After I shouted that I had a lot of friends, there were about 3 minutes of silence. I realized, at that moment, that a wealth of friends was the stupidest thing to claim.

The three servants, who must have had much to say, closed their mouths as if they tasted something sour; I felt embarrassed and angry.

Eventually, I bowed my head and muttered, After becoming a User I couldnt keep in contact because I was too busy.

However, I felt a bit uncomfortable even as I said that.

Though I wasnt in quite a comfortable environment, as soon as I became a user, my classmates soon repaid their alcohol debts to me and called me to outings. Many people also bought me meals to congratulate me.

I honestly wondered if I could call him a friend, but I didnt want to admit that I was a loser. So, I swallowed the truthful words that threatened to spill out. Instead, I rambled about my honest feelings about Ki-seok as if I were justifying myself. Also Han Ki-seok Honestly, its true that Im a pushover.

But that guy, he wasnt bad every day. He treated me well sometimes. As I spoke, I naturally remembered the past.

Han Ki-seok was my seatmate when I transferred into the school. When everything was unfamiliar and I felt anxious, he offered to eat lunch together and said that his home was in the same direction as mine and walked to and fro with me.

In addition, at that time my parents used to yell at each other that they wanted to divorce; I had to run out and escape because I had no desire to hear their marital discordtheir shouting and swearsin that small house.

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My parents, who both contributed to the household income, usually came back late at night and quarreled until dawn. So, I was used to walking the streets at night alone. Then, Han Ki-seok found me sitting on a park bench.

At that time, we werent even close, but Han Ki-seok called out to me without passing by, asking what I was doing and leading me to a convenience store. Lets eat some ramen, he said. Like that, I played around with him until 2 am until I could return to a tranquil house.

And the next day, I called Han Ki-seok in the middle of the night without any expectations. When I asked, Do you want to hang? he simply responded, What do you want to do? And, when I mumbled and couldnt answer easily, he didnt interrogate me and still came out candidly. Like the day before, we went to the convenience store and ate an onigiri and played games for an hour in a PC room 1 owned by an older boy he knew.

The next daythe day after thatfrom then on, Han Ki-seok came out without another word whenever I called him. He stayed with me for hours until we parted at around 2 to 3 am.

It was natural to become obsessed with someone who would, during your darkest moments, come to the playground in front of your house without a hint of dissatisfaction and stay with you until dawn. Now that I think about it, I couldnt tell if I truly liked Han Ki-seok or whether I was too lonely to endure life without him.

However, after I started to think I wanted to date him and he noticed those feelings, it became a problem. Han Ki-seok was always quick-witted so he had already guessed how I felt even though I hadnt confessed. I had found out later when I happened to eavesdrop on him.

It was a real shock at the time. There were times when Han Ki-seok was overly harsh to me, but to find out that was because he knew I liked him

So, I blamed myself a lot afterwards. I criticized myselfwhat a fool who made the only friend I had uncomfortable with my unwanted feelings. To be honest, later I realized that Han Ki-seok, who could have just rejected me, was worse. But, back then, I had believed it was all my fault.

I couldnt cut off relations with Han Ki-seok right after I found out that he actually disliked me. I couldnt even show my hurt in front of the other, and he was free to swing me around as much as he wished whenever he called me to his side.

Later, after Han Ki-seok became a User and stopped contacting me, I was able to do some self-reflection, but, simultaneously, depression settled within me deeply. After recovering to some extent, I thought I should organize my interpersonal connections for my own self-esteem. At first, I swore that Han Ki-seok was trash and blocked his number, though he would have never called me anyway. With vengeance, I had childishly imagined, Ill succeed and make you regret everything!

However, none of that put me at peace. As if a knife were cutting into me, it was always on my mind like something I couldnt let go of. Eventually, I decided to admit to myself that Han Ki-seok was once good to me and he was the person I needed at that time. It was true that I staved off my loneliness with the fulfilling warmth he exuded. I forgave him one-sidedly just to throw away this hurt.

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.Thats what happened. But, when I tried to speak these words into reality, there were too many emotions that were hard to explain. The story came out as rambling; it was a bit hard to understand.

However, it was hard to stand the annoying looks the servants were adopting. In the end, I asked in an impatient tone, Whats with those pitying looks?

Then, Jung Garam replied in an impudent tone, as if he was waiting for a chance to speak, I was just feeling sorry for the Choi Lee-kyung who believed that the other was a friend even though he was being robbed of a lot of money.

It wasnt that I believed it, its justHaah. Its fine. Really.

To be honest, I didnt think anyone would understand no matter how eloquently I spoke. In particular, these Red Lotus guys, whove lost their lives due to Bae Jaemins betrayal, probably wouldnt understand how I dont hate him or actively search for revenge. In that context, their frustrated faces were understandable.

You cant hate him just because he was kind to you just a few times

Han Ki-seok is simply just a nasty guy. He may have been nice a few times, but his affection was fickle. You shouldnt have to hesitate to cut him out. Ive seen a lot of bullies like him. Following Jung Garam, Kim Olim also made her statements. She shook her headit seemed as if she was thinking of my feelings.

Unexpectedly, Kim Olim didnt criticize me and said, Well, it seems like you dont really need my advice if you havent contacted him yet.

Then, she reached out and stroked my heada rare gesture from her. Is this her version of consolation? I couldnt avoid it, so I stared at her a bit awkwardly

Dont pretend to be cute. A full grown adult shouldnt have that expressionits too much. She said, rapidly taking her hand off when our eyes met.

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When did I act cute though?? I was bewildered, but I couldnt even complain because Kim Olim had such a serious expression.

Seo Dawon, who watched over us, smiled and opened his mouth, trying to clean up the situation. If youre done eating, shall we go back to what we were discussing yesterday?

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Afterwards, the table was quickly cleaned, and the traitors profiles were placed on top. Among them, there were some faces I knewa few I saw through the [Vengeful Ghosts Memories] and a few I saw with Bae Jaemin, and there were some faces I didnt recognize.

Those who worked in the Red Lotus guild or those the guild members personally knew were marked in red. Most impressively, Koo Kyungmans profile was greyed out. Was that because hes already been dealt with? Anyways, I shook my head, trying to shake away the memories of when I last saw him.

Following Koo Kyungman was the person named [Park Hoseok]. When I saw his brutal impression exuded by the photo, I had thought I had seen him somewhere.

It turned out that Park Hoseok was one of the party members accompanying Bae Jaemin at the department store. So I knew that his face was familiar, but It wasnt that I knew this face well, but I felt like weve talked about Park Hoseok before, somehow.

However, I didnt have much time to dig into this contradiction. The servants were busily engrossed in plotting out traps to catch the traitors, sharing data and the speculations that they had been investigatingThe strange feeling felt insignificant, so I started paying attention to what they were saying without further lingering thoughts.

In Park Hoseoks profile, we should pay attention to his career path. After [Red Lotuss] execution, he moved to [Red Dragon] and is now an executive of [Ha Hae]. And, strangely enough, the fact that hes the owner of [Gae Bolg] is not publicly well-known information.

TL: Short update while Im in between classes. I hope youve enjoyed the back-to-back 3 chapters! Ill probably have a more erratic schedule after this (for example, next update will be in 2-3 days) Because Ive started a new semester of grad school already and am teaching the introductory class of my department >.< 30 baby undergrads!!

In some ways, this chapter was both relaxing and hard to translate because it was so easy to relate to Lee-kyung. I cant help but feel that ultimately deciding that Ki-seok was someone who was once good to me and that he needed him at the time before forgiving both himself and the other was an emotionally mature thing to do.

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