[Elder Sister, isn't it just better to ignore him and continue living here quietly until you get the chance to leave?]

She doesn't respond to Xiao Chun Dan's question . She follows Aiken quietly . The castle is made from black stones . She has noticed the walls which were broken by her when she was here last time are standing intact . She realizes that she doesn't see anyone other than Aiken . Even when she left Fu Sheng's room earlier, she didn't see anyone roaming around either . Who else lives here other than the purebloods and Fu Mian? 

"Lady Huang, this is your room . " Aiken points at the door . "Please wait here . I will send someone to become your guide . I will make the other arrangements . If you need anything, you just have to say my name out loud once . Please excuse me . "

"Uh . . . " Huang Qiuyan looks at the only pureblood who wears gla.s.ses . "What's your name?"

Aiken blinks his eyes . Did he not introduce himself? He smacks his forehead in embarra.s.sment before he bows down deeply . "I must apologize to you for my grave mistake . You can call me Aiken . "

Just Aiken? How will she address him properly? He's definitely a lot senior to her .

She looks at him solemnly . "Can I know the family name, Sir?"

He smiles at her politely . "Lady Huang, I cannot tell you that . The names have powers . Only the king and my mate are allowed to know according to the laws set by the first pureblood king in this world . "

[Pureblood vampires are quite rare . It's not unusual that they are quite secretive . ]

But Fu Sheng is Fu Sheng . He has a family name . "Why does Fu Sheng has a family name then?"

Aiken looks away uneasily . "The name 'Fu' was taken by the 6th king . It carries a deep message for the royal bloodline . I am not sure whether I should tell you or not, my lady . You are a recent convert . You are mentally more human than a vampire currently . You might find it hurtful . "

She hasn't expected to hear that . What he means is she's a vampire with a human heart . She can't understand them, even if he tells her . Why do these purebloods act so differently? They look human in every way .  

"If you suddenly become a human one day, will you be able to let go of your past as a vampire?" Huang Qiuyan asks him with a sharp voice .  

Aiken doesn't meet her chilling gaze . She's still his king's mate, not an average convert . He can't offend her or talk to her in the same tone, even if she loses her temper . Then, she doesn't know anything .  

Seeing him being silent, she adds loudly, "What's wrong if I am more human than a vampire mentally anyway? I don't find anything wrong with it . "

He explains to her with a light voice, "Lady Huang, it's a fact that a vampire can never become a human, especially a pureblood . Purebloods are born, just like humans . They can die under certain conditions . So, they are not completely immortal . But converts are different . "

She crosses her arms . This is not the answer to her question .

"When a human is turning into a vampire, his heart stops . When it beats again, it beats as a vampire's heart . " He tells her quietly, "Since the human dies once before he is resuscitated as a vampire, he carries the emotional baggage of his human life in his vampire's heart . It can be a wish, a regret, a grudge, or hatred .  These human feelings often become a burden in the convert's life . They often spend their immortality trying to fulfill the wishes of their human lives . They are often never satisfied .  Some converts even lose control and become a threat to both vampires and humans . "

Human feelings that can become a burden? Huang Qiuyan wonders if she has something like that . What did she desperately wish for when she was a human? She wanted to get married to any decent man, but she was always rejected . After turning into a vampire, she would rather be alone than be with someone whom she doesn't want .

She doesn't have a burden . Rather, she's freed from a burden .

[A vampire with some emotional baggage from human life is certainly dangerous . ]

[You are saying that I have emotional baggage, Xiao Chun Dan?]

[Elder Sister, you asked me to find you a husband during the apocalypse . Do I need to say more?]

[I don't have the same wish anymore . ]

"All converts carry them, especially when they are recently converted . If the feelings are too strong, they often can't see what they need to see or understand . It can last for a long time .  At least, that's what I have learned from observing the converts . Actually, it's a side effect of conversion . "

Aiken sighs when she looks at him like he has grown two heads .  Certainly, she hasn't accepted the fact that she is no longer a human . It's not strange . She didn't choose to become a vampire .  

"When a human dies, his soul leaves everything behind when it crosses over the river of oblivion . The feelings are also left behind . The human can start over without any baggage of the past life, except for the debts that he needs to pay . " 

He might as well explain everything to her . It's always up to the converts to deal with the demons that they inherit from their human lives .  

"I don't have those feelings . " Huang Qiuyan tells him confidently, "I don't feel abnormal . "

Except for the bond, she doesn't find anything unusual when it comes to her feelings .

[I don't think that it's true . ]

Aiken looks at her carefully .  He can guess why his king was rejected by her . "Maybe it hasn't shown up yet or you haven't noticed it yet . I have an advice for you, my lady .  Don't lose something invaluable while chasing the ghosts of your past . "