Slowly she walked on, still supported by Constance, to the library door. When it was opened, and she saw Lashmar awaiting her within (he had pa.s.sed into the library by the inner door which communicated with the drawing-room), she spoke of her companion.
"Thank you, Constance. If I don't come, sit down with the others. I hope your meal will not be disturbed, but I may have to send for you."
"Lady Ogram--"
Constance began in a low, nervous voice. She was looking at Lashmar, who, with an air of constraint, moved towards them.
"What is it?"
"Will you let me speak to you for a moment before--"
"No!"
With this stern monosyllable, Lady Ogram dismissed her, entered the room, and closed the door.
Then her face changed. A smile, which was more than half a grin of pain, responded to Lashmar's effusive salutation; but she spoke not a word, and, when she had sunk into the nearest chair, her eyes, from beneath drooping lids, searched the man's countenance.
"Sit down," were her first words.
Lashmar, convinced that Constance Bride had sought to avenge herself, tried to screw up his courage. He looked very serious; he sat stiffly; he kept his eye upon Lady Ogram's.
"Well, what have you to tell me?" she asked, with a deliberation more disconcerting than impatience would have been.
"Everything goes on pretty well--"
"Does it? I'm glad you think so."
"What do you allude to, Lady Ogram?" Lashmar inquired with grave respectfulness.
"What do _you_?"
"I was speaking of things at Hollingford."
"And I was thinking of things at Rivenoak."
Lashmar's brain worked feverishly. What did she know? If Constance had betrayed him, a.s.suredly May also must have been put to the question, and with what result? He was spared long conjecture.
"Let us understand each other," said the autocrat, who seemed to be recovering strength as the need arose. "I hear that you want to break off with Constance Bride. She is no bride for you. Is that the case?"
"I am sorry to say it is the truth, Lady Ogram."
Having uttered these words, Dyce felt the heroic mood begin to stir in him. He had no alternative now, and would prove himself equal to the great occasion.
"You want to marry someone else?"
"I'm sure you will recognise," Lashmar replied, in his academic tone, "that I am doing my best to act honourably, and without giving any unnecessary pain. Under certain circ.u.mstances, a man is not entirely master of himself--"
There sounded the luncheon bell. It rang a vague hope to Lashmar, whose voice dropped.
"Are you hungry?" asked the hostess, with impatience.
"Not particularly, thank you."
"Then I think we had better get our little talk over and done with. We shan't keep the others waiting."
Dyce accepted this as a good omen. "Our little talk!" He had not dreamt of such urbanity. Here was the result of courage and honesty. Evidently his bearing had made a good impression upon the old despot. He began to look cheerful.
"Nothing could please me better."
"Go on, then," said Lady Ogram, drily. "You were saying--"
"I wish to use complete frankness with you," Dyce resumed. "As I think you know, I always prefer the simple, natural way of looking at things.
So, for instance, in my relations with women I have always aimed at fair and candid behaviour; I have tried to treat women as they themselves, justly enough, wish to be treated, without affectation, without insincerity. Constance knew my views, and she approved them.
When our friendship developed into an engagement of marriage, we both of us regarded the step in a purely reasonable light; we did not try to deceive ourselves, and, less still, to deceive each other. But a man cannot always gauge his nature. To use the common phrase, I did not think I should ever fall in love; yet that happened to me, suddenly, unmistakably. What course had I to follow? Obviously I must act on my own principles; I must be straightforward, simple, candid. As soon as my mind was made up, I came to Constance."
He broke off, observed the listener's face, and added with an insinuating smile:
"There was the _other_ course--what is called the unselfish, the heroic. Unfortunately, heroism of that kind is only another name for deliberate falsehood, in word and deed, and I confess I hadn't the courage for it. Unselfishness which means calculated deception seems to me by no means admirable. It was not an easy thing to go to Constance, and tell her what I had to tell; but I know that she herself would much prefer it to the sham-n.o.ble alternative. And I am equally sure, Lady Ogram, what your own view will be of the choice that lay before me."
The listener made no sort of response to this appeal. "And what had Constance to say to you?" she asked. Lashmar hesitated, his embarra.s.sment half genuine, half feigned.
"Here," he replied, in a thoughtfully suspended voice, "I find myself on very delicate ground. I hardly feel that I should be justified in repeating what pa.s.sed between us. I hoped you had already heard it. Was it not from Constance that you learnt--?"
"Don't begin to question _me_," broke in Lady Ogram, with sudden severity. "What I know, and how I know it, is none of your business.
You'll have the goodness to tell me whatever I ask you."
Dyce made a gesture of deprecating frankness.
"Personally," he said in a low voice, "I admit your right to be kept fully informed of all that comes to pa.s.s in this connection. Will it be enough if I say that Constance accepted my view of what had happened?"
"Did you tell her everything that _had_ happened?" asked Lady Ogram, looking him in the eyes.
"Not in detail," Dyce replied, rather nervously, for he could not with certainty interpret that stern look. "You will understand that--that I was not at liberty--that I had to respect--"
He came near to losing himself between the conflicting suggestions of prudence and hopefulness. At the sight of his confusion, Lady Ogram smiled grimly.
"You mean," she said, in a voice which seemed to croak indulgence, "that you had no right to tell Constance anything about Miss Tomalin?"
Lashmar's courage revived. He suspected that the old autocrat knew everything, that both girls had already gone through the ordeal of a private interview with her, and had yielded up their secrets. If so, plainly the worst was over, and nothing would now serve but sincerity.
"That is what I mean," he answered, quietly and respectfully, admiring his own dignity as he spoke.
"We are beginning to understand each other," said Lady Ogram, the grim smile still on her face. "I don't mind telling you, now, that I have spoken both with Constance and with May."
Lashmar manifested his relief. He moved into an easier posture; his countenance brightened; he said within himself that destiny was hearing him on to glorious things.
"I'm very glad indeed to hear that, Lady Ogram! It ruts my mind at rest."