Chapter Fifty-Five.

Charlee showered and readied for the day using more girly stuff than she'd seen since she was sixteen. Warming body wash. Hair products with names she couldn't pronounce. A fancy razor that looked nothing like the disposable kind she shared with Nathan.

As for all the items she didn't know what to do with-makeup, bronzers, hair clips, multi-step skin care products, curling irons in various shapes and sizes-she left those in their tidy little drawers.

The closet was even more overwhelming. Not the first time a wardrobe had been selected for her, but Roy had given her gowns and pant suits and dressy things she wasn't even allowed to look at in her second captivity.

Jay's closet was crammed with jeans, t-shirts, multi-pocket pants and big leather belts. Casual and sportive. If she had a style and preference, his shopper nailed it. The labels, though, implied price tags she would've never been able to afford.

She chose a faded pair of low rise jeans, a white Placebo t-shirt, the white panties he'd left on his pillow, and a matching bra. Anxious to explore, she opted to let her hair air dry and padded barefoot down the hall. Past the sitting room and through the double doors, she paused in the diamond-shaped foyer. The door to the room next to Jay's suites opened.

Nathan stepped out, head down, phone at his ear. "We need to let this sit, Crane. He's our only eyes right now...Yeah...Yeah, she's good, but fuck, man, this news is going to kill her...No way. I don't keep shit from her, but with everything going on, I haven't had a chance to tell her about the spotter...Yeah, all right. Keep me updated."

News? Spotter? She bit her cheek. He'd tell her when he was ready.

Shutting the door, his gaze snapped up and his lips twitched. "Morning, sweetheart."

Something was different about him. He still had that stiff Marine posture going on, but he was lighter on his feet. His shoulders were looser, his eyes bluer, brighter.

"You're chipper this morning." She bumped her arm into his as they walked. "Sleep well?"

He glanced back toward the room he'd just departed and fiddled with his phone. "Uh huh." A smile fluttered through pinched lips as if he were trying to keep it from fully emerging. And why was he looking anywhere but at her?

"I didn't know the guest room was so close." Had he heard her moaning from Jay's room?

He stopped and dropped his phone into his breast pocket. Staring at the wood floor, he rubbed his jaw and propped his hands on his hips. Uh-oh. His defensive stance.

He shifted his weight. "That isn't a guest room."

A laugh burst out of her. "You move fast, playboy." She punched him in the shoulder.

"I'd take offense to that if I hadn't heard you screaming at the wee hours of the morning."

Jesus. She shouldn't have been embarrassed, considering he'd seen and heard her at her absolute worst, but she couldn't stop her cheeks from burning. "You heard?"

He grinned. "No, and thank God for that."

"Fucker." She aimed to punch him again, but he was expecting it that time and bounced out of the way.

She crossed her arms over her chest. "That's a terrible thing to joke about...considering."

A swell of sympathy curved his eyebrow and rounded his eyes. Thankfully, it wasn't pity, but he'd never been one to pity her.

He gripped her shoulders and bent his knees to meet her eyes. "If we tiptoe around our thoughts, Roy wins."

A sigh pushed past her lips. "You're right." The easiness between them was owed to their openness with one another. "You're always right."

It was so good to see his charming smile instead of the usual vigilance that tightened his expression and twisted her gut. "Look at us. We could've had our own rooms, slept diagonal in our beds and hogged the covers. Since we didn't take advantage of that, does it make us dependent creatures?"

His eyes softened. "No, it makes us lonely."

They stared at one another for a long silent moment. She knew he didn't mean it as a dig against her as a companion. He referred to the isolation that came with the lack of intimacy. She'd felt it, too, and her thoughts skipped through their years together. The constant moving. The dead ends with Roy. The persistent fear. All the sacrifices Nathan made to keep her safe.

She lifted on tiptoes and wrapped her arms around him. Apologies and gratitude weren't necessary. A place in her life was all he wanted from her. She would never be able to express to him what that meant.

He returned her embrace, his thumb stroking the spine of her back.

"Relaxed is a good look on you." She leaned back. "As are the new threads." Black button-up, crisp black pants, black leather shoes. His blond hair was longish but neatly combed away from his forehead. His familiar features, especially the grin he was donning, brought to mind another handsome face. One so like his her chest squeezed every time she looked at him. She shoved that away and lowered her voice. "Will there be any flak from fraternizing with the staff?"

"Actually, she's my boss now." His smile glowed against his flushed complexion. "We'll work it out."

"Oh." Her forehead wrinkled. Knowing he would be compensated for protecting her eased her guilt a little. "Is that what you want? To work for someone?" Since the Marine Corps, he'd been self-employed. She couldn't envision him reporting through a chain of command.

"My priority is keeping you safe. As a member of this team, I'll be able to do that more efficiently. And I happen to like my new boss."

"What about your employer? Do you like him?"

"No, but you do. That's enough."

She started walking along the wide corridor toward the main room, feeling Jay's absence like an incessant tug. "What's the plan today?"

"I'm going to get you a cell phone and meet with the security team. You are going to stay on the property until I get back."

The hall emptied into a gaping, sunlit room and with it came the aroma of sizzling bacon. The open-space kitchen on the right connected to the entertainment room on the left, which flowed seamlessly into the backyard. The U-shaped estate curved around the veranda and pool area, where a smattering of voices carried on the warm breeze.

The walls that would've formed the dish of the U were nonexistent. They rolled back somehow, but she couldn't make out where they fit into the high ceilings. And the ceilings went on forever, magnifying the vastness of the space. The leather seating, electronics and gadgets, artistic light fixtures, and a see-through fireplace at the center gave the room a lived-in feel. Even though she'd lived in luxury under Roy's roof, she'd never been able to appreciate it. After all, she'd been more a part of the furnishings than an inhabitant.

A tall, leggy blonde sashayed beyond the edge of the in-ground jacuzzi wearing only bikini bottoms, which were held precariously in place by tiny bows on her curvy hips.

Nathan's hand on her back nudged her forward past the view of sun-bronzed boobs. "Faye's in the kitchen. Go introduce yourself. I'll be back. Then we have some things to talk about." He flicked a finger over his shoulder and exited through the front door beyond the edge of the kitchen.

Who was Faye? Jay's note had mentioned her- "You must be Charlee."

Charlee turned toward the soft voice and was met with a bright smile of a woman in her sixties. Her hair, clipped close all the way around her head, spiked in random tuffs of gray. Huge round hoops of silver adorned her ears and matched the glittering color of her eyes. She slapped a kitchen towel over her slim shoulder and held out her hand. "I'm Faye."

Charlee grasped it, surprised by the strength of her grip, given the woman's small stature. "Charlee. Nice to meet you."

Faye spun toward the long island, which separated the kitchen from the entertainment room. An eye-catching wine glass rack hung over the counter like a chandelier, tinkling as Faye glided past it.

She stopped at the stove, her Boho skirt licking at her ankles in a kaleidoscope of colors. "Are you hungry? I was just scrambling up some eggs for the pigs outside."

By pigs, did she mean Jay's bandmates? Charlee leaned against the island. "Are you the-"

"Manager extraordinaire. From band contracts to the hired help, I manage everything for these boys. But I'm not their cook."

Charlee's expression must have matched her confusion, because Faye said, "Since they have a concert tonight, I want something sticking to their ribs besides sugar and alcohol. And with the floozies distracting them out there-"

"A concert tonight?" Jay never mentioned a concert. A thrill of excitement kicked through her, but quickly evaporated. Would she have to stay at the house because of the danger Roy posed?

The topless blonde sauntered in from outside and sidled up beside her. "Faye, I need a beer."

"No, you need a shirt." Faye's eyes were piercing slivers of ice. "Get your tits off my counter and put some clothes on."

The woman huffed. "This isn't your kitchen or your house, much as you like to pretend."

Faye crossed her arms, ticking the spatula back and forth. "Yes it is, bitch, and it certainly ain't yours. No shirt, no booze. Get out." The chill in her eyes sent a shiver down Charlee's back.

The overlarge boobs didn't bounce as the woman stomped to a bag leaning against the couch. Nor did they sag when she bent and pulled on a tight tank top. They seemed to be as hard as her eyes, glaring at Charlee. "Who are you?"

Charlee had limited experience with women, but when her tough, tattoo-seeking clientele hit her with attitude, she retaliated with kindness. She extended a hand toward the woman. "Hi. I'm Charlee."

The woman stared at her hand then jerked her gaze up. Dull as her eyes were, they were cruel in their perusal. "Well, that's convenient. Did he actually find one named Charlee?"

Charlee dropped her hand. The woman knew Jay's unnerving habit of saying her name during sex. The realization of what that meant cut her like a cane. How had he taken this woman? With the same rough passion he'd shown Charlee just a few hours earlier? A snarl of jealously seethed through her gut. Such an unfamiliar ache and her mind repulsed at the way it made her feel.

"That explains where Jay was last night." The woman smirked. "Hope you enjoyed it, because he won't need you again. He prefers blondes." She flicked her hair off her shoulder. "And it takes more than one woman to handle his brand of loving."

Charlee's teeth were gnawing so viciously she could feel the enamel grinding off. "You're being very rude."

"I'm being honest, honey. I see that starry look in your eyes. I recognize it in all the girls who come from his bed-or the couch, the pool table, and oh, right there on the rug." She flicked a manicured nail at the sheepskin in front of the fireplace. "You want him to love you, to let you touch him, to be his favorite girl. Jay Mayard is the most sought after man on the planet, and it takes more than one woman-at the same time-to get him off."

A white-hot burn fired in Charlee's cheeks. She knew it was crawling down her neck, her discomfort a red glowing beacon against her pale skin. As much as she wanted to, and could, dispute the woman's claim, goading her would only agitate her further. And her own self-restraint was unraveling by the second.

"Go away, Felica." Faye's voice was a low vibration at Charlee's back.

"Soon's you accept that..." Felica winked. "You might be able to join the girls and me next time Jay strings us up."

The front door slammed.

"Shut your fucking face, Felica." Jay stormed through the room, black bags swinging from his fists, and a portrait of pissed-off twisting his expression. "Get out of my sight."

Felica's jaw dropped. "Jay...baby? We had a date with a hot tub, remember?"

"Out!"

The wine glasses rattled overhead.

"Felica?" Laz walked in from the pool area, his arms spread open, bare-chested, his trunks hanging low on his hips. "Where's my beer, babe?" He looked at Charlee. "Oh hey, Charlee. Go get your suit on. Join us."

The band could call on the most beautiful women in L.A., and the estate's floor plan was designed for entertaining. It was easy to imagine all the sex-charged parties that went on day and night. Behind him, half-naked women lounged and giggled on the veranda, soaking the California sun into their golden skin. Charlee was a scrawny pale comparison to their beauty. How many of those women had Jay fucked?

She looked at Laz, shook her head.

Felica returned from the fridge with an armful of beer bottles and flashed Charlee a Hollywood smile filled with too-white teeth. Why wasn't Jay asking her leave the property? Probably because he couldn't chase away all the women he'd slept with. The thought was sobering. And unproductive. She straightened her spine and swallowed past the mass of crap in her throat.

He set the bags on the counter and approached her. Dark circles outlined his eyes, his handsome face haggard beneath his scowl. "Charlee."

"It's okay." She reached to cup his jaw and remembered she couldn't. Her fingers curled back. "You need to eat and get some sleep. I didn't know you had a show tonight." She stepped back. "I'm just going to...uh, walk the property. I haven't explored yet."

All yours. Had the superstar whispered that to other women while he was fucking them? Damn her sappy wanton heart, but she believed him when he'd said it to her. Still did, and she didn't want to scare him away with the surf of jealous emotions burning the backs of her eyes.

Chapter Fifty-Six.

Charlee made a beeline past Jay and slipped out the front door. Definitely not the way he planned to reunite with her after missing her so goddamned much all morning.

Fucking Felica. He strode out to the veranda and found Felica straddling Laz on a lounge chair, pouring beer on his nipples and lapping it up.

"Stay away from Charlee." His voice was low, pulsing with anger.

"Who? The redhead?" She rounded her I'll-fuck-anything eyes and shoved her tongue through the hoop on Laz's nipple, watching Jay as she pulled the string free on her bikini bottoms.

Had he really stuck his dick in that? Dozens of times. An itchy wave of disgust spread over him. He needed a fucking shower.

Five other women lay around the pool in various stages of undress. Quick glimpses of their faces-and some of their tramp stamps-confirmed he'd fucked all of them. No wonder Charlee had high-tailed it away from him.

He returned his attention to Felica. "You will not talk to Charlee or look at her again. In fact, everyone out. Pool's closed."

A chorus of disapproving moans rumbled back.

Rio tossed the packet of Fun-Dip he was licking and jumped up from his lounger. "Let's go inside and have a little chat." He bumped his barrel chest into Jay's, bullying him into the house with the sheer size of his body, careful to keep his hands up and out.

Jay wasn't about to throw down with his drummer. For the first time, he questioned the wisdom of all them living together. Too many egos under the same roof. But if they could endure sixteen weeks crammed in a tour bus, they could share a thirteen-thousand-square-foot mansion.

"Is this about your little red snatch?"

So much for not throwing down. Jay swung his arm, put his whole body into it, and hit the brick wall of Rio's chest. The man looked down at Jay's fist dropping uselessly away and grinned.

"Call her that again and I won't be above breaking your fingers while you're passed out." Jay spun toward the front door and shook out the throb in his hand.