Didn't I?

Chris. Mark. Jason.

Chris. Mark. Jason.

They're beating a rhythm through my brain with every stroke. Freestyle isn't working. I need something harder, so I jump out of the pool, turn, and dive straight back in, attempting a fresh start with the butterfly, the hardest stroke, but also my favorite. This time, as I slice into the water with a perfect shallow dive, my mind goes straight to Dad. The summer I was five, he'd spent weeks teaching me the perfect technique for diving. Dad was always a great teacher. Tough, but patient. While most kids were getting a round of applause for a clumsy belly flop, Dad was standing next to me on the deck, demonstrating how I should bend my knees, how to tuck my head between my arms. He taught me to swim, too, when I was even younger than that. Sure, he let me flail for a second, but I never doubted that his firm hand would reach down and pluck me out of the water by my swimsuit as I gasped and spit. Dad would never let anything bad happen to me.

Instead, something bad happened to him.

My muscles burn as I pull myself through the lap lane, thinking about how fast he got sick. In my memory he was strong and healthy until the moment he wasn't. I remember visiting him in the hospital exactly one time. And even unshaven and pale, he still looked like a force. Like he could reach in and pull me out of whatever trouble I might find myself in. I don't remember much of the funeral-I was only seven-just the American flag draped over the casket, men in their dress uniforms everywhere, and the twenty-one-gun salute.

I count out twenty-one strokes down the lane, then pull myself straight onto the deck of the pool. Drops of water shake off my face, so no one would be able to tell that I'm crying. If I don't calm down now, it'll be only moments before I'm gasping for breath, my muscled shoulders shaking with tears. Most of the time the pool is my oasis, but sometimes when the memories creep in, it crushes me.

I clearly need help, and I only know one person with all the information to counsel me.

I take a few deep breaths while toweling off, then head back to my room, where I flip open my laptop and dial up Phoebe on Skype. She clicks in immediately. Her smiling face fills most of the screen, and I see she's wearing her favorite shirt, a commemorative tee from the release of the long-forgotten '90s flop Dick Tracy. The pumpkin-colored walls of her bedroom, dotted with various artwork purchased from Etsy, appear behind her. The sight of the whole tableau makes me feel the tug of homesickness. I have to concentrate for a moment to keep those tears at bay.

"Cheerio!" she says in a bright Mary Poppins accent, her cheerful mood chirping through my laptop speaker. "I was wondering when I'd hear from you again! Your last text was a little garbled."

"Oh yeah," I say, thinking back to my last drunken message to Phoebe. "Texts will be a little few and far between. In a single day Evie apparently racked up a bajillion dollars sending out tweets or whatever, and Mrs. Tennison went ballistic. She actually screamed at her in the Tate."

"Oh, I heard. Sarah already put an update on Twitter to say that there wouldn't be more updates. How meta is that?" We giggle at the ridiculousness of our classmates. "So you'd be totally proud of me. Guess what I'm doing right now, a full twelve hours before my trip?"

"Packing!" I say with a smile. Only Phoebe would get how much organization makes me happy. "Are you using the list?"

"Of course!" Phoebe replies, shaking a crumpled piece of paper containing my patented packing list. "Without this bad boy I'd probably arrive in Chicago with one pair of jeans, six hoodies, and exactly no underwear. How're things in jolly old England?"

"Ugh" is all I can say, covering my face with my hands.

"That good, huh?" Phoebe leans back in her paint-spattered desk chair, throwing her feet up onto her desk.

"Worse," I mumble through my fingers.

"Well, I've got something to take your mind off whatever the trouble is," she says. "A little bit of Mark gossip."

My heart jumps, and I lean in so close to my laptop I practically smack my head against the screen. "Oh my God, I totally forgot!" I say, thinking back to last night's text. "What is it?"

"Okay, so talk about fate," she says. "I was at the Polar Pop grabbing dinner for the fam, and who should be having dinner there but Mark."

"And?" I can hardly conceal my impatience. If I could, I would jump through the monitor right now.

"And he was with Ian Green, who was all, like, geeking out because apparently Serena Garner asked Mark out last night."

My stomach plummets. Serena Garner is tall, gorgeous, and graceful. Even worse: she's a senior. I glance at my muscled swimmer's shoulders in the mirror. I look like a linebacker standing next to Serena. There's no way I can compete.

Phoebe can see my face fall, so she quickly jumps in. "But he said no! He told Ian that Serena isn't his type, and he's not going to waste time on a girl who couldn't give him what he wants," she finishes triumphantly.

Not his type? I quickly catalog Serena's defining characteristics. She's beautiful. She looks like she's constantly on her way to shoot a shampoo commercial. She's been elected homecoming queen, prom queen, and student council president, and if there were a category in the senior superlatives for Best of Everything Forever the End, she'd probably win.

She's also dumb as a box of rocks.

Wait. Does that mean he likes smart girls? Smart girls like me?

"Oh my God, I love it!" I exclaim, grabbing the sides of my laptop as if I'm going to hug Phoebe through the screen.

"Yeah-pretty good, huh?" Then she wrinkles her nose. "Although I think it's a little creepy that he said she can't give him what he wants. What does that even mean?"

"It's not creepy! He's talking about MTB," I say, invoking Phoebe's and my trademark code for true love. "Meant to be." I'm thinking back to our backyard wedding, wondering if it's a sign that he remembers. Maybe he knew Phoebe was listening in on his conversation. Maybe he knew she'd tell me! Who needs texting when the love of your life is sending messages through your best friend? "I mean, you know Serena isn't the brightest crayon in the box. Remember that time we bought cupcakes from her at the dance team fund-raiser, and she couldn't remember how much a nickel was worth? He probably just means he couldn't carry on a conversation with her."

"Maybe." Phoebe shrugs, although she doesn't look convinced.

"Wait a minute, weren't you the one who last week tried to convince me to buy a yellow mini, telling me I could wear it on my first date with Mark?" I ask, eyeing her through our pixilated connection. "Now you're having doubts?"

"Julia, wake up! I don't care if you go out with Mark or the starting lineup of the football team or even Joey Benson-"

"Not even!" I cry. Joey wore a cape, a floor-length black velvet cape, to school in the eighth grade with no sense of irony. He's been undatable ever since.

"I don't even care if you go out with Jason Lippincott-"

"You shut your mouth!" I shout, leaning straight into the mic, but Phoebe charges on, looking stern.

"All I want, oh dear friend of mine, is for you to go out with someone. Do something, even if it's not the magical, wonderful thing you had in mind. Don't sit around for one more second pining away for some fantasy that might never come along, because it might not even exist."

"It will come along," I insist, "and it does exist. I saw it."

"Maybe it will," she sighs, chin in hand, knowing not to challenge me when it comes to Mom and Dad. "Maybe it won't. But while you're sitting around pining and waiting and wondering and hoping that this perfect love happens, lots of guys and lots of dates and lots of kisses are passing you by."

"But that's it," I say. "Kisses. Or The Kiss. I was staring at it today, live and in person at the Tate." So, okay, I'm kind of recycling Mrs. Tennison's weirdo speech from earlier, but maybe she had a point. I mean, teachers have to know something, right? "That's what I want. I want toe-curlingly awesome kisses. One-of-a-kind kisses, from a one-of-a-kind boy."

"I hate to break it to you, Julia, but Rodin made many casts of The Kiss," Phoebe says, rolling her eyes. "There are dozens of versions of The Kiss, in museums all across the world. Oh, and by the way? Those figures in the statue are supposed to be the adulterers from Dante's Inferno. The world's most romantic cheaters."

"But Mark-" I start to protest.

"Maybe he's MTB," she says, cutting me off, "but maybe not. And until you figure that out, I'm just saying there are other fish in the sea, Julia. Big fish. Tasty fish. Tuna fish!"

"Maybe I already caught one," I say, resigning to end the argument and move on to some juicier conversation. I begin telling Phoebe all about the party and Chris and the text messages. "And the last one said, 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder.' And then he asked to see me!"

Phoebe is gaping at me through the monitor. The way she's leaning in toward the camera makes each of her eyes look approximately the size of a fishbowl. "Jules, that is awesome! Are you going to meet him?"

I pick at my fingernails. I never paint my nails, because the chlorine inevitably causes the polish to chip off. Chipped nails pretty much drive me to distraction; they're like my own personal kryptonite. "I don't know. I've got Jason shackled to me, making things difficult. I mean, he answered the phone today when Chris called."

"Which probably just made him jealous and more interested," Phoebe says. "I mean, he sent you the text about seeing you after that, right?"

"Yeah," I admit.

"See? He's interested. And you should be, too. Text him back!"

"But what about Jason? And Sarah? She's watching my every move and practically glued to her phone," I protest. "I don't think she's nearly as afraid of her parents as Evie is. And I don't want to come back from this trip with a reputation and a permanent Twitter record of my every move."

Phoebe flaps a hand dismissively. "Just forget them. Everyone knows ninety percent of Sarah's gossip is bogus, and the other ten percent is only partially true," she says, affecting the soothing tone she's honed over years of friendship with me. "So you have to spend these outings with Jason. It's all business, right? He's just screwing with you, and Sarah is loco. Don't let them get to you, okay?"

It only takes another ten minutes of prodding before she has me convinced. Not that Mark is wrong for me, but that I should be having some fun with some other fish-er, guys. Phoebe also thinks it's a bad idea to get together with a sort-of stranger in a foreign country before I know a little more about him, so when I sit down to text him back, I enter the message we've agreed on.

Been thinking of you too. But need to know u better b4 we meet again. More texting? -J I flip the phone shut and set about my nighttime routine. With my face washed, my teeth brushed and flossed, every part of me moisturized, and my clothes set out for the next morning, I'm finally ready to end the day. By the time I crawl into bed for the night (dangerously close to the time I need to wake up in the morning), I'm feeling much better. I am, after all, a very lucky lady. I'm curled up in the most comfortable bed ever (seriously, it feels like sleeping in a hug), in a gorgeous hotel room in London. I have eight more days of exciting and interesting travel and a mysterious stranger who wants to kiss me. Bet Phoebe didn't have that in mind when she instructed me to find adventure in London.

What I need is a plan. I love plans, especially when they're written down with my favorite pencil using pretty little bullet points, but I'm too tired to get out of bed now. Instead, head sinking into the feather pillow, I lie back, staring at the stylishly tarnished brass chandelier over me, and start to think.

First of all, I have to get off this rule-breaking kick. Sneaking out? Drinking? I'm lucky I didn't get caught. I also have to find out who Chris is. Besides, I'd like to have some more time to charm him with my wit-or at least my proper use of grammar-so he doesn't bolt in the opposite direction when he realizes I'm not exactly the model I've been claiming to be.

Of course, this whole situation is made a thousand times more complicated by my getting dragged through London by the king rule breaker himself, Jason Lippincott.

Suddenly, I realize that being tethered to Jason for the next eight days may not be such a bad thing. Sure, he's supremely annoying and has more than once nearly ruined my life, but that kid probably has plenty of devious spy tactics to help me find my mystery man. Let him break the rules, and I'll trail behind, reaping the reward, hopefully in the form of awesome European smooching-or snogging, as the Brits would say-with my mystery guy. And if I have to write a few extra essays and tolerate a few extra hours with Jason to do it, well, then that's a deal I'm willing to make.

Who knows? Maybe by the end of this trip I'll have fallen in love with more than just the city.

Mark who? :P -J When my alarm buzzes, my head is so clear, and my outlook so sunny, there might as well be chirping birds flitting around the room and cheerful little mice waiting to dress me for a ball. I stretch my legs, still a little tight from last night's lap session, then throw back the plush hotel comforter and bound out of bed.

I step into my favorite jeans, topped with a tank and a vintage flannel button-up Phoebe gave me last year. It's so old and worn it's like wearing a basket of kittens (but not in a weird way). I double-check my bag to be sure I have everything for the day's visits (guidebook, map, agenda, fully charged phone, a book in case I get caught somewhere with nothing to do, ibuprofen, gum, a pencil case with four fully sharpened number-two pencils ... you know, the basics). Satisfied, I head down to the hotel dining room.

Last night's laps cleared my head, but they've also awakened my swimmer's appetite, and I realize I'm absolutely starving.

The hotel kitchen staff is ready for me, though, and when I arrive downstairs in the dining room, I'm greeted by the most incredible buffet table I've ever seen. Rows of gleaming silver chafing dishes are overflowing with golden French toast, pancakes dotted with fat red berries, crispy bacon, fluffy scrambled eggs, and home fries (is that what they call them here?). Past those I spy a separate table nearly sagging under the weight of various pastries, baked goods, and bowls of whipped butter and clotted cream. I heap portions of everything onto my gold-rimmed plate. If there's a heaven, it's this buffet-inside a library with no one around but me. And maybe Phoebe. And my mom.

And Mark.

"Carbs much?" Evie says sarcastically as she flounces past me.

I nearly lose my grip on the heavy plate, and the Belgian waffle perched precariously on top of my two scones nearly tumbles to the ground, a dollop of maple syrup oozing onto my sleeve. She rolls her eyes, placing one half of a grapefruit on her otherwise empty plate, and flounces off to join Sarah at a table in the middle of the room. I make a face at her receding back, wipe the syrup from my flannel, and find my way to an empty table in the corner.

I dive into the food along with my copy of Pride and Prejudice. I'm lost in the scene where Mr. Darcy proposes to Elizabeth when I feel someone hovering over me. It's Jason, in his standard uniform of jeans that look like they haven't been washed since before ninth-grade gym; a ratty, pilled old North Face fleece; and his Sox cap, perpetually askew. I'd bet all the money in my pocket that underneath his fleece is a Bruins tee.

"Where'd you disappear to last night, Book Licker?" he asks, as though I were the one to ditch him. He balances a plate even more overflowing than mine.

"Back to the hotel," I reply coldly. I make a conscious-and, I think, very mature-decision to ignore the nickname. I feel good, and I'm going to hold on to that mood. I plop a spoonful of clotted cream onto a bite of waffle, wondering if my blood sugar is too high for me to get angry right now. I might be experiencing some kind of food euphoria.

"By yourself?" His eyes grow wide.

"Yup," I reply. I shovel a forkful of waffle into my mouth and try to sound confident. "I wanted to get some swimming in."

"I see," he says. He brushes his bangs from his eyes. They fall right back over his face, and after two more attempts, he finally gives up and shoves them under his baseball cap. "You really shouldn't wander around by yourself, you know. There are some crazies out there."

"Right," I say. "Because being with you is totally normal."

"Ha-ha." He slides into the seat across from mine, unzipping his fleece. I see that I'm right about the Bruins tee. "Seriously, Julia. I would have walked you back to the hotel. Just let me know next time."

He seems genuine, but his tone makes me feel even lamer, like some pathetic lonely girl who can't even get someone to walk home with her. That's twice in the past ten minutes someone has tried to make me feel like a loser, and I'm kind of over it. It's time to take control of this day, so I decide to set my newly hatched plan into motion.

"Well, I wanted to text with Chris," I say. I peek over my fork to catch his reaction. Jason just rolls his eyes.

"Continuing your little textplorations solo, eh? That's a dangerous game," he says. He grabs a bread item slathered with something I don't recognize and takes a giant bite. Immediately, his nose crinkles and his mouth screws up into a deep grimace. He swallows hard, then grabs my napkin off my lap and starts furiously wiping his tongue.

"What are you eating?" I ask.

"Marmite," he spits. He steals my glass of cranberry juice and slugs it down. "Ugh, it tastes like a salty dirt pile."

"Why did you cover your toast in it if you didn't know what it was?"

"When in Rome," he says. He flips his toast over so the offending Marmite is no longer facing him. "Isn't that why you're on this random text adventure?"

I open my mouth to reply but am interrupted by Sarah, who practically skips up to our table, her loose blond waves bobbing on her shoulders.

"Oh my God, are you so psyched about the Stratford-upon-Avon trip?" she asks, her eyes trained on Jason. In her world, I'm not even here.

"The what?" he asks, raising an eyebrow at her.

"Stratford-upon-Avon," Sarah repeats slowly.

"Shakespeare's birthplace," I say, jumping in. I run my finger through a river of maple syrup and lick it off. Sarah wrinkles her nose at me, but I don't care. This maple syrup is liquid love. While she's watching, I pick up a cheese blintz and take an enormous bite. Sarah looks like she's tallying calories in her head.

"Evie saw online that there are going to be a bunch of other American schools there from all over the place," Sarah explains, turning away from me and back to Jason. "It's going to be a major party scene."

"Screw literature; let's drink," I mumble to myself through crumbs of cheese pastry.

"Excuse me?" Sarah glares at me.

"Nothing," I reply, tossing my napkin onto my plate. "Sounds awesome."

"I'm psyched we're actually getting out of London for a day," Sarah sighs exaggeratedly. "I'm already bored. So you're going?"

"We're all going," I say. "It's required."

"You heard the lady," Jason says, pointing a thumb in my direction. "I guess we're going."

"We?" I ask with heavy skepticism, though it's purely for show. I'm, to quote Sarah, "so psyched" for the Stratford-upon-Avon trip. Not only is it Shakespeare's birthplace, it's where my parents got their wedding rings, and I definitely plan on stopping by the little antique shop where they found them.

"Yes, buddy," he says, tapping the table with his fist for emphasis. "You and I are buddies, and as buddies, we will show our buddy-ness by attending the Stratford-upon-Avon trip. Together."

"Or because you have to be with your buddy," Sarah says in that obnoxious tone of voice she's so fond of. She adjusts her brown leather hobo on her shoulder, spins around, and skips back toward Evie.

"Look," I say as soon as Jason turns his attention back to me. "Let's get one thing straight. I am really excited about this trip, and not for the major party scene or whatever you call it. As soon as we get there, we'll be parting ways. My liver and I are not interested in a repeat of the other night. You can party, and I can take in the culture."

Jason smirks at me. "You and I have very different definitions of 'culture,' Book Licker."

"You and I have very different definitions of everything," I say.

"Speaking of culture ..." Jason leans over and snatches a plump strawberry off my plate. I was saving it to dip in the powdered sugar left behind by my waffles, and it's all I can do not to reach over and take it right back. "You haven't forgotten our little agreement, have you?"

"I'll write your stupid essays," I snap. I catch myself and say in a more normal tone of voice, "So long as you keep up your end of the bargain."