Chapter 2969: Side story: I will never settle in this life (1)

I still like you very much. In the lonely city filled with smoke, surrounded by tens of thousands of soldiers, I will still come for you. Song Nan Mo.

I also thought about how my life would have been if I didnt meet you.

Perhaps it would have been very plain, living into my old age.

Facing a person that I couldnt say that I loved, but protecting them for the rest of my ordinary life.

But at a certain point, G.o.d shot a bright firework into my life.

They might not know how important this life was for me, but it had changed my life.

Actually, she and I were not destined.

A light would be loved and remembered by others.

Even if she was a maid, there was nothing that stopped her from s.h.i.+ning bright.

The richest and most powerful man in the world loved her, loving her to an obsessive level.

At that moment, I felt so disciplined and so insignificant.

I didnt love her less, but I could only accept my punishment and endure without a word.

I could die, but I couldnt give in.

That was mybottom line.

After being imprisoned, I thought about many things. How my mother and father were also matched together in the beginning. I heard that before my mother married my father, there was someone that she loved.

Although I heard rumours from my relatives, I could see that there was something missing when my mother looked at my father.

It was only a long time later reading my mothers suicide note that I realized that she already had someone that she loved, but she married my father because of family reasons.

There was an obsession in her heart, one that no one knew about.

But mother didnt expect that the two children she gave birth two wouldnt escape this fate.

First it was my big sister and then it was me.

I didnt know much about my sisters matters, I had only met Chi Heng once.

I didnt understand why my sister wouldnt listen to father and insisted on marrying Chi Heng.

If she could enter the palace, wouldnt you be able to enjoy your life in endless glory, wealth, and status?

YesThat was who I was at that time, how ridiculous.

What use was glory, status, and wealth?

If I could be with the one that I loved, even if it was living in seclusion in the mountains, even if it was working all day and night, I would be happy.

Of course, that realization came a bit too late.

I always regretted that the fate between us was a bit lacking. If I had a crush on you first, then it wouldnt have believed in love at first sight.

In the imperial gardens, my heart throbbed.

The me at the time didnt understand that throbbing. As soon as I thought about it, I said that you were a maid of my sisters palace and went with the flow.

I never thought that I would be such a person, calculating things like this.

She often said that I was disciplined and cautious, but I wasnt this kind of person.

ActuallyI cared about things more than she thought, but she didnt know.

The first time that I talked to her was because of my sisters childs death. Actually, I had felt that something was wrong at first, but I couldnt explain why.

There were many times where I didnt dare look into her eyes or get too close. I was always afraid that my heart beating fast would be heard by her in the silent night.

That heart seemed to be telling her how much I loved her.