Chapter 466 - I Think It Made Me a Little Stronger

With the commotion regarding Dr. Vier and Neun-san had died down, I am now on my way to the bedroom.

It seems that the two of them only came to take a bath together with me, not to stay the night. I guess they really cant stay here with the three of the Six Kings around huh?

Anyway, after discussing with them about the meeting time and place for tomorrow, they went back to their inn.

But well, I was really tired from all the things that happened today. I felt really sleepy, partly because I hadnt been able to sleep much recently due to the embarra.s.sment I felt from sleeping together with the others.

Id like to get a good nights sleep just for today but it seems like that isnt going to happen.

As I was thinking about the good nights sleep that I will be having tonight, I opened the door to my bedroom and went inside.

There was no sign of Isis-san, Alice or Ein-san in the large room, but Kuro was sitting alone on the sofa eating a baby castella.

[Ah, Kaito-san. Im back~~]

[..Welcome back, have you finished your meeting?]

[Unnn. It was just a quick check.]

[I see Where are Isis-san and the others?]

After welcoming Kuro, who had returned from her meeting with Magnawell-san, I inquired about the absence of Isis-san and the others in the room.

[Ahh~~ I asked everyone to leave me alone with Kaito-kun tonight.]

[Eh? Is that so?]

[Unnn. Well, thats how it is Oopsie-daisy.]

While telling me that Isis-san and the others wouldnt be here tonight, Kuro moved to the bed and sat down. Then, she looked at me, gently smiled and held out her arms.

[Now, Kaito-kun. Come~~]

[Eh? W- What do you mean?]

I asked back to Kuro, who was waiting for me with her hands outstretched and a gentle smile.

[You see, Kaito-kun have been through a lot today, havent you?]

[U- Unnn.]

[Its alright. Im the only one here. Ive also put a ward around us, so not even s.h.i.+ro can see us here thats why Okay?]

[Kuro.]

I dont know if I should say that its to be expected of Kuro or not but I guess Kuro could really see through everything huh Ahh, I guess thats why she said that well talk again.

When I heard Kuros words, I approached her as if I were being sucked in her embrace, burying my face in her chest.

Without saying a word, Kuro hugged me, squeezing my head into her arms.

It feels warm. There wasnt any sound around me, only feeling Kuros warmth. Being held in her embrace is inexplicably comforting, and I felt as if I was being warmed from deep inside me.

[I thought that it was completely clear to me.]

[Unnn.]

[Even though it was clear to me that theres a really high chance that shes someone else, that theres no way that shes my mother But when I was sure that she wasnt Mom I guess I still felt disappointed.]

[I see.]

Weak-sounding words naturally leaked out of my mouth.

[But at the same time, I felt relieved that my expectation was incorrect, and was convinced that she wasnt my mother.]

[But you felt lost, right?]

[Unnn In the end, what did I want it to be? Did I want her to be Mom, or did I want her to be someone else? I felt strangely lost, not knowing what I wanted to happen.]

I cant come to a good conclusion regarding Luce-sans situation. I confessed that I have been feeling lost by my lack of a clear answer.

Holding my head in one hand, Kuro gently stroked my head with the other.

[Dont worry, Kaito-kun Theres nothing wrong with having such thoughts.]

[Eh?]

[Your precious mother died, and you were sorting out your mind in regards to her memories, right? And just then, someone who looks exactly like your deceased mother suddenly appears Its natural that you would expect something.]

[Kuro.]

[The death of a loved one isnt something you can just forget even if you try to. If you cant part with them, you dont have to. If you cant find the answers, you can just not give any.]

They were words of affirmation that were too gentle to my heart. Her voice resonated deep within me, just like that time when she had once saved my heart on that night.

[After all, I think that Kaito-kuns indecision comes from the fact that you still care about your mother. Im sure youll be fine just the way you are.]

[..]

[Ahh, but you cant just keep it to yourself, okay? Its okay to be confused, and its okay not to have an answer to something But you dont have to think about it all by yourself. Talk to me about it, okay? At that moment, Ill be there for you as much as I can]

[Unnn.]

Ive never told anyone about it, but Ive always had one regret rooted in my mind. Its about the fact that I havent been able to properly say goodbye to Mom and Dad

When I was trembling with fear of death in the car after that accident, I felt my mothers hand touch my cheek once. Im thinking that perhaps, Mom and Dad were still alive at that time.

Of course, I know that there is no way I could have said that in that situation.

But still, Ive always regretted how I havent been able to say Thank you or Goodbye to my parents, whom I loved so much.

I guess thats why I had been expecting something. I think that was the reason why I hoped Luce-san was my mother, and I will get the chance to say the words I once couldnt

[Hey, Kaito-kun? How about you sleep like this for the night?]

[Unnn.]

[Ill be embracing you throughout the night. So that youll never be alone, even in your dreams]

[Thanks.]

However, I think that Im really okay now. I dont think Ill ever be able to part with my memories of Mom and Dad. If someone that looks like my parents appears again, I will probably expect something, ending up getting depressed again.

However, Im sure it will be alright At least, I dont have to worry about forgetting about my parents while I cant part ways with them.

There are people by my side who can support my weak heart Thats why I can walk forward, even when I hold these emotions I couldnt part with Even while carrying the death of my parents on my shoulders. Yes, this is something Im strongly convinced about.

Dear Mom, Dad- Ive been struggling with a lot of things, but with the support of a lot of people, Im going to be able to do my best again tomorrow. I dont have any definite proof of this, but I think that todays incident made my heart a little stronger.

In the Activity Report, the rough sketch of Isis, the character making her entrance in the second volume of the Light novel, has been released.

Serious-senpai: [G- Gununu Sweet But I could also smell the scent of seriousness in it Mumumu, this is troubling Hmmm. Ill just place this on the gray zone! Im looking forward to the next chapter!!!]

The third day has ended, so the next chapter will be the Isis First Anniversary Extra Chapter.

Serious-senpai Act3 : [F*ck!!!]

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