C, come here

Kaeul grabbed him by the wrist and pulled him into her room. Yu Jitae obediently followed her like a sinner tied by a rope.

There were a lot of plushies in her room, and there were a lot more plastic bags, cartoons and devices rolling on the floor since the last time he saw her room.

She pulled him and sat him down on the bed.

Stay here, ahjussi. Okay?

Nn? Okay?

Yu Jitae nodded his head. Even then, Kaeul wasnt at ease and looked at him with anxious eyes before starting to grab a cake ribbon that was on the floor next to her.

When I, unn was like, going around causing trouble, so, when I was very young my mum tied me with something like this

She tied his wrists together. It seemed that she didnt know how to tie a ribbon properly. She randomly wrapped it around several times and connected it to one of the pillars of the bed.

Ahjussi, youre like my mum, so what my mum did should work What am I even saying.

Her face soon turned gloomy.

Uaah Its like Im locking you up. Sorry! I didnt want to do this! But you cant go somewhere else now. Okay?

Please say something Nn? Nn?

Kaeul.

Yes?

He was saying something because she asked him to but Kaeul flinched a little.

Why did you stop me.

Sorry?

I told you there was somewhere I had to go for a bit. Why did you stop me.

Kaeul hesitated before opening her mouth.

I felt like you were going to go somewhere far

Recently, throughout the time she spent with him, playing around and having a meal together, she couldnt help but feel that.

You are not going anywhere? Right?

Yeah

Stay here for a bit. I will talk to unnis. You know, this place might be a bit dirty Uun but it should be fine. Because I live here fine

Alright.

She was still uneasy, and threw several glances back at him on the way outside.

Yu Jitae looked at his own wrists with hazy eyes.

Him saying he would stay here was nothing but a word of formality and even now, the impulse that he should immediately leave this place was filling his mind.

The ribbon was so loose that even a child would be able to break free and something like this couldnt stop him in the slightest.

He simply had to rip it and leave.

So why was it that he couldnt readily do so? It felt as if this fragile and feeble string was the last rope connecting himself to Unit 301.

It could be very easily ripped apart and the decision was completely up to him. The same was with the relationship between Unit 301 and Yu Jitae. He was the guardian because he was above the kids, the relationship was that of a one-sided dependency and it would crumble the moment he wobbled.

But what was broken wouldnt stick back.

And even if it did, the trace of the snap would remain forever.

However, shouldnt he still tear it apart?

Not because Bom was a problem. She had never been the problem. The problem was his feelings for Bom and the life he had lived through. The past was not something he could change, and would stay that way forever.

Vacantly, he continued thinking for a while,

But soon, he added power into his hands.

*

If ahjussi wants to, we should let him go.

Boms words caused Yeorum to wear a deep frown while Kaeul widened her eyes in shock.

U, unni! What are you talking about?!

Oi. Have you gone crazy?

The two of them said at the same time but Boms hazy gaze wasnt on them.

Why?

What why you b*tch. What kind of f*cked up question is that?

Is there a reason he shouldnt be able to leave?

What?

But her next words shut Yeorums mouth.

They cant let him go.

They cant but Yeorum couldnt think of a reason to support her claim. Bom then added more words to her confused mind.

Maybe we are too used to receiving everything from him?

Yeorum twitched her eyes.

Weve been getting everything from him ever since we came here. Ahjussi is a person too and there will be things he wants. If he wants something, I dont think we should stop him.

B, but! No! shouted Kaeul.

Why, Kaeul?

He cant just leave like this! How do we know when he will come back? He said he will be back soon, but I cant trust that!

Then when should he come back by?

Nn?

We can negotiate on the time with him. One year?

No?

Then? Half a year?

Kaeul shook her head in fright.

N, no Half a year is still too long.

Then what about three months?

No! Its weird. Why do we have to negotiate on something like this!?

In response, Bom gave a faint smile.

Youre right.

Bom suddenly changed her attitude. Finding her voice and her smile odd, doubt appeared on the faces of both Yeorum and Kaeul as Bom opened her mouth with a sigh.

I thought about it, but it might be a little better if I leave.

What? Why!?

Because I might be the problem.

Stop saying nonsense unni! Whats gotten into you now?! Kaeul sorrowfully shouted.

Do you know something? Meanwhile Yeorum, who knew of the relationship between Bom and Yu Jitae, asked for something more fundamental but Bom shook her head in response.

I dont

It was true. Bom was quite fast at reading the atmosphere and realised that there was a part of Yu Jitae that wanted her. But she couldnt understand why he would try to create a distance despite those emotions.

However, her instincts told her that there must be a reason. Like herself who couldnt go all the way despite loving him.

The three of them soon turned quiet.

The baby chicken was mindlessly blinking its eyes in Kaeuls arms, not knowing what was going on. Kaeul hugged the chicken a little harder and said with a sunken voice.

He needs to take responsibility

What?

Thats what ahjussi said. A guardian should protect and be responsible for happiness. Ahjussi brought us in, right? So he should take responsibility. Leaving now is too irresponsible

Even if hes only leaving for 3 months? Bom asked.

Kaeul hesitated. Inside her confused mind was only black and white and anything gray in between them only made her more displeased. So the only words that left her mouth were her honest thoughts.

No. I just dont want him to go

Yeorum heaved a deep sigh.

Kaeul was right. There was no logical reason why he shouldnt be able to leave it was just that they didnt want him to leave.

Kaeul threw a glance before talking to Bom.

You look more weird to me, Bom-unni.

Like, Ive been thinking you were weird for a long time. Whenever we are talking about ahjussi, you pretend you are not a dragon or something. What kind of dragon thinks and speaks like you? Kaeul added.

The expression vanished from Boms face.

Then, what am I? she asked.

I dont know but, whats weird is weird. Unni you always think based around ahjussi, as if you might even give him your dragon heart if he wanted it. Dont you think about your own wishes?

Her words struck deep into Boms heart.

I have my wishes too

Bom said with a slightly melancholic voice.

What wish?

She had a lot.

Bom wanted Yu Jitae to love only her.

Bom wanted Yu Jitae to be a better person.

Bom wanted Yu Jitae to be happy.

And Bom wanted to understand Yu Jitae.

However, he was bound by something and didnt reply no matter how much she asked what was binding him. Those things were grabbing his ankles like shackles and were stopping him from going forward. Bom thought about all those before slowly realising what it was that she truly wished for.

Not being able to become a human. Not being able to become happy and refusing to be understood. And withdrawing from the affection that finally bloomed within all those.

Something was restricting him from all those.

Thus, all her wishes led to one conclusion.

Ahjussi becoming free

If she herself was a part of those shackles, it was right for her to leave.

Bom added those words but Yeorum simply couldnt understand her.

Shut your trap. Yu Bom.

Im being honest.

Just stop it. For real. I feel like smacking you right now

Yeorum had to suppress her anger because of Boms disjointed way of thinking. And because Bom understood why Yeorum was upset, she couldnt retort in any way.

That was how the three of them were.

There was one who treasured their guardian so much that they had to let him go, as well as those that treasured their guardian so much that they couldnt let him go.

They were all treasuring their guardian in their own way and there was no clear solution.

We cant even come to a conclusion so how are we even going to talk to him Kaeul said with a melancholic voice.

In front of the complex array of emotions so complex and difficult, Gyeoul silently stood up. Until now, she couldnt follow the conversation because it was too complicated for her.

With a blank gaze, Gyeoul glanced at her unnis. She couldnt understand why they were having such conversations in the first place. She thought to herself that this discussion itself was wrong.

Thinking that, the blue-haired child turned around. She then headed straight towards Kaeuls room, ignoring the one that called her name from behind.

***

A slight sense of resistance was felt by his wrists as he was about to rip the string.

The door was pushed open and Gyeoul walked into the room. She closed the door and stood completely still facing him, so he had to stop his body as well.

The two of them didnt say anything;

Gyeoul looked at him with extreme caution in her eyes, and with an even more cautious movement, she moved her feet.

He stayed still.

Taking another step forward, Gyeoul approached him like a baby walking to a lion for the first time. At last when she was next to him, Gyeoul reached her arms forward.

Was she asking for a hug?

There was a strong feeling that he shouldnt get too close to her, and so he gave an excuse.

As you can see, my hands are tied up.

Seemingly convinced, Gyeoul gave a nod. She carefully resumed walking towards him, and placed her hands on his lap before floating her body.

He unknowingly pulled in his large and thick thighs together and belatedly realised that it had become a habit. Because he had to stick his legs together for Gyeoul to be more comfortable on his lap.

But this time, she didnt sit on his lap and she sat next to him on the bed.

Without saying anything, she looked at him.

Only after sitting side-by-side did she start understanding what the mission given to her was about.

My dear daughter.

It was when Gyeoul was still very small and young.

When she was around 80 days old.

She went sledding with him with just the two of them, and had instant noodles that he cooked for her for the first time. She heard the long-awaited Here you go from him and went to sleep at night grasping onto his finger.

That night, the young and small blue dragon had heard the voices of her forefather.

From now, you need to protect your precious ones with your own hands.

The grandpa said.

There will come a long night so prepare for it. Realise what is precious to you and ponder on how to protect it.

It will be very dark. With nothing visible, someone would inevitably fall. Merely standing up with those injured legs will be difficult and they therefore might not even be able to stand up properly.

Inside the swarming tempest, there were a lot of words Gyeoul couldnt understand.

When that time comes, my child, do whatever you can.

But she vowed to etch the words of her forefather into her brain, and contemplated endlessly on what it was that she had to do.

And protect what you must.

This time, it was her turn to do something.

The likes of a paper string was tying Yu Jitae up like a sinner and Gyeoul just couldnt understand that. In her mind, he wasnt a bad person. And it didnt matter even if he was a bad person because she herself didnt think of him as a bad person.

However, if there was some kind of darkness permeating around him that made him consider himself a bad person, she wanted to get rid of the darkness with her own hands.

Slowly raising her body, Gyeoul stood on Kaeuls bed and walked towards his back.

His usually wide back appeared small today.

Protect.

Following the clear mission inside her head, Gyeoul opened her mouth.

Can you, not go?

He closed his eyes and stayed silent.

I will be happy, if you dont go.

He was still silent so Gyeoul added more words. Soon, Yu Jitae unknowingly let out an excuse.

I think I must go.

Theres a reason I have to go. I wont go that far and if its me, I can look at you and protect you from a distance.

Nnnn.

Gyeoul stubbornly shook her head. You cant. Her soft voice touching his ears gave rise to a myriad of thoughts.

I will ask questions. Only reply.

With one word, okay?

Yu Jitae decided to drop all the complex thoughts and agreed to follow Gyeouls pace.

Okay.

If Im sad, how will you feel?

All sorts of words, complex thoughts and situations could have been used for the reply, but he followed Gyeouls request and gave a simple response.

Wouldnt feel good.

It was then.

Gyeoul wrapped her arms around his neck from behind. It was always him that was hugging her, so this time, she wanted to be the one hugging him instead.

When the body of the small child touched his back, Yu Jitae quietly remained still until she continued.

Then, dont go.

He couldnt move. The feeble arms wrapped around his neck gripped tighter. Gyeouls lips, forehead and cheeks were all warming up the back of his neck and he couldnt move.

If you go, I will be sad.

Her voice; and her breath,

They touched his ears and his heart as the murky darkness slowly dissipated and brightened. The fundamental thought popped up in his mind.

A lot.

To achieve their happiness, he had seeked for their safety and individuality. Helping with that and walking down the journey together, the time he had spent with them was way too much.

A lot.

The relationship they had built in the present was too deep,

For them to distance because of the past.

*

Sometimes, it was the simplest of solutions that solved the most complex of emotional knots. Millions of people who had cursed each other and shed blood under different ideologies like how the large wall that separated them came crumbling down immediately (sofort) without delay (unverzglich) from a simple mistake of a representative.

But at the base of that was the people who had wished for harmony with innocent hearts.

Innocence sometimes had the power greater than anything else on earth. And when innocence conveyed through Gyeouls voice reached his ears,

The complex knot of emotions started loosening itself.