Here! I'll throw my uncle, his fortune and favor, and all the hopes and ambitions of my life to the winds, and stay here, and bill and coo, all the rest of my life. If I can't go in peace I won't go at all."
She lifted her head as if he had struck her. Something in his tone, in his words, in his face, dried her tears effectually, at once and forever.
"I beg your pardon, Laurence," she said, suddenly, in an altered voice.
"I won't cry any more. Shall I go and pack your valise now or leave it until to-morrow morning?"
He glanced at her uneasily. The dark, soft eyes looked far away seaward, the delicate lips had ceased to tremble, the small handsome face had grown resolutely still. What manner of woman he wondered, was this girl going to make?
"Norine! You are not offended?"
"Offended--with you, Laurence? No, that is not possible."
"You love me so much, Norine?"
"I have given you proof whether I love you or no. I am your wife."
"Yes, of course, of course!" hastily; "but Norine--see here--suppose in the future I did some great wrong--deserted you for instance--no, no!
don't look at me like that--this is only a suppositious case, you know!"
The large dark eyes were fixed full upon him. He laughed in rather a flurried way, and his own shifted and fell.
"Go on," she said.
"Suppose I deserted you, and it was in your power to take revenge, you would hate me and take it--would you not?"
Into the dark, tender eyes there leaped a light--into the youthful, gentle face there came a glow--around the soft-cut, childlike mouth there settled an expression entirely new to Laurence Thorndyke. One little hand clenched unconsciously--she caught her breath for a second, hard.
"Yes," she said, "I would!"
The answer staggered him--literally and truly staggered him. He had not expected it--he had looked for some outbreak of love, some tender, passionate protest.
"Norine!" he cried, "you would! Do you know what you are saying? You would hate me, and ruin me for life if you could?"
She looked at him full.
"If you deserted me, would you not hate me? Would I not be ruined for life? And does not the Book of books say: 'An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, a life for a life.' Yes, Laurence--if I did not go mad and die, I would hate you more then I love you now, and be revenged if I could!"
Then there was a silence. He had grown pale as herself, and stood quite motionless looking at the sea. He knew what he had to expect at last.
Norine was still clinging to his arm. He disengaged it abruptly, and without a word or look, walked away from her. A moment she stood--then two little hands clasped the arm once more, a pleading voice spoke, and the sweet, tender face of Norine looked imploringly up at him.
"Laurence--dearest Laurence! I have angered you again. But you asked me a question and I had to answer it. Forgive me."
He turned away from her resolutely.
"There is no forgiveness needed, Norine. I admire your truthful and plain-spoken spirit. Only you see I thought Norine Bourdon a loving, gentle, forgiving little soul, who cared for me so much that she was ready to forgive me seventy-times-seven, and I find, according to her own showing, she is a strong-minded woman, ready to wreak vengeance for the first wrong done her--ready for love or hatred at a moment's notice.
It is well you told me--it is always best to understand one another. No, we won't have any tender scenes, if you please, Mrs. Laurence--I have found out exactly what they are worth." He pulled out his watch. "I have business over in Boston, and as it is growing late I will be off at once. If I am very late--as is likely--I must beg you will not sit up for me. Good-afternoon."
He lifted his hat ceremoniously, as to an indifferent acquaintance, and walked deliberately away.
She stood stock still where he had left her, and watched the tall, active figure out of sight. Then she sat down, feeling suddenly weak and faint, and lay back against the green mound. For a moment sea, and sky, and sands swam before her in a hot mist, and then the faintness passed away, leaving her tearless and trembling.
What did he mean?
He had talked of deserting her? Did he mean it? A hand of ice seemed to clutch her heart at the thought. No no, no! he had only been trying her--proving what her love was worth. And she had answered him like that she would hate him and be revenged. He had called her a "strong-minded woman,"--a term of bitter reproach--and no wonder. No wonder he was angry, hurt, outraged. Why had she said such a horrible thing? She hardly knew herself--the words seemed to have come to her instinctively.
Were they true? She did know that either--just now she knew nothing but that Laurence had left her in anger for the first time, that he would probably not return until to-morrow morning, the fateful to-morrow that was to take him from her for--how long?
She broke down then, and laying her face against the soft, cool grass, gave way to a storm of impassioned weeping, that shook her like a reed.
"The strong-minded woman" was gone, and only a child that had done wrong and is sorry--a weak girl weeping for her lost lover, remained.
The afternoon waned, the twilight fell, the wind arose chilly from the sea. And pallid as a spirit, shivering in the damp air, silent and spiritless, the younger Miss Waddle found her when she came to call her in to supper.
She drank her tea thirstily, but she could eat nothing. Immediately after the lonely meal, she hastened to her room, and throwing a shawl around her, sat down in the easy chair by the window to watch and wait.
He had told her not to sit up for him--it would annoy him probably to be disobeyed, but she could not go to bed, for in the darkness and the quiet, lying down, she knew how she would toss wakefully about until she had thought herself into a fever.
Night fell. Outside the sea spread black, away until it melted into the blacker sky. The wind sighed fitfully, the stars shone frostily bright.
Inside, the little piano in the parlor, played upon by the elder Miss Waddle, after her day's teaching, made merry music. In the intervals, when it was silent, the younger Miss Waddle read chapters aloud from her latest novel. Ten, eleven struck, then the parlor lights went out, doors were locked, and the Misses Waddle went up stairs to their maiden slumbers.
The pale little watcher by the window sat on, hoping against hope. He might come, and be it late or early she must be awake and waiting, to throw herself into his manly arms and implore his lordly pardon. She could never sleep more until she had sobbed out her penitence and been forgiven. But the long, dark, dragging, lonely hours wore on. One, two, three, four, and the little, white, sad face lay against the cold glass, the dark, mournful eyes strained themselves through the murky gloom to catch the first glimpse of their idol. Five! the cold gray dawn of another day crept over sea and woodland, and worn out with watching, chilled to the bone, the child's head fell back, the heavy eyelids swayed and drooped, and she lay still.
So, when two hours later Mr. Laurence Thorndyke, smelling stronger than ever of cigars and brandy, as the younger Miss Waddle's disgusted nose testified, came into the silent chamber, he found her. The pretty head, with all its dark, rippling ringlets, lay against the back of the chair, the small face looked deathly in its spent sleep. She had watched and waited for him here all night. And remembering how, over the card table and the wine bottle, his night had been passed, utterly forgetful of her, the first pang of real unselfish remorse this young gentleman had ever felt, came to him then.
"Poor little heart!" he thought; "poor little, pretty Norine. I wish to Heaven I had never heard of Gilbert's projected marriage--I wish I had never gone back to Kent Farm."
Five hours later, and white and tearless, Norine is clinging to him in the speechless pain of parting. Is there some presentiment, that she herself cannot understand, even now in her heart, that it is forever?
"Don't--_don't_ look so white and wild, Norry," he is saying hurriedly.
"I wish, I wish I need not leave you. Little one--little Norry, whatever happens, you--you'll try and forgive me, won't you? Don't hate me if you can help it."
She does not understand him--she just clings to him, as though death were easier than to let him go.
"Time's up, Mr. Laurence!" calls out the sharp voice of little Mr.
Liston, sitting in the light wagon at the door; "if you linger five minutes more we'll lose our train."
"Good-by, Norine--good-by!"
He is glad to be called, glad to break away from the gentle arms that would hold him there forever. He kisses her hurriedly, frees himself from her clasp, and leaves her standing stricken and speechless in the middle of the floor.
"Thank Heaven that's over!" he says, almost savagely, "drive like the devil, Liston! I won't breath freely until I am out of sight of the house."
Mr. Liston obeys.
She stands where he has left her, rigid, tearless, white, listening to the rapid roll of the wheels over the gravel, over the road, growing faint and fainter, and dying out far off. Then she sinks down, and she and her lover have parted forever.
CHAPTER XII.