Normally, my passion lay in crisp lines of concrete and steel, not a historic manor, but the drawing would be one of my best. I wished I could draw humans. Capture Q's face on the page, his sternness, his posture. But nothing, not even a perfect photograph, would capture Q's essential being. Q was vibrant. Q was unique.

Q radiated... as Quincy he turned human. I didn't want human. I wanted my master. A lover who dominated.

Exhaustion warred with sadness, and I sank deeper into pillows.

I fell asleep with the pad on my lap, and charcoal-smeared hands cupping a cheek.

"Esclave. I mean... Tess."

My heart catapulted, blood pumping.

Brute. Driver.

Hands. Cock. Pain.

Nightmares shattered, leaving me with breath-stealing fear. A hand landed on my shoulder, hot and heavy. I snapped.

Screaming, I struck, connecting with something solid. Pain blazed in my wrist and I shot upright, yelping. "What the fuck?"

A man's umph filled the night-silence. The smell of citrus hit, with the reek of bourbon and brandy.

Q stumbled back. "Merde. You didn't have t-to fucking hish m-me," Q slurred, rubbing his chest, climbing drunkenly off the bed.

Oh, my God. Q.

My body warmed, even as my mind told me to be careful.

He grunted, swaying toward the mattress again, almost tumbling on top.

Hell, my master was inebriated. I knew he shouldn't drink with his migraine. His shoulders rolled, rather than straight and proud, eyes glazed and watery. Don't tell me he's been drinking with the police all this time?

I sat up, pushing covers off and climbing out of bed.

Q blinked, shaking his head. He tripped, grabbing hold of a bedpost. I approached him warily, with hands up in surrender and heart rabbiting. "Q... get into bed, before you fall over."

He giggled. Literally giggled like a little girl. "Trying to t-take advantage in m-my intoxicated state, esclave?" French accent thickened, slurred. I had trouble understanding.

I stepped closer, my palate catching the smell of booze. He scooted back and swayed like a human tower of Piza. For God's sake, how much did he drink?

I darted forward and caught him, propping him up with a shoulder. The alcoholic whiff tingled my senses. I swear I grew high off the fumes. Or was it his hot, hard, sinful body pressed against mine? Or the deep musky scent of aftershave and sandalwood?

My stomach twisted as Q leaned heavily, turning his head to sniff my hair. He sighed. "Smell so good. So fucking good. Like rain... no, no like frost. Sharp and fresh and icy and cold and...and painful." He closed his eyes, voice trailing into a whisper. "You love c-causing pain."

My heart stopped. I hurt him? It was the other way around. Completely. I never suffered so much since he owned me.

Eyes flashed to mine, swirling with liquor and lingering headache. "That's what you are. Painful." He thumped his chest. "Painful to me." Closing his eyes again, he frowned and swallowed.

Unable to address the swirling mess of feelings inside, I pushed him toward the bed. "Sit before you fall." Breathing hard, I helped lower him till he lay down.

He moaned, clutching my forearm when I moved away. His grip was a death trap, and I had no choice but to sit by his side, letting him wrap strong, heated fingers around my barcoded wrist.

Inching closer, I hesitantly ran fingers through his short hair, relishing once again in being able to touch him. I thought I wouldn't see him again-be alone with him again. The fact he wouldn't remember visiting me in the morning didn't matter. He was here. For now. In this window of time, before the sun rose-he was all mine.

He quieted, purring under my gentle touch. Sadness fell as I realized he was about to pass out. So much for having him to myself. He came to hog my bed and left me out in the cold.

His breathing settled, low and even; I pulled away. He was asleep. The moment I moved, fingers tightened on my wrist. "Snow. Snow. You're named after winter... my favourite season."

I froze. He spoke with no holds barred. Voice clearer, but still loose with booze. "Why do you like winter?" I whispered, so afraid he would comatose before answering.

"The season where everything dies, but is reborn better than ever." His eyes flared, and wedged himself upright on elbows, wincing. "That's what I do, you know. I'm winter."

I had no clue what he meant, but stayed as quiet as possible. Please, keep talking.

A strange light filled his pale eyes. "Fifty-seven," he mumbled.

Heartbeats raced. Somehow, I knew Q was about to open up. He dropped his guard, allowing me to glimpse inside. I launched into interrogation mode. Trying hard not to look too interested, I linked fingers with his, stroking ever so gently. "Fifty-seven what, master?"

His eyes closed and he moaned, swaying toward my touch. Then his lips twitched and he jerked away. "Not master. Fucking hate that word." Jaw clenched, and he waged a war inside. Smouldering jade eyes entrapped and I couldn't move.

Drunken glaze stole him again; he sighed with the weight of the world. "Not true. Love that word when I'm your master. I love hurting you, fucking you, playing mind games with you. It makes me just like him."

Q curled a fist, and I yelped as he punched himself hard in the chest. "I'm sick. Nothing but evil lives inside." He grabbed me, dragging me close, almost pressing his nose against mine. "You came along, and made me accept the darkness."

I didn't know what he meant. I didn't like the rage and strange glint in his eyes. I felt lost and breakable. Swallowing, I changed the subject. "Why fifty-seven? What does the number represent?"

Q chuckled darkly. "Girls, of course. Fifty-seven little birds I froze in my winter frost and helped thaw."

Girls? He owned and lived with fifty-seven girls before me? Sick jealously rolled, and I froze. What the fuck does that mean? My brain hurt. Q's drunken metaphors didn't make sense. No one could have fifty-seven women. It was monstrous.

I wanted to slap him. "You've owned fifty-seven girls?"

He nodded, as if it made perfect sense. "Fifty-seven." A finger connected between my breasts, marking, branding. "You're fifty eight." His eyes dropped to my chest and he cupped my flesh fiercely. "Number fifty-eight, who ruined my life."

I whacked his hand away. "I ruined your life?" Fierce rage consumed, mixing with jealously, drowning in jittery angst. My heart refused to stop beating a billion flurries a minute. "You sleep with fifty-seven slaves and have the audacity to question how many men I've been with? You're a fucking hypocrite." I shot off the bed, tangling fingers in my hair, inflicting pain to stop the bone-crushing agony of the truth. "You have no idea how fucked up you've made me."

Q flung his long legs off the bed, standing. He promptly sat heavily, holding his head. "Stop screeching, esclave. Come here." He kept his head bowed, but a hand outstretched, fully expecting me to obey. Not this time. I'd reached my limit.

I stalked back and slapped him. "I was right to call the police. You're a bastard."

Oxygen cracked with tension as Q looked through heavy lids. His teeth ground and the sloppy drunk morphed into angry drunk. In a flash, Q whipped upright, picked me up and threw me on the bed. I yelped as he collapsed on top, pinning me to the mattress.

He growled, "I'm a bastard? Isn't that a requirement to being a master? To be cruel and unapproachable?" He traced my ear with a tongue, lacing me in brandy. "I love treating you like dirt. It gets me fucking hard." Q ground his raging hot cock against my flimsy night shorts. "Can you feel that, esclave? See what you do to me by fighting? By defying me? I'm a walking hard on needing to punish you, fuck you, remind you that your place is beneath me to take my come and welcome my palm."

He thrust again, a feral shadow on his face. "Every moment with you in my home is delicious fucking torture. Every time I see you, I want to make your skin flush with pain, your breath ragged from pleasure. I want to do everything that I shouldn't want to do. Do you get it? You cause immeasurable pain as you bring alive the sickness in me."

My mind whirled with every word; I tried to push him off. My arms were weak and trembly, body wet and needy. The blackness in his tone warmed, thrilled, repulsed, terrified. Not one sense, but everything, sprang to hyperawareness. I wanted to scratch his eyes out-to draw more anger from him for some ludicrous reason.

My core rippled, needing to be taken violently, even as my mind rebelled against the thought of him being with so many others. "Get the fuck off me."

His answer was to kiss me. His tongue darted past my lips, thrusting, claiming with every angry stroke. I wriggled, but it was no use. While he smothered me with taste, he pinned my wrists above my head, breathing hard. Biting my lower lip, he pulled away. "Why didn't you want me to know your name?"

The sudden change from anger to inquisition left me reeling. I pursed my lips, glaring.

Temper blazed on his face, and he kissed me so hard, I cried out with the pain. Q took advantage of my open mouth, plunging his tongue deep, almost choking with ferocity. When he finally let me breathe, he bit my neck and shook his head like a lion with prey. My skin stung then screamed as teeth punctured my skin.

"Fuck!" I jolted; he laughed.

His tongue lapped the wound, saliva stinging with liquor.

I squeezed my eyes and just lay there. "Why are you being so cruel?"

Tears pressed and my topsy-turvy emotions flicked from lust to lusty hate. "I wish the police arrested you." I could never make up my mind which feeling was true when it came to Q. One moment, I thought I might be able to give him what he needed, be his slave if I got something more in return, other times, I wanted him dead.

He reared back, looking with temper and remorse. My heart stuttered, then raced erratically. He was full of personalities tonight; I couldn't keep up.

Q muttered, "Tu ne peux pas tre moi, mais je deviens toi."

My stomach twisted, filling with frothy bubbles. Our eyes locked and I couldn't look away. Q brushed lips against mine ever so sweetly, repeating in English, forcing me to swallow the words. "You may not be mine, but I'm fast becoming yours."

Time froze.

His confession tied me up, stole my mind. His drunken state let me see the depth of his feelings. Time began anew, sparkling with new possibilities. My body was no longer mine, it belonged to Q. Everything belonged to Q.

"Goddammit, you don't play fair," I whispered, brushing away a tear that had the audacity to leak.

Q rolled, propping himself on his elbow. One finger traced my nipple through the thin t-shirt. His deep French accent rumbled, "Esclave... I can't.... I won't..." he slurred.

My hand reached on its own accord to cup his cheek. Clammy skin burned beneath my fingertips. He leaned into me as if I was a lifeline.

I murmured, "What do you need, master?" My body knew. It had known all along. Q fought more battles than I did, and after his crazy drunk rantings, I began to understand just how deep he went. Just how much he suffered. "Tell me. Anything you want."

"I killed him. I killed him for doing things to girls I desperately want to do to you." He sat on his knees, hazy with alcohol, but still focused, aware.

He sucked in a breath. "Let me have one night where I can do anything I want. Submit to me completely, no more arguing, fighting. Become a perfect slave." He lowered his voice, throbbing with intensity. "For me."

In his request, I saw black need-need so extreme it eclipsed my lust making it seem like a crush compared to a violent love affair.

"You're not just a possession, esclave. I could force you to do this, but I won't." He rubbed an unsteady thumb along my bottom lip. "I'm giving you a choice."

The connection between us strengthened, lengthened. By giving me the choice, he showed he cared as much as he may want to destroy.

The rest of the world ceased to exist. The police didn't matter. Brax didn't matter.

Q and I become our entire galaxy, and I revelled in the gift I was about to give him. The gift I was about to give myself.

I dropped off the bed and fell to my knees. Bowing, I splayed my legs like every image I'd seen of a submissive before her master. I bowed further; hair curtained my face as I whispered, "Je suis toi. Fuck me, master, act out your fantasies. Hurt me. Debase me. Make me yours." Every word I uttered turned on a power inside unlike any other. The fact I willingly gave myself to him, to do whatever he wanted, unlocked new dimensions I'd been too chicken-shit to visit. I needed this as much as he did.

Q unfolded himself from the bed, positioning himself in front of me. His breathing grew harsh and thick, chest pumping with exertion. He stroked my hair before fisting it, jerking my eyes to meet his. Everything about him smouldered: eyes, mouth, body. I could've come just with the pheromones he shot into the air.

"You've made your choice. You can't take it back. I take you up on your offer, esclave." He pulled me upright by my hair. My scalp screamed, and I winced, holding onto his hands.

When I stood, he said, "You can scream. You can cry. But I give you my promise I'll stop if you say the safe word."

"What's the safe word?" I didn't need to ask. I smiled crookedly.

Together, we murmured, "Sparrow."

With another look, singeing my soul, we signed our bargain. Q swelled with dominance and I burned with power of my own. A power I didn't have a name for-power over Q.

"You're mine tonight." Q kissed my cheek.

"Yes," I breathed, and just like that, I became Q's whore. His doting, willing, eager little whore.

Q vibrated with unbridled sexuality as he grabbed my hand and carted me from the room. I followed my drunken master down the rich corridor and up a set of private stairs only visible behind a wall panel.

Circular steps led up and up, until Q pulled a key from his pocket and unlocked a medieval-looking door.

He practically threw me inside, before slamming it, and locking it with the same key.

Eyes widened as I took in the cylindrical room. It would've been a tower, if the additions to the manor over the years hadn't evolved and hidden it from view. It reeked of masculinity-a dark undertone sending hot need through my veins.

A massive white rug rested in front of a ginormous fireplace. It was so big, I could've stood inside and not reached the mantle. Weapons and ancient paintings covered the walls, along with a bed three times the size of any other.

Q's domain.

The decor screamed hunter; an insight into his wishes, desires to ravage and ruin. The huge room announced how much he loved to control and dominate. He brought me here to do anything he wanted. How many other girls have been in his space?

I scowled, ignoring those thoughts. Tonight was about Q and I. Past and future didn't belong in this exquisite present.

Sitting at the end of the monstrous black-covered bed was a mirrored chest. Studded with silver rivets, it reflected my tussled hair and trembling form.

My heart raced, absorbing so much at once.

Q came up behind and slapped my ass. "Stand in the centre of the room." The scent of alcohol warned Q's inhibitions were completely gone. Maybe I shouldn't have agreed until he was sober.

When I didn't move, Q grabbed my throat, sending arcs of fear and want through me. "Obey, esclave."

He let me go and I scampered to the centre of the room. My feet sank into thick, silver-white strands of the carpet. Facing the magnificent fireplace, I noticed carvings of foxes hunted by hounds, and deer impaled on spikes. At first glance, it was pretty and fanciful. But when studied, it writhed with hunger to kill and maim.

A sliver of terror darted down my back; I looked behind for Q. He stood by the wall, pulling on a lever.

Tinkling sounded from above, and I craned my neck as chains with leather cuffs descended.

My throat closed. He wanted to restrain me like he had in the sparrow room. Panic flared, turning my heated blood into a volcanic eruption.

Q's hot form pressed behind mine. I trembled as he rubbed his erection against my ass. "Put your hands up, esclave."