his lover.
The next moment, Long suddenly sat up from the bed and wanted to chase s.h.i.+, but he felt powerless.
He thought he should first sort out his feelings for s.h.i.+.
Otherwise⦠he had an intuition that he couldnât get his lover back.
Perhaps, he really needed to think it overâ¦