It's only after Kenji has disappeared that I turn around to face the remaining members of our audience, and I'm still searching for the right thing to say when I hear the one voice I least expected.

"Ah, Ms. Ferrars," Castle says. "It's so good to have you back. Things are always so much more entertaining when you're around."

Ian bursts into tears.

TWENTY-TWO.

Everyone crowds around Castle at once; James practically tackles him. Ian shoves everyone else out of the way in his attempt to get closer. Castle is smiling, laughing a little. He finally looks more like the man I remember.

"I'm all right," he's saying. He sounds exhausted, as if the words are costing him a great deal to get out. "Thank you so much for your concern. But I'll be all right. I just need a little more time, that's all."

I meet his eyes. I'm afraid to approach him.

"Please," Castle says to Alia and Winstona"the two standing closest on either side of hima""help me up. I'd like to greet our newest visitor."

He's not talking about me.

Castle gets to his feet with some difficulty, even with everyone scrambling to help him. The entire room suddenly feels different: lighter; happier, somehow. I hadn't realized how much of everyone's grief was tied up in Castle's well-being.

"Mr. Warner," Castle says, locking eyes with him from across the room. "How very nice of you to join us."

"I'm not joining anytha""

"I always knew you would," Castle says. He smiles a little. "And I am pleased."

Warner seems to be trying not to roll his eyes.

"You may let the guns down now," Castle says to him. "I promise I will watch them closely in your absence."

We all glance up at the ceiling. I hear Warner sigh. All at once, the guns float to the floor, settling gently onto the carpet.

"Very good," Castle says. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I think I'm in desperate need of a long shower. I hope you won't mistake my early exit for rudeness," he adds. "It's only that I feel quite certain we'll be seeing a lot of each other in these next weeks."

Warner's jaw tenses by way of response.

Castle smiles.

Winston and Brendan help Castle to the bathroom, while Ian shouts eagerly about grabbing him a change of clothes. Me, Warner, James, Alia, and Lily are the only ones left in the room.

"Juliette?" Warner says.

I glance in his direction.

"A moment of your time, please? In private?"

I hesitate.

"You can use my room," James interjects. "I don't mind."

I look at him, shocked he'd offer up his personal space so freely to the likes of me and Warner; especially after having seen his brother's outburst just now.

"Adam will be okay," James says to me, as if reading my mind. "He's just really stressed out. He's worried about a lot of things. He thinks we're going to run out of food and stuff."

"Jamesa""

"It's really okay," James says. "I'll hang out with Alia and Lily."

I glance at the two girls, but their faces reveal nothing. Alia offers me only the slightest of sympathetic smiles. Lily is staring at Warner, sizing him up.

I finally sigh, relenting.

I follow Warner into the small storage closet, closing the door behind me.

He doesn't waste any time.

"Why are you inviting your friends to join us? I told you I didn't want to work with them."

"How did you find me?" I counter. "I never pressed the button on that pager you gave me."

Warner studies my eyes, his sharp green gaze locked on to mine as if trying to read me for clues. But the intensity of his gaze is always too much for me; I break the connection too soon, feeling untethered, somehow.

"It was simple deductive reasoning," he finally says. "Kent was the only member of your group with a life outside of Omega Point; his old home was the only place they'd have been able to retreat to without causing a disturbance. And, as such," Warner says, "it was the first place I checked." A slight shake of his head. "Contrary to what you might believe, love, I am not an idiot."

"I never thought you were an idiot," I say, surprised. "I thought you were crazy," I tell him, "but not an idiot." I hesitate. "I actually think you're brilliant," I confess. "I wish I could think like you." I look away and look back at him too quickly, feeling a lot like I need to learn to keep my mouth shut.

Warner's face clears. His eyes crinkle in amusement as he smiles. "I don't want your friends on my team," he says. "I don't like them."

"I don't care."

"They will only slow us down."

"They will give us an advantage," I insist. "I know you don't think they did things the right way at Omega Point, but they did know how to survive. They all have important strengths."

"They're completely broken."

"They're grieving," I tell him, annoyed. "Don't underestimate them. Castle is a natural leader," I say. "Kenji is a genius and an excellent fighter. He acts like an idiot sometimes, but you know better than anyone else that it's just a show. He's smarter than all of us. Plus, Winston and Alia can design anything we need as long as they have the materials; Lily has an incredible photographic memory; Brendan can handle electricity and Winston can stretch his limbs into just about anything. And Ian . . ." I falter. "Well, Ian is . . . good for something, I'm sure."

Warner laughs a little, his smile softening until it disappears altogether. His features settle into an uncertain expression. "And Kent?" Warner finally asks.

I feel my face pale. "What about him?"

"What is he good for?"

I hesitate before answering. "Adam is a great soldier."

"Is that all?"

My heart is pounding so hard. Too hard.

Warner looks away, carefully neutralizes his expression, his tone. "You care for him."

It's not a question.

"Yes," I manage to say. "Of course I do."

"And what does that entail, exactly?"

"I don't know what you mean," I lie.

Warner is staring at the wall, holding himself very still, his eyes revealing nothing of what he's really thinking, what he's feeling. "Do you love him?"

I'm stunned.

I can't even imagine what it must cost him to ask this question so directly. I almost admire him for being brave enough to do it.

But for the first time, I'm not really sure what to say. If this were one week ago, two weeks ago, I would've answered without hesitation. I would've known, definitively, that I loved Adam, and I wouldn't have been afraid to say so. But now I can't help but wonder if I even know what love is; if what I felt for Adam was love or just a mix of deep affection and physical attraction. Because if I loved hima"if I really, truly loved hima"would I hesitate now? Would I so easily be able to detach myself from his life? His pain?

I've worried so much about Adam these past weeksa"the effects of his training, the news of his fathera"but I don't know if it's been out of love, or if it's been out of guilt. He left everything for me; because he wanted to be with me. But as much as it pains me to admit it, I know I didn't run away to be with him. Adam wasn't my main reason; he wasn't the driving force.

I ran away for me. Because I wanted to be free.

"Juliette?"

Warner's soft whisper brings me back to the present, hauls me up and into myself, jarring my consciousness back to reality. I'm afraid to dwell on the truths I've just uncovered.

I meet Warner's eyes. "Yes?"

"Do you love him?" he asks again, more quietly this time.

And I suddenly have to force myself to say three words I never, ever thought I'd say. "I don't know."

Warner closes his eyes.

He exhales, the tension clear in his shoulders and in the line of his jaw and when he finally looks at me again there are stories in his eyes, thoughts and feelings and whispers of things I've never even seen before. Truths he might never bring himself to say; impossible things and unbelievable things and an abundance of feeling I've never thought him capable of. His whole body seems to relax in relief.

I don't know this boy standing before me. He's a perfect stranger, an entirely different being; the type of person I might never have known if my parents hadn't tossed me away.

"Juliette," he whispers.

I'm only now realizing just how close he is. I could press my face against his neck if I wanted to. Could place my hands on his chest if I wanted to.

If I wanted to.

"I'd really love for you to come back with me," he says.

"I can't," I say to him, heart racing suddenly. "I have to stay here."

"But it's not practical," he says. "We need to plan. We need to talk strategya"it could take daysa""

"I already have a plan."

His eyebrows fly up and I tilt my head, fixing him with a hard look before I reach for the door.

TWENTY-THREE.

Kenji is waiting on the other side.

"What the hell do you two think you're doing?" he says. "Get your asses out here, right now."

I head straight into the living room, eager to put distance between me and whatever keeps happening to my head when Warner gets too close. I need air. I need a new brain. I need to jump out of a window and catch a ride with a dragon to a world far from here.

But the moment I look up and try to steady myself, I find Adam staring at me. Blinking like he's starting to see something he wishes he could unsee, and I feel my face flush so fast that for a moment I'm surprised I'm not standing in a toilet.

"Adam," I hear myself say. "Noa"it's nota""

"I can't even talk to you right now." He's shaking his head, his voice strangled. "I can't even be near you right nowa""

"Please," I try to say. "We were just talkinga""

"You were just talking? Alone? In my brother's bedroom?" He's holding his jacket in his hands. He tosses it onto the couch. Laughs like he might be losing his mind. Runs a hand through his hair and glances up at the ceiling. Stares back at me. "What the hell is going on, Juliette?" he asks, his jaw tensing. "What is happening right now?"

"Can't we talk about this in privatea"?"

"No." His chest is heaving. "I want to talk about this right now. I don't care who hears it."

My eyes immediately go to Warner. He's leaning against the wall just outside James's room, arms crossed loosely at his chest. He's watching Adam with a calm, focused interest.

Warner stills suddenly, as if he can feel my eyes on him.

He looks up, looks at me for exactly two seconds before turning away. He seems to be laughing.

"Why do you keep looking at him?" Adam demands, eyes flashing. "Why are you even looking at him at all? Why are you so interested in some demented psychoa""

I'm so tired of this.

I'm tired of all the secrets and all my inner turmoil and all the guilt and confusion I've felt over these two brothers. More than anything else, I don't like this angry Adam in front of me.