"So, what am I supposed to do?" Robbie looked at me with eyes full of disdain.
"It-it is" I got choked on my words. I didn't know what to say. He is going to totally overlook what happened between us? He is not going to acknowledge this child which is his too. Am I seriously going to be thrown off like some garbage.
"It what?" he asked in a steely voice, his grey eyes sharp enough to cut through iron.
The voice terrified me. I couldn't answer. I was tongue tied. Why on earth am I such a coward? d.a.m.nit! Why did I ever submitted myself to him? I am such a fool. I knew he was just a player and still...What should I do now? I am only 17. My family has already abandoned me and now him too.
Why is the world so unfair? What kind of crime did I commit to suffer through this? My eyes were stinging with tears which were welling up in my eyes. The pain and sorrow was choking me. I can't speak. I don't wanna see his face. I don't want to see anyone anymore.
d.a.m.nit! d.a.m.nit all!
I turned around to dash out but then I heard a voice speak to me in a mocking tone
"What happened? You came to beg for money. Why are you running off now? Too ashamed to ask for it? Don't worry, I don't mind giving it to you. Get an abortion. Don't push this headache on me"
What?
Money? What will I do with his filthy money?
Will his money stop the mouth which are going to chatter around claiming me to be some sort of man wh.o.r.e?
Will those digusting notes turn my life back to a normal one?
Will those nasty cash give me the treatment I deserve as a human?
It was so funny that all this Alphas think that throwing money could solve everything.
I couldn't take it anymore. I let the tears fall freely down my cheeks dropping on my t-s.h.i.+rt. I started laughing. I wondered if I have lost my mind.
I saw Robbie's expression change. His grey eyes showed surprise. He asked me in astonishment
"Have you lost it?"
"I guess I have" I laughed out trying to hold back the bitterness I felt deep down, "It is funny to see that you think those bund of notes will mend my life. Ha ha hahaha"
I continued laughing. It hurts. It hurts so bad that I could have killed myself. I saw Robbie's smooth face grimace like he was the one in pain. How utterly funny! He will lose nothing after destroying my life. He will continue having his family, money, reputation, and hundreds of suitors for him. And me? Ha ha ha...What a stark contrast!
I looked at Robbie straight in the eyes. He had his teeth gritted and was looking at me with some complex emotion that I couldn't comprehend with my current mental state. His image was blurring in front of me as I stared.
I smiled. It had to be the most painful smile I ever gave
"Your money could buy you every luxury in the world Robbie. But you see, I AM NOT FOR SALE. You can keep those filthy money to yourself. I don't need a share. Maybe, in future it will buy you love too"
I turned around and left. I didn't want to see his face again. I didn't want anything anymore. I just want to get away from this town. Go where I don't have to meet my past again.
That day, I decided to be stronger for myself and my baby. I won't bow down to this miserable fate of mine. I will fight to the bitter end!