Emmy's bubble had finally burst, at the pond side. It had been such a precarious one, way too big for its own health, and it had wobbled and shaken and come so perilously close to so many sharp edges so often before that she'd always known it was going to burst one day. And now that it had, she felt released. As if it had been her prison rather than her sanctuary.

She had been bad. Worse than useless. Her breakdown-because that's what it felt like-had stretched the elasticity of friendship to the limit. It hadn't snapped it, but that was no thanks to her. That was down to Sita and Jonathan, Niall and Maya. It wouldn't happen again. She would make it her life's work not to let it.

Her free hand picked up one of the half-full packets of cigarettes that she had scattered around the house and her foot pressed the pedal on the trash can. As she threw it in, she took a lungful of the new air blowing through the kitchen and it tasted of reconciliation and acceptance. She could actually taste the calm after the storm.

Cathal's exit had been terrible, but at least it had brought a form of closure with it. The last she had seen of him was when she had picked the blanket weed off his arm, but that simple gesture and his simple question-"Is that okay with you?"-were a resolution of sorts, a good enough beginning and a fair enough end. She knew he had given control back to her. On her phone was one text message she had yet to delete which just said, THANK YOU.

Niall's departure was going to be even worse but, in the wake of everything that had already passed, it was nothing she couldn't cope with. They would sort it, somehow, sometime. It was a new experience to feel wrung out but not devastated. Eleven years of keeping a secret had come to an end, and she felt overwhelming relief peeping through the sadness.

It was good, too, being left with the baby. She felt endorsed by being considered suitable, by being viewed as the hands of experience, by enjoying the bestowal of someone's confidence.

Mog had wanted to wake Nathan and take him with her to go and get some cloth nappies and a feeding bra, but the only baby seat was in Sita's car and Sita was at work. Besides, it had been raining.

"He'll stay asleep till you get back," Emmy had promised. "He's just had a bucketful of milk. You'll be with him again in twenty minutes. It won't matter, I promise."

She'd made Nathan's tiny paw wave at Mog through the window as Jonathan's car pulled off. Don't worry, she'd mouthed.

Six days old. Warm and soft. Breathing and helpless. His own complete little independent soul. When she'd held Maya like this, she'd felt almost swamped by responsibility. She used to believe that every ounce of Maya's happiness, her character, her safety, her success, all of it depended on her own maternal strength. She used to think that Maya would become whatever she, Emmy, made her. It was a belief that both terrified and empowered her, but now, holding Nathan, she could see that she had been wrong. Maya was herself, the sum of nobody's parts. In the long run, it wouldn't matter too much who her parents had or hadn't been.

"As long as you all find a loving connection," she said to the white hump breathing into her neck, thinking it felt as if most of the last ten years had happened in the last ten days. Thank God that the choices she had made for Maya seemed to have had such little overall effect. There was no consistency, and yet Maya was entirely constant.

But it wasn't Maya who needed help, it was Niall. She kept seeing his ashen face, his body pole-axed in the hall. He had been motionless, as if someone had filled his boots with concrete, trapped him in a force field that she couldn't penetrate, one that he couldn't escape from, either.

The baby lurched in sleep, his tiny hands flying open, as if to catch a passing branch as he fell.

"Ch, ch, ch, ch," Emmy whispered but his eyes were already closed again.

Here was Nathan, dragged into the big wide world by navete and carelessness, already managing to be himself. His own sweet, pink-faced postnatal mother was somewhere else, letting out the invisible umbilical cord to an unimaginable length, painfully aware that every minute that passed was another minute away from her baby. But Nathan slept and dribbled against the ribbed cotton of an unfamiliar sweater, oblivious. The dark shriveled stump of his cord would soon fall off and reveal a perfect knot. He fed himself now.

"No one owns you, do they?" Emmy said to the crown of dark hair. "You own yourself." Her palm practically covered the baby's back, and she kept it firmly against the white ribbon-edged fleece of his tiny jacket, pressing him to her.

From behind, Niall could only see a rumpled forehead and two confused eyes peeping above the parapet of Emmy's shoulder. She had lost weight. Her checked drawstring trousers fell over her bottom more loosely than they had two months ago. Her hair was longer, tied in a simple ponytail. From the back, she looked twenty-one again.

He'd thought he was ready to leave, but seeing her like that, imagining she was holding their long-gone baby, he realized he wasn't. He realized he probably never would be. But he also knew he had no choice.

Supposing their own little fusion had made it farther than an embryo after all, supposing it hadn't been pulled away from its life-support system, picked like a flower still in bud, and chucked on the ground to die. Supposing they had got it right as Mog and Dean had, allowed it to stay in place, attached to the placenta, feeding and sucking and growing all its bits in the right places until it was ready to come out. And supposing it had come out in its own time, when it was ready, and no one in a green coat and a mask had dragged it out with sterile implements, or left it in a steel tray to wither and cease. What then?

He wanted to believe that the little ghost that floated somewhere at the back of their lives was not after all a ghost, but a human child that had once worn nappies and screamed and kept them both awake at night and was now a teenager, stropping around, putting its big feet all over the furniture, nicking beers from the fridge.

He also wanted to believe that Maya wasn't the product of a lazy shag between his ex-girlfriend and his greedy brother, that she was his, that she had been planned and wanted and conceived in excitement and anticipation and lust and love while their three-year-old, the little knitted slug that he had just seen in flashback on his mother's shoulder, slept in his cot.

Niall wondered if he was going stark raving mad.

"Hi," Emmy said softly. She'd sensed him behind her a while ago.

He raised his eyebrows in reply. His teeth were clenched behind his tight lips. He wanted to hold her, just once more, to feel a newborn baby between them.

"I'm on my way," he said.

"I wish you wouldn't go." She started to move toward him and felt a shot of pain as he backed off.

"I have to."

"Why don't you stay for Mog and Dean's send-off? They'll be gone soon. They really want you to."

"I can't."

"Please?"

He was silent.

"We should talk about it," Emmy said. "It could be a beginning."

"It's an end, Emmy."

Her hand left Nathan's sleep-suited feet and reached for his arm. He could smell the baby on it.

"Please don't say that."

"I will. I'm not going to say what I think you want to hear anymore. It's not good for anyone."

"I'm sorry."

"Will you say good-bye to Maya for me? I can't."

"I know you can't. Niall, listen to me."

"No, I can't listen to anyone."

And he walked back out again, placing one foot in front of the other, forcing himself not to look back but in no state to see very far ahead, either.

Jay found Maya crying in her bedroom.

"Sorry," he said.

"It's okay."

"I didn't know you were crying."

"Well, you do now."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No."

He had picked up a few useful hints about female behavior lately, so he stood there for a while, deliberating whether or not to admit something. Eventually, he found the courage. "I cried last night, too."

"Did you?" Maya was a little bit interested. Jay usually pretended he had something in his eye.

"Yeah."

"Why?"

"Because I don't want to go back to London."

"Who says we're going back to London?" Maya sniffed.

"What else do you think we're going to do if the house is sold?" It was the first time he'd said it out loud, and it made him feel even angrier than when he said it to himself.

Maya shrugged. She didn't care where they lived, as long as it was with Niall.

"We will, you know."

Maya still didn't talk.

"So I was thinking it might be time for some 'direct action,'" Jay said cautiously. He needed her with him on this.

She wiped her face, leaving dirty streaks across her freckled cheeks. "What's that?"

"It's when you take matters into your own hands."

"Oh."

"Do you want to tell me what you're crying about?"

She thought about it. Six weeks ago she wouldn't have told him, but then six weeks ago he wouldn't have asked. "I don't want Niall to go," she said.

"Well, the bad news is, he's already gone."

Her blotchy face crumpled again and he went to sit next to her, uninvited, on her purple applique quilt with the big pink stars.

"But he's coming back." Jay didn't believe it himself.

"Why did he go, then?" she snapped, as if it was Jay's fault.

"He had his reasons," he said darkly.

Actually he had no idea, nor did he understand why his parents had started to behave like themselves again, or why Emmy was up and about, leaving her sewing room, being normal. Or why there were travelers in a bus outside. Nothing that any of the adults had done ever since they got here made sense. Just as things were settling down, just as summer was really here, they were selling out. Most people came to Cornwall for the summer, not left.

"Do you want to go back to London?" he asked Maya.

She shrugged.

"Do you want to stay here, then?"

She shrugged again.

"Okay, do you want to be here more than you want to be in London?"

"Maybe." She didn't want to tell him that she wanted to be wherever Emmy and Niall were most likely to make friends again.

"Look, the grown-ups are crap. They don't really know what they're doing." Jay spoke in a conspiratorial whisper. He picked at a sticker she had put on her white wooden bedhead. "They should listen to us for a change, let us make some decisions."

"Oh, like they'd let us."

"Well, I think we should at least try. I've got no intention of going back, not after all this. We can't go back to our old houses. Other people live in them now."

"We can go back after three months, stupid. And another few weeks isn't going to kill anyone."

Jay ignored her. "Do you want to know a secret?"

"Yeah."

"Well, I heard them say they were definitely going to have another house meeting after supper, once we're in bed. I think it's the big one. We've got to try and listen. Once we know what the plan is, we'll have our own house meeting. We'll beat them at their own game. Come with me. Don't you dare say anything about this, right?"

The spy hole he'd found was perfect. It was down a medieval stone staircase which led from a closed door on the landing down to the kitchen. It was never used, because the door leading from the kitchen was permanently locked, besides being blocked by an oak church pew in front of it, and the key had been lost years ago. Anyway, in the winter, it would have been too cold to leave the doors open, either at the top or the bottom, because the staircase was a funnel for the wind. It was also a funnel for sound.

The back rest of the pew in the kitchen was a little lower than the keyhole, and the gap between the door and the wooden frame was just wide enough for you to press your ear against it and hear what people were saying. The most useful thing was that the pew ran along one side of the table, and Sita usually sat at the door end.

"If we're lucky, we should be able to get every word," Jay said.

"Not if the music is on."

"Nick the machine, then. Say you can't get to sleep without a tape."

"No," Maya said. "You say that. You're the one with sleeping difficulties."

He couldn't dispute it. "Anyway, the way Mum and Dad were talking, it's not going to be a music sort of evening," he told her grimly.

Niall's swollen face looked as if he had been in a fight, but he didn't care. He wanted to prolong the agony of his departure with one last pint in the Cott. He was still in that force field, not knowing how to break out, unable to remove himself from the place where he so wanted to be.

He knew he needed to leave Cornwall, but for the moment he couldn't. Beer usually helped, and he thought he had timed his drink carefully to avoid the regulars. Not carefully enough, though. As he walked out the back door from the public bar and up the slope that led to the car park, he bumped into Roy Mundy.

"Hello, boy. Why have you got a motorbike in the back of your van? I don't miss a trick, I don't."

"Yes, you've told me that before," Niall said joylessly.

"Well, I'm old. I repeat myself."

"I've got to go back to London. I've had to hire the van just to take my stuff back."

"Coming down again, are you?"

"No. It didn't work out."