* Deep in her inmost heart is stirred the immense shame, and madness with commingled grief, and love agitated by rage, and conscious virtue.
THE next day, punctual to his appointment, Cesarini repaired to his critical interview with Lady Florence. Her countenance, which, like that of most persons whose temper is not under their command, ever too faithfully expressed what was within, was unusually flushed. Lumley had dropped words and hints which had driven sleep from her pillow and repose from her mind.
She rose from her seat with nervous agitation as Cesarini entered and made his grave salutation. After a short and embarra.s.sed pause, she recovered, however, her self-possession, and with all a woman's delicate and dexterous tact, urged upon the Italian the expediency of accepting the offer of honourable independence now extended to him.
"You have abilities," she said, in conclusion, "you have friends, you have youth; take advantage of those gifts of nature and fortune, and fulfil such a career as," added Lady Florence, with a smile, "Dante did not consider incompatible with poetry."
"I cannot object to any career," said Cesarini, with an effort, "that may serve to remove me from a country that has no longer any charms for me. I thank you for your kindness; I will obey you. May you be happy; and yet--no, ah! no--happy you must be! Even he, sooner or later, must see you with my eyes."
"I know," replied Florence, falteringly, "that you have wisely and generously mastered a past illusion. Mr. Ferrers allowed me to see the letter you wrote to Er---to Mr. Maltravers; it was worthy of you: it touched me deeply; but I trust you will outlive your prejudices against--"
"Stay," interrupted Cesarini; "did Ferrers communicate to you the answer to that letter?"
"No, indeed."
"I am glad of it."
"Why?"
"Oh, no matter. Heaven bless you; farewell."
"No; I implore you, do not go yet; what was there in that letter that it could pain me to see? Lumley hinted darkly; but would not speak out: be more frank."
"I cannot: it would be treachery to Maltravers, cruelty to you; yet would it be cruel?"
"No, it would not; it would be kindness and mercy; show me the letter--you have it with you."
"You could not bear it; you would hate me for the pain it would give you. Let me depart."
"Man, you wrong Maltravers. I see it now. You would darkly slander him whom you cannot openly defame. Go; I was wrong to listen to you--go!"
"Lady Florence, beware how you taunt me into undeceiving you. Here is the letter, it is his handwriting; will you read it? I warn you not."
"I will believe nothing but the evidence of my own eyes; give it me."
"Stay then; on two conditions. First, that you promise me sacredly that you will not disclose to Maltravers, without my consent, that you have seen this letter. Think not I fear his anger. No! but in the mortal encounter that must ensue, if you thus betray me, your character would be lowered in the world's eyes, and even I (my excuse unknown) might not appear to have acted with honour in obeying your desire, and warning you, while there is yet time, of bartering love for avarice. Promise me."
"I do, I do most solemnly."
"Secondly, a.s.sure me that you will not ask to keep the letter, but will immediately restore it to me."
"I promise it. Now then."
"Take the letter."
Florence seized and rapidly read the fatal and garbled doc.u.ment: her brain was dizzy, her eyes clouded, her ears rang as with the sound of water, she was sick and giddy with emotion; but she read enough. This letter was written, then, in answer to Castruccio's of last night; it avowed dislike of her character; it denied the sincerity of her love; it more than hinted the mercenary nature of his own feelings. Yes, even there, where she had garnered up her heart, she was not Florence, the lovely and beloved woman; but Florence, the wealthy and high-born heiress. The world which she had built upon the faith and heart of Maltravers crumbled away at her feet. The letter dropped from her hands; her whole form seemed to shrink and shrivel up; her teeth were set, and her cheek was as white as marble.
"O G.o.d!" cried Cesarini, stung with remorse. "Speak to me, speak to me, Florence! I did wrong; forget that hateful letter! I have been false--false!"
"Ah, false--say so again--no, no, I remember he told me--he, so wise, so deep a judge of human character, that he would be sponsor for your faith--, that your honour and heart were incorruptible. It is true; I thank you--you have saved me from a terrible fate."
"O, Lady Florence, dear--too dear--yet, would that--alas! she does not listen to me," muttered Castruccio, as Florence, pressing her hands to her temples, walked wildly to and fro the room. At length she paused opposite to Cesarini, looked him full in the face, returned him the letter without a word, and pointed to the door.
"No, no, do not bid me leave you yet," said Cesarini, trembling with repentant emotion, yet half beside himself with jealous rage at her love for his rival.
"My friend, go," said Florence, in a tone of voice singularly subdued and soft. "Do not fear me; I have more pride in me than even affection; but there are certain struggles in a woman's breast which she could never betray to any one--any one but a mother. G.o.d help me, I have none!
Go; when next we meet, I shall be calm."
She held out her hand as she spoke, the Italian dropped on his knee, kissed it convulsively, and, fearful of trusting himself further, vanished from the room.
He had not been long gone before Maltravers was seen riding through the street. As he threw himself from his horse, he looked up at the window, and kissed his hand at Lady Florence, who stood there watching his arrival, with feelings indeed far different from those he antic.i.p.ated.
He entered the room lightly and gaily.
Florence stirred not to welcome him. He approached and took her hand; she withdrew it with a shudder.
"Are you not well, Florence?"
"I am well, for I have recovered."
"What do you mean? why do you turn from me?"
Lady Florence fixed her eyes on him, eyes that literally blazed; her lip quivered with scorn.
"Mr. Maltravers, at length I know you. I understand the feelings with which you have sought a union between us. O G.o.d! why, why was I thus cursed with riches--why made a thing of barter and merchandise, and avarice, and low ambition? Take my wealth, take it, Mr. Maltravers, since that is what you prize. Heaven knows I can cast it willingly away; but leave the wretch whom you long deceived, and who now, wretch though she be, renounces and despises you!"
"Lady Florence, do I hear aright? Who has accused me to you?"
"None, sir, none; I would have believed none. Let it suffice that I am convinced that our union can be happy to neither: question me no further; all intercourse between us is for ever over!"
"Pause," said Maltravers, with cold and grave solemnity; "another word, and the gulf will become impa.s.sable. Pause."
"Do not," exclaimed the unhappy lady, stung by what she considered the a.s.surance of a hardened hypocrisy--"do not affect this haughty superiority; it dupes me no longer. I was your slave while I loved you: the tie is broken. I am free, and I hate and scorn you! Mercenary and sordid as you are, your baseness of spirit revives the differences of our rank. Henceforth, Mr. Maltravers, I am Lady Florence Lascelles, and by that t.i.tle alone will you know me. Begone, Sir!"
As she spoke, with pa.s.sion distorting every feature of her face, all her beauty vanished away from the eyes of the proud Maltravers, as if by witchcraft: the angel seemed transformed into the fury; and cold, bitter, and withering was the eye which he fixed upon that altered countenance.
"Mark me, Lady Florence Lascelles," said he, very calmly, "you have now said what you can never recall. Neither in man nor in woman did Ernest Maltravers ever forget or forgive a sentence which accused him of dishonour. I bid you farewell for ever; and with my last words I condemn you to the darkest of all dooms--the remorse that comes too late!"
Slowly he moved away; and as the door closed upon that towering and haughty form, Florence already felt that his curse was working to its fulfilment. She rushed to the window--she caught one last glimpse of him as his horse bore him rapidly away. Ah! when shall they meet again?
CHAPTER IX.
"And now I live--O wherefore do I live?
And with that pang I prayed to be no more."
WORDSWORTH.
IT was about nine o'clock that evening, and Maltravers was alone in his room. His carriage was at the door--his servants were arranging the luggage--he was going that night to Burleigh. London--society-the world--were grown hateful to him. His galled and indignant spirit demanded solitude. At this time, Lumley Ferrers entered.