Chapter 182 - All That's Left is to Convey These Feelings

The night had fallen, and it can be said that it was already midnight. Normally, I would already be asleep by now, but I was lying in bed, staring at the dark ceiling.

It isnt that I cant fall asleep. But right now, I still couldnt bring myself to sleep.

Ryze-san told me that I should prioritize what I think about how I feel about Isis-san and think about what kind of relations.h.i.+p I want to have with her in the future and Ive been thinking about that for a long time.

When I first met Isis-san I was scared of her.

A mysterious and frightening being that is beyond my common sense I may have realized that it was because of her magic power of death, but I was almost caught off guard at that time, and I shuddered from fear I couldnt comprehend.

However, I fortunately have the power of my Sympathy Magic, and thanks to that, the loneliness deep within Isis-sans heart I was able to slightly sense it.

Perhaps, if I hadnt met Kuro and saved me I probably wouldnt have reached out my hand to her. I would probably be shamefully running in fear.

However, what actually happened was that I met Kuro and was saved by her, and because I regained my courage to step forward, I was able to reach out to Isis-sans hand in spite of my fear.

Looking back at it, Isis-san may be the first person Ive ever tried to get involved with on my own.

And, when I held Isis-sans hand and introduced myself to her She confessed to me.

Because it was the first time in my life that I had ever been confessed to, I was half-confused at that time and to be honest, I didnt really take her confession seriously.

After that, Isis-san and I became friends, and afterwards, I learned that Isis-san is the Death King and that she possesses the magic power of death.

But at that time, Isis-san was no longer a scary person to me, so I couldnt see why Lilia-san and the others were so scared of her.

On the contrary, I was even inwardly mad at Chronois-san when she evaluated Isis-san as someone with a bad nature.

Thats because the real Isis-san was lonely and quiet, reserved and gentle, a really lovely lady

The pain that Isis-san has been going through, I still feel like I cant completely understand it even now that weve become so close.

However, Im confident that a smile is much more suitable for Isis-san than a sad one.

Since the first time we met, Isis-san has been straightforwardly directing her love and affection to me, and even though I felt shy from it, felt delighted from it, and remembered feeling strangely nervous when Im talking to Isis-san.

She really always, always takes care of me and when I was injured, she was really angry and sincerely worried about me.

No matter how insensitive I am, I understand that the affection Isis-san for me is very strong.

However, that affection isnt something that is forced on me.

When I asked her to hold off on responding to her confession, or when I asked where Isis-sans castle is, she always paid attention and respected my circ.u.mstances.

Being thought about that much theres no way I wouldnt be happy.

Yeah, thats right Im feeling glad that Im receiving Isis-sans affection.

Ive never had any experience of being popular, so I had no idea how to respond to her confession, and because I strongly felt that I love Kuro, Ive kept it ambiguous for a long time.

It may be as Ryze-san told me The answer may have been in me right from the start.

If this was the world I was in If I really had to choose only one person, I think I would have chosen Kuro.

I would have been heartbroken at the thought of Isis-san feeling sorrowful, and I may even cry, but even if its painful, I would still make a choice.

However, the world Im in now is different.

This is a world where I could choose to like both of them a world where I could make such a gentle choice And just as Orchid said, in this world, theres no need to for me to have any differences in my love for them.

Then, the only thing left is my feelings but even that has already been answered.

Im not averse to Isis-sans love I enjoy spending time with Isis-san.. I felt my heart beat for Isis-sans gestures.

How I feel about Isis-san has long since appeared in my heart before I could even think about it in my mind.

[I see I love Isis-san.]

Feeling as if Ive found the answer within the darkness, I felt as if I instantly felt better.

Yes, theres no need for me to be puzzled. I love Isis-san, I want Isis-san to have a smile on her face, I want her to be happy I want to make her happy.

Slowly, I raise my upper body and move my eyes to the faint light of the stars.

Feeling sincerely relieved and thankful that I dont have to give up on Isis-san

Dawn, at a time when it was still early in the morning, I went to visit where Sieg-san usually is.

Sieg-san had worked the night s.h.i.+ft last night, so she was still up at this time as well, and I was able to find her quietly drinking tea in the dining room.

[Good morning, Sieg-san.]

[Good morning. Youre very early, arent you?]

[Yes. Errr, theres actually something I wanted to request of you, Sieg-san]

[Request?]

Sieg-san tilted her head after hearing what I said, but after she looks straight at me, she smiles.

[It looks like youve made up your mind. You have a good look in your eyes right now.]

[Yes.]

[I understand. Ill help you in any way I can.]

[Thank you!]

Thanking Sieg-san for her gracious words of approval, I once again told her what Im asking for.

Sieg-san quietly listened to what I said, and then, nodding in agreement and spoke.

[I see. I

understand. Well then, lets go get what we need today.]

[Yes Wait, Sieg-san, dont you need to sleep at all?]

[Theres no problem. Even if we elves dont sleep for a few days, we would still be perfectly fine.]

Feeling my heartfelt grat.i.tude as I saw Sieg-sans gentle smile, I decided to get ready to go out with Isis-san.

Thinking about the promise I made previously at the Sacred Tree Festival I thought that it would also be the appropriate time to give her my response

Dear Mom, Dad- Thanks to the advice of many people, I have been able to rethink and realize my feelings for Isis-san. Gathering my courage, and making preparations All thats left is to convey these feelings of mine.

[B- By the way, Kaito-san? Im just asking for r- reference but]

[Yes? What is it?]

[K- Kaito-san, for example Errr, can you also see Elves as a l- l- love interest?]

[You mean someone like Sieg-san?]

[T- T- Thats right. A pure-blooded elf like me.]

I tilted my head at Sieg-san, who seemed somewhat fl.u.s.tered while asking me that while her eyes were restlessly moving about.

Ive seen lots of elves at the Sacred Tree Festival, but if I think about elves, the one I could think of the most would be Sieg-san I dont know why shes asking such a question, but with Sieg-san in my mind, I thought about it.

[To be honest, Ive never really paid much attention to things like a persons species For example, regardless of whether youre an elf or not, Sieg-san is beautiful and kind, and youre also very capable when it comes to housework, so I guess I would be happy if I could date you?]

[!? I- I- Is that so!]

[By the way, does that question mean anything?]

[N- N- N- No Errr, errrmm I- Its for that! Its for future reference. You see, with Lilis circ.u.mstances, I havent seen many people around me in love until now, so I thought Id ask what Kaito-san, a man, thinks about it.]

For some reason, Sieg-san is more fl.u.s.tered than before and her long wiggling ears look really cute.

[Errr, was my response helpful?]

[Yes, thank you Im relieved that I also have a chance.]

[Eh? Your voice sounded smaller on the latter part of what you said so I couldnt hear it]

[I- I said nothing!!!]

Kaito is starting to become more like a protagonist but still, go explode.

Also, it seems that some people misunderstood the previous chapters afterword, so Ill explain.

The members I wrote in the previous chapters afterword are the ones who have their storyline already decided at this point in time, that is. So of course, there are stories about the other heroines as well.

Also, after thinking about it a lot, Ive decided that after the Isis arc, well have Siegs arc, then Lilias arc, and then, Alices arc. After that, Ill go think about it again.