I removed my head from her body and sighed.

'Don't worry,' she said. 'Your own will eventually come. Let's believe that there's something better waiting for you. Just don't let all these disappointments get to you.'

'Honestly, Mummy, I'm just tired. What is it I'm doing wrong? I always pass the tests and then they don't want me. I'm really perplexed.'

Perplexed and stupefied and woebegone. As if I was stuck in a maze and each time I found an exit, lightning would strike right across my path. This particular rejection letter was exceedingly painful because I had defied all the odds by getting as far as the last interview. But the way things worked in our society these days, besides paper qualifications and a high intelligence quotient, you usually needed to have 'long-leg'. You needed to know someone, or someone who knew someone, before you could access the most basic things. Still, as I progressed from one stage of the interview to the other, we had all assumed that this time would be different. Someone had identified that I had graduated as best student in my Chemical Engineering class. Surely, they could see that I was an outstanding brain.

'Kings, it's OK. I'm sure things will work out eventually.'

I bent my head.

My parents had been excited when I received my admission letter into university, but the whole experience put an additional strain on the family finances. Tuition fees, books, accommodation away from home - it all needed funding. When my father's illness poured fuel on the flames, my parents were forced to sell our old, grey Peugeot 505 for some extra cash.

At last, Graduation Day arrived. As first son, as soon as I started earning an income, I would automatically inherit the responsibility of training my younger ones and ensuring that my parents spent the rest of their retirement years in financial peace. My family were looking up to me. I was their light, their messiah, their only hope.

My mother held me tighter and rubbed my back.

'Kingsley, I've told you . . . everybody has their own dry season but the rain will always come. You'll see. And you'll remember that I said so.'

She spoke with so much conviction that I almost believed her. In the past, these words would have been tonic enough to brighten my face, push out my chest, and lift my gaze to a more auspicious future. But I had heard this same speech, on this same spot, in this same snug proximity, at least three times in the past year. It was like some sort of deja vu.

We remained silent for a while.

'Why don't you go and have something to eat?' my mother said. 'There's some powdered milk left in the tin but if it's not enough, I can send Chikaodinaka out to buy some more.'

I stood up.

'I don't want to eat anything. I want to go and see Ola.'

'Why don't you-?'

'No, I'm not eating,' I replied, pulling off my T-shirt.

She left. I started polishing my dedicated pair of black shoes. They were my only pair. Moments later, my mother knocked and came back in.

'Here,' she said. 'Take this and add to your transport money.'

Some naira notes were scrunched up in her palm. I shook my head.

'No, thank you. I have enough for my transport.'

'It doesn't matter. Still take it.'

'Mummy, no thank you.'

'OK, at least use it to buy something for Ola.'

'Mummy, don't worry. I can manage till Daddy gives me my next pocket money.'

'Kings, look. I know it's just for a brief period and that things will work out for you soon. Take the money.'

Disgraceful that a twenty-five-year-old was still depending on his parents, but she smiled and looked tremendously pleased when I took the notes. Right there and then, I decided that the first thing I would do when I got a job was to buy my mother a brand new car.

Three

The 504 station wagon had a handwritten sign on the roof - UMUAHIA to OWERRI via MBAISE. The vehicle had originally been designed to carry the driver and one passenger in the front seat, three people in the middle row, two at the back. But an ingenious rascal had come up with a more lucrative agenda. Now two people were sitting beside the driver in front, four in the middle row, and three at the back. Being last to arrive, I had to squeeze myself into the back middle seat, the tightest, most unbearable position in the entire vehicle.

Wedged on my right was an abundantly bottomed lady who chomped her pungent breakfast of boiled eggs and bread with noisy gusto. On my left was a man whose eye sockets were empty, with a boy of about eight years old perched on his lap. From the ruggedness of the man's clothes, his random chants and subservient manner, I could tell that he was a professional beggar. The boy was acting as his eyes and would not have to pay extra since, technically, they shared the same space. So we were four in the back row, sitting in a place prepared for three, which had originally been meant for two.

The combined stench of the beggar's rags and the woman's egg almost made my intestines jump past my teeth and onto the floor. I was eager for take-off, and hoped that as the car increased velocity, the pressure would force fresh breeze to diffuse the gas chamber at the back.

'Bring your money!' the driver hollered, stretching a cracked palm into the car.

I brought out my wallet from my trouser pocket. I shifted the naira notes aside and gazed at the photograph that I carried wherever I went. It was one of Ola and me with our arms completely wrapped around each other at Mr Bigg's on Valentine's Day two years ago. The photograph had been shot by one of those pesky, hawker photographers who hung around restaurants and occasions. At first, I was adamant about not paying, even after the photographer had stood begging for about ten minutes. But when I noticed how much Ola appeared to like the picture, I dipped into what I had reserved for cake and ice cream, and paid for the photographs instead.

Another of Ola's favourites was one that my father had taken when I was three. Ola had asked my mother for the photo during one of her visits.

'I love the way you look in it,' she had said. 'Like a miniature Albert Einstein. Anybody seeing this photograph can tell that you were destined to be a nerd.'

Ola was funny sometimes.

Her third favourite was the one of me holding my rolled up university certificate, wearing my convocation gown and grinning as if I were about to conquer the world. All three photographs were displayed in pretty frames on top of the wooden cupboard beside her bed.

We handed our fares to the driver, who then waited for the little boy to finish unwrapping the diminutive notes and coins which the blind man had extracted from somewhere within the inner regions of his trousers. The boy counted aloud.

'Five naira . . . ten naira . . . ten naira fifty kobo . . . eleven naira . . . sixteen naira . . . twenty naira . . . twenty naira fifty kobo . . .'

More than a minute later, he was still several kilometres away from the expected amount. The chomping woman lost her patience.

'Take this and add to it,' she said, handing the driver some of her own money to complete their fare.

'Thank you,' the boy said.

'God bless you,' the beggar added. 'Your husband and children are blessed.'

'Amen,' the woman replied.

'You people will never lack anything.'

'Amen,' the woman replied.

'You will never find yourself in this same condition I find myself.'

'Amen.' This time, it was louder.

'All the enemies who come against you and your children will come in one way and scatter in seven different directions.'

'Amen!' several passengers chanted in an attempt to usurp this most essential blessing for these perilous times.

I wondered why the beggar's magic words had not yet worked for the beggar himself.

Whenever she knew that I was coming, Ola would dress up and wait on one of the concrete benches in front of her hostel. As soon as she sighted me, she would run to give me a bear hug. If I had surprised her by my visit, as I would today, her face would light up in delight. Then she would yelp and leap and almost overthrow my lean frame with her embrace. Then she would place her face against my cheeks and hold onto me for several seconds. At that moment, I could turn back and go home fully satisfied. The whole trip would have been worth it.

An hour and a half later, the vehicle arrived at the motor park in Owerri. I stopped a little girl who was carrying a tray of imported red apples on her head and bought five of the fattest. Then, I boarded a shuttle bus straight to the university gates and joined the long queue waiting for okada. These commercial motorbikes were the most convenient way to get around, flying at suicidal speed on roads where buses and cars feared to tread, depositing passengers at their very doorsteps. The okada driver that rode me to Ola's hostel had certainly not been engaged in any form of personal hygiene recently. I held my breath and bore the ride stoically.

Inside Ola's hostel, I knocked four times, rapidly, like a rent collector. Three female voices chirped in unison.

'Come in.'

Ola was sitting with some girls in her corner of the room. The girls greeted me, got up, and left. I stood at the door for a while before going to sit beside Ola on the bed. She did not get up. Where were my yelps and my hugs? With bottomless anxiety, I placed the back of my hand on her forehead. Her temperature felt normal.

'Sweetheart, are you OK?'

She wriggled away from my touch.

'I'm fine,' she replied stiffly.

Something must be wrong.

'Are you sure you're all right? You look a bit dull.'

'Kingsley, I said I'm fine.'

I hesitated. Her eyes were blank beneath long, pretty lashes that fluttered like butterfly wings. Her rich cleavage was visible from the top of her camisole, and her bare neck was covered with small beads of perspiration. Suddenly, I wanted to lick her skin. I put my lips to her ear and tickled her lobe with my tongue.

'Sweetheart, what is bothering you?' I murmured.

She gave me a light smack in the face and shifted away. With exasperation, she flung her hand in my direction as if swatting a fly.

'Kingsley, you're getting on my nerves with all these questions. Can't you understand simple English? I'm just tired.'

Her words whizzed past my ears like bullets. My eyes were transfixed by her hand. The red-strapped wristwatch was brand new. Dolce & Gabbana. She noticed me staring and dragged her feet under the bed in one swift movement. The action drew my attention to an equally new pair of slippers. Despite my blurred appreciation of the things of this world, I recognised the huge metal design across each foot. Gucci.

Head up, eyes open, I asked, 'Ola, who gave you these things?'

She turned her eyes to the floor.

'They were a gift from one of my friends who travelled abroad,' she replied in a wobbly voice.

I felt strange. Something was different. It was not just her bizarre attitude. Something else was amiss.

'Who's the friend?' I asked.

'I've told you to please stop asking me questions. I'm really not in the mood.'

We remained sitting like that for a while. I wanted to tell her about the letter from Shell Petroleum and about how heartbroken I was. I wanted to tell her how much I was dreading applying for other engineering jobs. But she maintained such a hard look that my voice evaporated. Then I remembered the apples.

'Here,' I said. 'I got this for you.'

From the corners of her eyes, she inspected my outstretched hand.

'Leave it there,' she replied.

'On the floor?'

'Yes.'

I dropped the polythene bag.

'Actually I need to rest,' she said, still without looking at me. 'I've had a very busy week and the week ahead is going to be even busier. You know I'm working on my project.'

I nodded slowly and stood. She accompanied me outside, maintaining a pace or two behind me. When I slowed down for her to catch up, she slowed down. When I stopped and looked back, she stopped and looked askance. Outside the hostel, she halted. I stood with arms akimbo like an angry school headmaster and walked back to where she was standing. The girl needed a severe talking-to.

'Now listen to me,' I began. 'I can tell everything is not all right. If there's something you need to get off your chest, why not just let it out? There's never been anything we couldn't talk about with-'

'Kingsley, I really don't think you should come and see me again.'

My mouth fell wide open. I completely forgot that I had been in the middle of a speech that was designed to bring about world peace.

She hesitated and looked away.

'Right now I just need to focus. I'm really under pressure.'

I sighed. Of course. Her schoolwork was bothering her. Sometimes, project supervisors could drive you up the wall and right into the concrete. Ola was so engrossed in her work, she did not want to be distracted by romance. I looked at her with awe; she had just inspired me with fresh admiration.

'Ola,' I said in the most understanding of tones. 'Take it easy, OK? Just let me know when you've finished your project and I'll come and visit you. OK?'

'Kingsley . . .' she began fiercely.

From her face, I could tell that she was composing a different sentence.

'You'd better know that my mother is very unhappy with you,' she said eventually.

'Unhappy with me? Why?'

She averted her eyes.

'Kingsley, I have to go. Have a safe trip.'

With that, she turned and disappeared inside.