"I didn't--The last letter wasn't like the first," she said, incoherently, but it seemed he understood.
"I knew you were _you_ as soon as I saw you," he said, idiotically.
"And," she murmured, as they walked perforce to meet the people coming toward them down the drive, "after all, you _were_ Christopher!"
THE WRONG DOOR
BY FRANCIS WILLING WHARTON
The stairs were long and dark; they seemed to stretch an interminable length, and she was too tired to notice the soft carpet and wonder why Mrs. Wilson had departed from her iron-clad rules and for once considered the comfort of her lodgers. The rail of the banisters lay cold but supporting under the pressure of her weary hand, and, at her own door at last, she fitted the key in the lock. Something was wrong; it would not turn; she drew it out and tried the handle. The door opened, and entering, she stood rooted to the spot.
Had her poor little room doubled its size and trebled its furniture? Her imagination, always active, for one wild moment suggested that old Grandaunt Crosbie from over the seas had remembered her poor relatives and worked the miracle; she always had Grandaunt Crosbie as a possible trump in the hand of fate. And then the dull reality shattered her foolish castle--she was in the wrong room. All this comfort had a legitimate possessor, whose Aunt Crosbie did her proper part in life.
She walked mechanically to a window and looked down; yes, there was the bleak yard she usually found below her, four houses off; she had come into the wrong door, and now to retrace her useless steps.
She paused a moment, and slowly revolving, made bitter inventory of the charming interior. Soft, bright stuffs at the windows, on the chairs; pictures; books; flowers even; a big bunch of holly on the mantelpiece.
A sitting-room--no obnoxious bed behind an inadequate screen, no horrid white china pitcher in full view! What woman owned all this? She stared about for characteristic traces. No sewing! Pipes! It belonged to a man.
She must go. She moved toward the door, and dropped her eyes on the little hard-coal fire in the grate; it tempted her, and, with a sort of defiance, she moved over to it and warmed her chilled fingers. A piano, too, and not to teach children on! To play upon, to enjoy! When was her time to come? Every dog has his day! Where was hers? Here some man was surrounded with comforts and pleasures, and she slaved all day at her teaching, and came home at night tired, cold, to a miserable little half-furnished room--alone.
Resting her arms on the mantelpiece, she dropped her face a moment on them and rebelled, kicking hard against the p.r.i.c.ks; and sunk in that profitless occupation, heard vaguely the sound of rapid steps and suddenly realized what they might mean.
She straightened her young form and stared, fascinated, at the door.
Good heavens! What should she do? What should she say? If she appeared confused, she would be thought a thief; she must have some excuse: she had come--to--find a lady--was waiting! She sank into a little chair and tried not to tremble visibly to the most un.o.bservant eye, and the door opened, shut, and the owner of the room stood before her.
"How do you do?" said Amory, and coming forward, he shook hands warmly.
"Please forgive me for being late, but I could not get away a moment before. Where" he looked about the room--"where is Mrs. White?"
The girl had risen nervously, and stood with her fingers clasped, looking at him; she answered, stammering, "She--I--she--couldn't come."
"Couldn't come?" repeated the young man. "I'm awfully sorry. Do sit down."
She still stood, holding to the back of her chair. "She said she would come if she could, and I was to--but I had better go."
Amory laughed. "Not a bit of it. Now I've got you, I sha'n't let you go.
It was very brave of you to come alone. You know brothers-in-law are presumptuous sometimes." He smiled down into the soft, shy, dark eyes raised to his, and looked at his watch. "You must have waited a half-hour; I said four o'clock. I'm so sorry."
Her eyes dropped. "I was late, too," she answered, and felt a horrible weight lifted from her. (They surely could not be coming; she could go in a moment; he would never know until she was beyond his reach. But she reckoned without her host.)
"Draw up to the fire," he began, and wheeled up a big armchair, and gently made her sit in it. "Put your feet on the fender and let's have a long talk. You know I sha'n't see you before the wedding, and I'd like to know something of my brother's wife. Tom said I must see you once before you and he got off to Paris, and I may not be able to get West for the wedding; so this is the one chance I shall have." He drew his chair near, and looked down at her with friendly, pleasant eyes.
She must say something. She rested her head on the high back of her chair, and felt a sensation of bewildered happiness. It was dangerous; she must get away in a moment; but for a moment she might surely enjoy this extraordinary situation that fortune had thrust upon her--the charm of the room, the warmth, and something more wonderful still--companionship. She looked at him; she must say something.
"You think you can't come to the wedding?" she said, and blushed.
Amory shook his head. "I'm afraid not, though of course I shall try.
Now"--he stared gravely at her--"now tell me how you came to know Tom and why you like him. I wonder if it is for my reasons or ones of your own."
He was surprised by the deep blush which answered his words. What a wonderful wild-rose color on her rather pale cheek!
"Don't you think it very warm in here?" said the girl.
Amory got up, and going to the window, opened it a little; then, stopping at his desk, picked up a note and brought it to the fire.
"Why, here is a note from Mrs. White," he said. "Why didn't you tell me?"
She had risen, and laid her hand an instant on his arm. "Don't open it--yet," she said. Her desperation lent her invention; just in this one way he must not find her out. She gave him a look, half arch, half pleading. "I'll explain later," she said.
Amory felt a stir of most unnecessary emotion; he understood Tom.
"Of course," he said, dropping it on the mantelpiece,--"just as you like. Now let's go back to Tom. You see,"--he sat down, and tipping his chair a little, gave her a rather curious smile,--"Tom and I have been enigmas to each other always, deeply attached and hopelessly incomprehensible, and I had my own ideas of what Tom would marry--and--you are not it;--not in the least!" He leant forward and brought his puzzled gaze to bear upon her.
She settled deeply into her chair, half to get farther away from those searching gray eyes, half because she was taking terrible risks, and she might as well enjoy it; the chair was so comfortable, and the fire so cheerful, and Amory--it occurred to her with a sort of exhilaration what it would be to please him. She had pleased other people, why not him?
Her lids drooped; she looked down at her shabby gloves.
"What did you expect?" she said.
He leant back and laughed. "What did I expect? Well, frankly, a silly little blond thing, all curls and furbelows!"
She raised those heavy lids of hers and gazed straight at him. "Was that Tom's description?" she asked, and raised her eyebrows. They were delicately pencilled, and Amory watched her and noted them.
"No," he answered; "he didn't describe you, but I thought that was his taste. Now, you are neither silly nor little; no blonde; you have no curls and no furbelows. In fact"--he smiled with something delightfully intimate in his eyes--"in fact, you are much more the kind of girl _I_ should like to marry."
It gave her an absurd little thrill. She sat up, rebellious. "If _I_ would have liked you," she returned.
Amory laughed and put his hands in his pockets. "Of course," he said; "but you would, you know!"
"Why?" she demanded, opening her eyes very wide; and again he inwardly complimented her on her eyebrows, and above them her hair grew in a charming line on her forehead. The little points are all pretty, he thought, and it is the details that count in the long run. How much one could grow to dislike blurry eyebrows and ugly ears, even if a woman had rosy cheeks and golden hair!
"Why? Because I should bully you into it. I'm an obstinate kind of creature, and get things by hanging on. Women give in if you worry them long enough. But tell me more about Tom," he went on. "Did he dance and shoot his way into your heart? I wish I'd been there to see! You take a very bad tintype, by the way. Tom sent me that." He got up, and taking a picture from the mantelpiece, tossed it into her lap, and leaning over the back of her chair, looked down on it. "Have you a sentiment about it?" he added, smiling. "It does look like Tom."
She held it and gravely studied it. She colored, and, still looking at the picture, felt her way suddenly open. "Yes, it does look like him,"
she said, and putting it down, leant forward and looked into the fire.
"Do you want to know why I accepted Tom?" she added, slowly. She was fully launched on a career of deception now, and felt a desperate exultation.
Amory stared at her and nodded.
She kept her eyes on the fire. "I wanted--a home."
Amory sat motionless, then spoke. "Why--why, weren't you happy with your aunt and uncle?"
She shook her head. "No; and Tom was good and kind and very--"
Amory got up and shook himself. "Oh, but that's an awful mistake," he said.