But then I hear Jim's voice, and finally I'm relieved and do not try to struggle: "It's you?"

He let go of my wrist, still standing in the dark, looking down at me. I get up and say, "When did you come?"

"It's been a while." His voice is still so cold: "Watch you sleep, didn't wake you up."

Don't know why, I just feel a little chilly. It's late, but there is no light in the room, so he just stands there in the dark and speaks to me, let me feel a little uncomfortable.

After thinking, I say, "Where's Juan? Does he come too?"

He does not speak. I say, "Dorra's in the inside room."

"Dorra, I've taken her away." Jim's voice hasn't any emotion. It sounds so cold.

My heart is sinking: "You've taken her away?"

"Yes, when you're sleeping." He answers lightly.

This answer makes my heart just like has sank to the bottom of the sea!

How complex the meaning in his words is, I can't understand it clearly for a moment!

Dorra was picked up while I was asleep? Joke, who am I? Even I'm asleep, and I can wake up immediately if there's any movement around me! But I didn't realize that there was a person taken away in and out of the room.

What does this mean?

Jim seems to sigh in a slightly unnatural tone: "I've used a little trick on you to keep you asleep until now. Dorra should have met her father by now."

"Well…"

The uneasiness in my heart is growing stronger and stronger. Looking at Jim's outline in the darkness, I keep silent.

"Cha!" A fire flas.h.i.+ng, it's Jim's lighter. In the dim light, his face, which seemed to never have expression, looked at me now with a complicated look.

He lights a cigarette, but he doesn't smoke it himself, just hands to me. I hesitate to take it.

"Little 5, you've worked hard." Suddenly his tone changes, "I know you've suffered these days."

I smoke and say nothing.

"This thing was nothing to do with you." Jim's tone is strangely calm, as if he is talking to himself, and as if he is stating a very simple fact: "From beginning to end, it's Dorra, the child's own ignorance that has caused you trouble and got you in. If we hadn't entrusted you with the care of the girl at the beginning, you would not have been as miserable as you are today."

He speaks slowly and his voice is as cold as a stone.

"Dorra, she..." Suddenly, I understand something, I take a deep breath and ask slowly, "How's she?"

"Juan will arrange her to go abroad immediately, and she won't be back for the rest of her life." Jim says lightly, "We found a girl who looks just alike her. After arrangment, it should be indistinguishable, and then take the body back directly. This thing should almost be over."

"Um... But they will continue to chase me. If I do not die for a day, and it's still not going to end." I feel bitter in my mouth.

Jim is silent for a moment and does not speak.

I'm suddenly laughing.

Really, I'm really laughing!

I feel It's just a joke from beginning to end! A huge joke!

I'm laughing so hard that I can hardly breathe.

Jim speaks nothing and just looks at me so quietly in the dark.

After laughing for a long time, I just feel that my heart is full of grief and indignation, with madness, I say: "So... I have to die, don't I?"

Jim still doesn't speak. He sits down slowly beside me. Then he takes out another cigarette slowly and lights it for himself.

"Little Five... You know, I've always admired you." Jim sighs, and in the darkness he slowly says, "You're a very good person, but unfortunately you shouldn't go into this circle. No! Sooner or later, people like you will die in this circle! In this circle, either you eat people or people eat you. You are too kind, not fierce, and a little naive. If people like you don't die, then this circle will not be this circle anymore."

Although I have guessed it, I still feel a bit of chill pouring from my spine to the top of my head when I listen to Jim's words. Instantly, my fingertips are cold!

"Juan said... It's all his faults. He's so sorry for you. So he has no face to see you again. Let me see you off." Jim's tone is complex: "Your friends will be safe, and your women will not have any accident. That's all finished for now. This is the last guarantee he can give you."

I smoke the cigarette, and the pungent smoke makes me start coughing violently.

The pain in my lungs does not make me feel bad, but my heart suddenly bursts out with a knife stirring pain!

It really hurts!

"Juan has no idea too. If you don't die, this won't be over. If they can't catch you, they will continue to track down your whereabouts. Sooner or later, they will find Juan. If they find out that you were Juan's brother, then not only you, Juan, me, but also Dorra, we're all going to die." Jim says slowly, "Now because the time is short, they only found you were working for Nanny's company, and have not continued to look up your history. But if this thing does not end soon and you still can not be caught, they may continue to trace your history, Juan will be found for sure then! So you have to die, and before they can trace you back, we just have to get rid of it as soon as possible!"

He pats me on the shoulder and says, "I know we are so sorry about this. You have your own life, have your own women, had a good job. You could live well. It was Juan who asked you to take care of Dorra, and then you got into trouble for her."

I can't stop s.h.i.+vering all over, not fear, but an emotion I can't describe! It feels like a flood that hiting my heart!

I throw away the cigarette and wipe the corners of my eyes.

d.a.m.n it! I'm weeping!

I'm really weeping! Although there is only one drop of tear, but I'm still really weeping!

Then I laugh and bite my teeth. I feel that my lips have been bitten by myself. There is a slight salty taste in my mouth. Should it be the taste of blood?

"Jim, do you know?" I take a deep breath and laugh with infinite ridicule: "I once thought about how I would die in the future. But it never occurred to me that one day I would die in Juan's hands."

Jim is silent for a moment, and he shakes his head. In the darkness, only the cigarette end between his fingers is bright.

"Actually, I was hesitant just now. I could finish you up while you're sleeping. In that case you won't suffer at all." Jim sighs, "But I can't do it. I really can't do it. I think you should know why before you die. Otherwise, it would be too unfair to you."

I almost laugh to weep, pointing to Jim and say, "Hha! Good! Is it fair for me to die after I know it?"

He does not speak.

I try to suppress my mood, then slowly step back two steps and stare at him, "Well, now you're done with what you're going to say. Are you ready to start?"

He's still not moving, just smoking blindly.

All of a sudden, I feel that I have no strength in my body. I originally want to do the final fight. All of a sudden, my fighting spirit disappears.

I have never experienced the feeling of being betrayed by the most trusted people.

And when I really feel this feeling now, I realize that it really hurts! It's the kind of cramp in your heart! A burst of stimulation makes your whole body strength disappear slightly! All your thoughts are blasted!

Until finish the cigarette, Jim still doesn't move. He suddenly whispers, "Okay, I can't do it now. You go out. The door in the yard is open. You can walk out of the street all the time. But now there are a million dollars have been offered out to buy your life." He looks up at me and says, "Little 5, you go. I'll sit here for an hour. I give you one hour, if you haven't been killed by the hands outside. I'll catch up and finish you myself. All I can do is giving you a chance to see if you can escape!"

After that, he turns around and stops looking at me.

To be honest, my heart is already empty. It feels that something has hollowed out my whole body from inside to outside. My feet are a little soft. I really want to lie down on the ground with my eyes closed. Just give up!

But just after hesitation, the instinctive desire to survive begins to emerge from the bottom of our hearts. I can't describe that feeling, as if there is a force that driving me step by step to the outside of the door.

Jim stands behind me, still no any movement.

I don't even know how I get to the doorway. Only a few short steps, I feel like I have been walking for half my life. When I reach for the cold door handle and open the door, the light from outside is penetrating into the room. The cool wind at night is blowing on my numb face.

In this instant, my whole body strength seems to come back. It is dark outside, but the wind, the lamp, the stars and the whole world suddenly make me recluctant to depart!

The desire to survive suddenly grows strong in my heart. I s.h.i.+ver slightly and look back deeply at Jim. I feel hoa.r.s.e and say slowly, "Jim, give me a word for Juan. Over the past few years, I have been thinking of him as my real eldest brother, even like my father!"

With the light coming in from outside, I can see Jim's shadow trembling slightly.

I grit my teeth and close the door. Then I walk away quickly.

In my heart, is determinedly and break! I have to go and throw out all of the past!